The Fallen Queen Part 8

"If I were superst.i.tious, I would take the gift of so many clocks as an omen that, for me, time is running out," she said, although she was only fifteen.

The illness that had beset her in the early days of her marriage had returned; her skin had begun to peel and itch again and her hair to fall from her scalp; she burned with a persistent fever, and her stomach ached both outside and within as though a great, taut knot were lodged there and rejected all nourishment, and her bowels became once again watery and impulsive. She took to her bed, growing weaker as she refused to eat, insisting that it was all the work of Northumberland, he was having her food laced with a slow-acting poison and the only way she could save her life was to continue to deny Guildford the Crown, for the moment she relented and consented her life would be over, stolen by a killing dose.

Though neither of us liked Northumberland, or doubted he would have any qualms about poisoning anyone who stood in his way, Kate and I were certain this was not true. This belief was born only of Jane's fear, and we tried to allay her suspicions by acting as her food tasters. But even though neither of us ever showed the slightest sign of sickness, still her fears would not perish. And the more Jane refused to eat, the sicker, and weaker, she became, turning away even from her beloved books, and only lifting her head to sign, without bothering to read, the papers the men from the Council laid before her. It was only when Kate began to bring her food prepared, under her strict supervision, from the kitchen at Baynard's Castle that Jane began to rally. Within a few days, she was able to leave her bed and sit at the head of the Council table again.

She began to make an effort, saying if she must be queen, then she would be one who made a real difference. She banged her fists and slapped her palms down on the Council table and spoke heatedly about using her power to break the yoke of Rome, to smash idolatry, the veneration of the Virgin Mary, and the whole panoply of Papist saints, of freeing the people from the shackles of popish rituals and Catholic ceremonies that dazzled the eyes and duped the soul, and with their insistence on Latin that only the educated could understand, deafened the majority to the true word of G.o.d. She vowed to let G.o.d's light shine clear, pure, bright, and true, not doused and diffused through the rosy stained gla.s.s of Catholicism, and to make a brave new world where people didn't pander to superst.i.tions and worship the baker's bread, plaster saints, and jewelled crucifixes, or try to buy their way into heaven by purchasing indulgences. She said her reign must be for the greater good, that G.o.d, in His infinite wisdom, must have chosen her to be England's and the Reformed Faith's champion, as our cousin Mary, if she became queen, would most surely deliver England as a bridal gift to Spain and bring the Inquisition to these sh.o.r.es, and this might even lead to the very name of England being obliterated.

She also spoke about giving her royal patronage, monies, and aid to various charities in London to benefit poor widows and orphans and the deserving poor-by which she meant the Protestant poor or those willing to forsake Rome and embrace the Reformed Faith-and of sponsoring schools to nurture and encourage a love of learning in both boys and girls, and of doing something to remedy the debased currency that made English coins a joke throughout Europe where it was derisively referred to as "fairy money" as the coins themselves weren't worth the values stamped on them. Jane said and planned so much. But no one was really listening, except Guildford, who chimed in, "And don't forget clothing the naked, that's really important, oh and feeding the hungry, and giving drink to the thirsty of course, but, by all means, cover the naked first, Jane!"

The men on the Council let Jane talk but took their orders from Northumberland. The truth was, they only supported Jane's queenship out of cowardice and fear, because Northumberland had threatened and intimidated them, and they feared what he might do to them and their families if they opposed him. All of them, along with most of the n.o.bility, had profited well by embracing the Reformed Religion. The spoils and plunder of the religious houses had made them all very rich. They had acquired wealth, lands, and the former monasteries and abbeys that stood on them, which they had either demolished to build anew or converted into lavish homes for themselves, and all the gold and silver plate that formerly adorned the altars now filled their cupboards, and precious jewels that had decorated shrines and reliquaries now adorned their persons. Thus they now lived in fear of the ascension of Mary, the punishments, reprisals, and loss that would surely follow as she endeavoured to restore the religion she considered the only true one. Surely this included returning all properties she regarded as stolen, and the monks and nuns who had been beggared by the dissolution would be rich once more, while England's n.o.bles would be considerably poorer, and once again the t.i.thes would flow into the Pope's coffers, and the greedy cardinals would descend like a flock of avaricious red birds upon England again.

Inside the Tower, rumours reached us that the people were rallying around our cousin Mary, "the one true queen." Already she had ama.s.sed an army thirty thousand strong. Whenever I looked out the window, I saw the frantic preparations to mount a defence against her. The Tower teemed with armed men, and carts rolled in and out piled high with weaponry, ammunition, and other supplies to feed and equip an army. But Jane didn't know any of this; she had taken to her bed again, simmering with fever and trying to escape a life she didn't want into the sweet oblivion of sleep.

As soon as Jane was proclaimed Queen, Northumberland had sent his son Robert out, riding proud and arrogant, confident that he could never be defeated, at the head of an army of five hundred men to capture Princess Mary, but she eluded him. So it was imperative that someone else, someone more experienced, go, and bring her back to the Tower, a captive in chains. Northumberland wanted to send Father and had persuaded the Council that this was the wisest course. Northumberland knew that he was the glue holding this fragile reign together, and without him to threaten, domineer, and intimidate the Council their instinct for self-preservation would a.s.sert itself and they would flee to throw themselves on the mercy of Mary, even if they must forfeit their church spoils to save their lives.

Northumberland sent word, asking that Jane rise and receive the Council as they had business of the utmost importance to discuss with her; business that could not wait even one more day.

Mrs. Ellen and Mrs. Tylney tenderly raised her from her sickbed and covered her nightshift with a robe of ermine-bordered crimson velvet. They led her to sit in a gilded chair and bathed her face and hands with rosewater, while Kate brushed her hair. I brought a golden circlet for her head, but Jane mutely pushed it away. At a nod from Mrs. Ellen, I ran to let in the Council, but at the door I suddenly looked back. What a woebegone little figure she was! Sitting there, her bare toes barely brushing the floor, pale-faced and wretched, her eyes deep-sunken and dark-circled yet bloodshot and rimmed in red from weeping. Impulsively, I ran back and fetched a footstool and knelt to set her little white feet upon it. Only then did I open the door.

They strode in and, after kneeling to show their respect, stood around my sister's chair like a flock of blackbirds, solemn-faced in their long black robes. All except Guildford, who was the last to arrive, sauntering in, a vision in gold-decked rose satin with Fluff purring in his arms. After bowing curtly to Jane and dutifully kissing her limp, fever-damp hand, he went to sit on the window seat and amuse himself by dangling a string for Fluff to bat his paws at, appearing utterly indifferent to what the Council had to say.

When Northumberland told Jane that Father must leave, to lead her army and fight for her throne, Jane fell to weeping, insisting that "no, we"-for the first and only time I heard her invoke the royal we-"have need of him here! He must tarry here in our company!"

She sat there hunched in her chair, looking so small in that voluminous red robe, shuddering and sobbing, I thought a.s.suredly those black-robed men were moved by pity. Father forced his way through their black-robed ranks and gathered Jane in his arms, holding her tight, as her shuddering gradually subsided, and her sobs turned to hiccups, a.s.suring her that he would not go, that he would never leave her.

He drew his trusty comfit box from his doublet and gave Jane a piece of candied ginger to suck, and then he turned to address the Council. "Gentlemen," he announced, "I shall tarry here as my daughter desires and my Queen commands!"

They huddled together, voices rising high then dropping low, and thus it was decided that Northumberland should be the one to go. But it was not pity that moved them, it was just another one of those games that powerful men play, a canny manoeuvre to get Northumberland out of the way, to break his hold and set them free. No one cared what became of Jane.

Finally they bowed and, in solemn silence, filed out, with only Northumberland lingering long enough to glower at Jane and say, "You will regret this." But Jane, slumped weakly in her chair, seemed not to hear. And then he too was gone.

Father tenderly gathered Jane in his arms and lifted her from her chair. She laid her head gratefully upon his shoulder, and, still sucking on the thumb-sized nugget of crystallized ginger, he carried her back to bed. He laid her down and sat beside her, stroking her hair and telling her a story about a plain little oatcake who sat weeping at the roadside because all the other pastries were prettier than she was, crowned or filled with fruits and nuts, sprinkled with cinnamon, drizzled with honey or rich dollops of cream. Then along came a gingerbread minstrel with black currant eyes and a red currant smile, gaily adorned in red, gold, and green marzipan motley, skipping and prancing down the road, playing his flute and singing his song as he went his happy-go-lucky way. Seeing the oatcake damsel's distress, he knelt before her and gently asked, "Why do you weep?" When she sobbed out her wretched plight, he promised that she would be the most beautiful of them all. He took cream and dyed it pink with berry juice and slathered it upon her and decorated her with sliced strawberries, pale green gooseberries, and black currants. Then all the other pastries crowded around and proclaimed the little oatcake plain no more. She was so fair, in fact, that nothing would satisfy them but that she must become their queen.

"And the oatcake was so grateful to the gingerbread minstrel that she married him that very hour, with a mincemeat pie presiding as their minister and a pair of fruit suckets as witnesses, and made him her king. In a grand ceremony attended by all the pastries, comfits, custards, cakes, pies, wafers, and sweetmeats, the fat and wobbly red jelly archbishop replaced the gingerbread minstrel's motley marzipan fool's cap with a crown of gilded marzipan and gave him a cinnamon stick sceptre and a sugarplum orb to hold, and he took his place proudly beside his queen as everyone cheered and threw curls of candied orange peel and raisins in the air. And they all lived happily ever after in their pink, spun sugar palace and had a dozen spice cake babies."

"Thank you, Father," Jane said sleepily as her eyes fluttered shut, and he bent to stroke back her hair and press a kiss onto her fevered brow. And then-Oh, Father!-he went and spoiled this tender moment by turning to Guildford, who had come to stand leaning against one of the gilded bedposts and listen to the story, hanging enthralled on every word.

"That is the most beautiful story I have ever heard!" he sighed, pressing a hand over his heart. "It makes me want ... it makes me wish ..."

"Yes?" Father asked eagerly as though his entire future hung upon Guildford's answer.

"It makes me wish that I had a piece of gingerbread right now!" Guildford exclaimed.

"Then let us away to the kitchen and see if we can find some," Father said, and gallantly gave his arm to Guildford. Like two naughty children, they hurried away together, with Father confiding to Guildford that he had made the cream that iced the oatcake pink in honour of the beautiful rose satin doublet Guildford was wearing, leaving Jane to slumber obliviously as her time as England's queen was fast running out.

After Northumberland rode out, regal as a king himself, at the head of his army, with his handsome dark-haired sons-Ambrose, John, and Robert-all of them in feathered helms and gleaming new silver breastplates, it all started to fall apart.

First the Treasurer absconded with all the gold, rushing to lay it at the feet of the woman he considered the rightful queen, and then the other councillors followed. They gathered in their black robes and gold chains around the Great Cross in Cheapside and filled their caps with coins and flung them high into the air. As the people scrambled for this bounty, the Council proclaimed Mary Tudor "the one true queen" and cried, "G.o.d save her!" Then they were off, racing as fast as their horses could carry them, to kneel before Mary and declare their loyalty unto death, insisting that they had only followed Northumberland and acknowledged the usurper Jane out of fear for their lives and the well-being of their families.

From her stronghold, the thick-walled, impregnable castle of Framlingham, where Mother Nature provided a feminine touch to relieve the starkly martial atmosphere with golden irises blooming in vast profusion around the moat, Mary Tudor sat regal and straight-backed in her purple velvet, surrounded by tapestries depicting the life of Christ, and announced that she would give 1,000 worth of land to any man who captured Northumberland. Thus was the doom of the most unpopular man in England sealed; it was only a matter of time, and everyone knew it, even the man himself. On the march to capture Mary, Northumberland looked back and realized all was lost. He no longer had enough men to mount an attack; they had been slipping behind the hedgerows and scurrying into the deep gullies, making their way back home to their families or else deserting to Mary. He had no choice but to turn back. He dismissed his men and said, "Go where thou wilt," and walked boldly into the Cambridge marketplace. He filled his cap with all the gold coins he and his sons had upon them and flung the contents high in the air, as they all cried out, "G.o.d save Mary, the one true queen!"

The Dudley men were soon arrested and led back to London in chains as the people hissed and reviled them, shouting, "Death to the traitors!" They pelted them with horse t.u.r.ds scooped from the street, rotten eggs, and cabbages; some even brought their chamber pots to hurl the contents at the detested Dudleys, who walked tall and proud through this rain of filth as though they were being showered with gold and silver.

On the days when Jane, through sheer will, dragged herself from her bed, she sat listlessly, wan and feverish, upon her unwanted throne, decked in her undesired finery, tensely awaiting the end, watching the number of her attendants steadily dwindle. And Guildford, to whom she had contemptuously thrown the dukedom of Clarence, like a bone to a dog, kept to his own rooms, dining in state with his ducal coronet perched upon his golden head while his musicians played, having fittings with his tailors, and filling the Tower with an unG.o.dly screeching as Maestro Cocozza diligently plucked out the scales on the ivory keys of the virginals.

Then it was all over. It lasted just nine days; people would later speak of it in awe as "the nine days' wonder." I remember so well that tense, hot day, July 19, 1553, when Jane, in gold-embroidered, spice-orange velvet, sat tensely upon her throne beneath the crimson canopy of estate, which seemed to weep golden tears, as all the bells in London rang, and an ecstatic nation, delirious with joy, danced in the streets, flung their hats high in the air, and cried, "Long live our good Queen Mary, long may she reign!"

Wine flowed freely in the conduits, strangers embraced strangers, and nine months later many babes would be born, and the female ones christened Mary in honour of the woman whose ascension they had been celebrating during the conception. Suddenly the great, carven double doors slammed open and Father rushed in, golden spurs jangling noisily on his high leather boots, a big, sticky bun clutched in each hand, and his mouth rimmed and auburn beard crusted thick with cinnamon and sugar like h.o.a.rfrost. At first we could not understand what he was saying and stared at him blankly, trying to puzzle out the mumbled jumble of pastry-m.u.f.fled words. He quickly gobbled down one of the buns to free one hand and swallowed hard, wiping his mouth with his tawny velvet sleeve. He strode across the room to Jane. Ever one for a dramatic gesture, Father leapt up and ripped the canopy of estate down from over Jane's head. "You must put off your regal robes, my daughter, and content yourself with a private life," he said with a crestfallen sigh before turning to the remaining bun for consolation.

"I much more willingly put them off than I ever put them on," Jane answered. "Out of obedience to you and my lady-mother, I have grievously sinned. I most willingly relinquish the Crown."

But Father wasn't listening. He crammed the last bit of bun into his mouth and pulled a jet-beaded rosary from his pocket, and out he ran, waving it wildly in the air for all to see, ignoring Jane's plaintive question, uttered with a sense of great relief as she slumped back gratefully against the velvet cushions of her unwanted throne: "Father, may I go home now?"

But it was too late, Father was already gone, and I doubted he had even heard. I caught a glimpse of him from the window, dancing a joyful jig on Tower Green, waving his rosary in the air, and shouting, "G.o.d save Mary, the one true queen, long may she live and reign! Ho there, you, old woman by the gate! I'll have two more of those buns; I think they must be the best in London!"

When Guildford wandered in and was told what had just happened, he just shrugged. "Here today, gone tomorrow." He sighed. "Now where is Maestro Cocozza? Now that the Devil is done tempting me with the lure of a golden crown, it's time for my music lesson. I must work even harder now. Since I am a duke's son, I have always had to work very hard, to prove myself, as no one takes me seriously, so this is really a blessing in disguise. Just think how much harder it would be if I were King; then they would only applaud out of politeness and to flatter me. I could croak like a frog or yowl like a cat in heat and they would still throw roses at my feet and tell me how wonderful I am. But I don't want that-I want them to really mean it! I want people to hear my voice and weep! Because it's so beautiful," he added as an afterthought, lest there be any misunderstanding.

While Guildford's voice was soaring zealously over the scales, displaying a great zest to conquer, Kate skipped in. She was wearing a new gown of "ashes and embers," which she twirled prettily to display. A pert, little, round, feathered hat of dark grey velvet trimmed with orange roses crowned her cascade of coppery curls, long ropes of black pearls swung and clacked about her neck all the way down to her waist, and her favourite fire opals flashed against her throat, breast, and fingers. She was carrying the most adorable little dog, a tawny bundle of fluff with eyes like black b.u.t.tons and a turned-up tail that it fluttered like the most graceful plume. Kate had even tied an orange satin bow around his neck.

Jane was by then lying listlessly on her bed, stripped down to her shift, with a cold cloth draped over her brow, trying to ease her pounding head and cool the persistently simmering fever that stubbornly refused to leave her, but she raised her head long enough to chide Kate for being so pretentious. "Embers and ashes indeed!" she scoffed. "Why not just call it dark grey and orange since that's obviously what it is?"

But Kate just smiled, set down her little dog, and went to take Jane's hand.

"Are you well?" she asked.

"I am glad to put off this regal burden as I never desired it," Jane answered. "Truly, by accepting it I showed a great want of prudence. But what's done is done," she said stoically. "We can never go back, only forward, and I must wait and face whatever punishment is decreed for me."

"Cousin Mary will understand that none of this was your doing," I tried to rea.s.sure her, telling her what I indeed believed as we had never known anything but kindness from our royal cousin. "You must write to her and tell her all that happened, that you never desired this and knew nothing of it beforehand, that you were forced to accept the Crown. Put the blame where it belongs, on Northumberland, and I am sure she will pardon you."

"Of course she will! It doesn't even bear brooding about!" Kate declared, hopping up and crossing the room to examine the glittering heaps of finery, some yet unfinished, others just waiting to be stored away with sachets of lavender in the great gilded and carved wardrobe chests.

Across the room, Kate and I exchanged glances. Each knew what the other was thinking. We smiled, and Kate darted back to grasp Jane's hand as I scrambled down from the bed and took the other one.

"Just one last time!" Kate said as we pulled Jane from the bed and led her to stand in the centre of the room.

We acted as her handmaidens and bathed her naked body with rosewater before lowering a fresh lawn shift edged in gold embroidery over her head. While I knelt to roll gold-embroidered white stockings up Jane's limbs, tie her white satin garters below her knees, and ease her feet into a pair of new golden slippers, Kate laced her stays and fastened a padded b.u.m roll around her narrow hips to lend a feminine fullness there and give her skirts a beautiful bell-like sway. Then came the petticoats, new, white, and crisp. And then ... it was time for the dress! A pale, walnut-coloured silk figured with grandiose gold arabesques, whirling and swirling everywhere, to beguile and bedazzle the eye, over a rich, diamond-latticed petticoat of gold upon gold. The full gold and white striped sleeves were slashed with cloth-of-gold and garnished with loops of pearls and gold and diamond clasps, with frills of golden lace at the wrists. It was the dress that would have been her coronation gown.

Kate pinned a gold and pearl filigree brooch to the low, square bodice. I handed Kate a necklace of golden dewberries interspersed with pearls, and she fastened it around Jane's neck, then, dipping into the jewel coffer herself, Kate chose a long, v-shaped gold necklace set with diamonds and beautiful deep green agates, each one carved with a star, that ended with a great ta.s.sel of Venice gold that hung almost to Jane's waist. Around her waist, I fastened a girdle of gold filigree and pearls with a beautiful ornament of gold and dangling pearls attached to the end, but Jane unclasped this and asked that I bring her black velvet-bound prayer book from the table beside her bed and attach it there instead, which I did. Then Jane obediently slipped her arms through a sleeveless robe of ermine-bordered gold brocade that Kate held up for her.

I brought a stool for Jane to sit upon, then Kate, whose nimble fingers had always been clever with coiffures, brushed Jane's still shedding hair, which still hung only a little ways past her shoulders, and braided it with gold ribbons and ropes of pearls, and rolled it up into a becoming little bun speared with diamond-tipped pins and crowned her with a delicate circlet of gold filigree and pearls.

When Jane was ready, the three of us went to stand before the big, silver looking gla.s.s that had been brought in to replace the one Jane had broken her first day in the Tower.

There we stood, Jane in her golden royal regalia, Kate in her fashionable embers and ashes gown and feathered hat, and me in my deep green damask blooming with teal roses.

"Go on," Kate prompted, giving Jane an encouraging nod.

Jane hesitated only a moment before she stepped up to the mirror and declared herself, "The brilliant one!"

Kate followed, with a sunny smile and a pert sashay of her hips. "The beautiful one!"

Then I stepped forward. "The beastly little one!"

We clung together and laughed until we wept. But Kate would not let us give in to sorrow.

"Come, Mary!" She rushed around to gather up the hem of Jane's heavy golden robe, and I hurried to help. Jane, casting her habitual solemnity aside, to be once again-just one last time!-a little girl playacting, pretending to be queen, raised her chin high and swept grandly out into the presence chamber and took her place upon the throne for what we all knew would be the last time.

Kate and I arranged the folds of her robe gracefully around her feet and sat on the top step of the dais, each of us reaching up to take one of Jane's hands, as we waited for the inevitable.

As the wild jubilation continued outside the windows, with a party on every street in London, joy spilling from every door and window, we sat and waited. Guildford peeped in for a moment then disappeared. We shared a glance, disdaining him for being a coward, for deserting us. But we misjudged him. A little while later he reappeared in his splendid gold coronation suit with a servant walking behind him, carrying a gilded chair. At a nod from Guildford, the man placed it on the dais next to Jane's throne and Guildford sat down. Kate smilingly relinquished Jane's hand, and Guildford took it, and this time Jane did not pull away.

Thus Sir John Bridges and the guards found us, sitting as though we were posing for our portrait. Very gently, he informed Jane and Guildford that they must vacate the royal apartments and come with him now.

Hand in hand, Jane and Guildford descended the dais, as grand as a king and queen about to lead the opening dance at a court ball, and as she swept past us both, Kate and I reached out to smooth and straighten the folds of her gold and ermine train. As they faced their guards, Guildford turned to Jane and leaned down and gently kissed her lips.

"I am sorry," he said, "for depriving you of the pleasure and consolation of my body these last days."

"That's quite all right," Jane answered, then added as a soft, hesitant afterthought, "I forgive you."

"Of course you do." Guildford nodded understandingly and smiled, still holding her hand, ma.s.saging the back of it with his thumb. "I'm much too beautiful for anyone to stay angry at for long."

Then the guards led them away. At the last moment, Jane shrugged off her royal robe. "'Tis a great, c.u.mbersome thing, and I shall not be needing it where I am going," she explained as she bunched it up as best she could and tossed it to Kate. In the open doorway, she paused and turned back and implored us to "please tell Mrs. Ellen to bring my books."

Then she was gone.

Mercifully, a dungeon was not our sister's destination. Speaking soft and gentle, to try to allay her fears, and gesturing for the guards to fall behind as they crossed the Tower Green, Sir John escorted her to the pleasant home of the equally pleasant gentleman gaoler, Master Partridge, and his wife, which adjoined his own fine timbered residence, and possessed an excellent view so she "could sit by the window for hours and watch all the doings and comings and goings" at the Tower. She might even, if she liked, walk out to enjoy the gardens and fresh air or to feed the Tower ravens.

"A pack of greedy voracious pets they are, my lady," Sir John said fondly as one of the big, black birds lighted in his path and gave a great squawk before taking wing again. "You are to be treated well, my lady," he a.s.sured her, "and have naught to fear from any of us." He paused and added meaningfully, "We know 'twas all none of your doing, and though some would adjudge you a traitor, you are an innocent one and have every hope of receiving the Queen's pardon in due course; it's sure to come when things have settled some."

The Partridges were a well-named couple, plump, amiable, and smiling. Introducing themselves as "Nate and Nelly," they greeted Jane warmly as though she were their much-loved niece. Mrs. Partridge had even baked some apple tarts to welcome Jane and told her that she was "bound and determined to put some meat on your poor bones." Mrs. Ellen and Mrs. Tylney were already there. It turned out that there was no need for us to convey Jane's message; they had antic.i.p.ated her desire and were already busily unpacking the plain garb that Jane preferred, putting her beloved books on the shelves, and arranging her desk before the window, so she would have the best light for writing. Nelly Partridge herself had already made up the bed fresh with fat, goose down pillows and a bright quilt "to help chase out any gloom from the room."

Poor Guildford was not so fortunate; he was taken to the Beauchamp Tower, albeit to a commodious and comfortable cell that he was to share with his brothers, and the Dudleys' wealth afforded them many luxuries denied to common prisoners. Guildford was even allowed to have Fluff and all his fine clothes with him, and many delicacies and fine wines for their table. They even had apples to feed to the porcupines in the Tower menagerie, to which the brothers had taken a fancy.

There was no more we could do at the Tower, so we hired a barge to take us back to Baynard's Castle. Kate kissed me and said, "All will be well," and even let me hold her little dog, whose name she said was Cinnamon.

But all would not be well, and even more unpleasant news awaited us at Baynard's Castle. A maid met us at the door and said we must go straight in to the earl's study. The Earl of Pembroke had, with the rest of the Council, thrown a cap of gold in the air and declared himself all for Mary, and he would not suffer his only son to be bound in "pernicious wedlock with the daughter and sister of traitors." Kate's marriage-fortuitously yet unconsummated-must be annulled right away. Her things had already been packed and sent on to Suffolk House, and all her animals too, and she was to be turned out, to go to the devil or wherever pleased her; it was a matter of complete indifference to her formerly fond and indulgent father-in-law, who now stood there staring at her as though she were a loathsome, leprous thing he could not bear the sight of.

With a heartrending cry that brought tears to my eyes, Kate fell on her knees and clung to him, sobbing out her love for Berry and begging that he let her stay. Spying her husband, watching covertly from behind a velvet curtain, Kate reached out an entreating hand to him, but he hadn't the courage to defy his father and, with tears in his eyes, and mouthing the words "I'm sorry!" Berry turned away.

"Kate"-I pulled at her and pleaded-"do not so humble and demean yourself before this man; neither he nor his cowardly, milksop son are worth it!"

But Kate would not hear or heed me, and her tears fell on the Earl of Pembroke's shoes like rain as she grovelled shamelessly, forgetting all pride and thinking only of love.

In desperation, she lunged up and grabbed Berry's arm, forcing him to stand with her before his father.

"You cannot annul our marriage," she said boldly, lying blatantly. "It has been consummated. We defied Northumberland's edict, and I may be with child." She laid a hand on her belly. "Surely you would not want to risk your grandson being born a b.a.s.t.a.r.d? Berry is frail and sickly, and you have no other son, or daughter either, so unless he gets a son, your line will die with you!"

Oh, Kate! My jaw dropped and I shook my head as I stood there, dumbfounded. I could not believe what she was doing. What did she hope to gain by this deception? Time to drag it out and be hurt all the more? A slow torture instead of a swift end? She could not hope to have the chance to get Berry alone and make the lie true. If he decided to be patient and wait to see if Kate bled, Pembroke would be sure to have them watched even more vigilantly than ever before. Stop, Kate, stop! I wanted to shake her and shout. You are fighting a losing battle that you cannot win! Recollect your pride and leave this sorry wretch and his snivelling boy with your head held high! You deserve better and you can find it!

The Earl of Pembroke took a step forward and stared straight into the stormy ocean of Kate's blue grey eyes, still glimmering wet with the tears of her heart.

To her credit, Kate proved herself to have a better card face than our father ever did. He scrutinized her hard, but Kate held her ground, her face inscrutable, and in the end he could not say whether she was bluffing. She had succeeded in planting the seed of uncertainty ... for what little it was worth.

"Is this true?" He turned to Berry.

"I-I-" the young man hung his head and stammered, his blushing face proving the aptness of his nickname. "I-do not know! Please, Father, do not ask me anymore; I cannot bear it!" Then he burst into tears, covered his face with his hands, and ran out, weeping volubly, from fear or heartbreak or both I could not rightly say.

"Very well"-Pembroke nodded-"we shall see." He summoned a servant and bade him take Kate upstairs, to her former bedchamber, now stripped bare of her belongings, and station men outside her door to ensure that she made no attempt to leave and no one entered without his permission.

I stepped forward then, clutching Kate's hand, determined not to let go. "Where Kate goes I go!"

Pembroke snorted and shrugged. "What care I, little grotesque? You are of no importance, an ugly, worthless thing that can neither help nor hinder." He gestured impatiently for us both to leave his study and mount the stairs to the room that would be our prison until he set us free, whenever that would be.

Did an hour pa.s.s or two or even three? I could not say. We could have looked at the clock, of course, but somehow this didn't occur to us. Kate and I lay silently on her bed, with her little dog between us, staring at the ceiling and holding hands, tensely awaiting we knew not what. Did he mean to keep us here until her monthly bleeding proved the lie? Or had he something more sinister in mind?

Finally the door swung open and Pembroke came in accompanied by the most bizarre creature I had ever seen. I sat up and blinked and rubbed my eyes, but I was not dreaming. Standing at the foot of the bed staring at us with gold-lidded evil eyes was a filthy hag arrayed in even filthier finery, made of hundreds of colourful and glittery sc.r.a.ps of rich materials haphazardly st.i.tched and patched together to form a jagged, ragged rainbow motley. Her face was painted like a harlot's, bold scarlet outlining a mouth filled with blackened stumps. She wore her dingy, dirty, greying hair trailing down her back in a gay messy tangle of little braids plaited with silken ribbons every colour of the rainbow, gold and silver ta.s.sels, and even tiny bells. Golden hoops drooped from her ears, and stacks of clanking gold bangles adorned her wrists and ankles. The nails on her bare feet were long and yellow with sharp tips like daggers-did she file them to create those sharp points? I marvelled that walking unshod on the earth or stone floors hadn't blunted or broken them. Even before Pembroke introduced her as Kate's "old friend, Madame Astarte" I knew who she was; I recognized her from Kate's description. But how did he know? Both Kate and I started and exchanged puzzled looks. Had he had Kate followed?

But there wasn't time to ponder it. From amidst the filthy folds of her skirt of many colours, Madame Astarte drew a bottle that looked to be filled with black bile.

With a swift movement, she grasped Kate's head, forcing it back, and put the bottle to her lips. "Open or I'll break those pretty pearly teeth!" she threatened.

With a shriek, I launched myself across the bed at that wicked Circe, clawing and biting with all my might.

"Run, Kate, run!" I cried, but Pembroke barked an order to the men outside the door to stop her as he pulled me off the witch and threw me contemptuously into the corner. I heard Kate scream my name, and she started to run to me, but Pembroke caught her, and she kicked and flailed as he bore her back to the bed and held her as he shouted for Madame Astarte to do her business fast.

My head had struck the wall, and for a moment or minutes, I sat there dazed and stunned watching through a starry dazzle as, with sharp scarlet-painted nails digging into Kate's chin, drawing pinp.r.i.c.ks of blood, Madame Astarte forced my sister to drain the evil bottle to the dregs.

"Drink this, my pretty," she cackled as Kate thrashed and kicked, helpless against the two of them. "It will void your womb if there is anything in it. If not, I pity you the more for the cramps it will make claw and grip you from within until you wish you are dead."

And then it was over. They were gone. The door was shut, locked from without, and we were alone again. Kate ran to me and knelt beside me, clasping my face, urgently imploring me to speak to her. I groaned and sat up straight, a.s.suring her I was fine, even as I noted the fierce ache in my spine where my hunched back had struck the wall.

"Can you stand?" Kate asked, helping me to slowly rise, but then she gave a great gasp and doubled over, clutching her stomach. "Hurry, the chamber pot, Mary!" she cried as the pain brought her to her knees.

The agony my Kate endured! She was not with child, and there was little within her bowels to expel, and once it was all gone the cramps continued, sharp as knives, making her gasp and cry out, and all I could do was hold her, bathe her face, and be there for her. I sang and told her stories, trying to help her mind rise above the pain that gripped her tight like an iron-gloved hand squeezing inside her, determined to wring her dry. I wanted to undress her to make her more comfortable, but she slapped my hands away, even as the beautiful embers and ashes gown grew heavy and soaked with sweat, wrinkled and twisted by the agonized jerking and writhing of her limbs. No, she said, she wanted nothing to delay our departure, she wanted to be ready the very instant we were able to go.

The sun set, and the stars came out to twinkle then faded away. With the first light of dawn, Kate took a deep breath, sat up, cried out, and doubled over again. I scrambled across the bed and tried to make her lie down again, but Kate shoved my hand away. Slowly she straightened her spine and, taking a deep breath again, tried to stand. She failed and fell down beside the bed, yet she would not stop; determinedly she dragged herself across the floor and hammered on the door.

She was kneeling there, hunched and shivering, when Pembroke appeared. She said not a word, but her eyes bored into his, burning with hatred. The silence was answer enough to suit him, and he stepped aside, gesturing that we were free to go. I ran to help Kate as, using the doorjamb, she pulled herself up. I let her lean on me, to give her what support I could, praying that my frail, crooked body did not buckle beneath her weight. I was terrified that she would fall down the stairs, hindered by the heavy, damp, bedraggled skirts and petticoats that tangled about her limbs. I wanted to turn back, swallow my pride and implore Pembroke to be kind and carry her down, or summon a servant to a.s.sist her, but Kate hissed at me through her pain-clenched teeth, "Don't you dare!"

Gripping tight the banister, she made her way slowly down and stumbled out the front door, which led out to the street; better that than risk the damp, slick stone of the water stairs. I left her sitting on the front steps, gasping, hugging her knees, gritting her teeth against the pain, and rocking back and forth, while I ran to hire a coach to take us to our parents' London house. The coachman was kind, and seeing Kate's distress, he came down from his box and carried her and set her gently inside his battered old coach that stank of urine and sour wine. But Kate was so grateful for his kindness that when we reached Suffolk House and he had carried her inside, where Henny waited to cluck over her, she pulled the wedding ring from her finger and laid it in his coa.r.s.e, leathery palm with a fervent "Thank you!" Of course a coin would have sufficed, but such an extravagant gesture was typical of Kate. "My shining golden moment of proud defeat!" she said with a bitter, biting flippancy as she took one last look at the gold ring before she fell fainting at our feet.

Shortly afterward we received a doc.u.ment attesting to the fact that Kate's marriage had been formally dissolved. The same would soon happen to me, and I would find myself shunned and set aside, for not even Lord Wilton, the great war hero who had survived the Battle of Pinkie Cleugh, was brave enough to marry a traitor's daughter. Our betrothal, never publicly announced, was swiftly dissolved, and many never even knew of it until it was all over. They would shake their heads and sigh, and some would even presume to pat my shoulder and condole with me over my lost opportunity. But the truth was I didn't care; there was no love lost for me to lament over. I had never been one to openly display my emotions as ripe pluckings for any handsome gallant, much less a hideously disfigured braggart old enough to be my father living on his laurels and gory glory. I would sooner not marry at all than have a man who patted me on the head like a faithful spaniel when I fetched his slippers and plumped the pillows behind his back as he sat by the fire, growing ever more cantankerous and whiny, and endlessly reliving his old campaigns until I wanted to scream and seize one of his swords off the wall and run him through myself.

"Though we never met, we are well rid of each other," I said, and everyone commended me for putting on a brave face to cover my supposed disappointment.