Through My Eyes Part 5

2006, Florida versus Southern Mississippi: My first touchdown as a Florida Gator.

2006, Florida versus LSU: The first jump-pa.s.s touchdown of my career. ("Jump Pa.s.s" 2006 Daniel Stewart) Florida Gators, 2006 National Champions.

Working hard with my teammates.

When that smile came across Coach Meyer's face toward the end of a game, we all knew we'd done a good job.

After being awarded the Heisman Trophy in 2007.

With Coach Meyer the night after winning the Heisman Trophy.

Hanging out with fellow SEC Heisman Trophywinner Herschel Walker during the Heisman weekend festivities.

Throughout college I continued to take mission trips back to the Philippines. Being at Uncle d.i.c.k's Orphanage with all of the kids is always an amazing experience.

With our dear family friend and one of my favorite people in the world, Uncle Bill.

When I'm in the Philippines, speaking in front of large groups is a terrific way to spread G.o.d's message of hope and salvation to as many people as possible.

A promise was made . . .

. . . and now it was time to back it up.

There's nothing like Florida versus Georgia-especially since it's in my home town.

2008, Florida versus the team out West: This was my favorite game against them. . . .

The more it rained, the more we Gators felt like we were at . . .

. . . the Swamp.

Jump pa.s.s to seal the victory in the 2008 National Championship Game versus Oklahoma.

The only personal foul of my career- and it was worth it.

Giving thanks.

As a team, we had accomplished our goal.

Florida Gators, 2008 National Champions.

My 2009 concussion: I'll admit he got me good, but at least I still held on to the ball.

Senior Day: Running out of the tunnel for the last time at Ben Hill Griffin Stadium.

20062009: 4 wins, 0 losses versus the team out West.

My last victory lap at the Swamp.

With my parents at my graduation from the University of Florida.

2010 Sugar Bowl: Florida 51, Cincinnati 24. We finished strong. Thank you, Gator Nation.

Draft night in Jacksonville, Florida, with my brothers and friends (from left to right: Peter, Bryan Craun, Robby, Kevin Albers, Angel Gonzalez).

My first day as a Denver Bronco. Excited to still be wearing orange and blue.

October 10, 2010, Broncos versus Jets: My first NFL touchdown.

December 19, 2010, Broncos versus Raiders: My first NFL start.

December 26, 2010, Broncos versus Texans: My first home start . . .

. . . and it was a great comeback win for our team.

2010-the Tebows and the newest addition to our family, my dog Bronco.

He was right, and I did love baseball. Turning and connecting on an inside fastball is a great feeling.

But football was my pa.s.sion. More specifically, playing football as a throwing quarterback has always been my pa.s.sion, and I was not going to let baseball get in the way of my making a timely decision.

My relationship with my top two head coaches was good. No, great. Both men were first-cla.s.s football coaches as well as men of character, integrity, and caring. At Florida, I knew I probably wouldn't be able to beat out the senior, Chris Leak, at quarterback as a freshman and therefore didn't know if I'd play at all during that first year. At Alabama, I might have had the chance to compete with John Parker Wilson to start that first year, but I didn't know for sure. It didn't really matter-I wanted to play for either one of those coaches, whether I got on the field that first season or not. And for those who think that coaches should be able to leave a particular school without repercussions but the athletes should be bound to the school, all I can offer is my own personal experience in the whole recruiting process: the ident.i.ty of the coach was critical in making my decision.

Decision Day rolled around, and I still didn't know what I was going to do. Earlier in the day, I had already called Coach Miles at LSU, Coach Carr at Michigan, and Coach Carroll at USC. I told them I appreciated their time and interest but that I wouldn't be coming to their school that next year. It was down to the final two. I had been praying about it regularly, and my family was praying as well. I had no doubt that the Lord was leading throughout this whole process, but what was unclear was determining where He was leading.

People often seem to think that when you're following the Lord and trying to do His will, your path will always be clear, the decisions smooth and easy, and life will be lived happily ever after and all that. Sometimes that may be true, but I've found that more often, it's not. The muddled decisions still seem muddled, bad things still happen to believers, and great things can happen to nonbelievers. When it comes to making our decisions, the key that G.o.d is concerned with is that we are trusting and seeking Him. G.o.d's desire is for us to align our lives with His Word and His will.

But that's part of faith, what the writer of the book of Hebrews describes as a belief in things that we cannot see. Still, it would have helped if He had yelled down from the heavens the direction He wanted me to take or had just written the answer with His fingertip in the clouds-I certainly would have been listening and watching.

Unfortunately, I wasn't feeling any of that direction as the time approached. No guidance, even though I knew I was being guided, and no peace, even though I knew He was there, offering it to me. Postponing my decision wasn't going to help. I wasn't going to grow further apart from either Coach Meyer or Coach Shula in the next two months, but rather and most likely the opposite would occur. If anything, the decision would grow even harder.

Therefore, on Tuesday, December 13, 2005, just three days after we had beaten Armwood High School to win the state 4A t.i.tle, I stood behind the stage with my parents and family. No one could help me decide-my family understood my dilemma. I am sensitive to the way others feel and didn't want to tell either of these two coaches no. More important, I actually wanted to play for both of them.

We had just filmed the presentation of the Florida Dairy Farmers High School Player of the Year in the school auditorium and took a break before they were to film my college decision. The crowd and cameras were ready. We were not.

Thirty minutes until show time. Still no idea. I was overcome with emotion and trying, unsuccessfully, not to cry behind the stage. It had been a long, arduous, and, at times, emotional journey. I wanted to make the right decision.

Twenty minutes. I owed them answers.

I gulped and picked one.

"I'm going to Florida," I told my dad. "I'm going to call Mike Shula first and let him know."

I called Coach Shula. As I told him I was going to Florida, my tears turned into sobs. I doubt he could make out anything I was trying to say, but he was getting the point. He cut me off.

"Tim," he began, "I love you as a person and a player. When I told you that you were going to have a great career and life of meaning, I meant that. I wanted it to be here, but it's still true. I still love you, and you're still going to do great things, even if it's not at Alabama."

I have no idea what I said to him after that, but we hung up and I turned to my family.

"That's the coach I want to play for-Coach Shula's so great. Maybe I should call him back and change my answer." First, though, we decided, I should speak to Coach Meyer and see how that left me feeling.

"Coach, it's Timmy. " He laughed nervously, as if he didn't know who was calling. He told me he'd been driving around much of the day to stay busy while waiting for my call. In fact, he had been trying to stay busy all day, but every turn brought him back to my decision, he said. He had gone for a jog that morning and pa.s.sed several runners who called out, "Hope you get Tebow!" Then, at the office, Jeremy Foley, the athletic director at Florida, stuck his head in.

"Any word from Tim Tebow?"

Of course there was no news to speak of. He'd then headed out into the stands at Florida Field, where he sat on the forty-fifth row. Forty-five was his lucky number, and since he couldn't think of anything else to do . . .

Finally, as he was stuck in traffic, I called.

"Coach," I continued, "I've been thinking about it, and . . . Coach? Are you there? Coach?" He wasn't. Dead silence on the other end of the line. I later learned that his phone had died after he'd been driving around and using it all day and that he didn't have his car charger with him. As intense as he is, I knew he wasn't taking this development of a dropped call from me very well. He could tell that I had been crying and he wasn't sure how to interpret that.

Now I had no idea what to do. I was thinking, Do I stick with Florida since that had been my final and maybe knee-jerk reaction, or do I switch to Alabama based on the always-cla.s.sy Coach Shula? But if I do that, shouldn't I tell Coach Meyer first that I'm not going to come to Florida? I couldn't get through on his phone and didn't know why.

I took the podium and quieted myself and focused. Earlier in the day, I had typed my prepared statement with a long list of thank yous. I concluded my statement with "Next year, I will be playing football at the University of ________." I had left it blank, trying to decide.

Ninety miles away from that podium over in Gainesville, Sh.e.l.ley Meyer called her husband in from outside. She had the television on. Coach Meyer had driven home and was playing catch with their son, Nate, nervously pa.s.sing the few remaining minutes until the announcement.

ESPN had me miked up before we went on the air, and I could see the cameraman's look of amazement as I turned to my family members, trying to decide at the last minute where to go. Coach Meyer's pa.s.sion flashed into my mind.

"I will be playing college football next year at the University of Florida." There, it was done, and the peace that I had been waiting for throughout this whole process was still nowhere to be found. But at least the decision had been made.

Unfortunately, it wouldn't turn out to be the last time I cried over a FloridaAlabama outcome.

Chapter Nine.

Running down a Dream.

Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance. It is the Lord Christ whom you serve.

-COLOSSIANS 3:2324.

And so it was over. But then, it continued. It really is true what is said about the recruiting process-it's never ending.

Florida's 2005 season had been good by most standards-93 overall, tied for second in the SEC Eastern Division-but not by Coach Meyer's standards. It was his first year at UF, and he made it clear that he wanted the incoming freshman cla.s.s to help the program hit loftier heights. As such, one of my first moves was to begin calling many of the other guys I'd met as teammates at the CaliFlorida All-Star game and the U.S. Army All-American Bowl, guys like Percy Harvin, Brandon Spikes, Jarred Fayson, and Carl Johnson. I don't know if my calls made any difference at all, but we all ended up at the University of Florida together, in what was dubbed by all those who opine about such things "a talented group of freshmen."

I wanted to prepare for the 2006 season in any way I could, and in the weeks before I made my commitment to Florida, I'd spoken to Coach Meyer about foregoing my spring baseball season at Nease to enroll early at Florida, which my homeschooling made possible.

Then about two weeks before I committed, Coach Meyer had called and suggested that maybe I would want to play baseball with my high school teammates one last time instead of showing up early at Florida.

"What's going on, Coach?" I was puzzled, because Coach Meyer had been excited about my plan to enroll early. He came clean. In the recruiting process, no one had blinked about my homeschooling, but now the admissions office was raising some red flags. It wasn't a matter of my coursework or test scores, but they were simply hesitant. Coach Meyer and I discussed it a great deal, and he ultimately approached the university president, Dr. Machen, directly, personally guaranteeing my academic performance.

Two weeks after I'd committed, it was still unclear if I was going to start at Florida in the spring semester or if I'd have to begin in the fall with the other freshmen. Coach Meyer was also concerned that I might go pro in baseball if I didn't enroll. In early January, I played in the U.S. Army All-American Bowl in San Antonio, but as I returned home, I still didn't know whether I was going to begin my college career the next day as we'd originally planned. And then after landing, I got word from Coach Meyer that everything was arranged. As of the next day, I was going to Florida.

I arrived at the University of Florida that January like a typical freshman, without much fanfare. Actually, I may have arrived with even less fanfare than most; the night before my first cla.s.s was to begin, I caught a ride to Gainesville with Peter in his pickup truck, carrying only a duffel bag's worth of possessions with me.

I slept on Peter's couch in his apartment for a few hours until I had to head over to our first workout in the wee hours of the morning. Football started right away-even before cla.s.ses. We met that morning in the Team Meeting Room in Florida Field, a precursor to orientation to football and early workouts. Then I had to shift gears and head off to my first cla.s.s.

My first cla.s.s at Florida was in public speaking with Professor Stephanie Webster. I know I was at an advantage with regard to most of my cla.s.smates, because of all the times I'd already spoken in the Philippines and elsewhere. But it was still interesting, and never ceased to amaze me, how concerned people were about standing up and speaking before a group. This cla.s.s itself was particularly easy, because our exercises were all simply short talks on any subject we chose that we knew something about, like, for example, where we bought our shoes. Nevertheless, I remember students saying that they couldn't wait until the final exam, knowing they would have gotten past the period of having to give two-minute talks in cla.s.s.

My brother Peter, an engineering major, spent the better part of the spring semester appealing the school's denial of his high school language credit, an issue on which he found himself growing more irritated with the bureaucracy with the pa.s.sing of each day. I didn't have the same problem when I was admitted to Florida-they looked at my two years of Latin and accepted it immediately to meet my language requirement. That was appropriate, I felt, since Mom had brought in a teacher with a degree in Latin, who knew the language very well, to help me: one of the benefits of homeschooling, again, in my opinion. As for Peter, in fairness, UF hadn't had to deal with that many homeschool students at the point of his enrollment, or at least that was our perception, which may have added to the problem.

Why was Peter so irritated?

Well it was because . . . we took the very same Latin cla.s.s, sitting side by side for two years. Finally, Peter got his credit, but not until I had a chance to point out just how advanced my language skills in Latin, at least, were in the eyes of the university.

Two weeks later I presented myself in the old Florida Gym for the first of our off-season workouts. It was mid January, very early in the morning, and still dark out. I was totally fired up. By now that shouldn't surprise anyone.

I am too young to have ever seen Florida play basketball in the Florida Gymnasium, affectionately nicknamed Alligator Alley, which was home to the basketball games for the Gators from 1949 to 1980. It was an intimate setting-small and very cramped-and always good for at least a ten-point advantage to the beloved home team and the scene of many a miraculous upset within the stretch of a long and difficult Southeastern Conference season. Since those days, it has functioned in various capacities for cla.s.ses and teams, as well as pickup basketball games for would-be Gator basketballers of any age. It also served as Mickey Marotti's personal torture chamber.

That first morning I was not concerned with its history. Like the rest of the newcomers, some of whom had just finished their freshman football season but hadn't yet gone through a stretch of off-season workouts, I was simply concerned with survival. Being able to walk out of the doors of Alligator Alley each week under my own power was an achievement.

I'd first met Coach Marotti during the recruiting process, and while I had heard the stories of his legendary workouts, I also knew that hiring him was one of Coach Meyer's first acts of business when he arrived at Florida. If Coach Meyer believed what Coach Mick did as head of the football team's strength-and-conditioning oversight was that important, then I was all for it.

And, like with most everything else I undertake, once it began, I no longer wanted to simply survive; I wanted to excel. Especially if it was going to make me a better player.

On that first day, I learned to love Coach Marotti's mat drills. Love. We had done a version of mat drills at Nease High School, but these in Alligator Alley were far more intense. To be more accurate, the mat drills were awful, and to say that you love them should put you first in line to see the psychologist at the campus infirmary. However, I loved them because they gave you the chance to compete in drills that were unique because they blended both the mental and physical aspects of becoming better-not just as a player, but in your approach to anything you might face. Anyone could be in great shape, but to compete against another person . . . I viewed it as a test of will.

They began with Coach putting us into two separate lines. The first player in line A took his position on the wrestling mat, lying facedown. Coach then grabbed the first player from line B and had him lie facedown also, but on top of the first player who was already facedown on the mat. On Coach's whistle, the player underneath had to use whatever means he could-run, walk, roll, or crawl-to reach a line ten feet away, while the second had to use whatever means he could (use your imagination) to keep him from reaching the line.

That first day, after spending forty-five minutes on conditioning and quickness drills, we did a variety of mat drills to finish the hour, pitting one against another, to the point of complete exhaustion. I was pleased, however. I hadn't lost one drill. It might have been all the farm work. It might have been the years in the barn, lifting. The protein shakes certainly helped. So far, so good.

On the whole, my cla.s.ses went well that spring. To be honest, it just wasn't that hard. My mom's homeschool cla.s.ses had prepared me incredibly well. I'd thought college was going to be much harder than it was. I learned it was important to attend all my cla.s.ses, stay up on my reading, and do my a.s.signments. I was living with Percy Harvin, and some of the football players and I spent our free time playing pool basketball at an apartment complex near campus. Between football, cla.s.ses, and pool basketball and the occasional paintball games, we all stayed pretty busy.

Throughout the spring we continued to work on our conditioning with Coach Mick. Days were varied in the exercises he had us do. Some days we had mat drills; some days, running, like running all the stadium steps at Florida Field. I loved it. One morning during conditioning drills in our regular weight-room session in the stadium, I was paired with a defensive tackle in tug-of-war. Unlike times when I'd done a tug-of-war in the past, here there was no line to pull the other guy over that would have marked victory and ended the drill. Instead, this tug-of-war lasted until one of us conceded.

Again, a drill with a mental aspect.

We battled against each other and neither gave up until he eventually lost his balance. But he didn't quit. I dragged him hanging off the end of the rope, walking backward with him all across the room. He still didn't concede. I kept walking and dragging until I reached the wall. Still didn't concede. By that time he had scrambled back onto his feet, and as he did, I saw that I was next to the door to the men's room. I kicked the door open, positioned my body into the opening, and kept pulling and pulling, backing my way into the room. I did the same thing once I reached a stall door, kicking it open and continuing to pull, hand over hand, pulling on the rope with him hanging on and pulling as hard as he could against me from his end of the rope, pulling him into the bathroom and toward the stall. Finally, when I had pulled him into the stall with me, Coach Mick blew the whistle and brought an end to the drill.

About a month into off-season conditioning, I still hadn't lost at tug-of-war, and Coach Meyer decided to up the ante for everyone.

"Offense, defense, pick your best two!" Offense vs. defense, two-on-two tug-of-war, with the loser having to run suicides (repeated sprints) across the field. A lot of them. The defense selected Joe Cohen, a senior defensive tackle weighing over 310 pounds, and junior Brandon Siler, a 240-pound linebacker, while the offense selected a big offensive lineman, over 300 pounds . . . and me. Coach Meyer later told me that he was stunned that the players had chosen a freshman, someone who had only been on campus for a few weeks. Maybe it was because of my coming in and lifting 225 pounds twenty-five times on the bench press that caused them to put such confidence in me. Maybe it was my performance dragging the defensive tackle into the bathroom stall, or maybe it was my relentless determination to never lose any of the drills; but for whatever reason, the offense selected me-a freshman quarterback. I was so excited.

We killed them and watched as the defense had to run.

All those drills, in addition to physical conditioning, were also great psychological and confidence conditioners for us as a team, even for the guy who ended up in the bathroom stall. Because for the next four years, whenever we took the field, we knew that our opponent hadn't gone through anything at all similar to what we had. Coach Mick's mind-set dovetailed perfectly with my mantra: Somewhere he is out there, training while I am not. One day, when we meet, he will win.

We were the ones doing the extra work, and we knew it.

On top of all that conditioning, spring football practice in 2006 went well also. I knew that it was Chris Leak's team as the starting quarterback. He was a senior, he knew the system, and he had a lot of experience. I didn't know if I'd even be able to contribute that first year, but I certainly hoped to have the opportunity to do so and was prepared to compete for playing time. Coach Meyer always said that he felt blessed to have two leaders at the quarterback position that year.