The Walk Home Part 2

They moved in Stevie's toys the next morning, so he could bash his cars up and down the floorboards while his parents got the new place finished. They painted his room before the others, racing each other with the rollers, and it was bright in there with the window open while the walls dried. They ate their lunches sitting on the sofa, chip papers spread across their knees, only then Stevie's Mum made them stand up halfway through, so she could lay a dust sheet across the cushions.

"We're keeping it nice. Right? Everything in the house."

And his Dad saluted her: "Aye, aye."

Stevie's Mum scoured the free ads for fridges when they'd finished, until two of his aunties turned up with rubber gloves, to help her scrub out the new kitchen. They brought Stevie's big cousins along for him to play with, and the girls carried him around the living room like he was their baby, while the boys took running jumps onto the armchair his Dad had found them on a building job. It was big and green and soft with cushions, and when Stevie's Mum was done with cleaning, she stripped off the covers and put them in the bath; she climbed in barefoot and marched up and down in the soapsuds to make his Dad laugh.

They were back at his Gran's place for tea, and on all the next evenings too, because their beds were still there to sleep in, and Stevie's Mum said they couldn't cook, not yet, in the new kitchen.

"Won't be long, son."

All the talk round the table of the new place, cannae wait, fingers and faces all paint-flecked.

Come the middle of the week, Brenda took Stevie with her to work. She told him: "It's so as your Maw an Da can get mair done."

Her grandson was used to coming places with her as it was; Brenda cleaned houses and pubs, and Stevie liked to crawl along the benches while she came after him with the hoover. Or she sat him on a high stool in front of the fruit machines and let him bash the b.u.t.tons.

Friday was her day off, and because Malky was sleeping, she took Stevie on the Drumchapel rounds: calling in on her three older sons' houses for cups of tea and a catch-up, to use up the morning. Stevie ran ahead of her most of the way round the scheme, because he knew whose door was Malky Jnr.'s by now, and which floor of the high flats his Uncle Brian lived. Stevie's cousins were all at school, but at least he got their toys to himself while Brenda blethered with her daughters-in-law. She finished up at Craig's house, where Stevie got biscuits to fuel the trudge back to her place.

The boy had a good pair of legs. Lindsey had given up on the buggy since they moved, because the new flat was on the highest part of Drumchapel, and there were flights of steps all over, weeds growing up through the cracks in the concrete. They had to go down them to get anywhere, and then it was a steep haul to get back up again, so Stevie was used to trotting after his Mum along the pavements, past all the close-mouths, some with neighbours out and talking on the steps, others boarded over and sprayed with tags. Brenda knew Lindsey walked the scheme streets fast to get it over with, but Craig's end of Drumchapel was full of the new building works, so she let Stevie play awhile by the tonne bags. The place was crowded with pallets of bricks and sand piles these days, just the same as when Brenda was a girl, and she watched her grandson dig his fingers into the gravel, scattering handfuls at the half-built new walls.

"Reckon they'll build them tae last this time?"

He blinked at her, stopped in mid-throw, knowing a joke when he heard one, even if he couldn't work out what it meant. The scheme was all Stevie knew, but Brenda could remember a time before it sprawled across this hillside. So she smiled at him: "Ach, don't mind me, son."

Turning to go, he dropped his stones, skipping to catch up like the good wee boy he was.

Her grandson had no brothers and sisters, not yet, he mostly just had grown-ups about him, and all their endless talking, harking back and forwards, and Brenda knew fine well she was one of the worst offenders. She'd told him plenty of times before, how Drumchapel was home to her, no more, no less, and how her family got moved out here when she was six. They'd come from the tenements in the middle of Glasgow, with hundreds of other folk besides, mums and dads and kids, and Stevie had heard all about those uprooted families making a new go of it; how the closes were smart then, the steps kept scrubbed, half the place was still empty and the high flats not yet built.

If Malky caught her talking, she knew he'd laugh, telling her it wasn't fair on the boy, taking him for a captive audience. Her husband had no truck with looking back on life: he said before you knew it you'd get maudlin. Have you no had enough ae that wae your faither? But Malky was in bed now, not here to tease, and Stevie was good, quiet company besides, so Brenda held out a hand to the boy and pointed: "The scheme wasnae nearly so big when we were moved here. It was aw still farms over that way, if you walked tae the far edge." Below the grey closes standing tall now, all along the high ridge, there were fields of red-brown cows and barley when she was a girl, that her father took her to find. He took both his children to show them, and to tell them how he'd been a farm boy, back in Ireland. Born on his family's own smallholding, to open skies and views of the far hills, and fields they'd worked for generations. When Papa Robert said they were out of the slums now, he spoke like they'd been returned to a standing they'd been robbed of.

Brenda squeezed Stevie's fingers, remembering how her brother had held her hand then, a comforting grip, while Papa Robert told them how their family had been ousted. Eric already knew it, the family grief, all that they'd lost back in Louth. Brenda told her grandson: "He was the first born, aye? My brother was older than me, by a good five years."

And though Stevie had never met him, he nodded just the same; Eric already familiar to him from all her stories, the boy kept up with her along the kerbstones.

"Nearly there now."

Brenda had trotted behind her brother half her childhood: Eric had always been faster home from school, in the afternoons, all along the wide, new roads. She told Stevie: "He gave me a coal-carry when I got tired, but."

He'd been a good big brother like that. And a good buffer too, against their Mum and Dad. Brenda said: "There were great piles of builders' sand where the houses stopped. Eric had tae drop me tae get up the top. I mind our feet, sinkin ankle-deep, an how our shoes got full ae it, skiddin down the far slope."

But her brother helped her with her laces, crouching down by the drainage ditches. Eric dusted her down.

"So as our mother wouldnae gie us a row, treadin dirt intae the new house."

Her mother's temper had been fierce, and Brenda climbed her close steps, thinking about her parents; how they'd both taken a hard kind of pride in their family.

Stevie was ahead of her, already at the front door, scuffing his own feet clean on the mat, which made her smile again, telling him how her Mum and Dad were proud of the ground floor they'd been given, with a room for each of their children.

"It was mair rooms than they'd ever had, you get me?"

Papa Robert planted roses out the front: "Three bushes in the bare earth. Like it was comin up roses for his faimly again, at last."

Brenda had to laugh at that, sort of, getting her keys out, and then she said: "Aye, my faither. He was a force tae be reckoned with."

Even when the scheme spread out, turned big and harsh, he wouldn't make do with pee-the-beds and dog mess in front of the house.

It was dark inside the flat, Malky not yet up. So the pair of them were quiet then, taking off their shoes, and Brenda was glad of it. Her Dad had been a fierce man all round, and it was hard not to let that spill into her stories. Maybe Malky was right and it was best she was stopped, before she got started on her own tales of grief; of her brother and father, and the way they'd ended up at loggerheads.

Brenda thought she'd sooner tell Stevie more about Eric and their younger days. Only her brother had been more work than play once they'd moved here, because he'd started at the High School before a year was out, and it was a long bus ride from the scheme. And then Brenda thought how Stevie knew all that anyhow, because she'd told him Eric's new school was only for the clever ones, and that her brother only had to read something once to remember it. Eric had been best at drawing picturesa"he could make things look real, there on the papera"so his drawing teachers gave him extra projects, and her brother did those when he'd finished with his other work. Which left as good as no time for playing by the building sites. Stevie knew Eric had made it his job too, when he was grown: drawing ships at the shipyards, pictures for the men to build by.

Brenda was proud of him. Didn't matter what her father said. Eric had built himself a fine life, and it was only what he deserved. He had a fine brain, the best in the family, and he'd known to make the most of his abilities. Brenda had repaid his childhood love with her loyalty, and she still kept a picture Eric had drawn for her, on the wall in the hallway.

It was pencil and fine, of her as a Mum, with all her boys. They were all in a row, eating ice-creams that Eric had bought them, with a baby asleep in a pushchair at the bottom of his close steps. The baby was Graham, and Stevie had had a hard time believing it, the first few times she'd shown him: that small and sleeping bundle was his big Da.

In the drawing, her boys were standing on Eric's close steps, and they weren't like any Stevie had climbed this morning. Sandstone, not concrete, they were wide and curved at the tops, with smart iron railings, painted black to match the front door.

"Where's that then? Where's Uncle Eric's house?" Stevie asked her now.

"He stays in Glasgow," Brenda told him. "Not so far."

But still, it was nowhere near the rest of them, and she saw how it must seem strange to Stevie, that Eric wasn't on the Drumchapel rounds; the one person in the family they never went and visited.

All that distance. And all the grief that brought it about. Brenda thought it was Papa Robert's doing.

"My faither," Brenda started. "He tellt us our faimly were blown over fae Ireland. By storms that werenae our makin, aye? An he reckoned we were better than where we landed."

He set a high bar for both his children: school and work were a means for getting on in life. Even Drumchapel was, in its own way, the new house in the new housing scheme. Papa Robert said they'd come through, if they knew their worth, in time, with faith. The thought gave Brenda an ache.

She could see her grandson trying to make sense of it: Eric's close steps, and how he was the best in the family, and now he lived somewhere far across Glasgow. Brenda thought it should have made Papa Robert glad, what Eric did with his life; Eric had come through, by anyone's lights. Except her father's. He said Eric had forgotten his family in the process, and all they should have meant to him. The way Papa Robert saw it, his son had turned his back on them.

"What's goin on here then?"

Malky was up. He was standing behind them in the hallway, a bit sour at being woken, but it was a relief to have her train of thought broken, even so. Malky looked from Brenda to Stevie, and then: "Let me guess, son," he said. "She on about her Da?"

He shook his head.

"Papa Robert, an how he'd been abandoned." Malky had heard it all before, too many times. "The old guy poured our ears full, so he did."

He laughed, but not like he was happy to be minded. Malky was talking to their grandson, but Brenda knew it was for her benefit when he bent down and whispered to Stevie, like he was letting him in on a secret: "I grew up here an aw, son, an I learned quick, like everywan did. Drumchapel was where you landed when you fell off the edge ae Glasgow. Papa Robert should ae watched his step. It's a steep climb back up. Every man tae hissel."

Malky never blamed Eric for making the break, any more than Brenda did, but he thought all this was old ground, and they'd trodden it far too often as it was.

His piece said, he straightened up, lifting Stevie into his arms for a hug. And then he and Brenda both looked at their grandson, all muddled and looking back at them.

Malky threw her a glance: enough now.

And Brenda nodded: aye, right enough.

But he was right enough about Drumchapel as well. So she told him, in closing: "Dinnae say aw that tae Lindsey, will you?"

"Ach." Malky waved a hand. "She knows it anyhow. The girl's no stupit."

Early morning, first July Sat.u.r.day, and Stevie's Dad lifted him from his bed. Just getting light, he pressed a finger to his mouth, like this was only for the two of them to know.

"We'll let your Maw sleep, aye?"

He carried Stevie down the quiet close and out, where the shadows were long and cool across the scheme streets. The pavements they walked down were empty at first, but they started filling up with folk, the further they got down the roads. They were coming out of their closes in smart coats and jackets, or they had flags wrapped round their shoulders; Stevie saw red, white and blue, and red lions too for Rangers. All of them were blinking in the dawn light, and headed the same way, and it seemed like his Dad was headed that way as well, because Stevie felt him picking up his pace, the further on they walked, falling in with the folk that were becoming a crowd.

He'd never seen as many out on the scheme before, not all at once like this; the pavements so full now, people were spilling off the kerbstones and into the road, skipping past each other to overtake.

They turned the last corner where the flats all ended and the street widened out, and then it seemed like hundreds of folk, all lining the road, and scattering across the gra.s.sy slope on the far side.

Stevie saw more flags here, and not just wrapped about shoulders, but draped from on high too, from out the tenement windows. All the folk around him were on tiptoes and craning their necks, looking and pointing, this way and that. It was like they were waiting for something to start, but Stevie's Dad was still going, pressing his way on through the throng, past a low white building with a black roof. He said: "That's the Orange Halls. Look out for the bands now."

He tapped at Stevie's knees, like this was the best part, and he told him that's what they'd come for.

"Tae see them off, aye?"

Stevie's Dad lifted him, arms full stretch, high over all the heads, so then he could see there were men on the road. They were all in uniform and getting into rows, and they looked a bit like soldiers, only they had accordions hanging from their shoulders. Some were holding flutes or strapping on drums, and a few were smiling, but most kept their faces sharp too, like something was coming.

"We're just in time, son. They'll be ma.s.sed aw round Glasgow by now, ready tae head for town."

There were other men behind the band: whole ranks of dark jackets with orange and gold draped about their collars.

"That's wan ae the lodges," Stevie's Dad said. "It's Papa Robert's old wan."

And Stevie saw no smiles there, just eyes front and shoulders squared, but he couldn't help himself staring; it was the way they looked, all proud and solemn, behind the crown on a cushion carried by the front man.

"Papa Robert used tae carry that. He said it was the day in the year he stood tall. Same as his Da did, back in Ireland."

Stevie looked at the old men, standing like their fathers, while his own Dad told him he reckoned it was the music made people take notice; everyone in the city.

"Every lodge has a band, see? Tae play on the Walk. An they'll march in fae the four compa.s.s corners ae Glasgow. So there's aye mair folk, comin thegether, till it's wan huge parade, aye? Right through the middle ae town. It's a fine sight, so it is."

Stevie couldn't imagine more people than this. He watched a banner raised on the slope, West of Glasgow Star of Hope, and how it took three men to lift it. Heavy cloth on st.u.r.dy poles, all gleaming bra.s.s and glossy ropes, with another coming up not far behind it. The parade was getting longer, topped by swaying tapestries of kings on white horseback, or torn-faced men of the cloth, and at the far end there were more flutes and drums.

But then Stevie's Dad lifted him down again, so all he could see was crowd: legs and elbows and forearms. There were men all around them, all pressed around Stevie's Dad, smiling and clapping him on the back, and Stevie thought they were maybe his uncles, but then he didn't know the faces when he looked up. His Dad did, though; it was like he knew everyone. He was shaking all their hands, while they were telling him about a band: where they'd been playing over the summer. Stevie heard place names, Derry and Corby and County Antrim, that didn't mean anything to him, but it sounded like his Dad had been to all of them maybe, only a long time ago now.

"Havenae seen you in ages, pal."

"Have a talk tae Shug, aye?"

They said he was still in charge, and that he was out there on the road beyond the crowd.

"He'll have you back in the ranks, nae bother."

But then there was music, all of a sudden: sharp raps on the snares, and Stevie felt the whole crowd turn.

Folk around him started to sing. It is old but it is beautiful, and its colours they are fine; Stevie heard Derry and Aughrim, Enniskillen and the Boyne. It made the hairs rise at Stevie's nape, a p.r.i.c.kling thrill that spread across his scalp. More voices joining in now, on all sides, singing about the bygone days of yore. And on the Twelfth I love tae wear the sash my father wore. A cheer went through the crowd as the last notes sounded, and then folk all around him were pushing forwards. The bands were walking, and everyone walking with them, and Stevie was pulled along on that surge, half pulled off his feet. Until his Dad was there and catching hold of his elbows, drawing him close, under the call of the whistling flutes.

It was a high sound, and it had Stevie's arms up, jumping to be lifted. His Dad was smiling, like he knew that feeling, and he raised Stevie up again, onto his shoulders: out from the crush and into the air, to hear the sounds and watch the colours.

"We saw the bands off, Maw!"

Stevie's Mum was out of bed, but she wasn't happy when they got back. She stood in the kitchen, looking daggers at his Dad.

"Just for old time's sake, aye?" his Dad told her, stopping by the fridge, but she turned her back on him, spreading her toast.

"They're my pals, Lin," he said. "They're just down the road an I never see them."

"Well you've got us now."

Stevie's Mum cut him off, like she wouldn't hear another word.

It made Stevie nervy, how his Mum could be so sharp, and how his Dad was so quiet then, the whole rest of the morning; fitting the last of the woodwork, too put out to talk. Stevie kept wanting to go and look, just to see that he was still there, but his Mum kept him with her, folding away the washing. She said: "He'll be all right, son."

Only like she wasn't too sure herself.

And then, a bit later: "He can't help who our neighbours are."

She took Stevie to find him in the big room, while he was packing up. And she told him: "The place looks grand now."

Like she was saying thank you, or maybe sorry too.

Stevie's Dad shrugged his shoulders, so Stevie knew he'd heard her, even if he kept his head down over his tool box. She stepped forward and hooked her fingers into one of his back pockets.

"We all right, aye? Graham? Me and you."

It was just what Stevie wanted to know. So he was glad when his Dad nodded.

"Course."

Of course they were.

They spent a whole long Sunday afternoon just painting the skirting boards: both bent and kneeling on opposite sides of the hallway, a can of beer pa.s.sed between them while the radio sang out pop songs from the kitchen. Stevie lay on his belly with his cars, listening to their talk, of next week, next month, all the time to come. His Dad adding up his wages, and what they could afford next, his Mum deciding on a second-hand washing machine. She said: "Even if it costs. We can always take it with us when we find a decent place."

Only then she sat back and groaned.

"Oh for crying out loud. How'd you stop it from dripping?"

She pointed at her painting efforts, the creamy gloss all streaked with dribbles, and looked to Stevie's Dad for help. He was ahead of her, a good couple of metres, but he shuffled back and took her brush, telling her gentle: "Gies it here now. Look."

He showed her: steady movements, up and down and back and forth, working and working at the same part till it stayed smooth. It made Stevie's Mum smile, how well he did it.

"See that?" She pulled at Stevie's elbow. "You watch your Da, son."

"Aye right." Stevie's Dad smiled at them. "Yous sit an watch while I dae aw the work."