The Fireman: A Novel Part 22

He found a few dry planks of driftwood and pushed them in the fire, his hands extending into the flame up to the wrists. Then he retreated, holding his sides. His eyes were glazed and blank and he never looked away from the furnace. He backed all the way to the narrow cot. When his calves struck it, he sat down.

Harper reached him, helped him lie back, and began to unb.u.t.ton his shirt. He looked past her at his barrel full of fire. It seemed to hold him fascinated.

"Close the hatch," he whispered.

She ignored him, loosened his suspenders. "I want this shirt off."

"Please," he said and laughed weakly. "She might see us and get the wrong idea."

Harper put her palm to the side of his face. She didn't much care for the feverish heat she felt in his cheek. Harper tugged his shirt up, began to work it off him. It was no trouble to free his left arm, but when she began to wiggle it down the length of his right arm, he made a quick, gasping sound, somewhere between a sob and a laugh.

His right elbow was swollen, an ugly shade of purple mottled with darker, almost black spots.

"Can you bend it?" she asked.

The Fireman cried out when she lifted the arm gently, flexing the elbow, and moved her thumbs carefully over the k.n.o.bs of bone. Nothing broken, but the soft tissues had gone fat and knotty, ligaments pulled into ragged threads. The wrist was worse than the elbow, already as thick around as his calf, with a deep blue bruise under the skin.

She took his right hand in one of hers and gripped his forearm with the other hand. She rotated the wrist, this way and that, looking for subluxation. A lump of bone-the lunate-had popped free from the others, come completely out of place.

"Is it bad?" he asked.

"Nothing serious," she said. She was going to have to realign it, the sooner the better. She crossed her thumbs over his wrist. His pale, almost colorless face was dewy with sweat.

"Say," he said. "You aren't about to do something awful to me, are you?"

She smiled apologetically and squeezed. The lunate squirted back into place between the other bones with a wet little sock! He shivered violently and shut his eyes.

Harper looked past his arm at his right side, discolored with a grotesque patchwork of bruises. She traced her fingers along his ribs. Fracture there. Fracture here. Another. A fourth.

"Harper," he breathed, gently. "I think I might pa.s.s out."

"It's all right if you do."

But he didn't. Not yet. He hunched on the edge of his mattress, shivering helplessly, battered arm clutched to his abused right side.

Harper wanted a sling for him. She shoved herself to her feet, began to sort through the clutter close to the bed. She found a box of dirty Frisbees, tennis b.a.l.l.s, croquet hoops and mallets. Everything anyone would want for an afternoon of quiet fooling around outdoors. Tucked in behind the box was a camp longbow that had seen better days and-there. A canvas quiver with a few sad-looking, largely de-feathered arrows stuck in it. She dumped them clattering onto the floor. Another minute of hunting and she was able to turn up a pair of garden shears.

She snipped the quiver open from one end to the other, making a canvas trough. Harper loosened the strap that would've held the quiver to an archer's back. When she returned to the bed, John had dropped onto his left side across the mattress. He was still shivering, but in weak little pulses now. His eyelids drooped.

Harper fitted his right arm into her better-than-nothing makeshift sling, working with patient, deliberate care not to unduly jostle his wrist or elbow. He took a few short gasping breaths, but otherwise endured without a sound. When the arm was settled into place, she picked up his feet and flopped them on the mattress, then arranged a blanket over him.

She thought he had drifted off to sleep while she was tucking him in, but he whispered, "Now the hatch, please. To conserve heat. It'll keep the fire from burning down too quickly."

Harper pushed a curl of brown hair back from his sweaty temple and whispered, "All right, John."

She crossed to the furnace, but hesitated before clapping the hatch shut, her gaze drawn by the weird, vibrant hues of the blaze within: she saw flashes of jade and rose. She watched in a kind of peaceful trance for almost half a minute, and was just about to close the panel . . . when she saw her.

For a moment there was a face in the fire: a woman's face, with wide, startled eyes set far apart, and the smooth features of cla.s.sical statuary, a face very like Allie's, but fuller and older and sadder. Her lips were parted as if she were about to speak. It was not a hallucination; not imagined; not a trick of the dancing firelight. The face in the flames stared at her for a full count of five.

Harper was trying to scream, but could not find the wind. By the time she was finally able to inhale, the woman she had glimpsed in the fire was gone.

13.

Harper retreated, watching the flames for further wonders. Any thoughts of closing the hatch had been startled out of mind. She looked around for John, to ask him what she had just seen-to ask him what the h.e.l.l was in the furnace-and saw he was asleep. His breath came in a thin, strained whistle.

She felt her own exhaustion deeply. Weariness was a dry, bitter ache in every joint. She settled in a soft chair with threadbare linen cushions, in a good position to watch the fire, to keep an eye on it in case it did anything else.

The flames rippled and flowed, casting their ancient hypnotic spell, draining the will and thought out of her head. It cast a blaze of heat, too, that was as agreeable as a comfortable old quilt. A part of her was afraid the woman would part those incarnadine curtains of fire and peer out at her once more. Another part of her longed to see her again.

She might've closed her eyes for a while.

A cry jolted her upright-a small sob of pain or terror. She wasn't sure how much time had pa.s.sed, a minute or an hour, and didn't know if the cry had been real or imagined. She listened intently, but heard nothing more.

The flames had burned down some and she recollected at last that John had wanted her to close the hatch. It took all of her energy to get up and shut the sliding steel door. After she sat again and for a long while she floated, untethered, in the peaceful gray zone between sleep and wakefulness. She was as free and adrift as an empty boat on an empty sea, a good way to feel, but a bad thing to think, and suddenly she sprang all the way awake. The boat. John had warned her it had to be pulled farther up on the beach or they would be stranded.

The thought of losing the boat startled her out of the chair and onto her feet. The rest of her mental cobwebs were blasted away the instant she stepped outside into an abrasive, salty gust of wind.

It was near dawn and the fog was pearly and silken in the first light. The breeze was scattering it, pulling it to silvery scarves, and through a great rent in the fabric of the mist, Harper could see to the opposite sh.o.r.e.

Three canoes had been hauled up onto the snow. Everyone had come back alive, then. Nick was on the beach, dragging one of the canoes across the sand. Harper wondered who would've sent a little boy, all by himself, to haul the boats back into the boathouse. This close to morning, he belonged in bed.

She waved. The instant he saw her, he gave up on what he was doing with the canoe and began waving himself, frantically, flailing both arms over his head in the universal gesture of distress. And at last she registered the wrongness of the moment. Nick was not dressed for the weather, wore only a light black fleece and his slippers. And the canoe-he had not been dragging it toward the boathouse, but down into the water. No one had sent him to stow the canoes. He had come to find her.

In two steps she was up to her ankles in the brackish, stinking muck once again. Her boots were in that slop somewhere. She didn't look for them, just ran the rowboat into the water and stepped in.

By the time she pulled up alongside the dock, Nick was waiting with a mossy length of rope. He wound it around a cleat at the end of the boat, then seized her arm. She believed if he had been big enough he would've flung her up onto the pine boards, like a fisherman hauling in his catch.

He wanted to run but he didn't want to let go of her, either, yanking her arm as they climbed the steep slope. Nick's breath screamed in his throat. She couldn't go as fast as he wanted, crunching along in the granular snow in her bare feet.

"Stop," she said, and made him hold up with her, pretending she needed to catch her breath when really she intended for him to catch his. "Can you write? What's happened, Nick?"

Harper slipped her arm out of his to mime the act of writing, scribbling an invisible pen on the foolscap of the milky air. But he shook his head, desperately, miserably, and ran on, not bothering to try and drag her anymore.

The mist rolled down through the trunks of the red pines, flowing like the ghost of a great flood, pouring over the ground, back toward the sea, in slow motion.

She followed him-pursued him, really-to the infirmary, where he had at last stopped to wait for her at the bottom of the steps. His aunt was beside him, dressed in thin flannel pajamas and barefoot herself.

"My father-" Carol said, her voice coming in savage bursts between sobs for air, as if she and not Harper were the one who had just charged half a mile up the hill through the snow. "It's my father. I prayed, I prayed you'd come back and you're here and you have to say you'll save him, you have to say."

"I'll do whatever I can," Harper said, taking Carol by the elbow, turning her toward the infirmary. "What happened?"

"He's crying blood," Carol said. "And he's talking to G.o.d. When I left him he was begging G.o.d to forgive the person who murdered him."

14.

There were too many people in the ward. Carol and Harper squeezed through a crowd that included Allie and the Neighbors girls and Michael and a few other Lookouts. Some of them were holding hands. Mike had stripped to the waist and a red slick-blood and sweat-glistened on his chest. With his head bowed and his eyes closed and his lips moving in silent prayer, he looked like an Age of Aquarius seeker in a sweat lodge. A girl sat on the floor hugging her knees to her chest and sobbing helplessly.

Candles crowded the counters and bristled around the sink, yet the room was still only dimly lit. Tom Storey was stretched out in one of the camp beds. In the shadows he could've been a discarded overcoat lying on top of the sheets. Don Lewiston stood at the head of the cot.

"Young people," Harper said, as if she were decades older than Allie and Michael, and not a twenty-six-year-old who had finished school only four years ago. "Thank you. Thank you so much for everything you've done." She had no idea if they had done anything, but it didn't matter. It would be easier to steer them if they felt their important contributions had been recognized, if they believed they had made all the difference. "I have to ask everyone to leave now. We need air and quiet in this room."

Allie had been crying. Her cheeks were flushed, but hot white lines traced the pa.s.sage of tears. Her Captain America mask, grimy and battered, hung around her neck. She gave Harper a small, frightened nod and squeezed Michael's hand. The two of them began to herd the others back into the waiting room, all without speaking.

Harper caught Michael's upper arm, drew him back. In a low voice she said, "Take Carol, too. Please. Tell her you want to sing with her. Tell her Nick is upset and needs his aunt. Tell her whatever you like, but get her out of this room. She can't be in here."

Michael moved his head in the slightest gesture of a.s.sent, then called back, "Miss Carol? Will you come sing with us? Will you help us sing for Father Storey?"

"No," Carol said. "I need to be with my father now. He needs me. I want him to know I'm here."

"He will," Michael said. "We'll sing together and call him to the Bright with us. If you want him to feel you close, that's how to do it. If you draw him into the Bright, he'll know you're with him, and he won't be scared or in pain. Nothing hurts there. It's the one thing we can do for him now."

Carol trembled in nervous bursts. Harper wondered if she was in shock.

"Yes. Yes, Michael, I think you're right. I think-"

Father Storey called out to them, in a voice that was good-humored but strained, as if he had been talking for a long time and his throat was worn out.

"Oh, Carol! When you sing I feel so in love with you my heart could crack." He laughed, sarcastic, un-Tom-like laughter. "After that last song, my heart is cracked just like a window! And a good thing, too! It's hard to see anything through stained gla.s.s."

Carol stood transfixed, staring toward him, a fixed look of pain and astonishment on her face, as if someone had stuck a knife into her.

Don Lewiston cupped Father Storey's skull, holding white cotton padding to his wound. Michael's shirt was wadded up on the pillow, the flannel already stiffening with blood.

Father Storey's eyes were open wide, each one looking in a different direction. One stared down and to the left. The other was pointed at the toes of his boots. He smiled with a certain low cunning.

"A thousand prayers every minute everywhere and what does G.o.d ever say back? Nothing! Because silence never lies. Silence is G.o.d's final advantage. Silence is the purest form of harmony. Everyone ought to try it. Put a stone in your mouth instead of a lie. Put a rock on your tongue instead of gossip. Bury the liars and the wicked under stones until they say no more. More weight, hallelujah." He took another little sip of air, and then whispered, "The devil is loose. I saw him tonight. I saw him come from the smoke. Then my head caved in and now it's full of rocks. More weight, amen! Better watch out, Carol. This camp belongs to the devil, not to you. And he isn't alone, either. Many serve him."

Carol stared at her father with a horror-struck fascination. Father Storey licked his lips.

"I brought this on myself. I called weakness kindness and told lies when I should've kept a stone in my mouth. I did the worst thing a father can do. I had a favorite. I am so sorry, Carol. Please forgive me. I always loved Sarah best. It is right and proper that I should go to her now. Give me another stone. More weight. I've said enough, amen."

He exhaled a long, dreamy breath and was silent.

Harper caught Carol's eye. "He doesn't mean it. He's suffering from a subdural hematoma. If he's talking nonsense, it's because of the pressure on his brain."

Carol looked back at her with a strange lack of recognition, as if they had never met before. "It isn't nonsense. It's a revelation! He's doing what he's always done. He's showing us the way." Carol reached out, blindly grasping backward, and took Michael's hand. She squeezed his fingers. "We'll sing. We'll sing and call him to the Bright. We'll give him all the light he needs to find his way back to us. And if he can't come back to us-if he has to go-" Her voice choked. She coughed, and her shoulders shook spasmodically, and she went on: "-if he has to go, he'll have our song to guide him and give him comfort."

"Yes," Harper said. "I think that's just right. Go and sing for him now. He needs your strength. And sing for me, because I need your strength, too. I'm going to try and help him, but I'm scared. It would mean the world to me if you could raise your voices for both of us."

Carol gave her a last, wondering look, then stood on her tiptoes and kissed her on the cheek. It was perhaps the last kindness she ever showed Harper. A moment later she brushed through the curtain and was gone, taking the others with her.

Don Lewiston was getting ready to walk out, too, pulling his sleeves down to b.u.t.ton them.

"Not you, Don," Harper said. "You stay. I'll need you."

She circled behind the cot, taking Don Lewiston's place behind Father Storey's head. She gently lifted his skull in both hands. His silver hair was drenched in blood. She could feel the place behind his right ear where he had been struck, a warm wet lump, and another place, higher up, where there might've been a second blow.

"How did this happen?" she asked.

"I don't know," Don said. "I didn't get the whole tale. Mikey carried him into the camp, found him fackin' half dead in the woods. I guess it was one of the convicts. That's the early word. Ben is working on them right now."

Working on them? What did that mean? Didn't matter. Not now.

"And Father Storey couldn't say anything about what happened?"

"Not that made sense. He said it was a judgment. He said it was what he had coming to him for protecting the wicked."

"That's the pressure on his brain. He doesn't have any idea what he's saying."

"I know't."

She looked at Father Storey's pupils, sniffed his lips, and caught an unsurprising whiff of vomit. She thought about what she had to do and felt nauseated herself. Not the notion of doing it-it had been a long time since she had been squeamish about blood-but at the thought of getting it wrong.

In the waiting room, she heard voices warming up, heard the Lookouts humming together, trying to find the same note.

"I need a razor to shave away the hair back here," Harper said.

"Yes'm. I'll get'cha one," he said, and took a step toward the door.

"Don?"

"Yes'm?"

"Can you get your hands on a drill? Maybe from the wood shop? A power drill would be ideal, but I don't imagine you'll find one that has any charge. I'll settle for one I can crank by hand."

Don looked from her to Tom Storey-his white hair shampooed in red froth-and back.

"Oh, Jesus. Anything else?"

"Just hot water to sterilize the drill bit, please. Thank you."

When he didn't reply, she looked up to tell him that was all and that he should go, but he was already gone.