The Next To Die Part 11

Dayle answered the phone. "h.e.l.lo?"

"Dayle? It's me, Sean. We have touchdown. I'm walking up the driveway as I speak."

"And you don't think anybody was following you?" Dayle asked.

"Well, for a few minutes after the last call, this Jeep behind me gave me a case of heebie-jeebies. I couldn't shake him. But he pulled off an exit before me, so I guess it was nothing." She paused. "Oh, Phoebe's waving at me from the front window. Anyway, I'm fine, Dayle. Thanks for worrying about me."

"We'll talk tomorrow," Dayle said. "I'll call you."

"Sounds good. G'night, and thanks again." Sean clicked off, and waved back to her daughter. The pet.i.te, redhaired seven-year-old wore her pink ballerina outfit from Halloween. She jumped up and down excitedly, then made fish faces against the window for her mother. Sean laughed and blew her a kiss. She started up the walk to the front door.

Dan's brother Doug and his wife, Anne, owned a large, cedar shaker on beachfront property-with a wraparound terrace and beautiful gardens. At one time, Sean had dreamt of having a home like this one. But now all bets were off.

Approaching Anne and Doug Olson's front door, she thanked G.o.d for having such great in-laws. Dan and Doug were close, but even the most devoted of siblings might have cracked under the pressure of putting up a brother, nephew, and niece, a rotating series of baby-sitter nurses, and a sister-in-law, who checked in on her family from time to time between business in the city. Yet Doug and Anne never complained.

Phoebe opened the door as Sean reached the front stoop. "Well, my goodness!" Sean declared. "Look at my pretty ballerina!" She gave Phoebe a kiss. "Did you wait up for me?"

Phoebe nodded, and began telling her about what had happened in school today. She chattered nonstop as they stepped inside. The TV was blaring in the family room toward the back of the house. It was a beautiful, s.p.a.cious room with a stone fireplace and an ocean view. Since coming to stay at Doug and Anne's, she'd tried to keep her kids from trashing the place-and for the most part, she'd succeeded. Sean noticed a few things scattered about: papers and school books, a pair of gym shoes, and one of Phoebe's sweaters. She also found her eleven-year-old, Danny, lying on his stomach directly in front of the television. Despite a trace of adolescent acne and an unruly mop of brown hair, he was a cute boy, with long-lashed blue eyes and an endearing smile. Barely looking up from the TV, he muttered, "Hi, Mom."

"You'll go blind," Sean announced. "No, don't get up. You haven't seen your mother since yesterday morning, but G.o.d knows, that shouldn't tear you away from the b.o.o.b tube and Babe-Watch Babe-Watch."

On TV, a bikini-clad, blond silicone case ran through a dark corridor from a man with a butcher knife. "This happens to be PBS," Danny said. "And I'm watching it for homework."

Sean laughed. "You're a twisted young man. G.o.d knows why I love you. Please tune it down a bit-for Uncle Doug and Aunt Anne's sake."

Danny sighed and lowered the volume with the remote.

Without the TV noise, Sean heard a mechanical whosh-whosh whosh-whosh from another part of the house-as constant as those waves crashing against the rocky sh.o.r.e outside. It was a sound she'd grown to love and hate; a rea.s.surance of life continuing, and a reminder that living was hard as h.e.l.l. from another part of the house-as constant as those waves crashing against the rocky sh.o.r.e outside. It was a sound she'd grown to love and hate; a rea.s.surance of life continuing, and a reminder that living was hard as h.e.l.l.

Sean stooped down and kissed Danny. "I've missed you. Is Dad asleep?"

"Nope. He's right here!" Doug Olson announced over the steady whosh-whosh whosh-whosh of Dan's respirator. Coming from the guest room down the hall, he pushed Dan in his wheelchair. of Dan's respirator. Coming from the guest room down the hall, he pushed Dan in his wheelchair.

Their favorite nurse, Julie, trailed behind him. Julie Adams-Smart had saved Dan's life twice already-when his respirator had malfunctioned. The pet.i.te, pretty, strawberry blonde had a lot of guts. Dan loved her, the kids loved her, Doug and Anne loved her.

Sean's feelings for this young woman were more complicated. She was grateful, resentful, beholden, and in awe of Julie. Dan now depended more on Julie than he did on her. Only last week, she couldn't understand something Dan was trying to say, but Julie had picked it up. She'd become better than Sean at reading his lips and antic.i.p.ating his needs. Julie was smiling at her now. "Dan insisted on getting dressed for you," she said.

Dan grinned. He wore his gray sweats, which had been cut to accommodate the feed tube in his back. Another tube-for his respirator-was connected at the base of his throat and hooked up to a portable machine. Julie had obviously shaved him today, and overcombed his hair until it was flat. Sean preferred Dan a bit more scruffy, because he used to look s.e.xy with a five o'clock shadow and his thick light-brown hair mussed. Too much grooming now made him appear waxy and lifeless-ready for the coffin.

The disease had rendered him totally immobile. His head was propped back against a small pillow. His hands-now puffy and mannequinlike-had been placed palms-down on his thighs. He appeared older than forty. Sometimes, Sean looked at that helpless, old man in the wheelchair, and she didn't recognize her husband. But then Dan would smile, or show a gleam in his eye, and she'd see the man with whom she had fallen in love. He was still there.

He gave her one of those looks now, and she read his lips. "Hi, honey," he said. "How did round two go with Dayle Sutton?"

Sean kissed him. "I'll tell you after the kids are in bed," she whispered. She kissed him again and held her face against his. "Thank you for waiting up and getting dressed, sweetie. You're a sight for these sore brown eyes."

The constant whosh-whosh whosh-whosh of Dan's respirator was like a clock ticking. Depending on the night, it could keep Sean awake or lull her to sleep. Tonight, she was awake. She'd been up forty-five minutes before, working the suction tube to clear Dan's mouth of excess saliva and phlegm that might obstruct his breathing. When she was done, she read his lips: "Go to back to sleep, honey. I'm fine. Good night." of Dan's respirator was like a clock ticking. Depending on the night, it could keep Sean awake or lull her to sleep. Tonight, she was awake. She'd been up forty-five minutes before, working the suction tube to clear Dan's mouth of excess saliva and phlegm that might obstruct his breathing. When she was done, she read his lips: "Go to back to sleep, honey. I'm fine. Good night."

Sean kissed his forehead, then crawled back under the sheets. The respirator machine separated his hospital-type bed from her single. Sean was so anxious and desperate for sleep, she couldn't nod off. Finally, she threw back the covers and climbed out of bed. At least Dan was asleep, thank G.o.d.

Tiptoeing into the family room, Sean opened the cabinet where they kept the videos. She found the one she wanted, and popped it into the VCR. Switching on the TV, she turned down the volume so not to wake anyone. Sean sat back on the couch, and watched her handsome, young husband playing on the beach with their two kids. Phoebe was four at the time, and Danny, nine. They were on vacation here in Malibu. Sean watched Dan swimming with Danny, and building sand castles with Phoebe. He had such a beautiful, tan body, strong arms and a hairy chest. Dan's brother must have taken the next shot, because Dan was picking her up and carrying her into the water. They were cracking up. With the volume down, she could only imagine his laughter-a sound she hadn't heard in over a year.

At the moment, accompanying their old home video was the constant whosh-whosh whosh-whosh of Dan's respirator machine down the hall. of Dan's respirator machine down the hall.

At first, they'd thought Dan had arthritis or carpal tunnel syndrome, because his hands kept cramping up. Why else would a healthy, athletic thirty-seven-year-old man find it hard to hold on to things? As a chef, it became utter misery. He'd drop utensils and pans. So many of his culinary creations ended up on the floor, and he'd have to start over again-at the price of an expensive cut of meat, fowl, or fish. Customers often complained about having to wait forever for their dinner.

The evening before his doctor's appointment, he and Sean were talking in bed. "I know what's wrong with me, honey," he whispered. "The muscles are going. It's like Gary Cooper in Pride of the Yankees Pride of the Yankees."

"Lou Gehrig's disease," Sean said quietly, stroking his arm. "ALS, I looked it up last week."

"I did my reading in the library a month ago," Dan said.

Sean held him tighter. "We don't really know yet. Both of us are being melodramatic. Let's not drape the black crepe yet, honey."

"Yeah, let's hope we're wrong," he said. "We'll laugh about this later."

After a barrage of tests, when the doctor diagnosed his ailment as ALS, amyotrophic lateral sclerosis, they nodded and said the initials in unison with him. Dan's body had already started wasting away, and would continue to deteriorate in the coming months. The ironic cruelty to this disease was that his mind would remain clear.

Sean and Dan had prepared themselves for the worst, and they got it. He wouldn't be around to watch Danny and Phoebe grow up. At the most, he had two more Christmases with them.

Sean silently watched her handsome, athletic husband slip away. He needed to feel independent as long as he could. So while she longed to tie his shoelaces for him, she'd pretend not to notice his frustration as the simple task took him nearly ten minutes some mornings. Later, she let Dan decide for himself when he was ready for a wheelchair. And Sean sat beside him as he told Danny and Phoebe that he wouldn't be getting any better.

Dan could no longer work at the restaurant. They went in debt experimenting with expensive drugs and holistic remedies. Dan began having difficulty speaking and breathing. Sean spent many nights waking up to the sound of him choking on his own phlegm. She'd drag her husband out of bed, plop him into his wheelchair, then push him into the bathroom and turn on the hot water full blast. The steam helped clear Dan's lungs, so he'd eventually cough up whatever was choking him. With all the nightly interruptions, Sean had to function regularly at the office on an average of three hours of sleep. The ordeal harkened her back to those days and nights with the kids when they were babies. It had been easier then, because there would be an end to the nocturnal feedings, and Dan was helping her.

Now, the only end in sight was Dan dying.

They put him on a respirator and a feeder. Machines did his eating and breathing for him. Yet all the while, those eyes of his were so alert. He could communicate with her and the kids-not as an invalid, but as a husband and father. The kids still turned to him for advice or praise. Danny and Phoebe were able to read his lips almost as well as their mother could.

Sean missed his voice, and his touch.

In the silent video, she and Dan emerged from the surf together and kissed for the camera. Phoebe ran to him, and Dan hoisted her in the air. Danny jumped up and down in front of them, making a goofy face.

For a moment, she thought Phoebe's faint cries were coming from the nearly muted television. Then she realized the screams emitted from her daughter's room downstairs. Sean switched off the video, then raced down the steps. She found Phoebe sitting up in bed. Except for her Little Mermaid night-light, the room was dark.

"Honey, it's okay, I'm here." She sat down on the edge of her bed.

Phoebe immediately hugged her. She was trembling. "There's a man looking in my window!"

Sean glanced over at the window across the room. This part of the house stood at ground level, with the ocean view blocked by shrubs. The leafy branches shook in the wind, occasionally sc.r.a.ping at the windowpane.

"It's just the bushes outside, that's all," Sean a.s.sured her-and herself.

"No, I saw a man," she whined. "I did."

Sean kissed the top of her head. "Well, I'll just sit here with you for a while and chase him away if he comes back. In the meantime, don't you worry about it, honey. I'm here."

Sean gently stroked Phoebe's head and listened to her breathing grow more steady. All the while, she stared out the window-just in case Phoebe wasn't dreaming.

Ten.

Dayle had a great respect for the stars of yesteryear-even the ones long ago forgotten by the public. She'd revived the careers of several veteran performers by campaigning for them to play pivotal roles in her movies. Months before Maggie McGuire had found herself back in the limelight and on the cover of People People with her gay son, Dayle had approached her to play the mother in with her gay son, Dayle had approached her to play the mother in Waiting for the Fall Waiting for the Fall.

The crusty old actor set to play Dayle's long-lost father had recently suffered a minor stroke, and they needed to find a replacement. Dayle had promised the director she would review applicants, "the Geritol guys," Dennis called them. She sat with Dennis at a conference table-along with the casting director and his a.s.sistant.

"Our next old-timer did this commercial earlier in the year," the casting director said. A handsome man with silver-black hair, he wore a blazer over his gray silk shirt. Leaning back in his chair, he popped a Tic-Tac in his mouth. "Check him out. His name's Tom Lance."

The casting director's a.s.sistant, a pale, thirtyish blonde with a bad perm and too much rouge, slipped a tape into the VCR. A McDonald's ad came on. A kindly looking, bespectacled old man shared some french fries with his grandson. A real heart-warmer. It was a shame that Dayle, with her reverence for forgotten stars, didn't recognize the actor in that McDonald's commercial.

"So-what do you think?" the casting director asked. "Name's Tom Lance. Want to meet him? He's right outside."

Dayle nodded. "Fine. Show him in."

The a.s.sistant opened the door, then called for Tom Lance. He looked younger than the grandfather in the ad, but not as gentle and sweet. The old man had an embittered, edgy quality to him. He hobbled through the doorway, trying to stand tall. He wore a tie with a powder-blue blazer and madras slacks-pro-shop clothes, the colors a bit too bright, the material too stiff.

Dayle smiled at him, then spoke loudly. "Hi, Mr. Lance. Thanks for coming today."

He grinned. "You don't have to shout. I may be old, but I'm not deaf." He p.r.o.nounced it so it rhymed with leaf.

Dayle nodded cordially. "Do you mind telling me how old you are?"

"I don't mind telling you that I'm seventy," he said, slurring his words. "Those McDonald's people wanted somebody older, so I came up with the gla.s.ses and whitened my hair. I-I can play older or younger, you name it."

Dayle kept a pleasant smile fixed on her face. Tom Lance clearly had indulged in a few shots of courage before this interview. He weaved a little as he stood in front of them. She felt sorry for him.

Dennis leaned over and whispered in her ear. "I think this guy's had a belt or two or five. The hook or what?"

Sighing, Dayle sat back and caught the casting director's eye. He nodded. "Thank you, Mr. Lance. We'll-"

"That's all? That's it?" he asked.

"We'll be in touch."

"Bulls.h.i.t!"

"Now, wait a minute-"

"No, you wait a minute," the old man shot back. "I made fifty pictures before any of you were born! I deserve some respect. Instead, I'm forced to sit out in that hallway for an hour. Then I'm called in here like a pet dog by blondie there. n.o.body bothers to get off their rear ends to greet me. I-" He shook his head and swatted at the air. "Oh, forget it!" He swiveled around, almost lost his balance, then lumbered out the door.

"Sorry about that," the casting director said.

"It's all right." Dayle sighed. "The seventh actor is good enough for me if Noah likes him."

The casting director and his a.s.sistant started to collect all the resumes and videotapes.

"You seem in the dumps," Dennis whispered to her. "Is it Grandpa? I'll go beat the s.h.i.t out of him if you want."

Dayle worked up a chuckle. "My knight in shining armor." She waved to the casting director and his a.s.sistant as they left the room. Then the smile fell from her face and she turned to Dennis again. "I-I've had these people following me around for a couple of days now. This morning, a tan Chevy tailed Hank and me from my place all the way to the studio."

"Maybe it's the tabloids. They've done this to you before, Dayle."

She shook her head. "No, I'm sure it's something far more serious. These people have me under a kind of surveillance."

"Why don't you call the police about it?"

"They'll just say I'm paranoid."

Dennis cleared his throat. "Well, you've been under a lot of stress, Dayle. I mean, ever since Leigh Simone committed suicide-"

"Suicide?" Dayle asked sharply. "Haven't you been listening to me at all these last few weeks? Leigh was murdered! Suicide? Did you say that just to get a rise out of me?"

"I'm sorry." Dennis shrugged. "It's just-well, you seem to be the only person in the free world who doesn't believe Leigh killed herself. Laura, she's a nurse, and she has some background in psychology..."

Dayle just glared at him. The last thing she wanted right now was to hear his girlfriend's theories.

"She said what you're feeling is normal. You were the last person to see Leigh Simone alive. Naturally, you feel responsible. You can't help asking yourself if you could have done something to prevent it-"

"No, Dennis. What I'm asking myself is-Where the h.e.l.l do you get off talking to Laura about me? You've only known her two weeks."

Dennis didn't respond. He stared down at the desktop.

Dayle rubbed her forehead. "Just get out of here and leave me alone."

Without a word, Dennis slunk out of his chair and headed toward the door. He glanced back at her for a moment.

"I'm not crazy, G.o.dd.a.m.n it," Dayle whispered.

Dennis nodded, then left.

The old man's Plymouth Volare was parked on a high, winding dirt road just below the HOLLYWOOD HOLLYWOOD sign. Sitting at the wheel, he glanced around, then decided the coast was clear. He reached into the glove compartment and pulled out a .380 semiautomatic. sign. Sitting at the wheel, he glanced around, then decided the coast was clear. He reached into the glove compartment and pulled out a .380 semiautomatic.

n.o.body at the audition had recognized him. If they'd bothered to look at his resume, they'd have seen who he was. Instead, he was just some old actor from a McDonald's ad.

Why, only two nights ago, one of his movies had been on television. None of his films had made it to video yet, so he was always on the lookout for when they were broadcasted on TV. Tom Lance saw this one listed in the TV Guide TV Guide, which he bought every Tuesday: '26-MOVIE-Western; 1hr, 35min (BW) **"Fall From the Saddle" (1952). Rancher turns outlaw when wife is killed by a crooked sheriff. Predictable. Tom Lance, Louise Reimen, John Clemens.

The movie aired at 2:30 A.M. A.M., and was chopped to pieces with commercial interruptions for diet centers and 900-number s.e.x lines. Yet Tom looked forward to each break, because the announcer would say: "We'll return with more shoot'm-up action in Fall from the Saddle Fall from the Saddle with Tom Lance." with Tom Lance."