The Inn At Rose Harbor Part 1

The Inn at Rose Harbor.

by Debbie Macomber.

August 2012.

Dear Friends, I got the message. You love Cedar Cove and you didn't want to leave the characters behind. All ten thousand of them. Okay, that's a slight exaggeration, but that was the problem. Thirteen books, each with its own cast of characters. If your head wasn't spinning remembering who was who, then mine was. It was time, but goodbyes are hard, and from what some of you wrote me, traumatic.

As an author I listen to my readers. You have guided my career since I first published. I try never to disappoint those who have been so encouraging and loyal. So, I came up with a compromise. My new series involves a wonderful bed-and-breakfast set in Cedar Cove. That way the characters you've come to love will make occasional appearances and give you updates on their lives. However, the focus of the story will revolve around Jo Marie and the guests who come to stay at the Rose Harbor Inn.

The name Rose has a special significance in my own life. My great-grandmother was named Rose, as was my mother. Our oldest daughter is named Jody Rose and my granddaughter (the one born on my birthday) is Madeleine Rose, so you can see the name is deeply rooted in our family heritage. As with all of my stories, I am sharing a part of myself with my readers. As always, I look forward to your comments. You can reach me in a mult.i.tude of ways. Log on to my website at DebbieMacomber.com and sign in on the guestbook page, or write to me at P.O. Box 1458, Port Orchard, WA 98366. I personally read every letter and guestbook entry. You can also contact me through Facebook. And wait, there's more ... I have my own app. I am so high tech I hardly know what to think.

Now sit back, put your feet up, and meet Jo Marie as she entertains her first two guests. This is a new life for her and I'm sure you'll come to love her and the people who enter through her door and find harbor and healing.

Warmest regards.

Chapter 1.

Last night I dreamed of Paul.

He's never far from my thoughts-not a day pa.s.ses when he isn't with me-but he hasn't been in my dreams until now. It's ironic, I suppose, that he should leave me, because before I close my eyes I fantasize about what it would feel like to have his arms wrapped around me. As I drift off to sleep I pretend that my head is resting on his shoulder. Unfortunately, I will never have the chance to be with my husband again, at least not in this lifetime.

Until last night, if I did happen to dream of Paul, those dreams were long forgotten by the time I woke. This dream, however, stayed with me, lingering in my mind, filling me with equal parts sadness and joy.

When I first learned that Paul had been killed, the grief had been all-consuming, and I didn't think I would be able to go on. Yet life continues to move forward, and so have I, dragging from one day into the next until I found I could breathe normally.

I'm in my new home now, the bed-and-breakfast I bought less than a month ago on the Kitsap Peninsula in a cozy town on the water called Cedar Cove. I decided to name it Rose Harbor Inn. "Rose" for Paul Rose, my husband of less than a year; the man I will always love and for whom I will grieve for whatever remains of my own life. "Harbor" for the place I have set my anchor as the storms of loss batter me.

How melodramatic that sounds, and yet there's no other way to say it. Although I am alive, functioning normally, at times I feel half dead. How Paul would hate hearing me say that, but it's true. I died with Paul last April on some mountainside in a country half a world away as he fought for our nation's security.

Life as I knew it was over in the s.p.a.ce of a single heartbeat. My future as I dreamed it would be was stolen from me.

All the advice given to those who grieve said I should wait a year before making any major decisions. My friends told me I would regret quitting my job, leaving my Seattle home, and moving to a strange town.

What they didn't understand was that I found no comfort in familiarity, no joy in routine. Because I valued their opinion, I gave it six months. In that time nothing helped, nothing changed. More and more I felt the urge to get away, to start life anew, certain that then and only then would I find peace, and this horrendous ache inside me ease.

I started my search for a new life on the Internet, looking in a number of areas, all across the United States. The surprise was finding exactly what I wanted in my own backyard.

The town of Cedar Cove sits on the other side of Puget Sound from Seattle. It's a navy town, situated directly across from the Bremerton shipyard. The minute I found a property listing for this charming bed-and-breakfast that was up for sale, my heart started to beat at an accelerated rate. Me own a bed-and-breakfast? I hadn't thought to take over a business, but instinctively I realized I would need something to fill my time. As a bonus, a confirmation, I'd always enjoyed having guests.

With its wraparound porch and incredible view of the cove, the house was breathtaking. In another life I could imagine Paul and me sitting on the porch after dinner, sipping hot coffee and discussing our day, our dreams. Surely the photograph posted on the Internet had been taken by a professional who'd cleverly masked its flaws. Nothing, it seemed, could be this perfect.

Not so. The moment I pulled into the driveway with the real estate agent, I was embraced by the inn's appeal. Oh yes, with its bright natural light and large windows that overlooked the cove, this B&B felt like home already. It was the perfect place for starting my new life.

Although I dutifully let Jody McNeal, the agent, show me around, not a single question remained in my mind. I was meant to own this bed-and-breakfast; it was as if it'd sat on the market all these months waiting for me. It had eight guest rooms spread across the two upper floors, and on the bottom floor a large, modern kitchen was situated next to a s.p.a.cious dining room. Originally built in the early 1900s, the house looked out on a stunning panorama of the water and marina. Cedar Cove was laid out below along Harbor Street, which wound through the town with small shops on both sides of the street. I felt the town's appeal even before I had the opportunity to explore its neighborhoods.

What attracted me most about the inn was the sense of peace I experienced the moment I walked inside. The heartache that had been my constant companion seemed to lift. The grief that I'd carried with me all these months eased. In its place came serenity, a peace that's difficult to describe.

Unfortunately, this contentment didn't last long, my eyes suddenly flooding with tears and embarra.s.sing me as we finished the tour. Paul would have loved this inn, too. But I would be managing the inn alone. Thankfully the real estate agent pretended not to notice the emotions I was struggling to disguise.

"Well, what do you think?" Jody asked expectantly as we walked out the front door.

I hadn't said a word during the entire tour, nor had I asked a single question. "I'll take it."

Jody leaned closer as if she hadn't heard me correctly. "I beg your pardon?"

"I'd like to make an offer." I didn't hesitate-by that time I had no doubts. The asking price was more than fair and I was ready to move forward.

Jody almost dropped a folder full of detailed information regarding the property. "You might want to think about it," she suggested. "This is a major decision, Jo Marie. Don't get me wrong, I'm eager to make the sale; it's just that I've never had anyone make such an important decision so ... quickly."

"I'll think about it overnight, if you want, but there's no need. I knew right away that this is it."

The instant my family heard that I intended to quit my job at Columbia Bank and buy the B&B, they all tried to talk me out of it, especially my brother, Todd, the engineer. I'd worked my way up to a.s.sistant manager of the Denny Way branch, and he feared I was throwing away a promising career. Todd knew that I would eventually be named manager. I had given almost fifteen years to the bank, had been a good employee, and my future in banking was bright What the people around me failed to understand was that my life as I'd known it, as I'd wanted it, as I'd dreamed it, was over. The only way I could achieve fulfillment was to find myself a new one.

I signed the offer for the inn the next day and not for an instant did my resolve waver. The Frelingers, who owned the B&B, gratefully accepted my offer, and within a matter of weeks-just before the holidays-we gathered together at the t.i.tle company and signed all the tedious, necessary paperwork. I handed them the cashier's check, and accepted the keys to the inn. The Frelingers had taken no reservations for the last couple of weeks in December as they intended to spend time with their children.

Leaving the t.i.tle company, I took a short detour to the courthouse and applied for a name change for the inn, christening it with its new name, The Rose Harbor Inn.

I returned to Seattle and the next day I gave Columbia Bank my notice. I spent the Christmas holiday packing up my Seattle condo and preparing for the move across Puget Sound. While I was only moving a few miles away, I might as well have been going halfway across the country. Cedar Cove was a whole other world-a quaint town on the Kitsap Peninsula away from the hectic world of the big city.

I knew my parents were disappointed that I didn't spend much of the holidays with them in Hawaii, a family tradition. But I had so much to do to get ready for the move, including sorting through my things and Paul's, packing, and selling my furniture. I needed to keep occupied-busywork helped keep my mind off this first Christmas without Paul.

I officially moved into the house on the Monday following New Year's Day. Thankfully the Frelingers had sold the inn as a turnkey business. So all I needed to bring with me were a couple of chairs, a lamp that had belonged to my grandmother, and my personal items. Unpacking took only a few hours. I chose as my room the main floor bedroom suite the Frelingers had set aside as their own area; it had a fireplace and a small alcove that included a window seat overlooking the cove. The room was large enough for a bedroom set, as well as a small sofa that sat close to the fireplace. I particularly enjoyed the wallpaper, which was covered in white and lavender hydrangeas.

By the time night descended on the inn, I was exhausted. At eight, as rain pelted against the windows and the wind whistled through the tall evergreens that covered one side of the property, I made my way into the master bedroom on the main floor. The wild weather made it feel even cozier with a fire flickering in the fireplace. I experienced none of the strangeness of settling into a new place. I'd felt welcomed by this home from the moment I'd set foot in the front door.

The sheets were crisp and clean as I climbed into bed. I don't remember falling asleep, but what so readily comes to mind is that dream of Paul, so vivid and real.

In grief counseling, I'd learned that dreams are important to the healing process. The counselor described two distinct types of dreams. The first and probably the most common are dreams about our loved ones-memories that come alive again.

The second type are called visitation dreams, when the loved one actually crosses the chasm between life and death to visit those he or she has left behind. We were told these are generally dreams of rea.s.surance: the one who has pa.s.sed rea.s.sures the living that he or she is happy and at peace.

It'd been eight months since I'd received word that Paul had been killed in a helicopter crash in the Hindu Kush, the mountain range that stretches between the center of Afghanistan and northern Pakistan. The army helicopter had been brought down by al-Qaeda or one of their Taliban allies; Paul and five of his fellow Airborne Rangers had been killed instantly. Because of the location of the crash it was impossible to recover their bodies. The news of his death was difficult enough, but to be deprived of burying his remains was even more cruel.

For days after I got the news, hope crowded my heart that Paul might have actually survived. I was convinced that somehow my husband would find a way back to me. That was not to be. Aerial photographs of the crash site soon confirmed that no one could have possibly survived. In the end, all that really mattered was that the man I loved and married was gone. He would never return to me, and as the weeks and months progressed I came to accept the news.

It'd taken me a long time to fall in love. Most of my friends had married in their twenties, and by the time they were in their mid-thirties, the majority had already started their families. I was a G.o.dmother six times over.

On the other hand, I had remained single well into my thirties. I had a busy, happy life and was involved in both my career and family. I'd never felt the need to rush into marriage or listen to my mother, who insisted I find a good man and quit being so picky. I dated plenty but there was never anyone I felt I could love for the rest of my life until I met Paul Rose.

Seeing that it'd taken me thirty-seven years to meet my match, I didn't expect love to come to me twice. Frankly, I wasn't even sure I wanted to fall in love again. Paul Rose was everything I'd ever hoped to find in a husband ... and so much more.

We'd met at a Seahawks football game. The bank had given me tickets and I had brought along one of our more prominent clients and his wife. As we took our seats, I'd noticed two men with military haircuts sitting next to me. As the game progressed, Paul introduced himself and his army buddy and struck up a conversation. Paul told me he was stationed at Fort Lewis. Like me, he enjoyed football. My parents were keen Seahawks fans, and I'd grown up in Spokane watching the games on television after church on Sundays with them and my younger brother, Todd.

Paul asked me to have a beer with him as we left the game that afternoon, and we saw each other nearly every day after. We learned we shared much more than a love of football: we shared the same political inclinations, read many of the same authors, and loved Italian food. We even had a Sudoku addiction in common. We could talk for hours and often did. Two months after we met, he shipped out to Germany, but being separated did little to slow our budding relationship. Not a day pa.s.sed that we weren't in contact in one way or another-we emailed, texted, Skyped, tweeted, and used every other available means we could to stay in touch. Yes, we even wrote actual letters with pen and paper. I'd heard about people claiming to have experienced "love at first sight" and I had scoffed. I can't say it was like that for Paul and me, but it was darn close. I knew a week after we met that he was the man I would marry. Paul said he felt the same way about me, although he claimed all it took was one date.

I will admit this: love changed me. I was happier than I could ever remember being. And everyone noticed.

At Christmastime a year ago, Paul flew back to Seattle on leave and asked me to be his wife. He even talked to my parents first. We were crazy in love. I'd waited a long time and when I gave him my heart, it was for forever.

Right after our wedding in January, Paul got orders for Afghanistan. The helicopter went down on April 27, and my world imploded.

I'd never experienced this kind of grief and I fear I handled it poorly. My parents and brother worried for me. It was my mother who suggested grief counseling. Because I was desperate to find a means to ease my pain, I agreed. In the end I was glad I attended the sessions. Doing so helped me understand my dreams, especially the one I had that first night at the inn.

Contrary to what I'd been told about visitation dreams, Paul did nothing to rea.s.sure me he was at peace. Instead, he stood before me in full military gear. He was surrounded by a light that was so bright it was hard to look at him. Even so, I found it impossible to turn away.

I wanted to run to him but was afraid that if I moved, he would disappear. I couldn't bear to lose him again even if this was only an apparition.

At first he didn't speak. I didn't either, unsure of what I could or should say. I remember that emotion filled my eyes with tears and I covered my mouth for fear I would cry out.

He joined me then and took me in his arms, holding me close and running his hand down the back of my head, comforting me. I clung to him, unwilling to let him go. Over and over he whispered gentle words of love.

When the lump in my throat eased I looked up at him and our eyes met. It felt as though he was alive and we needed to catch up after a long absence. There was so much I wanted to tell him, so much I wanted him to explain. The fact that he'd had such a large life insurance policy had come as a shock. At first I'd felt guilty about accepting such a large amount of cash. Shouldn't that money go to his family? But his mother was dead, and his father had remarried and lived in Australia. They had never been especially close. The lawyer told me Paul had been clear in his instructions.

In my dream I wanted to tell Paul that I'd used the money to buy this bed-and-breakfast and that I'd named it after him. One of the first improvements I wanted to make was to plant a rose garden with a bench and an arbor. But in the dream, I said none of that because it seemed like he already knew.

He brushed the hair from my forehead and kissed me there ever so gently.

"You've chosen well," he whispered, his eyes warm with love. "In time you'll know joy again."

Joy? I wanted to argue with him. It didn't seem likely or even possible. One doesn't heal from this kind of pain. I remembered how my family and friends had struggled to find the right words to comfort me. But there are no words ... there simply are no words.

And yet I didn't argue with him. I wanted the dream to last and I feared that if I questioned him he would leave, and I wanted him to stay with me. A peaceful feeling had come to me, and my heart, which had carried this heavy burden, felt just a little lighter.

"I don't know that I can live without you," I told him, and it was true.

"You can and you will. In fact, you'll have a long, full life," Paul insisted. He sounded like the officer he'd been, giving out orders that were not to be questioned.

"You will feel joy again," he repeated, "and much of it will come from owning Rose Harbor Inn."

I frowned. I knew I was dreaming, but the dream was so vivid I wanted to believe it was real.

"But ..." My mind filled with questions.

"This inn is my gift to you," Paul continued. "Don't doubt, my love. G.o.d will show you." In the next instant he was gone.

I cried out, begging him to come back, and my own sharp cry woke me. My tears were real, and I could feel moisture on my cheeks and pillowcase.

For a long time afterward I sat upright in the dark wanting to hold on to the feeling of my husband's presence. Eventually it faded and almost against my will I fell back asleep.

The next morning, I climbed out of bed and traipsed barefoot down the polished hardwood floor of the hallway to the small office off the kitchen. Turning on the desk lamp, I flipped through the pages of the reservation book the Frelingers had given me. I reviewed the names of the two guests due to arrive that week.

Joshua Weaver had made his reservation just the week before I took ownership. The former owners had mentioned it at the time we signed the final papers.

The second name on the list belonged to Abby Kincaid.

Two guests.

Paul had said this inn was his gift to me. I would do my best to make both guests comfortable; perhaps, in giving of myself, I would find the joy Paul had promised. And maybe, given time, it would be possible for me to find my way back to life.

Chapter 2.

Josh Weaver never thought he'd return to Cedar Cove. In the twelve years since his high school graduation he'd been back only once, and that was to attend the funeral of his stepbrother, Dylan. Even then he hadn't spent the night in town. He'd caught a morning flight, rented a car, showed up at the funeral, and left directly afterward, arriving back in California at the job site the same day. He'd barely spoken to his stepfather.

For that matter, Richard hadn't bothered to acknowledge him. It was exactly what Josh had expected. Although Dylan and Josh had been close, his stepfather hadn't seen fit to ask Josh to be one of his son's pallbearers. The slight had cut deep. He'd come anyway to pay his respects to his stepbrother.

Now Josh was back again and not out of any desire to spend time in Cedar Cove. This town meant nothing to him other than the fact that it contained his mother's grave site and Dylan's.

Born just a year apart, Josh and Dylan had been tight. Dylan had always been a daredevil. Josh had marveled at Dylan's complete lack of fear ever since they met. Still, it had come as a brutal shock when word reached him that Dylan had been killed in a motorcycle accident. That was five years ago now. Seven years after Richard Lambert had kicked him out of the house and forced Josh to find his own way in the world.

Now it seemed it was the old man's turn to meet his Maker. The sole reason Josh was back in town was because the Nelsons, who lived next door to Richard, had contacted him. Mich.e.l.le Nelson and Dylan had been in the same grade in school, with Josh a year ahead of them. Following graduation, gentle-natured Mich.e.l.le had gone on to become a social worker. Josh remembered that she'd had a big crush on Dylan, but she was overweight and Dylan hadn't returned the sentiment. In his mind, Josh linked her thoughtfulness in looking after Richard to her affection for Dylan.

"Richard is in a bad way," Mich.e.l.le had told him during their brief telephone conversation. "If you want to see him alive you'd better come-and make it soon."

Josh had no desire to see the old man. None. They shared nothing other than a mutual dislike. Josh agreed to make the trip for two reasons. First, he was between job a.s.signments as a construction manager. He had just finished one project and was waiting to hear about the next. Second, while he didn't consider it important, or really hope it was possible, it'd be nice to make peace with the old man. Then, too, there were certain things he hoped to collect from his stepfather's house. While he was in Cedar Cove, he wanted to retrieve a few personal possessions that his mother had brought into the marriage. Nothing less than what should rightfully be his and certainly nothing more.

"I'll be there as soon as I can get away," Josh had replied.

"Hurry," Mich.e.l.le urged. "Richard needs you."

Josh wagered his stepfather would keel over dead before he'd admit to needing anyone, particularly Josh. Apparently the neighbors had forgotten that Richard had taken delight in kicking Josh out of the house only a few months after his mother's death. Josh had been just weeks away from his high school graduation. When he left he hadn't been allowed to take anything more than some clothes and his schoolbooks.

Richard had claimed Josh was a thief. Two hundred dollars had been missing from his wallet and he was convinced Josh had stolen it. The fact was, Josh knew nothing about the missing money, which left only Dylan. Richard would never believe his own flesh and blood was guilty, though, so Josh had accepted the blame. What he hadn't expected was for Richard to demand he leave so close to graduation.

In retrospect, Josh accepted that the missing money was just an excuse. Richard had wanted him out of the house and out of his life, and until now Josh had been more than willing to comply.

He was back in Cedar Cove, but he felt no sense of homecoming as he eased his truck into the driveway of the address scribbled down on a piece of paper. The B&B had surfaced in a hasty online search he'd conducted, looking for a location convenient to his stepfather's house.

One thing was certain: he couldn't stay with Richard. As far as Josh knew, Richard didn't even know he was coming, which suited him just fine. If everything went well, he'd be in and out of town in a day or two. He didn't want to stay any longer than was absolutely necessary. And when he left Cedar Cove this time, Josh had no intention of ever looking back.

Once he parked in the inn's small lot, he climbed out of the truck, and reached for his overnight bag and laptop. The sky was overcast and it looked like rain, which was par for January in the Pacific Northwest. The charcoal-colored skies were an adequate reflection of his mood. He'd give just about anything to be somewhere other than Cedar Cove-anyplace that didn't force him to confront the stepfather who had detested him.