The Fireman: A Novel Part 17

"Where what is?"

"The island. Martha Quinn's island. At least he thinks he knows. He showed me on a map once. He says based on all the information, it's probably Free Wolf Island, off Machias."

"So he's heard the broadcast?"

"No."

"Have you?"

"No."

"Has anyone heard Martha Quinn?"

"No," said Carol Storey, before Allie could reply.

They had reached an intersection, beyond Monument Park, where the path from the chapel met a series of planks extending from the woods. Carol emerged from the snow, which was whipping almost sideways, her father behind her. She led him as if he were a child, holding his mittened hand.

"You ask everyone in camp," Carol Storey said. "It's always someone else who has heard it. And if it makes them feel better to have a perfect safe haven to daydream about, what's wrong with that? I've caught myself going through the AM band sometimes, too. But I'll tell you what. Even if she's out there, Martha Quinn doesn't have anything we need. We've already got everything we need right here."

Harper stamped into the cafeteria, snow falling off her boots in wet white clumps. Father Storey flapped his coat and a small blizzard fell around his legs. She cast her gaze around for Nick and didn't see him.

They collected trays and moved along the line to be served.

Father Storey said, "I always had a bit of a crush on Martha Quinn, in her bright vests and skinny ties. There's something about a woman in a tie. You just want to grab it and pull her over for a squeeze." He winked. Norma Heald dished him a scoop of ravioli. The sauce had the consistency of mud. "Norma, this looks delightful. Is it your own recipe?"

"It's Chef Boyardee," Norma said.

"Wonderful!" he cried, and shuffled along to get himself some Ritz crackers.

Norma rolled her eyes to watch him go, then looked back to Harper. She collected another scoop of ravioli, but instead of dumping it into Harper's bowl, she waved the big serving spoon at her. "I remember when she was on TV. Martha Quinn. Teaching little girls to dress like tiny wh.o.r.es. Her and Madonna and the one with the hair like cotton candy, Cyndi Lauper. People like Martha Quinn are the reason this world is being scourged by fire. You ask yourself if G.o.d would let such a woman live, and make her His voice, calling His people to safety? Look in your heart. You know He wouldn't. She is gone and Madonna is gone and every moneylender in Jew York City who got rich turning little girls into prost.i.tutes is gone. You know it and I know it." The ravioli fell from the spoon into Harper's bowl with a thick wet schlopp.

"I doubt very much that G.o.d harbors anti-Semitic views toward New York City or anywhere else, Norma," Harper told her. "Seeing as he called the Jews his own chosen people, that seems highly unlikely. Have you seen Nick? Did he come in for dinner?"

Norma Heald gave her a glazed, dull, unfriendly look. "Haven't seen him. Why don't you go outside and yell for him?"

"He's deaf," Harper said.

"Don't let that stop you," Norma said.

4.

Michael brought Nick back a few minutes before dawn. Nick was soaked through and shivering from his night out, his dark hair matted into tangles, his eyes sunk in deep hollows. Harper thought he looked feral, as if he had been raised by wolves.

The boy walked swiftly past Allie's bed, without so much as a glance at his sleeping sister, and went straight to Harper's cot. He wrote on a sticky pad: I don't want to sleep with her anymore. can I sleep here?

Harper took his pad and wrote: teach me how to say "time for bed" in sign language and it's a deal.

That was how Nick Storey came to sleep with Harper instead of Allie, and how Harper renewed her education in American Sign Language; they settled on one new word or phrase a night as the price of admission to her bed. She was a good student, she liked practicing with him, and she was glad to have the distraction.

Although maybe she was too distracted: when the thief got around to stealing the Portable Mother, Harper didn't even know it was gone until Renee Gilmonton asked what had happened to it.

5.

Harper had never seen the Fireman in chapel before-no one had-and she was as surprised as the rest of them when he turned up the night after the Portable Mother was stolen. He did not come all the way into the building, but remained in the narthex, just beyond the inner set of doors. His presence contributed to a low but steady sense of antic.i.p.ation that had been building all night. Word had pa.s.sed that Father Storey was going to make an announcement about the thefts in the girls' dorm. He was going to do something.

"I think we should send the b.i.t.c.h away," Allie said over breakfast. "Find out who she is and pack her s.h.i.t. No excuses, no apologies."

Harper said, "What if the thief gets picked up by a Cremation Crew? Not only would they kill her, they'd force her to tell them about camp."

"She isn't going to tell them anything. Not if we yank her f.u.c.king tongue out before she goes. And break her fingers so she can't write."

"Oh, Allie. I don't think you mean that."

Allie only stared back with an expression of gla.s.sy, indifferent serenity. Like all the Lookouts, she had been skipping lunches for over a month now. Her cheekbones protruded in a way that made a person quite aware of the skull under her skin.

For herself, Harper didn't want Father Storey, or anyone else, to worry about what she had lost. Everyone had lost something: homes, families, hope. Put alongside these things, the Portable Mother seemed no very great loss.

Which was not to say it meant nothing. She had found no end of things to squeeze into the carpetbag for the baby. There was a wooden sword with a rope handle for when he needed to practice his sword fighting. There was a mini audio player on which Harper had recorded lullabies, bedtime stories, and a few poems. There was an umbrella for rainy days, slippers for lazy ones. Most of all, there was the notebook that had started it all and which she had filled up with facts (your grandfather-my father-worked at NASA for thirty years . . . he made honest-to-G.o.d s.p.a.ceships!!), advice (you can put anything in a salad-slices of apple, hot peppers, nuts, raisins, chicken, anything-and it will all taste good together), affection (I haven't said I love you anywhere on this page, so here's a reminder: I love you) and lots of capital letters and exclamation points (I LOVE YOU!!!).

Others had made contributions as well. Allie Storey put in a plastic Iron Man mask for when he was on secret missions and needed a disguise. Renee Gilmonton had appropriated eighteen short books from the camp library, one that would be right for each year of her son's life, starting with Wheels on the Bus and ending with Of Mice and Men. Don Lewiston had made a present of a ship in a bottle. Carol Storey offered Harper a View-Master full of pictures of historic places that were all gone now. These days, the Eiffel Tower was a blackened spear puncturing a sky of smoke. The Strip in downtown Las Vegas was a charred wasteland. But in the View-Master, the neon lights and spouting fountains would be bright forever.

When the last stragglers had filed into the chapel, Father Storey climbed the steps to the podium, took his thinking pebble out of his mouth, and said, "I thought I would reverse the usual order of things tonight and get my blab out of the way before we sing and join the Bright. I apologize in advance. Much as I do love to hear myself talk, I know the songs are my favorite part of the night. I imagine you feel the same way. Sometimes I think with half the world on fire-with so much dying and so much pain-it's a special kind of sin to sing and feel good. But then I think, well, even before Dragonscale, most human lives were unfair, brutal, full of loss and grief and confusion. Most human lives were and are too short. Most people have lived out their days hungry and barefoot, on the run from this war and that famine, a plague here and a flood there. But people have to sing anyway. Even a baby that hasn't been fed in days will stop crying and look around when they hear someone singing in joy. You sing and it's like giving a thirsty person water. It's a kindness. It makes you shine. The proof that you matter is in your song and in the way you light up for one another. Other folks may fall and burn-will fall and burn. There isn't one of us who hasn't seen it happen. But here no one burns. We shine. A frightened, faithless soul is perfect kindling-"

"Amen," someone murmured.

"-and selfishness is as bad as kerosene. When someone is cold and you share your blanket, you're both warmer than you would've been alone. You offer the sick your medicine and their happiness will be your medicine. Someone probably a lot smarter than me said h.e.l.l is other people. I say you're in h.e.l.l when you don't give to someone who needs, because you can't bear to have less. What you are giving away then is your own soul. You have to care for each other or you walk on cinders, a matchstick ready to be struck. That's what I believe, anyway. Do you believe it?"

"I do," Ben Patchett said from Harper's right. Others said it with him. Harper herself.

Sitting there in the pews, she felt as in love as she had ever been with Jakob in their happiest hours . . . or more so. Not with any one man or woman but with all of them, the whole church full of believers. All her fellow travelers in the Bright. There had been moments in the last few weeks when it seemed to her she was discovering what it was like to be in love for the very first time.

Jakob had told her that all acts of altruism were secretly acts of selfishness, that you were really only doing for others to please yourself. And he was right, without ever really understanding what he was right about. He thought altruism was worthless if it brought you happiness-that it wasn't really altruism at all-without seeing that it was all right to feel good about making other people feel good. When you gave your happiness away, it came back twofold. It kept coming and coming, like the loaves and fishes. Its impossible increase was, maybe, the one miracle that would never be disproved by science. It was the last wonder allowed to religion. To live for others was to live fully; to live only for yourself, a cold kind of death. The sugar was sweeter when you gave it to someone else to taste.

She had not thought she was a religious person, but in the church at Camp Wyndham, she had discovered everyone was religious. If you had it in you to sing, you had it in you to believe and be saved.

With the possible exception of the Fireman, perhaps. The Fireman was watching Father Storey with an expression of calm detachment, and blowing smoke rings. He wasn't smoking a cigarette. He was just making the rings from somewhere in his throat, fat cloudy circles that rose in rippling hoops. He caught Harper watching and grinned. Show-off.

Father Storey slipped his gla.s.ses off, polished them on his sweater, and put them back on. "I guess someone doesn't believe it, though. About two months ago someone started helping themselves to items from the kitchen. Nothing much-a little milk, some potted meat. Hardly worth mentioning. When you think about it, stealing a few cans of Spam might even be looked upon as doing us all a kindness. Then some other things went missing from the girls' dorm. Emily Waterman had a teacup taken, her lucky cup of stars. A bottle of nail polish was swiped from the Neighbors girls. Five days ago, someone stole my granddaughter's locket from under her pillow. I'm not sure it matters that it was gold, but it had a picture of her mother in it, all Allie had left of her, and it broke her heart to lose it. Then, yesterday, the thief helped herself to Nurse Willowes's care package for her unborn child. I believe most of you know about her care package, what she's been calling the Portable Mother."

Father Storey put his hands in his pockets and rocked from the hips and for a moment his gla.s.ses flashed, reflecting the candle on the podium, becoming circles of red flame.

"I am sure whoever took the things from the girls' dorm must feel very ashamed and frightened. There isn't a person in this room who hasn't suffered terribly since finding themselves marked with the 'scale, and under a strain like that, it can be easy to act impulsively, to take from someone else, without thinking how you would hurt them. I say to the person who took these things, and who sits among us now: you have nothing to fear by coming forward."

"Don't bet on it," Allie whispered, and the Neighbors twins stifled nervous laughter. There was no amus.e.m.e.nt on Allie's face, though.

"It would take bravery of the deepest kind to use your voice and speak up and admit what you did. But if you tell us the truth-if you raise your voice to give back-everyone in this room will shine for you. The happiness we all feel when we sing will be nothing compared to it. I know it. It will be sweeter than any song, and every heart here will give you something better than the things you took. They'll give you forgiveness. I believe in these people and their goodness and I want you to know the same things about them that I know. That they can love you even after this. Everyone here knows what makes the Dragonscale glow. Not music-if it was just the music, my deaf grandson wouldn't glow with us. It's harmony-harmony with one another. No one will shame you or ostracize you"-he lowered his chin and gave the room an almost-stern look over his gla.s.ses-"and if they do I will set them right. In this place we raise our voice in song, not in contempt, and I believe whoever took these things could no more help themselves than my grandson can help being deaf. Believe in us and I promise: it will be all right." And he smiled so sweetly Harper's heart broke a little. He was like a child, gazing into a July night and waiting on fireworks.

No one moved.

A floorboard creaked. Someone cleared their throat.

The small candle wavered on the lectern.

Harper discovered she was holding her breath. She dreaded the thought that no one would speak and that they would disappoint Father Storey, would erase that smile. He was the last innocent man in the world and she could not bear for that to change. The thought-ludicrous but intense-came to her that she ought to say she had stolen the things, but of course no one would believe that, and she hadn't stolen them, so she couldn't return them.

The Neighbors sisters gave each other anxious looks, each of them squeezing the other's hand. Michael stroked Allie's back until she shrugged him off. Ben Patchett exhaled-a thin, tense, unhappy breath. Onstage, Carol Storey hugged herself tightly as if to ward off a chill. In the whole room, perhaps the only person immune to the tension was Nick. He was no lip-reader under the best of conditions, and certainly not by candlelight, from fifty feet away. He was doodling gravestones in the back of a songbook. The dearly departed included the famous I. M. DUNFORE, HARRY PITTS, and BARRY D. BODIE. One tombstone read HERE LIES A THIEF, KILLED WITHOUT GREEF . . . so then again, maybe he was following along just fine.

When Father Storey looked up at last, he was still smiling. He showed not the slightest sign of regret.

"Ah," he said. "It was too much to ask, I suppose. I imagine whoever took the things from the kitchen and the girls' dorm must feel terribly pressured. I only meant to show you that everyone here wishes you well. You are one of us. Your voice belongs with ours. The things you took must be an awful weight on you and I'm sure you'd like to be out from under it. Simply leave the things you took somewhere they can easily be found and drop a note to tell me where to look. Or have a private word with me. I won't judge you and have no interest in punishment. When all of us are walking with a death sentence inscribed right on our skin, what need is there of punishment? We have all been found guilty of being human. There are worse crimes." He looked back at Carol and said, "What are we singing tonight, joy?"

Carol opened her mouth, but before she could reply, someone shouted, "What if she doesn't come forward?"

Harper glanced around: Allie. She was quivering-with fury, but also, maybe, with nervousness-and at the same time, her jaw was set in a look that was perfectly stubborn, perfectly hostile, and perfectly Allie. Somehow Harper wasn't surprised. Allie was the only person in camp who wasn't in awe of the old man.

"What if the thief just keeps taking more stuff?" Allie asked.

Father Storey lifted an eyebrow. "Then I imagine we'll make do with less."

"It's not fair," whispered Gillian Neighbors. Her voice was low, pitched to just above a whisper, but in the great echoing s.p.a.ce of the chapel, everyone could hear.

Carol stepped forward, to the edge of the stage, looking at her feet. When she lifted her chin, her eyes were red, as if she had been crying or was about to start.

"I don't feel like singing especially," she said. "I feel like something important slipped away tonight. Something special. Maybe our trust in each other. Allie, my niece, doesn't want to stay with the other girls anymore, knowing there's a thief there. She doesn't have any other pictures of her mother, my sister. No way to remember her. Just what was in the locket. That locket will never mean to anyone what it means to her and her brother. I don't understand how anyone could hurt her that way and then come in here and sing like she cares about other people. It makes the whole thing feel phony. I'll play a song you all know, and you can sing if you want, or you can be silent with me. Whatever feels right to you. A part of me feels like if we can't all be honest with each other, silence might be better. Maybe we should all hold one of Father Storey's stones in our mouth for a bit, and consider what really matters."

That sounded a little schoolmarmish in Harper's opinion, but she saw people nodding. She also saw Allie brushing away an angry tear with one finger, then twisting her head and turning to furiously whisper something to Gail and Gillian Neighbors.

Then Carol began to play, picking at the strings of her ukulele, not strumming. Notes rang out, like little hammers striking silver chimes. It took only a moment for Harper to recognize "Silent Night." No one sang. There was, instead, a reverential hush, the room utterly silent aside from Carol's playing.

Harper wasn't sure who lit up first. At some point, though, she became aware of a faint luminescence in the cavernous dim. Eyes shone the blue-green color of lightning bugs flashing in a summer night. Dragonscale became scribbles of dim fluorescence. Harper thought of those fish that lived in the deepest basins of the ocean, illuminating the depths with their own glow-in-the-dark organs. It was a cold, alien light, different from the usual almost-blinding intensity of the Bright. Harper had not imagined they could create harmony without a sound, that they could join in a silent chorus of disapproval rather than song.

Only about half the room turned on, and Harper was not among them. For the first time in weeks she was unable to join, to connect. Over the last few weeks, she had come to look forward to chapel, and slipped into the Bright as she would've slipped into a warm bath. Now, though, the water was cold. She couldn't understand how any of the others could stand it.

The last note hung in the air like a snowflake that refused to fall. As it died away, this new, ill-hued Bright died away with it, and the darkness around them returned.

Carol blinked at tears. Father Storey put his arms around her from behind and hugged her to his chest. Maybe the thief had stolen that locket from four people, after all: the dead woman had been Carol's sister and Tom Storey's daughter, as well as Allie and Nick's mother.

Father Storey peered over Carol's shoulder into the chapel and smiled. "Well. That was very beautiful, but I hope we won't make a habit of it. I like hearing all of you. We will be rearranging the pews for morning reading and-ah! John! I almost forgot you. Thank you for coming tonight. Is there something you wanted to say to us?"

The Fireman grinned from the back of the room.

"I've found two men in need of shelter. With permission, I'd like to bring them into the camp. I can't vouch for them, Father-I haven't been able to get close enough to talk to them yet. They've painted themselves into a bit of a corner. I can get them out and I can make a distraction to cover their escape, but I'll need some others to lead them back to camp."

Father Storey frowned. "Of course. Anyone who needs our help. I'm surprised you'd even ask. Is there some special reason for concern?"

"Judging by the orange suits they're wearing," the Fireman said, "the ones that say 'Brentwood County Court' on the back, they might be even more in need of salvation than the average member of your flock, Father."

6.

When Father Storey asked the Fireman who he'd need, Harper didn't expect to be on his list, but she was the only person he mentioned by name.

"Two or three men and Nurse Willowes, if you please, Father. I don't know what kind of state they'll be in. At the very least they've spent twenty-four hours in a cramped hiding place, in temperatures barely above freezing, so they'll be suffering from exposure. It might make sense to have medical a.s.sistance on hand. What say we group up in Monument Park in twenty minutes? I'd like to get under way."

The service was over. Everyone crowded into the aisles, all of them yammering at once. Harper pushed her way through the close press of bodies and the noise. Ben Patchett was saying something-Harper, you're pregnant, he's out of his mind if-but she pretended not to hear. In another moment she was through the enormous red doors and out into a cold so dry and sharp it stung the eyes.

Alone in the infirmary, she flung open cabinets, collecting anything that might be useful and dumping it in a small nylon knapsack. In her haste, her elbow struck the big anatomical model of a human head. It tipped off the counter and smashed on the floor.

She cursed, turned to kick the shards out of sight-was in too much of a hurry to sweep-then hesitated.

The head had busted into several large pieces. One half of the face gaped up at her with an idiotic astonishment. A stenographer's notebook, rolled into a tube and bound up with thick rubber bands, lay among the shards.

Harper picked it out of the shattered pieces, undid the rubber bands, and looked at the cover.

PRIVATE NOTEBOOK OF HAROLD CROSS.

MEDICAL OBSERVATIONS AND PERSONAL INSIGHTS.

WITH SOME OCCASIONAL POETRY.

She considered what to do with it, thought there might be quite a few people in camp who would want to know what Harold had written about in the weeks before his death. Finally she decided not to decide. There wasn't time. She tossed it in a drawer and got out of there.

Captain America was waiting on the steps of the infirmary.

"I've got some other masks if you want one," Allie said, leading the way along the wobbling planks set out between buildings. "I've got Hulk, Optimus Prime, and Sarah Palin."