Whisper The Darkness Part 2

'Eight o'clock's not so late, is it?' protested Joanna, draping the sheet protectively about her shoulders. Despite the brightness of the day outside it was still chilly, and she needed a few minutes to gather her confused senses.

'Mr Sheldon had. his breakfast at seven o'clock,' retorted Mrs Harris with evident relish. 'And I have other things to do than keep meals hanging about for hours.' She moved towards the door. 'It'l be on the table in fifteen minutes. If you're there, all well and good, if not -'.

'Wait!' Joanna strove to get into a sitting position. 'Mrs Harris, I don't eat breakfast. At least, perhaps toast and coffee sometimes.'

The aroma of frying bacon was unmistakable as the housekeeper opened the door. 'I'm afraid I can't stomach fried food in the mornings.'

Mrs Harris pursed her lips. 'You mean to say my fried eggs, sausages and bacon are going to be wasted?'

Joanna tried to hide her grimace. 'I'm sorry.' She was tempted to add, give them to the dogs, but she was glad she decided against it when Mrs Harris continued: 'I'll have to tell Mr Sheldon about this,' she declared, with the inevitable sniff. 'He can't afford for good food to go to waste.

Like as not, he'll suggest that I warm it up for your lunch, so don't imagine you can pick and choose here like you used to in London.'

The door closed behind her, and Joanna's shoulders sagged.

She wondered whether Mrs Harris would believe her if she told her that at home finances had been so tight that the idea of having bacon, eggs and sausages for breakfast would have been an unthinkable extravagance. It was true, she had never eaten a big breakfast, but that was mostly because at boarding school the food had been so appalling, and in Switzerland she had grown accustomed to the continental style of eating.

Still, there was no time now to sit and reflect on the past.

Evidently she was expected to start work at nine o'clock, and it would probably take her half the time she had to pull herself together.

The cup of tea helped, despite the fact that it was thick and blade, and far too sweet for her taste. But at least it was restoring, and she got out of bed afterwards with a little more enthusiasm.

The lino was icy to her toes, which certainly quickened her actions.

Slipping her feet into slippers, she padded over to the washbasin, and after sluicing her face in lukewarm water and cleaning her teeth, she hastily put on the first things that came to hand. The purple corded jeans were blessedly warm, and she found a matching polo-necked sweater that dispelled the gooseflesh from her arms.

Her hair presented more of a problem, but she managed to coil it into a loose-fitting knot, although she was aware that the tendrils which persisted in falling about her ears gave it a far too casual appearance. Nevertheless, it would have to do until later, she decided, after an anxious examination of her watch, and after applying a shiny lipstick she hurriedly descended the stairs.

Once again she had the dining room to herself, the early sun highlighting the dents and stains that marked the heavy sideboard, and reflecting off windows grimy with the dust of months. However Mrs Harris filled her time, it was not in housework, thought Joanna grimly, realising that her mother would have dismissed the woman the minute she saw this place.

A congealing mess of bacon, sausages and broken eggs was set for Joanna's inspection, and she heaved a sigh of impatience.

She had explained she didn't want the fried food,- but the housekeeper had ignored her instructions. There was also toast-cold, she discovered, and tea instead of coffee.

It was too much. With a feeling of intense frustration, Joanna marched to the door, then stepped back in confusion as she almost collided with her employer. This morning he had not shaved as yet, and the shadow of his beard darkened his already swarthy skin. His black hair, and it was black, she saw, although streaked with grey in places, was rumpled, as if he had been threading his fingers through it, and he seemed to be wearing the same clothes as he had worn the night before. His scarred appearance seemed more obvious this morning, accentuated as it was by gauntness and exhaustion and a certain red-rimmed weariness about his eyes. She wondered for an awful moment whether he had joined the notorious Matt Coulston in his drinking bout, but there was no slurring of Jake Sheldon's speech when he said harshly: 'So you've decided to get up at last, Miss Seton. When you've had your breakfast, perhaps you and I could have a few words.'

Joanna glanced back at the table, and then took a deep breath.

'As a matter of fact, I wanted to have a few words with you, Mr Sheldon,'

she stated, refusing to be intimidated by his grim countenance.

'I'm afraid I don't eat a cooked breakfast. I never have, and what's more, I prefer coffee in the mornings, not tea.'

'Oh, you do, do you?' His expression had not changed, though she perceived a faint hardening of the curiously cat-like eyes.

'Well, perhaps you ought to take that up with Mrs Harris. She's the housekeeper around here, not me.'

'Is she?' mumbled Joanna, under her breath, but he had heard her, and the dark brows descended.

'What is that supposed to mean?'

Joanna sighed. The last thing she wanted this early in their a.s.sociation was an argument about his housekeeping arrangements, and bending her head, she moved her shoulders in an offhand gesture.

'Nothing,' she said at last. 'I-er-I'll speak to Mrs Harris, as you say.'

He seemed loath to leave it, though without her contribution he had no choice, but as he turned away she ventured: 'When will-er- Antonia be ready to start her lessons, Mr Sheldon? And where would you like me to conduct them?'

His frown was penetrating. A narrow concentration that made her wish she had waited for him to broach the subject. 'You don't know?' he demanded. 'Mrs Harris didn't tell you?'

'Tell me? Tell me what?'

'Anya ran away yesterday evening. I've been out all night looking for her.'

'No!' Joanna was horrified. That explained the haggard appearance, the growth of beard on the jawline. 'And have you found her? Do you know where she is? You should have woken me, I could have helped you.'

'Really?' His tone was sardonic. 'When you're the reason she ran away?'

Joanna flushed. 'Have you found her?'

He heaved a heavy sigh. 'I have a good idea where she is.'

'Where?'

He hesitated, as if reluctant to discuss it with her, and then he shrugged. 'There's a shepherd's hut, up on the fell. I know she goes there sometimes. It's about two miles from here, but until the mist lifts we haven't a hope in h.e.l.l of finding it.'

'You knew that-last night?'

'I guessed, after searching the woods around the house, and enquiring in the village.'

'Then why didn't you -'

'-go searching the fell?' He shook his head. 'You don't know this area very well, do you, Miss Seton? When the mist comes down, and at this time of the year it inevitably does, the fells are treacherous to an inexperienced climber like me. Even the rescue teams can't turn out in weather like that. They have to wait till the mist clears, till they can see where they're going.'

Joanna glanced towards the windows. 'But it's clear now.'

'It's clearing,' he agreed heavily. 'As soon as I've changed my clothes, I'm going out after her. I only hope to G.o.d she got there in time.'

Joanna made a helpless gesture. 'But-staying out all night!'

She recalled the anxious moments she had had climbing the stairs the night before, the antic.i.p.ation of childish pranks meant to deter, her from staying. And all the while Antonia had not even been in the house. She felt hopelessly inadequate to combat such determination.

'Wouldn't she be afraid?'

'Anya?' There was pride as well as anxiety in his voice now.

'She's not afraid of the dark, if that's what you mean. And Binzer's with her, wherever she is. He won't leave her.'

'Binzer?' Joanna paused. 'That's a dog?'

'One of the sheepdogs you saw yesterday,' Jake agreed, expelling his breath wearily. 'And now, if you'll excuse me -'

'May I come with you?' Joanna's cheeks burned briefly as she encountered his sardonic gaze. 'I mean-to find Antonia, of course.'

'Call her Anya. Everybody does,' he remarked flatly. 'It may help you to get through to her, although I doubt it somehow.'

'And may I? Come with you?'

'Do you have any strong walking shoes?'

Joanna glanced down at the plain vamps she had worn for comfort.

Obviously they were not suitable. 'I have some desert boots,'

she murmured doubtfully.

'Desert boots?' He shook his head. 'What are they?'

'They're suede; ankle boots. They're quite strong.'

He looked at her for a disturbing moment, making her overwhelmingly aware of his opinion of her. She could almost feel his contempt sc.r.a.ping over her skin, and she realised how similar their situations were. He didn't really want a young female, with no formal qualifications, teaching his daughter. He would much have preferred one of the educated ladies Mrs Harris had spoken of, whose references were no doubt exemplary. And she had never expected to find herself in this position, being forced to care for a problem child, when what she had really hoped for was some pleasant sinecure with a wealthy family, where she could continue to live the kind of life to which until recently she had been accustomed.

'Very well,' he said at last, striding towards the stairs. 'Be ready in ten minutes. And bring a warm coat.'

The ten minutes gave her little time to eat any breakfast, or to complain about the choice of beverage. Instead, she sc.r.a.ped b.u.t.ter and jam on a slice of toast and carried it up to her room, deciding that now was not the time to cross swords with Mrs Harris.

The unmade bed gave the room an unkempt appearance, and after lacing on her boots she quickly shook the pillows and pulled up the covers. She doubted Mrs Harris would consider bed-making part of her duties, and as she had a couple of minutes to spare she contemplated a hasty appraisal of Anya's room. Maybe if she could see her belongings, the things she cared about, she would have some idea of how to approach her, and swallowing the last morsel of toast, she left her room. In the hall outside she slid her arms into the sheepskin jacket she was carrying, and made a swift inspection of the doors available to her. Apart from her door, and the door into the bathroom, there were four other doors, and her brow furrowed as she realised she had no way of knowing which was the child's room.

Biting her lip, she moved along the hall to the landing, and then glanced back. She guessed the two doors at the far side of the landing were more likely to be Jake Sheldon's doors than any of the others, and on impulse she moved closer to the first of the remaining doors, and put her ear to the panels. The doors were old, however, and very thick, and she doubted she would hear anything through them. But like all old doors, they had keyholes, and squatting down on her haunches she applied her eye to the narrow aperture.

'You've chosen the wrong room, I'm afraid, Miss Seton,'

remarked an ironic voice behind her, and she got to her feet in red-faced consternation to find her employer standing watching her from the head of the stairs. She had obviously been right in a.s.suming one of the farthest doors was his, but she felt horribly embarra.s.sed at being discovered in such a compromising position. 'If I'd known you were interested, I'd have left the door open,' continued the mockingly derisive voice, and her lips pursed as she strove for words to erase his contemptuous a.s.sumption.

'I was looking for Anya's room, as it happens,' she declared, ignoring the sardonic twist of his mouth. 'I didn't know which room it was.'

'This is it,' he volunteered abruptly, brushing past her to open the door next to the one she had been investigating. 'But I don't really have the time right now to give you a conducted tour.

However, if that really was your objective. ...' He gestured impatiently, and with high colour blooming in her cheeks, she stepped past him.

He had changed his clothes, that much was obvious, the rough checked shirt of the day before having given way to a slightly less coa.r.s.e grey cotton. Over this he wore close- fitting jeans and a dark blue corded jacket, and as she pa.s.sed him the smell of his shaving lotion was strong in her nostrils. There was something intolerably disturbing about him, a kind of s.e.xuality that was even accentuated by the hard masculinity of his scarred face.

Certainly, Joanna had never experienced the kind of reaction to a man that he aroused in her, and she decided that it was his evident indifference towards her that was causing this totally unreasonable sense of awareness.

The room into which he had invited her to look was similar to her own, in that it contained the same outdated furniture, the same unimaginative decoration, and the same bare floor. What was surprising was that here, as downstairs, there were no dolls or soft toys of any kind, and the few books that were piled beside the bed were boys' adventure stories, annuals and notebooks.

The bed was unmade, obviously as Anya had climbed out if it after the punishment her father had administered the night before, and the whole room had a forlorn air, as if the state of mind of its occupant still lingered.

'Well?'

Jake was apparently waiting for her to make some comment, and forgetting her recent resentment, she made a helpless gesture.

'Doesn't she have any toys?' she asked, gazing up at him in her confusion. 'No dolls or teddies, or games of any sort? I thought I might learn something about her by discovering the things she's interested in, but there's nothing here.'

Jake's tawny eyes narrowed as they surveyed her upturned face, and belatedly she realised that he probably thought her att.i.tude was a deliberate attempt to attract his attention.

Suspicious of her, as he was bound to be after discovering her peering through keyholes, he no doubt considered her present behaviour as typical of her frivolity, and her lids lowered in antic.i.p.ation of his denunciation. But no admonishment of that sort came, even though he did draw in his breath rather harshly.

Instead, his tone was expressionless when he responded: 'I wonder why you really came here, Miss Seton. Was it to help Anya? Or to satisfy my sister that I'm not impotent as well as intellectually deficient?'

Joanna's lids flicked back then, but he made no attempt to pursue this outrageous statement. As she moved out into the hall again, to escape the unavoidable intimacy he had provoked, he closed the door behind them and moved past her to the head of the stairs. Then, as if feeling obliged to make some explanation, he added : 'Since her mother's death, Anya has had no interest in girlish things; I imagine spending so much time alone with me has r.e.t.a.r.ded her natural development. Perhaps you'l be successful in changing all that. Who knows?'

His eyes challenged hers again, and this time she forced herself not to appear intimidated. It was the first time she had heard his wife mentioned since Aunt Lydia had explained she had died in the same crash which had disabled her husband, and even though Joanna would have liked to have pursued that topic, she shrank from the unenviable task. Evading such a personal issue, she said: 'But she has been to school, hasn't she, Mr Sheldon? And there have been other-governesses.'

He shrugged, an eloquent gesture, which seemed to dismiss her words as of no account. 'As you are aware, Miss Seton, none of them had any success with her. Schools demand too much discipline, and the women I employed to teach her seemed to regard her as being mentally subnormal.'

Joanna reserved comment. If yesterday's little fiasco was anything to go by, they might well have had reason to suppose the child backward, and she had yet to make any real contact with her.

'I really think we should be on our way,' Jake added now, starting down the stairs. 'Don't look so alarmed, Miss Seton, I don't expect miracles.' He paused halfway and looked back at her. 'But nor do I expect you to treat the job as temporary, something with which to fill your time until a more appealing proposition comes along.'

Joanna held up her head. 'I wouldn't do that, Mr Sheldon.'

'No?' He regarded her sceptically for another disturbing moment.

'Don't you think you're going to find it rather -boring here, away from the company of your friends?'

Joanna forced herself to begin the descent. 'You don't seem to want me to stay, Mr Sheldon,' she remarked quietly, calling his bluff, and without another word he turned away, his grim mouth evidence of the opinion she was confirming.

CHAPTER THREE.

To Joanna's surprise, a dusty green Range Rover was parked in the cobbled yard outside the house, and Jake indicated that she should get inside. As she did so, she noticed an old man leaning on the wall beside the gates, and guessed it was Matt Coulston even before Jake threw a terse instruction to him. Then he climbed into the vehicle beside her, slammed his door, and started the engine.

'It's two miles across country,' he explained shortly, in answer to her silent enquiry, 'but it's more than twice that distance by road.'

Joanna nodded, looking out of the side window as they turned out of the gates, but she was aware of the old man's inquisitive stare as the Rover bounced up the track towards the road. It was a cool autumn morning, but the sun was quickly warming the ground, dispersing the heavy dew, and causing wisps of steam to rise from the hedgerows. It gave an added depth to the gold-swept landscape, the bare fells responding with shades of green and purple and dark sienna. She had heard of the beauty of the Lake District, but this was her first experience of it, and her antipathy towards her employer melted beneath its insidious appeal.

Through the copse, Jake stopped the Rover and got out to open the gate, but after he had driven through, Joanna pushed open her door.

'I'll close it,' she said, jumping down on to the track, and then flushed impatiently as her boot landed in a muddy pool. Still, she ignored the stains it splattered on the leg of her pants, and climbed back in again after completing her task, jaw clenched, ready to do battle if he made any sarcastic comment. He didn't, though she thought she detected a faintly ironic twist to his mouth, but she relaxed again as they reached the lane and turned towards Ravensmere.