The Wake Trilogy: Gone Part 11

Compelled, Janie pulls herself to attention, to full awareness, scared to death that the horrible din and burning colors will return at any moment, dreading getting anywhere near this man who turns mad and strangles her. Wishing she could gather the strength to pull herself from this nightmare now, while she has the chance. But she cannot.

Janie struggles silently to her feet in the gymnasium. With effort, she walks toward the two, her footsteps echoing. She has no idea what to do for Henry. Sees nothing that she can do to help. Really only wants to tie him up, or maybe kill him, so he doesn't have the chance to hurt her.

She stops a few feet away from them. Stares at the woman standing there, not quite believing her eyes. "It's you," she says. She feels a rush of relief. Her lip quivers. "Oh, Miss Stubin."

Miss Stubin reaches out and Janie, overwhelmed by seeing her again and incredibly weak from this nightmare, stumbles into her arms. Miss Stubin's grip is strong, full of comfort. It repairs some of Janie's strength. Janie is filled with emotion as she feels the warmth, the love in Miss Stubin's touch. "There, you're all right," Miss Stubin says.

"You," Janie says. "You're . . . I thought I wouldn't be seeing you again."

Miss Stubin smiles. "I have been quite enjoying my time with Earl since I last saw you. It's good to be whole again." She pauses, eyes twinkling. They pick up the dim rays of light coming in through the gymnasium's tiny upper windows. And then she looks toward the mute Henry, who sits ever still. "I believe I'm here for Henry . . . I think to bring him home, if you know what I mean. Sometimes I don't know myself why I'm summoned to other catchers' dreams."

Janie's eyes widen. "So, it's true. He really is one."

"Yes, apparently so."

They look at Henry, and then at each other. Silent, pondering. The dream catchers, all together in one place.

"Wow," Janie murmurs. She turns back to Miss Stubin. "Why didn't you tell me about him? You said in the green notebook that there weren't any other living dream catchers."

"I didn't know about him." She smiles. "It appears he needs your help, first, before he can come with me. I'm glad you came."

"It wasn't easy," Janie says. "His dreams are horrible."

"He hasn't many left," Miss Stubin says.

Janie presses her lips together and takes a deep breath. "He's my father. You knew that, right?"

Miss Stubin shakes her head. "I didn't know. So it's hereditary, then. I've often wondered. It's why I didn't have children."

"Did youa"?" Janie's suddenly struck by a thought. "You're not related, are you? To us, I mean?"

Miss Stubin smiles warmly. "No, my dear. Wouldn't that be something?"

Janie laughs softly at the craziness of it. "Do you think that maybe there are others out there, then? Besides me?"

Miss Stubin clasps Janie's hand and squeezes. "Knowing that Henry exists gives me hope that there are more. But dream catchers are nearly impossible to find." She chuckles. "Best thing you can do to find them is to fall asleep in public places, I guess."

Janie nods. She glances at Henry. "How am I supposed to help him?"

Miss Stubin raises an eyebrow. "I don't know, but you know what to do to find out. He's already asked you for help."

"But . . . I don't see . . . and he's not leading me anywhere." Janie looks around the near-vacant gymnasium, looking for clues, trying to figure out what she could possibly do to help Henry. Not wanting to get too close.

Finally, Janie turns to Henry and takes a deep breath, glancing at Miss Stubin briefly for support. "Hey there," she begins. Her voice shakes a little, nervous, scared, not sure what to expect. "How can I help you?"

He stares at her, a blank look on his face. "Help me," he says.

"Ia"I don't know how, but you can tell me."

"Help me," Henry repeats. "Help me. Help me. Help me. HELP me. HELP ME. HELP ME! HELP ME!!" Henry's voice turns to wild screams and he doesn't stop. Janie backs away, on her guard, but he doesn't come toward her. He reaches to his head and grips it, screaming and ripping chunks of hair from his scalp. His eyes bulge and his body is rigid in agony. "HELP ME!"

His screams don't end. Janie is frozen, shocked, horrified. "I don't know what to do!" she yells, but her voice is drowned out by his. Terrified, she looks for Miss Stubin, who watches intently, a little fearfully.

And then.

Miss Stubin reaches out.

Touches Henry's shoulder.

His screams stutter. Fail. His ragged breaths diminish.

Miss Stubin stares at Henry, concentrating. Focusing. Until he turns to look at her and is quiet.

Janie watches.

"Henry," Miss Stubin says gently. "This is your daughter, Janie."

Henry doesn't react. And then his face contorts.

Immediately, the scene in front of Janie crackles. Chunks of the gymnasium fall away, like pieces of a broken mirror. Bright lights appear in the holes. Janie sees it happening and her heart pounds. She shoots a frantic glance at Miss Stubin, and at her father, desperate to know if he understands, but he is holding his head again.

"I can't stay in this," Janie yells, and she gathers up all her strength, pulling out of the nightmare before the static and blinding colors overtake her again.

2:20 a.m.

All is quiet except for the ringing in Janie's ears.

Minutes pa.s.s as Janie lies facedown, unmoving, unseeing, on the clammy tile floor of the hospital room. Her head aches. When she tries to move, her muscles won't comply.

2:36 a.m.

Finally, Janie can see, though everything is dim. She grunts and, after a few tries, shoves to her feet, steadying herself against the wall, wiping her mouth. Blood comes away on her hand. She moves her tongue slowly around, noting the cut inside her cheek where she apparently bit down during the nightmare. Feels her neck, her throat, gingerly. Her stomach churns as she swallows blood-thickened saliva. Janie squints at her watch, shocked that so much time has gone by.

And then she turns to look at Henry. Runs her fingers through her tangled hair as she stares at his agonized face, frozen into the same horrible expression as in his dream when he screamed over and over again.

"What's wrong with you?" she says. Her voice is like the static in the nightmare.

She bites her bottom lip and still she watches from a distance, remembering Henry the madman. He's unconscious. He can't hurt me.

She doesn't believe it, so she says it aloud, to herself and to him. "You can't hurt me."

That helps a little.

She steps closer.

Next to his bed.

Her finger hovers above his hand and Janie imagines him jumping up, grabbing her with that cold death-grip. Tearing her throat out. Strangling her. Still, slowly, she lowers her hand and lays it on top of Henry's.

He doesn't move.

His hands are warm and rough.

Just like a father's hands should be.

2:43 a.m.

It's too late for the bus.

When she is able, Janie meanders her way through the hospital and down to the street. Slowly limps home in the dead of night.

MONDAY.

August 7, 2006, 10:35 a.m.

A dream catcher. Her father. Just like her.

Unbelievable.

Janie slips into her running clothes and makes her way to the bus stop. Takes it to the last stop on the edge of town. And runs the rest of the way.

Things in the country are so much slower than they are in town. Janie's feet slap the pavement as she runs along, the whole world seemingly coming to a stop before her eyes. Row after row of ripe corn begs to be harvesteda"Janie can see the soft brown ta.s.sels go by in a blur as she runs.

Her gla.s.ses slip down on her nose from the sweat, and she is reminded yet again that she needs to take in the sights for as long as she can. It makes her sick to think about losing all of this, so she absorbs it, one step after another, until her mind wanders again.

She hears the buzz of tree frogs and remembers how, when she was little, she used to think that the intense buzz was not an animal, but the sound of electrical wires, bustling with energy. When she learned the noise came from frogs, she didn't believe it.

Still doesn't.

After all, she's never actually seen one.

And as she sucks in stale, humid air, the faint odor of cow manure becomes common. Alongside it is the sickly sweet smell of wildflowers and the searing hint of recent road patching.

Janie's mind is clear and her purpose is sure when she reaches the long, overgrown driveway of Henry's house. She slows to a walk, trying to cool down.

Just as she reaches the clearing, her cell phone buzzes in her pocket. She ignores it, knowing it's probably Cabel. Needs to think. To do this alone. She opens the door and steps inside the house.

That eerie feeling comes over hera"the one that makes her shiver and feel a little bit dizzy and sick all at the same time when being somewhere overtly quiet and extremely off-limits. Janie huffs, still winded, and the noise breaks the silence. "Talk to me, Henry, you creepy little strangler," Janie says softly. "Show me how I can help you."

She walks to the kitchen, wipes her sweaty forehead on a kitchen towel and grabs a gla.s.s from the cupboard. Turns on the faucet. The water chokes and spurts out, a lovely rust color until it run clears a moment later. Janie lets it run for a minute and then fills the gla.s.s. Drinks it, the tepid water not quite raunchy enough to make her gag.

She decides to tackle the computer first. Boots it up and realizes that it's on dial-up. Not surprising for way out here in the country, but still totally annoying. "Talk to me," she mutters again, tapping her fingers impatiently on the table.

First, she looks through his bookmarks. Immediately finds Henry's online store account and logs in, his username and pa.s.sword unprotected, already filled in. Janie peruses the online store, called Dottie's Place. Finds a collection of odd, unrelated items including babies and children's clothing, small electronic equipment, books, and gla.s.s figurine collectibles. She clicks on a pair of "gently worn" name-brand overalls and reads the description. Reads the words Henry chooses. Sees his intelligence and marketing ability and business savvy all rolled into the little store.

There are several auctions in progress, plus a few that have ended in the days since Henry became ill.

And then she sees his rating. 99.8% positive.

Janie doesn't recognize the feeling that wells up in her chest.

Makes her eyes water.

All she knows is that Henry Feingold has a near-perfect rating.

She's not about to let that record get tarnished.

Janie freezes the inventory. a.s.sesses the items that were already sold and searches for them on the inventory shelves. Packs the few items up and finds the UPS slips in the drawer. Fills them out. Wonders if she needs to call for pickup, but then finds the link online in Henry's favorites. She schedules a pickup for before five p.m. Sets the boxes outside the door so she doesn't forget.

Back at the computer, Janie inhales Henry's other bookmarked pages. A political message board, a cooking website, several links to marketing professionals, a Jewish holiday website. Gardening sites.

Dreams.

And a link to a Wikipedia page about Morton's Fork.

Janie clicks on that last one.

Reads the page.

Finds out that Morton's Fork is not literally a fork. It's a term for a dilemma of sorts. In summary: a forced choice between two equally suck-a.s.s things.

Janie reads about it and sees a comparison to a catch-22, and she glances at the book on the table that coined the phrase. She furrows her brow. "Okay, Mister Creepy-pants," she mutters, back on the computer, typing wildly searching keywords. "What are you all about? What's your big choice?"

And then she stops typing mid-word.

She sinks back into the chair, remembering the last time she read about a catch-22. Just a few months ago, in a green spiral notebook.

Knows, of course.

It's clear what Henry chose, years ago.

He didn't have Miss Stubin to help him. To teach him.

He had no one.

12:50 p.m The rattling, house-shaking noise of a truck breaks Janie's attention. Through the window she sees it rumbling toward her and her heart races, knowing she shouldn't be here. But when the driver raps on the door and she shouts in a friendly voice, "Hey Henry, you gotta sign for this one! You out back?"

Janie hesitates, and then she opens the door. "Hi."

The delivery woman looks up, machine in hand. Sweat streaks her tan cheeks and she has wet stains under her arms. She wears the company brown shorts and her tan legs are covered in bug bites and bruises. She looks surprised and confused for a moment, but then says, "Hi, uh, are you eighteen? You can sign."

"I . . . yeah."

"Where's Henry? Out garage-saling? Well, obviously not, because there's his car . . . Well, you can tell him I saw a sign for a big rummage sale that the Luther'ns are putting on. Over on Washtenaw, Fridee and Sat.u.r.dee." She looks uneasy.

"Henry'sa"he won't be able to make it. He's . . . sick. Not doing well." Janie feels her throat growing tight. "In the hospital, probably not going to make it."

The woman's jaw drops. She grips the door frame. "Oh, my heck. You're not serious. Are you . . . who are you?" She pounds a fist to her hip as if to get a hold of herself. "If I may ask, I meana"it's none of my business but Henry's been my customer for years. We're friends." She turns abruptly and stares at the woods, her fingers now fidgeting at her lips and then shoving through her mullet.