The Forgiven Duke Part 19

Music.

Chapter Twenty-Seven.

This is your room." After a brief tour of the house, the duke's sister Jane, who seemed very kind but weighed down with sadness too, encouraged Alex inside with a smile and an excited light in her eyes. She opened the double doors and led the way into the most astounding suite Alex had ever seen.

She walked into the middle of the main room, a sitting room and huge bedchamber in one, and looked up and up toward a ceiling within a ceiling of ornate plasterwork. There was no gold in this room, for which Alex was glad. No notion of kings and dukes and people who thrived on golden power. No, this room was in shades of sunrise, from pale pink and lavender to creams and soft shades of yellow.

The ceiling, where she couldn't tear her eyes from, didn't have one ma.s.sive chandelier but twenty or so miniature ones in various lengths, hanging from high to low, their shapes from wide to narrow, some with many arms, some with a few, combining to make hundreds of dancing lights that flickered against the pearl essence of the ceiling.

The walls were lined with cream wainscoting and elegant molding around every window, doorway, and cove. The floor was pale marble, barely seen beneath thick carpets in lavender and cream, and farther across the huge s.p.a.ce were two giant rugs swirling with pastel designs. She walked farther into the airy room. Beyond the sitting area, her personal drawing room, was the bedchamber. The bed was a huge four-poster with draping transparent curtains. Beneath it was a lavender-and-cream-striped counterpane, so thick she would be able to sleep on top of it from anywhere and not feel discomfort. She touched the softness, her gaze soaking in the hundreds of thought-out details.

There were window coves with deep-cushioned seating areas, a pretty writing desk, little tables and delicate chairs, all done in pale yellows and shades of purple. Paintings and fresh flowers and sweet little knickknacks and delicate trinkets. She couldn't see it all, there was so much.

"Oh my." The sound escaped her.

Jane turned, a pleased smile on her face. "Do you like it?"

She looked at the duke's sister and shook her head, a feeling of disbelief taking over. "I've never seen anything like it. I didn't know places like this existed." Her gaze roamed over and over the gleaming furnishings, the paintings, the statuettes, the plants that must be real they were so thick and green.

Jane beckoned her further with her hand. "There's more. Come see this. It is my favorite part."

Alex followed her into an arched alcove, one of several the room held. They came into a smaller room lit from above by windows in the ceiling. Alex gasped as row upon row of colorful gowns, shawls and cloaks, shoes and stockings, petticoats and nightdresses, hats and bonnets-every wardrobe article imaginable met her eyes.

"He sent instructions for them to be made up for you after his visit to Holy Island." Jane pulled forth a gown of pale pink with a transparent overskirt in filmy white, rows of threaded white ribbon on the hem and sleeves. It seemed made of sunrise and mist. "Do you like it?"

Did she like it?

It was the most perfect dress she'd ever seen.

He'd done all this for her? And after finding her gone from Holy Island? She had supposed he must have been terribly angry when he found her missing. But there must have been something else he felt . . . to have done all this for her. The rooms, the gowns, the preparations-the time and thought he must have put into it.

She turned away before Jane could see the sheen of tears that rushed to her eyes as she stared, dumbfounded, at the lavish display. She blinked them back, touching another gown in deep red, trying not to crumble in a ma.s.s of emotion in front of his sister, trying to understand what was happening.

She took a deep breath and a step toward Jane and the dress. "How?" She held out her arm. "Why?"

Jane lowered the dress until it hung to the floor in a pink frothy pool around them. "You don't know?"

Alex shook her head, lips pressed down and quivering.

Jane leaned over and gave her a light hug. "You'll see. Just give him some time." She thrust the gown into Alex's arms and turned to go. "Dinner is at eight." She waved over her shoulder and left Alex in the middle of a parade of color.

After Jane left, all the energy drained from Alex's body. She stripped down to her chemise and took the dress to the bed with her. She peeled back the mound of coverlets, slid inside, and spread the exquisite gown out beside her, clutching a tulle sleeve.

She drifted to sleep dreaming of green-eyed panthers and a man with jet black hair with a look that took her breath away. As she drifted down deeper the dream changed. She saw John's face blown to pieces and heard her cries and screams. She tried to stop the blood with the pink gown, but it only turned red and dark and then black. She woke with a strangled cry, clutching the dress to her face and panting so hard she couldn't catch her breath.

A sudden bell rang from somewhere in the house. What time was it? She rubbed her face. It was a dream. But a dream that had really happened. Her heart felt leaden, guilty because of the lavish rooms and the gift of a life John no longer had.

Dear Lord, I know he did some foolish, awful things, but I hope he is in heaven with You. I hope he believed in Your son for salvation. She wished she had talked about it with him and knew for certain.

She swung out of the high bed and landed on her feet. But it was too much to dwell on in the midst of so much change. She had to give this new life a chance, didn't she? Starting with dinner at eight.

Pushing aside the dark thoughts, she slipped off her clothes and called for a maid to help her dress in the new finery. The pink gown fit perfectly. Going to the dressing table inside the dressing room, she sank down and searched through the drawers. Mirrors and powders, cosmetics, brushes, combs, hair bands, and tiaras-were those real jewels? And then in the middle, a wide drawer full of velvet-lined rows of necklaces, bracelets, rings, and earrings. Jewels glittered back at her in all shapes and sizes.

Was there no end to what had he done?

She lifted out a delicate diamond-and-pearl necklace, a large diamond pendant hanging from the center. With wide, unblinking eyes she lifted it to her throat. Dare she wear such a thing? There were earrings and a bracelet to match. In a daze she put them on, one by one, watched the maid twist her dark tresses into coils of curls around the delicate combs, and then looked at herself in the mirror. This was what he wanted. This was what was expected of a ward of the Duke of St. Easton. It was suddenly clear. This was her new life.

With a deep breath she took out a delicate fan from another drawer and experimented with fanning it. It was almost eight o'clock. Almost time for dinner.

Let it begin.

GABRIEL CLIMBED THE STAIRS TO his private box at the Theatre Royal in Drury Lane and settled in for the evening performance. It had been a fortnight since he had installed Alexandria into his household. A fortnight of watching her from afar and directing her every activity-the dancing and music lessons, the commissioning of her portrait that she sat for at exactly ten o'clock each morning, the walks and rides in Hyde Park, the calls she received and the calls she and Jane paid, her first small forays into society with his sister at a musical soiree and a dinner party made up of his sisters, their families, and some close friends.

He met with Jane and Meade each day and planned her debut with a military precision that left nothing to chance. She would know her options and she would choose what life she wanted; he would make sure of that.

The fact that she asked after him, according to Jane, wondered why he wouldn't speak to her, have dinner with her, see her at all, could not steer him from his course. Even with Jane's pleading and Meade's nervous head shaking, they didn't understand. Without the shield of distance and letters, he felt disfigured in her presence. But he could give her anything the world had to offer. He still had that.

Settling in his seat, he returned to the place that always brought him comfort. He leaned his head back and closed his eyes. With practice he had discovered that he could tell when the music began through the vibrations of his wooden box. Then as he relaxed into the vibrating sounds all around him, he lost himself in the colors. They became a sort of prayer, a worshipful prayer he imagined only he and G.o.d shared. His being hummed with the vibrations, casting out his own colors up toward G.o.d, a living instrument of praise and worship.

It was a place of mystery and yet clarity-a place where he felt whole. Here being deaf was an advantage, being weak and broken brought the beauty of humility into his heart, and he could breathe deep and let go and believe and trust and bask in G.o.d's love for him. When the world and the voices around him said he was broken, he came here to find peace.

He no longer worshiped music itself; he used music as a tool to worship G.o.d.

A FEW HOURS LATER HE returned to his town house. The place was lit up with lights from every window. A carriage stopped at his front door and let out four people dressed in the height of fashion. They paused outside his house and Gabriel stopped. Time slowed as he watched them adjust their hats and skirts, bowed toward one of them, and start toward the door.

He blinked. Looked again . . . Could it be?

Was that the regent? What was going on?

He hurried from his carriage and looked for Meade. There he was, standing close to Jane and saying something in her ear. Jane nodded and stared long at him, her face held a look that was something new. A look that took Gabriel aback. She looked happy again, happy and hesitant, like a fledgling flower, questioning her security but rising, growing under the bright light of his secretary's regard.

And Meade! He didn't appear to stutter so terribly now, though he still appeared overly flushed and pleased as he leaned toward her and listened to her thoughts. They nodded toward Alexandria and raised their brows in a laughing, happy manner.

Alexandria. His gaze took in the dress that moved like wisps of clouds around her. She looked up the moment he entered the room. She stopped everything she was doing, turned toward him, and lifted her gaze to lock on to his.

G.o.d help him, he couldn't take his eyes from her. And yet he must.

She had sensed him the moment he walked through the door. It had been like this every day. Whenever they accidentally ran into each other in the vast house, he'd bowed and tried to leave, ignoring the electric current between them, ignoring her imploring and confused eyes. Always that jolt of happiness in her eyes and then confusion and sadness as he turned to flee. Now she stared into his eyes, silently beckoning him, ignoring the small group of people in the circle around her.

He wanted nothing more than to go to her, place his hand at the small of her back and claim her as his, but then what? Pretend he could make out what was going on? Pretend he knew what they were saying? Their mouths moving unintelligible around vowels and consonants he'd learned as a child. No! Now was most certainly not the time to reveal his "condition."

Where was the regent?

Gabriel took a shattered breath and turned away from her, turned toward Meade instead, and motioned for his secretary to follow him. They walked down the hall in silence, Meade behind him. The feeling that he was behind him, no matter what occurred, bolstered Gabriel's stride.

Once in the library, Gabriel s.n.a.t.c.hed up the speaking book from his desk and thrust it at his secretary. "What's going on here? I don't remember there being a gathering scheduled for tonight. And was that the regent I saw walking through my front door? What is he doing here?"

Meade kept his head down as he made his way to the desk and sat down to write. Must be a lengthy answer since Gabriel could read his lips well enough for a short conversation. Gabriel read over his shoulder.

Sorry, Your Grace. We sent word to you at the opera. The prince regent sent a note that he would like an audience and that a dinner party would be appropriate, as he was bringing some of his court to meet Alexandria. He seems to have taken a liking to her. We have been in a flurry of activity preparing for it these last hours. He also mentioned that he needs to tell you something. I believe he said, "He has news of great import for you."

Gabriel looked toward the dark window of his inner room, his brows coming together as he considered what that might be. News of great import. Could it have something to do with the missing ma.n.u.script? Had they found it at last?

"Please ask His Majesty if it would please him to come here to the library for privacy. I would like to hear this news before dinner, if he is so inclined."

Meade bowed his way from the room, making Gabriel frown. Could Jane be falling in love with him? Everyone knew Meade loved her, had since the moment he first met her. Gabriel couldn't allow it, could he? Meade wasn't n.o.bility; he was only a duke's secretary.

And one of the best friends Gabriel had.

He would have to devise a way for Meade to become knighted. Mayhap the regent would need a favor soon. A barony would be enough. With Jane's fortune from her marriage, it would be more than enough. But what would he do without Meade helping him navigate this silent world?

Gabriel shook his head. He'd never thought his life would come down to needing his secretary to get by in day-to-day living. He leaned a hand against the mantel and chuckled at himself. He'd never imagined needing anyone like he depended on Meade.

Jane couldn't ask for a better man.

He prowled about the room while the man who might someday be his brother-in-law delivered his message to the regent.

Finally the prince regent came through the door. Gabriel bowed low, counted to three, and then rose.

"Please, Your Majesty, won't you sit down." Gabriel indicated the best seat in the room. He waited while the copious man sat and adjusted his clothing for better comfort. Once the regent was comfortably settled, Gabriel motioned Meade toward the seat and speaking book beside him and sat across from the most powerful man in the realm.

"Meade says you have news, Your Majesty," Gabriel began, brows raised over slanted green eyes.

The prince regent smiled, his full cheeks florid, his eyes alight with mischief. "I do." He nodded and waved Meade and the book away as if unneeded.

He leaned in and said with clear lips, "The Featherstones have been spotted in Italy."

"You've heard from them?" He wanted it to be true, with everything in him, except that one part that said if they were alive she wouldn't need him . . . she wouldn't be his ward . . . or his anything.

The regent nodded again. "One of my spies saw them a few weeks ago. They said they were very close to finding the ma.n.u.script." He motioned that Meade write it down but Gabriel understood.

"Where in Italy?"

He shook his head. "I have sent trained investigators and some of the best Bow Street Runners after them. You will stay here with Alexandria. She is not to know of this. We will keep her occupied with social events." He rose to go.

"Your Majesty, please. Where are they?"

He pulled a paper from an inner pocket and flicked it on Gabriel's desk, laughing. "Don't disappoint me, St. Easton." He turned suddenly and glared at Gabriel with a dark look. "I want that ma.n.u.script at any cost, and I won't have the girl ruining everything by getting in the middle of things. Get her married off-soon-to someone who can handle her." He paused with an intent look. "Someone like you."

Shock spiraled through Gabriel as he watched the regent lumber from the room. He had just been given permission to marry Alexandria, not just permission, a veiled order. He picked up the note and opened it. A letter addressed to the regent, the words Florence, Italy, flowing from the spy's pen. So, it must be true. It matched the location of the cryptic note the librarian had given him.

A plan began to form in the corners of Gabriel's mind.

A wedding plan.

A honeymoon trip.

A plan she would not be able to say no to.

Chapter Twenty-Eight.

Latimere, come back here." Alex laughed in terrified glee as her white Great Pyrenees, recently sent for and delivered to her without the duke's knowledge, pounded down the hall, tail waving wildly and knocking over everything in his path. He rounded a corner with an enormous crash.

Alex hurried after him to discover a delicate table with a vase full of fresh flowers smashed into glittering pieces on the floor. She shrieked in horror. That vase must have cost a fortune! Oh no! "Latimere, stop this instant! Come back here!" She ran after him in a flurry of green-and-white-striped skirts and rounded another corner, sliding in her stocking feet along the marble floors.

Bam! She plowed into something very solid, came to a sudden stop, and then went down to land on her backside with a squeal. She looked up, brushing her long hair out of her face, to see the duke's scowl. Of course it would have to be him. She hadn't seen him in days and had even taken to haunting the halls around his suite of rooms to try to catch a glimpse of him, always looking her best at the time, with rehea.r.s.ed lines of wit to make him smile.

She couldn't remember a single word of those lines as his deep green eyes impaled her. Oh, dear-he looked angry. He reached for her before she could say a word and hauled her up to stand, blinking in horror, in front of him.

"I'm so-" She started to say sorry, but he put a finger to her lips and cracked a half smile that was so devastatingly attractive, she felt her stomach slide and forgot to take the next breath.

"So you've managed to bring the beast to London." When she opened her mouth to explain, he shook his head in such a stern way she snapped her jaw closed. "Just nod yes or no."

She nodded yes.

"I suppose Meade had something to do with this."

She opened her mouth to explain that Meade had a.s.sured her the duke liked dogs and that Meade had been so kind, seeing how lonely she was, and had sent the duke's coach on a speedy weeks-long journey to Northumberland and back to fetch him for her. She didn't plan on mentioning the letter she had given the coachman for Ann and Henry, her aged servants on Holy Island, begging them to send any news they might hear of her parents to London. The duke needn't know she was looking for clues.

But the duke didn't let her say any of that! He narrowed his eyes at her open mouth and interrupted. "Uh-uh. Yes or no."

She sighed in frustration and nodded.

"Just as I thought." He looked up and down the hall at the damage as Latimere turned around and padded back toward them as if asking where his playmate had gone. Her pet squeezed around the duke as if he was just another inconvenient piece of furniture and buried his nose in Alex's skirts.

The duke glared at her giant pet, his lips in a grim line. "Keep that beast in your wing of the house. And see that he doesn't destroy everything."

Alex nodded "yes," wishing he would talk to her, or rather that she was allowed to talk to him. He seemed so formal now, so out of reach. Nothing like he'd been in his letters. He'd claimed to enjoy her banter and wanted to get to know her better. But if that were the case, then why did he avoid her as if she carried the plague?

She wasn't sure what she had expected living with her guardian to be like, but she hadn't imagined that she would feel like a pampered pariah. It was all so confusing. And, when she lay in bed at night and let tears of loneliness and despair drip into her pillow, disappointing. She had allowed her imagination to get away with her again and had imagined him half in love with her. Or at least in like with her. Especially after what he had said when he rescued her in Iceland. But he didn't seem to want anything to do with her and it hurt.

She looked up at him now, drinking in his beauty. She even swayed a little toward him, her eyes, she knew, too full of longing. The green of his eyes changed for a second, deepened, and looked searchingly into hers, but it only lasted a moment and then they hardened like emeralds. "Good day, Alexandria."

He gave her a short bow, patted Latimere on the head, who growled at him but he didn't seem to notice, and walked away.

As he turned the corner out of sight, she let out her breath, squatted down, and buried her face in Latimere's neck. "You must be good," she whispered at him. "I won't be able to bear it if they send you back."