The Voyage Out Part 8

Rachel gave the gate a push; it swung open, and, seeing no one about and judging that nothing was private in this country, they walked straight on. An avenue of trees ran along the road, which was completely straight. The trees suddenly came to an end; the road turned a corner, and they found themselves confronted by a large square building. They had come out upon the broad terrace which ran round the hotel and were only a few feet distant from the windows. A row of long windows opened almost to the ground. They were all of them uncurtained, and all brilliantly lighted, so that they could see everything inside. Each window revealed a different section of the life of the hotel. They drew into one of the broad columns of shadow which separated the windows and gazed in. They found themselves just outside the dining-room. It was being swept; a waiter was eating a bunch of grapes with his leg across the corner of a table. Next door was the kitchen, where they were washing up; white cooks were dipping their arms into cauldrons, while the waiters made their meal voraciously off broken meats, sopping up the gravy with bits of crumb. Moving on, they became lost in a plantation of bushes, and then suddenly found themselves outside the drawing-room, where the ladies and gentlemen, having dined well, lay back in deep arm-chairs, occasionally speaking or turning over the pages of magazines. A thin woman was flourishing up and down the piano.

'What is a dahabeeyah,af Charles?' the distinct voice of a widow, seated in an arm-chair by the window, asked her son. Charles?' the distinct voice of a widow, seated in an arm-chair by the window, asked her son.

It was the end of the piece, and his answer was lost in the general clearing of throats and tapping of knees.

'They're all old in this room,' Rachel whispered.

Creeping on, they found that the next window revealed two men in shirt-sleeves playing billiards with two young ladies.

'He pinched my arm!' the plump young woman cried, as she missed her stroke.

'Now you two - no ragging,' the young man with the red face reproved them, who was marking.

'Take care or we shall be seen,' whispered Helen, plucking Rachel by the arm. Incautiously her head had risen to the middle of the window.

Turning the corner they came to the largest room in the hotel, which was supplied with four windows, and was called the Lounge, although it was really a hall. Hung with armour and native embroideries, furnished with divans and screens, which shut off convenient corners, the room was less formal than the others, and was evidently the haunt of youth. Signor Rodriguez, whom they knew to be the manager of the hotel, stood quite near them in the doorway surveying the scene - the gentlemen lounging in chairs, the couples leaning over coffee-cups, the game of cards in the centre under profuse cl.u.s.ters of electric light. He was congratulating himself upon the enterprise which had turned the refectory, a cold stone room with pots on trestles, into the most comfortable room in the house. The hotel was very full, and proved his wisdom in decreeing that no hotel can flourish without a lounge.

The people were scattered about in couples or parties of four, and either they were actually better acquainted, or the informal room made their manners easier. Through the open window came an uneven humming sound like that which rises from a flock of sheep pent within hurdles at dusk. The card-party occupied the centre of the foreground.

Helen and Rachel watched them play for some minutes without being able to distinguish a word. Helen was observing one of the men intently. He was a lean, somewhat cadaverous man of about her own age, whose profile was turned to them, and he was the partner of a highly-coloured girl, obviously English by birth.

Suddenly, in the strange way in which some words detach themselves from the rest, they heard him say quite distinctly: - 'All you want is practice, Miss Warrington; courage and practice - one's no good without the other.'

'Hughling Elliot! Of course!' Helen exclaimed. She ducked her head immediately, for at the sound of his name he looked up. The game went on for a few minutes, and was then broken up by the approach of a wheeled chair, containing a voluminous old lady who paused by the table and said: - 'Better luck to-night, Susan?'

'All the luck's on our side,' said a young man who until now had kept his back turned to the window. He appeared to be rather stout, and had a thick crop of hair.

'Luck, Mr. Hewet?' said his partner, a middle-aged lady with spectacles. 'I a.s.sure you, Mrs. Paley, our success is due solely to our brilliant play.'

'Unless I go to bed early I get practically no sleep at all,' Mrs. Paley was heard to explain, as if to justify her seizure of Susan, who got up and proceeded to wheel the chair to the door.

'They'll get some one else to take my place,' she said cheerfully. But she was wrong. No attempt was made to find another player, and after the young man had built three stories of a card-house, which fell down, the players strolled off in different directions.

Mr. Hewet turned his full face towards the window. They could see that he had large eyes obscured by gla.s.ses; his complexion was rosy; his lips clean-shaven; and, seen among ordinary people, it appeared to be an interesting face. He came straight towards them, but his eyes were fixed not upon the eavesdroppers but upon a spot where the curtain hung in folds.

'Asleep?' he said.

Helen and Rachel started to think that some one had been sitting near to them un.o.bserved all the time. There were legs in the shadow. A melancholy voice issued from above them.

'Two women,' it said.

A scuffling was heard on the gravel. The women had fled. They did not stop running until they felt certain that no eye could penetrate the darkness and the hotel was only a square shadow in the distance, with red holes regularly cut in it.

CHAPTER IX.

AN HOUR Pa.s.sED, AND the downstairs rooms at the hotel grew dim and were almost deserted, while the little box-like squares above them were brilliantly irradiated. Some forty or fifty people were going to bed. The thump of jugs set down on the floor above could be heard and the c.h.i.n.k of china, for there was not as thick a part.i.tion between the rooms as one might wish, so Miss Allan, the elderly lady who had been playing bridge, determined, giving the wall a smart rap with her knuckles. It was only matchboard, she decided, run up to make many little rooms of one large one. Her grey petticoats slipped to the ground, and, stooping, she folded her clothes with neat, if not loving fingers, screwed her hair into a plait, wound her father's great gold watch, and opened the complete works of Wordsworth. She was reading the 'Prelude', partly because she always read the 'Prelude' abroad, and partly because she was engaged in writing a short Primer of English Literature Primer of English Literature - Beowulf to Swinburne - Beowulf to Swinburne ag ag - which would have a paragraph on Wordsworth. She was deep in the fifth book, stopping indeed to pencil a note, when a pair of boots dropped, one after another, on the floor above her. She looked up and speculated. Whose boots were they, she wondered. She then became aware of a swishing sound next door - a woman, clearly, putting away her dress. It was succeeded by a gentle tapping sound, such as that which accompanies hair-dressing. It was very difficult to keep her attention fixed upon the 'Prelude'. Was it Susan Warrington tapping? She forced herself, however, to read to the end of the book, when she placed a mark between the pages, sighed contentedly, and then turned out the light. - which would have a paragraph on Wordsworth. She was deep in the fifth book, stopping indeed to pencil a note, when a pair of boots dropped, one after another, on the floor above her. She looked up and speculated. Whose boots were they, she wondered. She then became aware of a swishing sound next door - a woman, clearly, putting away her dress. It was succeeded by a gentle tapping sound, such as that which accompanies hair-dressing. It was very difficult to keep her attention fixed upon the 'Prelude'. Was it Susan Warrington tapping? She forced herself, however, to read to the end of the book, when she placed a mark between the pages, sighed contentedly, and then turned out the light.

Very different was the room through the wall, though as like in shape as one egg-box is like another. As Miss Allan read her book, Susan Warrington was brushing her hair. Ages have consecrated this hour, and the most majestic of all domestic actions, to talk of love between women; but Miss Warrington being alone could not talk; she could only look with extreme solicitude at her own face in the gla.s.s. She turned her head from side to side, tossing heavy locks now this way now that; and then withdrew a pace or two, and considered herself seriously.

'I'm nice-looking,' she determined. 'Not pretty - possibly,' she drew herself up a little. 'Yes - most people would say I was handsome.

She was really wondering what Arthur Venning would say she was. Her feeling about him was decidedly queer. She would not admit to herself that she was in love with him or that she wanted to marry him, yet she spent every minute when she was alone in wondering what he thought of her, and in comparing what they had done to-day with what they had done the day before.

'He didn't ask me to play, but he certainly followed me into the hall,' she meditated, summing up the evening. She was thirty years of age, and owing to the number of her sisters and the seclusion of life in a country parsonage had as yet had no proposal of marriage. The hour of confidences was often a sad one, and she had been known to jump into bed, treating her hair unkindly, feeling herself overlooked by life in comparison with others. She was a big, well-made woman, the red lying upon her cheeks in patches that were too well defined, but her serious anxiety gave her a kind of beauty.

She was just about to pull back the bed-clothes when she exclaimed, 'Oh, but I'm forgetting,' and went to her writing-table. A brown volume lay there stamped with the figure of the year. She proceeded to write in the square ugly hand of a mature child, as she wrote daily year after year, keeping the diaries, though she seldom looked at them.

'A.M. - Talked to Mrs. H. Elliot about country neighbours. She knows the Manns; also the Selby-Carroways. How small the world is! Like her. Read a chapter of Miss Appleby's Adventure Miss Appleby's Adventure to Aunt E. P.M. - Played lawn-tennis with Mr. Perrott and Evelyn M. Don't to Aunt E. P.M. - Played lawn-tennis with Mr. Perrott and Evelyn M. Don't like like Mr. P. Have a feeling that she is not "quite," though clever certainly. Beat them. Day splendid, view wonderful. One gets used to no trees, though much too bare at first. Cards after dinner. Aunt E. cheerful, though twingy, she says. Mem.: Mr. P. Have a feeling that she is not "quite," though clever certainly. Beat them. Day splendid, view wonderful. One gets used to no trees, though much too bare at first. Cards after dinner. Aunt E. cheerful, though twingy, she says. Mem.: ask about damp sheets.' ask about damp sheets.'

She knelt in prayer, and then lay down in bed, tucking the blankets comfortably about her, and in a few minutes her breathing showed that she was asleep. With its profoundly peaceful sighs and hesitations it resembled that of a cow standing up to its knees all night through in the long gra.s.s.

A glance into the next room revealed little more than a nose, prominent above the sheets. Growing accustomed to the darkness, for the windows were open and showed grey squares with splinters of starlight, one could distinguish a lean form, terribly like the body of a dead person, the body indeed of William Pepper, asleep too. Thirty-six, thirty-seven, thirty-eight - here were three Portuguese men of business, asleep presumably, since a snore came with the regularity of a great ticking clock. Thirty-nine was a corner room, at the end of the pa.s.sage, but late though it was - 'one' struck gently downstairs - a line of light under the door showed that some one was still awake.

'How late you are, Hugh!' a woman, lying in bed, said in a peevish but solicitous voice. Her husband was brushing his teeth, and for some moments did not answer.

'You should have gone to sleep,' he replied. 'I was talking to Thornbury.'

'But you know that I never can sleep when I'm waiting for you,' she said.

To that he made no answer, but only remarked, 'Well then, we'll turn out the light.' They were silent.

The faint but penetrating pulse of an electric bell could now be heard in the corridor. Old Mrs. Paley, having woken hungry but without her spectacles, was summoning her maid to find the biscuit-box. The maid having answered the bell, drearily respectful even at this hour though m.u.f.fled in a mackintosh, the pa.s.sage was left in silence. Downstairs all was empty and dark; but on the upper floor a light still burnt in the room where the boots had dropped so heavily above Miss Allan's head. Here was the gentleman who, a few hours previously, in the shade of the curtain, had seemed to consist entirely of legs. Deep in an arm-chair he was reading the third volume of Gibbon's History of the Decline and Fall of Rome History of the Decline and Fall of Romeah by candle-light. As he read he knocked the ash automatically, now and again, from his cigarette and turned the page, while a whole procession of splendid sentences entered his capacious brow and went marching through his brain in order. It seemed likely that this process might continue for an hour or more, until the entire regiment had shifted its quarters, had not the door opened, and the young man, who was inclined to be stout, come in with large naked feet. by candle-light. As he read he knocked the ash automatically, now and again, from his cigarette and turned the page, while a whole procession of splendid sentences entered his capacious brow and went marching through his brain in order. It seemed likely that this process might continue for an hour or more, until the entire regiment had shifted its quarters, had not the door opened, and the young man, who was inclined to be stout, come in with large naked feet.

'Oh, Hirst, what I forgot to say was - '

'Two minutes,' said Hirst, raising his finger.

He safely stowed away the last words of the paragraph.

'What was it you forgot to say?' he asked.

'D'you think you do do make enough allowance for feelings?' asked Mr. Hewet. He had again forgotten what he had meant to say. make enough allowance for feelings?' asked Mr. Hewet. He had again forgotten what he had meant to say.

After intense contemplation of the immaculate Gibbon Mr. Hirst smiled at the question of his friend. He laid aside his book and considered.

'I should call yours a singularly untidy mind,' he observed. 'Feelings? Aren't they just what we do allow for? We put love up there, and all the rest somewhere down below.' With his left hand he indicated the top of a pyramid, and with his right the base.

'But you didn't get out of bed to tell me that,' he added severely.

'I got out of bed,' said Hewet vaguely, 'merely to talk I suppose.'

'Meanwhile I shall undress,' said Hirst. When naked of all but his shirt, and bent over the basin, Mr. Hirst no longer impressed one with the majesty of his intellect, but with the pathos of his young yet ugly body, for he stooped, and he was so thin that there were dark lines between the different bones of his neck and shoulders.

'Women interest me,' said Hewet, who, sitting on the bed with his chin resting on his knees, paid no attention to the undressing of Mr. Hirst.

'They're so stupid,' said Hirst. 'You're sitting on my pyjamas.'

'I suppose they are are stupid?' Hewet wondered. stupid?' Hewet wondered.

'There can't be two opinions about that, I imagine,' said Hirst, hopping briskly across the room, 'unless you're in love - that fat woman Warrington?' he enquired.

'Not one fat woman - all fat women,' Hewet sighed.

'The women I saw to-night were not fat,' said Hirst, who was taking advantage of Hewet's company to cut his toe-nails.

'Describe them,' said Hewet.

'You know I can't describe things!' said Hirst. 'They were much like other women, I should think. They always are.'

'No; that's where we differ,' said Hewet. 'I say everything's different. No two people are in the least the same. Take you and me now.'

'So I used to think once,' said Hirst. 'But now they're all types. Don't take us - take this hotel. You could draw circles round the whole lot of them, and they'd never stray outside.'

('You can kill a hen by doing that'), Hewet murmured.

'Mr. Hughling Elliot, Mrs. Hughling Elliot, Miss Allan, Mr. and Mrs. Thornbury - one circle,' Hirst continued. 'Miss Warrington, Mr. Arthur Venning, Mr. Perrott, Evelyn M. another circle; then there are a whole lot of natives; finally ourselves.'

'Are we all alone in our circle?' asked Hewet.

'Quite alone,' said Hirst. 'You try to get out, but you can't. You only make a mess of things by trying.'

'I'm not a hen in a circle,' said Hewet. 'I'm a dove on a tree-top.'

'I wonder if this is what they call an ingrowing toe-nail?' said Hirst, examining the big toe on his left foot.

'I flit from branch to branch,' continued Hewet. 'The world is profoundly pleasant.' He lay back on the bed, upon his arms.

'I wonder if it's really nice to be as vague as you are?' asked Hirst, looking at him. 'It's the lack of continuity - that's what's so odd about you,' he went on. At the age of twenty-seven, which is nearly thirty, you seem to have drawn no conclusions. A party of old women excites you still as though you were three.'

Hewet contemplated the angular young man who was neatly brushing the rims of his toe-nails into the fireplace in silence for a moment.

'I respect you, Hirst,' he remarked.

'I envy you - some things,' said Hirst. 'One: your capacity for not thinking; two: people like you better than they like me. Women like you, I suppose.'

'I wonder whether that isn't really what matters most?' said Hewet. Lying now flat on the bed he waved his hand in vague circles above him.

'Of course it is,' said Hirst. 'But that's not the difficulty. The difficulty is, isn't it, to find an appropriate object?'

'There are no female hens in your circle?' asked Hewet.

'Not the ghost of one,' said Hirst.

Although they had known each other for three years Hirst had never yet heard the true story of Hewet's loves. In general conversation it was taken for granted that they were many, but in private the subject was allowed to lapse. The fact that he had money enough to do no work, and that he had left Cambridge after two terms owing to a difference with the authorities, and had then travelled and drifted, made his life strange at many points where his friends' lives were much of a piece.

'I don't see your circles - I don't see them,' Hewet continued. 'I see a thing like a teetotum spinning in and out - knocking into things - dashing from side to side - collecting numbers - more and more and more, till the whole place is thick with them. Round and round they go - out there, over the rim - out of sight.'

His fingers showed that the waltzing teetotums had spun over the edge of the counterpane and fallen off the bed into infinity.

'Could you contemplate three weeks alone in this hotel?' asked Hirst, after a moment's pause.

Hewet proceeded to think.

'The truth of it is that one never is alone, and one never is in company,' he concluded.

'Meaning?' said Hirst.

'Meaning? Oh, something about bubbles - auras - what d'you call'em? You can't see my bubble; I can't see yours; all we see of each other is a speck, like the wick in the middle of that flame. The flame goes about with us everywhere; it's not ourselves exactly, but what we feel; the world is short, or people mainly; all kinds of people.'

'A nice streaky bubble yours must be!' said Hirst.

'And supposing my bubble could run into some one else's bubble - '

And they both burst?' put in Hirst.

'Then - then - then - ' pondered Hewet, as if to himself, 'it would be an e - nor - mous world,' he said, stretching his arms to their full width, as though even so they could hardly clasp the billowing universe, for when he was with Hirst he always felt unusually sanguine and vague.

'I don't think you altogether as foolish as I used to, Hewet,' said Hirst. 'You don't know what you mean but you try to say it.' .

'But aren't you enjoying yourself here?' asked Hewet.

'On the whole - yes,' said Hirst. 'I like observing people. I like looking at things. This country is amazingly beautiful. Did you notice how the top of the mountain turned yellow to-night? Really we must take our lunch and spend the day out. You're getting disgustingly fat.' He pointed at the calf of Hewet's bare leg.

'We'll get up an expedition,' said Hewet energetically. 'We'll ask the entire hotel. We'll hire donkeys and - '

'Oh, Lord!' said Hirst, 'do shut it! I can see Miss Warrington and Miss Allan and Mrs. Elliot and the rest squatting on the stones and quacking, "How jolly!"'

'We'll ask Venning and Perrott and Miss Murgatroyd - every one we can lay hands on,' went on Hewet. 'What's the name of the little old gra.s.shopper with the eyegla.s.ses? Pepper? - Pepper shall lead us.'

'Thank G.o.d, you'll never get the donkeys,' said Hirst.

'I must make a note of that,' said Hewet, slowly dropping his feet to the floor. 'Hirst escorts Miss Warrington; Pepper advances alone on a white a.s.s; provisions equally distributed - or shall we hire a mule? The matrons - there's Mrs. Paley, by Jove! - share a carriage.'

'That's where you'll go wrong,' said Hirst. 'Putting virgins among matrons.'

'How long should you think that an expedition like that would take, Hirst?' asked Hewet.

'From twelve to sixteen hours I should say,' said Hirst. 'The time usually occupied by a first confinement.'

'It will need considerable organisation,' said Hewet. He was now padding softly round the room, and stopped to stir the books on the table. They lay heaped one upon another.

'We shall want some poets too,' he remarked. 'Not Gibbon; no; d'you happen to have Modern Love or John Donne? Modern Love or John Donne? You see, I contemplate pauses when people get tired of looking at the view, and then it would be nice to read something rather difficult aloud.' You see, I contemplate pauses when people get tired of looking at the view, and then it would be nice to read something rather difficult aloud.'