Yesterday c13

昨天 by 風弄 Chapter 13

Yesterday by Feng Nong

I thought YuJiang would show his dominance but he only smiles indifferently and leaves the room. I feel miserable, lying in bed. I sit up halfway and throw up except that there was nothing that came out. Not even saliva. I should at least get in touch with mom and dad, to check on their situation. I can only hope that YuJiang won't put too much pressure on them. After lifting the receiver, before I dialed the number, a pleasing female voice comes through:

"Mr. Huang, who would you like to call?" I am astounded.

"I want to call home." The female voice apologizes profusely:

"I'm sorry, Mr. Rong has instructed that for the time being, I can't put you through. If you were to discuss this later with Mr. Rong ......... " I quickly hang up and lean weakly on the bedside. This is precisely like Rong YuJiang. I'm actually not sick but my steps are shaky when I get off the bed. I open the room door to find two men dressed in suits waiting outside the door.

"Mr. Huang would like to go out?" asks respectfully, showing extreme dedication to their work. I nod:

"I want to go home." The leader smiles:

"Please wait a moment, I'll call Mr. Rong to confirm." Not waiting for him to take out his cell phone, I close the door with a **kacha** sound. I would have flown into a rage before but instead I lie back down peacefully on the bed. Isn't this fitting? Only like this can it be considered YuJiang's style. Pinning me down like getting stuck in a spider web. These filaments binding without end, letting you struggle and struggle, up to the point of death still letting you think that there is a chance to fight. He must have taken care of the outside details. From the outside, I'm just a good friend that is here for a leisurely holiday while being taken care of with great care. I smile bitterly in this desolate room. Who would have thought that after suffering a big loss in YuJiang's hands, it unexpectedly increased my confidence in him to such an extent. I regard him as omnipotent, capable of overcoming all obstacles. The next few days, I did not lack for clothes nor food. I tried the phone a few times but the female voice still greeted me like before. The men a.s.signed outside my door are only two or three, changing in shifts, but just looking at them, I already feel defeated.

YuJiang comes by frequently, still showing continuous affection, taking care of me with great care. But I could no longer touch a single hair on his body. Everytime I swung my fist, he is already on guard, grabbing my fist and pulling me in to kiss me on my lips, saying smilingly:

"Don't be like this already. You've already hit me once in the president's room, and once more in this room, doesn't it hurt?" Everytime he touches me, my heart suffers a piercing pain. My heart is in thousands upon thousands of knots. I rack my brain but still can't figure it out. I ask:

"YuJiang, what is it that you want?" He calmly replies:

"Rong enterprise is already mine. Of course it is for us to stay together all the time."

"I don't want to. Please let me go." He asks:

"ShengSheng, if I were to let you go, why would I have gone through so much to bring you back?" My heart shrinks and I beg him:

"YuJiang, I am already powerless against you, please let me go."

"How have I constrained you?" He doesn't understand: "Do I ill-treat you? Do I hit you or scold you? If I don't love you, why would I have used my connections to help Huang enterprise overcome the crisis?" I can't stifle my sigh and recline back on the bed. He stretches out his hand to hug me and gently stroke my lips. The numbness I feel outside contrasts with the suffering I feel inside. YuJiang says: "ShengSheng, my whole life, the person I treasure the most is you." I stay speechless. I recall what he once said ----------- "Rong family's favor of nuturing me, and your feelings for me, are both my most treasured things." Look at how Uncle Rong dejectedly resigned, and how YuTing has sunk so low. "ShengSheng, why don't you believe me? Why is it that you hate me so?"

"YuJiang, I don't dare to believe you." I look into his eyes and say miserably: "I really don't dare to believe you." That's how it was over and over again. I rise and fall in the ocean of feelings, unable to touch the ground, unable to keep my head afloat.

Even though I don't have freedom, I still receive news from the outside world. One day, YuJiang's image flashes across a financial tv program. It turns out that Rong enterprise has been expanding recently, annexing several big companies in a row, leading to a sharp rise in the stock price. I quickly changed the channel. The other channel was showing an international financial news broadcast. "The large Chinese-run French fund is once more announcing unfavorable news ......... " I fearfully watch on pins and needles. My wan and sallow old man emerges on the screen. Huang enterprise! Huang enterprise is again experiencing a crisis. My heart aches terribly and I fall onto the sofa. People say that intellectuals are useless. What about HuangSheng? I fear that I am even more useless. I despise myself. Everyday I am fidgety and restless, feeling awful and anxious, frequently unable to eat my meals. Mom and dad are fighting hard to preserve the family fortune while I can't even manage to contact them. This kind of unfilial son, there can't be many in this world. YuJiang walks in and as usual, sits by my bedside.

"Are you not feeling well? You look very bad." He gently caresses my face. I remain unflinching, obediently letting him do as he pleases.

"YuJiang, I want to talk to mom and dad." He smiles:

"You can do that at any time. Isn't the phone right here?" I look at him coldly. "I'll help you dial." He carefully lifts the receiver and gave instructions in a low voice before handing over the receiver to me. I accept it.

"h.e.l.lo, is it ShengSheng?" Hearing mom's voice, I almost cry out. I bite my lip and say:

"Ma, it's me."

"Are you getting used to staying at the Rong mansion?" Mom is not talkative today. "Hopefully Rong family's young master is taking good care of you. He is after all a good person." I glance at Yujiang by my side.

"Ma, where's dad?" Dad's voice comes through:

"ShengSheng, are you getting along well in Rong mansion?" Dad that never shows affection actually asks the same question as mom. I firmly answer:

"I'm doing well." YuJiang smiles slightly by my side. His smile makes me bitterly disappointed. "Pa, is something going on with Huang enterprise? Do you need my help?"

"No need to worry, losers have only themselves to blame, that's all it adds up to." Dad adds: "Even if there is no Huang enterprise, with YuJiang by your side, you don't need to worry." I anxiously say:

"Pa ............ "

"What era is it now? These male and male relationships is not a grave matter. You left for so many days, your mom and me were so worried. As long as our child is safe and sound, we are happy." What kind of potions did this Rong YuJiang use to confuse my parents to this extent? Wasn't Huang enterprise already bought up by Rong enterprise? How can a stock market enemy suddenly become someone that can be entrusted with their son? I secretly hate him. After the phone call, I only understand two things. First: Huang enterprise is in a great crisis. Second: Mom and dad are at ease with entrusting me to YuJiang.

After putting down the receiver, I lean over the bed and wish for the tears to wash me away and at the same time take the splendidly clothed cunning jackal by my side, and drown us both. It's too bad that after quivering for a long time, not a single tear drops out. My eyes have dried out. My dad that is so used to giving directions to everyone on everything, my mom that is always exquisitely dressed, refined and graceful, how can I have the heart to let them be in distress on the brink of bankruptcy in their old age. How can I let them suffer the ridicule of those around them? I turn around and look at YuJiang sitting properly at my bedside. I said:

"YuJiang, I beg you to help Huang enterprise. Rong enterprise has an abundance of funds, you definitely can help Huang enterprise out of this crisis." YuJiang frowns:

"ShengSheng, the stock market fluctuates endlessly. I fear it would be inappropriate for Rong enterprise to rashly lend a hand." He stretches out his hand as he says this. He embraces me closely with his hands around my waist, his lips touching my face. I stiffen from head to toe, unable to move. "ShengSheng, I really miss you. I really love you." His s.e.xy voice is deep and low, pleasing to the ear, capable of mesmerizing anyone. My heart beats fiercely. He leans on top of me and slowly presses on my body. I purse my lips and quietly lie down. The puppet-like person reflected in his jet-black eyes, is that me? He peels off my clothes like a plaything, leaving me naked and even more ice-cold. YuJiang hotly covers my body. "You are so thin, I dare not hold you down." I voluntarily stretch out my legs, letting him do as he pleases. His breathing starts to speed up as he hurriedly kisses my body, doing all he can to calm down my shivering. "ShengSheng, don't be afraid." He softly coaxes me. I ask lifelessly:

"YuJiang, will you save Huang enterprise?"

"Yes, I will." He gently kisses my chest with every word, full of tenderness. I smile faintly and close my eyes. Once again, my ears start to buzz.

"YuJiang ........ " I say: "No matter how I wail or struggle, just continue on. You can even tie me up with something." These words, I had intended to say to NiLuo. Who would have guessed that the target has changed? If the deed is not accomplished, the deal will naturally not succeed. I don't wish to fail once again.

"Wouldn't that be too heartless?" I smile:

"I like it."

"Oh, as long as you like it, then it's fine." His excited movements start to escalate. Darkness and fear come rushing over, blotting out the earth and the sky, burying me deeply inside. I hear myself cry out, and also hear YuJiang calling me over and over: "ShengSheng, ShengSheng ........... " He finally enters, pushing blindly in roughly and savagely, unexcelled in the world. Is this then his true colors? The pain is enough for me to pa.s.s out and also enough to bring me back to consciousness. "ShengSheng, look, we are finally joined together." I hear him happily say: "I love you very much." I am in such pain that I even lack the strength to smile bitterly. I clutch him tightly as if clutching onto the only float, entering into a deep sleep.

I think it is due to a psychological trauma that I lay in bed for several days. YuJiang comes to see me everyday. One day, he said:

"Huang enterprise is out of danger, you don't have to worry." I glance at him impa.s.sionately, afraid that he would ask for a reward. Sure enough ........... "ShengSheng, are you feeling better? I really miss you." He stretches out his hand and tenderly hugs my waist. All the bones in my body start to lock up. I look at him helplessly, eyes full of terror.

"YuJiang, please stop." I softly say: "I'm afraid it will hurt." He stops my weak plea with kisses.

"ShengSheng, you've said before that you like it this way." He veils his crude intentions with these refined words: "You said you like to be tied up. I'll bring a set of handcuffs the next time, what do you think?" I close my eyes, filled with despise. I have already given up all hope.