Undead Seeks Warmth 017

..... Da, rrrk.

Aah, that’s wrong. It's, not, dark.

Red.

Everything and everywhere, every part of this world.

Red, red and more red, it was painted in the colour of blood.

The pain, the cold.

Suffering to sadness and to hatred too, everything mixed, becoming one.

I don't know.

I d o n t k n o w 

What in the world happened to me?

What I wanted to become.

My desire, my wish, my determination, my everything.

Disappeared? Buried? Can't be seen? What happened?

*swirl swirl swirl swirl swirl swirl* my vision was going around.

No, I stopped.

Can't move, can't move, can't move, can't move.

I kept on trying to move, and I can't move.

Where is this place where I am, where is right, where is the back?

Above is in my lower left, was such a feeling I have.　 

Broken. b r o k e n.

Since when? That was from the first time.

Then if I was already broken since the first time, then what I am now?

It’s perhaps becoming even more broken or perhaps becoming fixed?

Even my movements have already stopped.

I have fell into despair while hoping for something to happen.

I turned around and fell.

Crying while smiling.

Stabbing a knife into myself then shouting that I wanted to live.

My arm, my arm.

Where did my right arm go?

Ah, what the h.e.l.l I am saying.

Wasn’t it right here, in its place.

Wasn’t the red blood like arm perfectly attached here.

But no, that’s not my arm.

My arm didn't have any talons, it certainly didn't have any talons.

How much time has already pa.s.sed, I wonder.

It felt so long but so short at the same time, but it felt like forever but it was only for a moment.

The me right now, what is it?

A human?

An undead?

or perhaps a completely different being.

or perhaps something that’s not anything.

Everything that moved, I slashed it with my sword which cannot cut.

The pain that I cannot bear, the thirst that I shouldn't feel.

Seems like I am able to satisfy it but I can’t.

What is not enough? what is not enough.

What is the thing that I wished for?

There are as many wishes as one can want.

Or so I thought.

But when I tried to put them into words, nothing came out.

...... Nee-san?

Aah, that's right. I have to return back to that person's place.

What the h.e.l.l am I saying? Even though, I cannot return.

I have already left from that person's side.

So, that I will not be broken.

My surroundings are crumbling into a mess.

What should I do, what should I do?

Nee-san, neesan neesan neesan.

Go to, her, side

I have to return.

No, I cannot return.

Cannot, return.

Dark red that can be mistaken as black.

While dyed in that colour, I was.

Already, half dissolved.

『Undead Noseferatu』Himuro Takahina.

Day 322

present magical power / magical power containment limit : ? ? ? ? / ? ? ? ?

Race : undetermined.

Level : Unknown.

Encroachment percentage : 54. 9 %

※due to the magical power encroachment that was received.

※mind pollution progressed . ego breaking down level 3 / 10 

※due to approach of changing of race, the body will mutate.