The Wise Man's Fear Part 112

Of course, this is what Carceret was truly waiting for, a half-moment's hesitation as I fought the urge to flee. She closed on me in a single easy step and caught my wrist, her hand tight as a band of iron.

Without thinking, I used Celean's curious two-handed version of Break Lion. Perfect for a small girl struggling against a grown man, or a hopelessly outcla.s.sed musician trying to escape an Adem mercenary.

I regained control of my hand, and the unorthodox movement startled Carceret ever so slightly. I took advantage of it and struck out quickly with Sowing Barley, snapping my knuckles hard against the meat of her inner bicep.

It wasn't a hard punch, I was too close for that. But if I managed to hit the nerve properly, the blow would numb her hand. This wouldn't just make her weak on her left side, but it would make all the two-handed motions of the Ketan more difficult. A significant advantage.

Since I was still so close, I immediately followed Sowing Barley with Turn Millstone, giving her a short, firm push to knock her off balance. I managed to get both hands on her, and even pushed her backward by perhaps four inches, but Carceret came nowhere near to losing her balance.

Then I saw her eyes. I'd thought she'd been angry before, but it was nothing compared to now. Now I'd managed to actually strike her. Not just once, but twice. A barbarian with less than two months of training had struck her twice, while everyone in the school looked on.

I cannot describe how she looked. And even if I could, it would not impress upon you the truth of things, as her face was still almost entirely impa.s.sive. Instead let me say this. I have never seen anyone so furious in my entire life. Not Ambrose. Not Hemme. Not Denna when I criticized her song or the Maer when I defied him. Those angers were pale candles compared to the forge fire burning in Carceret's eyes.

But even in the full flower of her fury, Carceret was perfectly in control. She didn't lash out wildly or snarl at me. She kept her words inside her, burning them like fuel.

I couldn't win this fight. But my hands moved automatically, trained by hundreds of hours of practice to take advantage of her nearness. I stepped forward and tried to grab hold of her for Thunder Upward. Her hands snapped out, brushing the attack away. Then she lashed out with Bargeman at the Dock.

I don't think she expected it to connect. A more competent opponent would have avoided or blocked it. But I had let myself get slightly wrongfooted, so I was off balance, so I was slow, so her foot caught me in the stomach and pushed pushed.

Bargeman at the Dock isn't a quick kick meant to break bones. It is a kick that shoves the opponent off balance. As I was already off balance, it pushed me right off my feet. I landed jarringly on my back, then rolled to a stop in a messy tangle of limbs.

Now some might say that I had taken a bad fall and was obviously too stupefied to find my feet and continue the fight. Others might say that while it was messy, the fall wasn't quite as hard as all that, and I had certainly found my feet after worse.

Personally, I think the line between being stupefied and being wise is sometimes very thin. How thin, I suppose, I will leave to you to decide.

CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED TWENTY-SEVEN.

Anger "WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?" Tempi demanded. Disappointment. Fierce chastis.e.m.e.nt Disappointment. Fierce chastis.e.m.e.nt. "What fool sets his sword aside?"

"She threw her sword away first!" I protested.

"Only to lure you in," Tempi said. "Only as a trap."

I was buckling Caesura's scabbard so the hilt hung over my shoulder. There hadn't been any particular ceremony after I had lost. Magwyn simply returned my sword and smiled at me, patting my hand in a comforting way.

I watched the crowd slowly dispersing below, and gestured polite disbelief polite disbelief to Tempi. "Should I have kept my sword when she was unarmed?" to Tempi. "Should I have kept my sword when she was unarmed?"

"Yes!" Absolute agreement Absolute agreement. "She is five times the fighter you are. You might have had a chance if you had kept your sword!"

"Tempi is right," I heard Shehyn's voice behind me. "Knowing your enemy is in keeping with the Lethani. Once a fight is inevitable, a clever fighter takes any advantage." I turned and saw her coming down the path. Penthe walked beside her.

I gestured polite certainty polite certainty. "If I had kept my sword and won, people would have thought Carceret was a fool and resented me for gaining a rank I did not deserve. And if I had kept my sword and lost, it would have been humiliating. Neither reflects well on me." I looked back and forth between Shehyn and Tempi. "Am I wrong in this?"

"You are not wrong in this." Shehyn said. "But neither is Tempi wrong."

"Victory is always to be sought," Tempi said. Firm Firm.

Shehyn turned to face him. "Success is key," she said. "Victory is not always needed to succeed."

Tempi gestured respectful disagreement respectful disagreement and opened his mouth to respond, but Penthe spoke first, cutting him off. "Kvothe, are you hurt from your fall?" and opened his mouth to respond, but Penthe spoke first, cutting him off. "Kvothe, are you hurt from your fall?"

"Not badly," I said, moving my back gingerly. "A few bruises, perhaps."

"Do you have anything to put on them?"

I shook my head.

Penthe stepped forward and took hold of my arm. "I have things at my house. We will leave these two to discuss the Lethani. Someone should tend to your hurts." She held my arm with her left hand, making her statement curiously empty of any emotional content.

"Of course," Shehyn said after a moment, and Tempi gestured a hasty agreement agreement. But Penthe was already leading me firmly down the hill.

We walked for a quarter mile or so, Penthe holding my arm lightly.

Eventually she spoke in her lightly accented Aturan. "Are you bruised badly enough to need a salve?" she asked.

"Not really," I admitted.

"I thought not," she said. "But after I have lost a fight, I rarely wish to have people tell me how I lost it." She flashed me a small, secret smile.

I smiled back.

We continued to walk, and Penthe kept hold of my arm, subtly guiding us through a grove of trees, then up a steep path carved through a small bluff. Eventually we came to a secluded dell that had a carpet of wild papavlerflower blossoming among the gra.s.s. Their loose, blood-red petals were almost exactly the same color as Penthe's mercenary reds.

"Vashet told me barbarians have strange rituals with your s.e.x," Penthe said. "She told me if I wanted to bed you, I should bring you to some flowers." She gestured around. "These are the best I could find in this season." She looked up at me expectantly.

"Ah," I said. "I expect Vashet was having a bit of a joke with you. Or perhaps a joke with me." Penthe frowned and I hurried to continue. "But it is true that among the barbarians there are many rituals that lead up to s.e.x. It is somewhat more complicated there."

Penthe gestured sullen irritation sullen irritation. "I should not be surprised," she said. "Everyone tells stories about the barbarians. Some of it is training, so I can move well among you." Wry however Wry however. "Since I have not been out among them yet, they also tell stories to tease me."

"What sort of stories?" I asked, thinking of what I had heard about the Adem and the Lethani before I had met Tempi.

She shrugged, slight embarra.s.sment slight embarra.s.sment. "It is foolishness. They say all the barbarian men are huge." She gestured far above her head, showing a height of more than seven feet. "Naden told me he went to a town where the barbarians ate a soup made of dirt. They say the barbarians never bathe. They say barbarians drink their own urine, believing it will help them live longer." She shook her head, laughing and gesturing horrified amus.e.m.e.nt horrified amus.e.m.e.nt.

"Are you saying," I asked slowly, "that you don't drink yours?"

Penthe froze midlaugh and looked at me, her face and hands showing a confused, apologetic mix of embarra.s.sment, disgust, and disbelief. It was such a bizarre tangle of emotions I couldn't help but laugh, and I saw her relax when she realized the joke.

"I understand," I said. "We tell similar stories about the Adem."

Her eyes lit up. "You must tell me as I told you. It is fair."

Given Tempi's reaction when I'd told him of the word-fire and Lethani, I decided to share something else. "They say those who take the red never have s.e.x. They say you take that energy and put it into your Ketan, and that is why you are such good fighters."

Penthe laughed hard at that. "I would have never made the third stone if that were the case," she said. Wry amus.e.m.e.nt Wry amus.e.m.e.nt. "If keeping from s.e.x gave me my fighting, there would be days I could not make even a fist."

I felt my pulse quicken a bit at that.

"Still," she said. "I can see where that story comes from. They must think we have no s.e.x because no Adem would bed a barbarian."

"Ah," I said, somewhat disappointed. "Why have you brought me to the flowers then?"

"You are now of Ademre," she said easily. "I expect many will approach you now. You have a sweet face, and it is hard not to be curious about your anger."

Penthe paused and glanced significantly downward. "That is unless you are diseased?"

I blushed at this. "What? No! Of course not!"

"Are you certain?"

"I have studied at the Medica," I said somewhat stiffly. "The greatest school of medicine in all the world. I know all about the diseases a person might catch, how to spot them and how to treat them."

Penthe gave me a skeptical look. "I do not question you in particular. But it is well known that barbarians are quite frequently diseased in their s.e.x."

I shook my head. "This is just another foolish story. I a.s.sure you the barbarians are no more diseased than the Adem. In fact, I expect we may be less."

She shook her head, her eyes serious. "No. You are wrong in this. Of a hundred barbarians, how many would you say were so afflicted?"

It was an easy statistic I knew from the Medica. "Out of every hundred? Perhaps five. More among those who work in brothels or frequent such places, of course."

Penthe's face showed obvious disgust and she shivered. "Of one hundred Adem, none are so afflicted," she said firmly. Absolute Absolute.

"Oh come now." I held up my hand, making a circle with my fingers. "None?"

"None," she said with grim certainty. "The only place we could catch such a thing is from a barbarian, and those who travel are warned."

"What if you caught a disease from another Adem who had not been careful while traveling?" I asked.

Penthe's tiny heart-shaped face went grim, her nostrils flaring. "From one of my own?" Vast anger Vast anger. "If one of Ademre were to give me a disease, I would be furious. I would shout from the top of a cliff what they had done. I would make their life as painful as a broken bone."

She gestured disgust disgust, brushing at the front of her shirt in the first piece of Adem hand-talk I had ever learned from Tempi. "Then I would make the long trek over the mountains into the Tahl to be cured of it. Even if the trip should take two years and bring no money to the school. And none would think the less of me for that."

I nodded to myself. It made sense. Given their att.i.tudes about s.e.x, if it were any other way, disease would run rampant through the population.

I saw Penthe looking at me expectantly. "Thank you for the flowers," I said.

She nodded and stepped closer, looking up at me. Her eyes were excited as she smiled her shy smile. Then her face grew serious. "Is it enough to satisfy your barbarian rituals, or is there more that must be done?"

I reached down and ran my hand along the smooth skin of her neck, sliding my fingertips under the long braid so they brushed the back of her neck. She closed her eyes and tipped her face up toward mine.

"They are lovely, and more than enough," I said, and bent to kiss her.

"I was right," Penthe said with a contented sigh as we lay naked among the flowers. "You have a fine anger." I lay on my back, her small body curled under my arm, her heart-shaped face resting gently on my chest.

"What do you mean by that?" I asked. "I think anger might be the wrong word."

"I mean Vaevin Vaevin," she said, using the Ademic term. "Is that the same?"

"I don't know that word," I admitted.

"I think anger is the right word," she said. "I have spoken with Vashet in your language, and she did not correct me."

"What do you mean by anger, then?" I asked. "I certainly don't feel angry."

Penthe lifted her head from my chest and gave me a lazy, satisfied smile. "Of course not," she said. "I have taken your anger. How could you feel such a way?"

"Are ... are you angry then?" I asked, sure I was missing the point entirely.

Penthe laughed and shook her head. She had undone her long braid and her honey-colored hair hung down the side of her face. It made her look like an entirely different person. That and the lack of the mercenary reds, I supposed. "It is not that kind of anger. I am glad to have it."

"I still do not understand," I said. "This could be something barbarians do not know. Explain it to me as if I were a child."

She looked at me for a moment, her eyes serious, then she rolled over onto her stomach so she could face me more easily. "This anger is not a feeling. It is ..." She hesitated, frowning prettily. "It is a desire. It is a making. It is a wanting of life."

Penthe looked around, then focused on the gra.s.s around us. "Anger is what makes the gra.s.s press up through the ground to reach the sun," she said. "All things that live have anger. It is the fire in them that makes them want to move and grow and do and make." She c.o.c.ked her head. "Does that make sense to you?"

"I think so," I said. "And women take the anger from men in s.e.x?"

She smiled, nodding. "That is why afterward a man is so weary. He gives a piece of himself. He collapses. He sleeps." She glanced down. "Or a part of him sleeps."

"Not for long," I said.

"That is because you have a fine, strong anger," she said proudly. "As I have already said. I can tell because I have taken a piece of it. I can tell there is more waiting."

"There is," I admitted. "But what do women do with the anger?"

"We use it," Penthe said simply. "That is why, afterward, a woman does not always sleep as a man does. She feels more awake. Full of the need to move. Often full of desire for more of what brought her the anger in the first place." She lowered her head to my chest and bit me playfully, wriggling her naked body against me.

It was pleasantly distracting. "Does this mean women have no anger of their own?"

She laughed again. "No. All things have anger. But women have many uses for their anger. And men have more anger than they can use, too much for their own good."

"How can one have too much of the desire to live and grow and make?" I asked. "It seems more would be better."

Penthe shook her head, brushing her hair back with one hand. "No. It is like food. One meal is good. Two meals is not better." She frowned again. "No. It is more like wine. One cup of wine is good, two is sometimes better, but ten ... "She nodded seriously. "That is very much like anger. A man who grows full of it, it is like a poison in him. He wants too many things. He wants all things. He becomes strange and wrong in his head, violent."

She nodded to herself. "Yes. That is why anger is the right word, I think. You can tell a man who has been keeping all his anger to himself. It goes sour in him. It turns against itself and drives him to breaking rather than making."

"I can think of men like that," I said. "But I can think of women too."

"All things have anger," she repeated with a shrug. "A stone does not have much compared to a budding tree. It is the same with people. Some have more, or less. Some use it wisely. Some do not." She gave me a wide smile. "I have a great deal, which is why I am so fond of s.e.x and fierce in my fighting." She bit at my chest again, less playfully this time, and began to work her way up to my neck.