The Diplomat's Wife Part 6

Henryk reappears carrying two large bowls. "First course, vichyssoise," he announces as he sets the bowls down before us, then disappears into the kitchen once more.

I pick up the same spoon from the table as Paul, then try a mouthful of the soup. "Potato soup. It's supposed to be cold," Paul explains, noticing my puzzled expression.

I nod, embarra.s.sed not to have known. "Delicious."

Cla.s.sical music begins to play. I look toward the back of the restaurant. A woman, stout and fiftyish, is seated at a grand piano. "That's Henryk's wife, Marie," Paul says. "Married thirty years and they're still completely in love."

That word again, love. Paul's eyes lock with mine. Suddenly it is as if the other patrons disappear. Neither of us speak for several seconds. Then Paul clears his throat. "I'm glad to see you again, Marta. I mean, when I left Salzburg, I thought..." His voice trails off and he looks away. "And you, being here now. It's just unbelievable."

I nod, unable to speak. Clearing my throat, I force myself to look down at the soup, take another mouthful. A minute later, I glance up again, peeking at Paul out of the corner of my eye as he eats. Taking in his strong jaw, the dimple in his chin, I am reminded of our kiss by the lake. Will he kiss me again? The very thought makes my stomach ache with longing. But we may not have much time together after dinner. How would he manage it? Where? Fl.u.s.tered, I accidentally bang my hand against the table, sending my spoon clattering to the floor.

"Oh!" I cry, starting to go after it, but Paul reaches across the table and touches my forearm, restraining me.

"Don't worry," he says gently. He pulls away as a waiter, not Henryk, appears and puts a clean spoon beside my plate.

A few minutes later, Henryk returns, looking down at our half-eaten bowls of soup with surprise. "You do not like?"

"It's delicious," I reply quickly. "I'm just saving room."

Paul winks. "Good answer," he mouths as Henryk clears the bowls.

A minute later Henryk brings the main course. "Poulet a la Henryk," he declares, uncovering the plates. The dish is a thick stew, served in a brown sauce over rice.

"The city is still under rationing, but Henryk works wonders with what he can get," Paul remarks after Henryk has gone. "After the c.r.a.p-I mean stuff-we ate during the war...Our mess officer, Tommy, tried, G.o.d bless him, but there were times last winter..." He stops. "I'm an idiot. Complaining about food after all that you went through." A shadow crosses his face and I can tell he is remembering finding me in the prison, starving and near death.

"That's all right," I say quickly. I do not want him to pity me, not now. "Tell me about America," I suggest, trying to change the subject.

"America?" He pauses, considering the question as he takes a bite of chicken. "That's a tough one. It's such a big place. You've got the south, where I'm from, then places farther south where they talk even funnier." I c.o.c.k my head. "That was supposed to be a joke. Not all Americans talk like me. The states in America are kind of like your countries over here, but instead of languages, we just have different ways of speaking English, faster, slower, p.r.o.nouncing words differently. Anyway, there's the Midwest and California, which I've never seen. Then there are the big cities, New York, Chicago. There're just so many places to go." He takes another bite. "When I get back after the war, I'd like to drive across the United States. Maybe get a convertible-that's a car where the roof comes off-and just drive, see the whole thing." His eyes dance, as if he's considering the idea for the first time. I imagine myself, seated beside Paul in a car, with my hair pulled back in a kerchief, wearing large dark sungla.s.ses like the women I've seen in the movies. "I could go visit the guys from my unit," he adds.

"The others, they are not from North..." I struggle, trying to remember the name of his home.

"Carolina?" He shakes his head. "Nah. Well one of the guys, Bill McCauley, is, but he's from clear across the state. The rest are from all over, Texas, New Jersey, Maine. It's funny, we've lived together, sleeping and eating, for so long. It's hard to imagine going back to our own separate lives."

"You've grown close to them," I observe, taking a sip of wine.

"Like brothers," he agrees. Suddenly his expression grows grave. "I had one, you know. A brother. Jack was five years older than me. He got killed in a car accident when I was twelve."

"I'm so sorry." I fight the urge to reach across the table, put my hand on his.

"It was really hard," he continues, looking away. "I mean, I love my parents, adore my baby sister, Maude. But Jack was my hero."

"He would be really proud of you," I offer.

"You think so?" He looks back, his eyes brightening. I nod. "I hope you're right. That means a lot. Thanks, Marta."

We continue eating in silence. I think about Paul losing his brother. I was an only child. Friends like Emma and Rose and Alek are the closest I have come to siblings. Rose. My heart aches as I see her lying in bed the night before she died. I reach down and touch my bag beside my feet, thinking of her possessions inside. I will get to England for you, Rosie, I vow silently.

I look up. Paul has stopped eating and is gazing at me, his eyes intense. My breath catches and I look away quickly, feeling heat rise from my collar. Then I catch a glimpse of my reflection in the restaurant window. My hair is still frizzy, my face plain behind my spectacles. What can he possibly see to make him stare so?

When I turn back, Paul is focused on his plate, eating the last of the chicken, sc.r.a.ping the sauce from the plate. But his winegla.s.s is still nearly full. "Don't you like the wine?"

He shakes his head. "The wine is wonderful. I could drink the bottle without thinking twice. But you..." He breaks off, looking away. "There was this girl who made me see I was drinking too much out of self-pity. So I've pretty much decided to stop."

"Oh." I think back to our conversation on the lake, struck that my words had such an effect on him. "I'm sorry if I was preachy."

"You were right." He reaches across the table and takes my hand once more. "You reminded me who I used to be before the war. I want to be that person again." This time I do not pull away.

Henryk appears at the table then and clears his throat. "Dessert?"

Remembering the chocolate torte earlier, I am tempted, but I don't want to appear unladylike. "I couldn't possibly."

"I think we'd best be going," Paul adds, handing Henryk several bills.

Henryk puts the money in his ap.r.o.n pocket without counting it. "Before you go I would like for Mademoiselle Marta to meet my Marie." Before either Paul or I can respond, Henryk takes me by the arm and leads me through the restaurant. The dark-haired woman at the piano stops playing midsong as we approach. Up close, she is elegant, with sparkling green eyes and large gold hoop earrings. Henryk speaks to her in French, then turns to me. "This is my wife."

Marie stands and takes my hand, her bangle bracelets jingling. "Enchante." She turns to her husband, speaking rapidly in French, still holding my hand.

"My wife is quite good at reading palms," Henryk says. "She wants to know if she can look at yours."

I hesitate. Growing up in Poland, I had heard of gypsies from the Roma community who could tell the future from the lines of the palm, but I have never met anyone who claimed she could actually do it. I shrug.

Henryk nods to his wife. She turns my hand over, cradling it in hers. Then she raises it to the light, running her thumb over my palm several times, and speaking to Henryk, who translates. "You have suffered through hard times." That is hardly a prediction, I think. Everyone suffered during the war. "But your life line is strong, and your heart line is very deep. You will have great love...?" As he says this, Henryk looks meaningfully at Paul, who has come up behind me. I shiver. "And that love," Henryk prompts, but Marie stops, placing her hand on Henryk's arm to silence him. A troubled look crosses her face. She runs her hand over my palm twice, as if wiping something away. Then she drops my hand as if it is hot and looks up, shaking her head.

"What is it?" I ask.

"Nothing," Henryk replies quickly, but I can tell from his tone and his wife's expression that there is more. "I should get back to the other guests."

"Of course," Paul replies, shaking Henryk's hand as Marie turns back to the piano. We make our way to the front of the restaurant and onto the street. It is getting dark now and the gaslights have come on, casting a yellow glow on the pavement. "They're lovely people, but palm reading is a silly game."

"Perhaps," I reply slowly, still troubled by Marie's refusal to say all that she had seen.

"Are you tired?" Paul asks. I shake my head quickly, not wanting my night with Paul to end. "Good. Why don't we walk?" He leads me away from the restaurant along a winding street. The buildings here are narrow, seeming to lean on one another. Voices and laughter spill out from the cafes and bars onto the street. Paul points at the window of an apartment on the third floor of one of the buildings, illuminated in yellow light. A young woman sits on a bed reading to three small children cl.u.s.tered around her. "Can you imagine growing up here?"

I do not answer. In my mind, I imagine this street during the occupation. What had those children been through? I think then of the children in the ghetto orphanage where my mother and Emma had worked. What had become of them? I wonder, my stomach aching at the memory.

We walk in comfortable silence. Soon the street ends at the river. "Look." Paul points to an island where an enormous cathedral sits, its turrets and b.u.t.tresses bathed in light. "Notre Dame." I stop, staring up at the ma.s.sive structure. The church that seemed so ma.s.sive when I sought shelter the previous night is dwarfed by comparison. "You know, they call Paris the City of Lights," Paul offers.

I continue to gaze at Notre Dame as Paul leads me left along a path that runs parallel to the Seine. Soon we reach a wide stone bridge that crosses the river. "Careful," he says, taking me by the arm to guide me onto the pedestrian sidewalk, away from the cars that race on and off of the bridge. A jolt of electricity runs through me. Would I ever be able not to shiver at his touch? "This is the Pont Neuf, the oldest bridge in Paris." He whistles softly under his breath as we make our way across the bridge. When we reach the midpoint, he stops, pointing at the skyline in the opposite direction from Notre Dame. "Look."

In the distance, I can see the Eiffel Tower, climbing toward the sky. I lean against the wall of the bridge, staring. "This city...I mean, I couldn't have imagined..."

"It kind of defies words," Paul agrees, moving so that he is standing close behind me. "Hard to believe just a few months ago it was still occupied by the Germans." He puts his arms around me from behind and I can feel his warmth, his heart beating against my back. Other than our brief embrace in the bar, we have not been this close since Salzburg. My desire swells and breaks wide open.

Suddenly, there is shouting on the street behind us, followed by a series of small explosions. We turn toward the commotion. "What on earth...?" Paul steps forward, putting me behind him protectively. His hand drops to the gun holstered at his waist. There is more shouting, followed by someone singing. On the bridge, traffic has stopped. Car horns begin to blare.

"Sounds like a celebration of some sort," I suggest.

Paul does not answer but takes my hand and leads me across the bridge to the street, where a small crowd has gathered, shouting and cheering. Some people are drinking directly from bottles, others dancing alone or in pairs. The gathering swells as dozens more revelers come running from all directions. Paul grabs an American soldier by the sleeve as he runs past us. "What's going on?"

"The j.a.ps have surrendered. The war is over!" The soldier lets out a whoop, then continues running to join the crowd.

Paul turns to me and we stare at each other, too stunned to speak. "The war is over," he repeats at last. He bends down and picks me up. "The war is over!" He spins me around, faster and faster, until the city is just a blur of lights. Then he sets me down, his arms still around me. We look at each other breathlessly for several seconds. Suddenly he brings his lips to mine, and without hesitation I am kissing him back, my mouth open, body pressed tight to his. It is as if we will never stop, as if the street and the people and the world around us no longer exist.

There are more explosions, breaking us apart. "I'm sorry," Paul says quickly.

"Don't be. I'm not." I take a step back, smoothing my skirt. "Look." I point across the water. Bright flashes of light, red and blue, fill the night sky.

"Fireworks," Paul remarks. I nod, staring in wonder at the waves of color that fill the sky like confetti. I have heard of fireworks but never seen them before. "You would think after all of the bombings, everyone would have had enough of things exploding," he says a minute later. "Let's get out of here." For a second I hope we will return to the bridge and gaze at the skyline once more. But he leads me through the streets back, I can tell, toward the Servicemen's Hotel. The war is over, I think, as we walk in silence. I was thirteen years old when the war began and I spent the past six years running for my life.

"What are you thinking?" Paul asks.

"Lots of things. Mostly about what I lost during the war."

He smiles. "Careful, you're starting to sound like me."

Recalling how I had chastised him for self-pity the night on the lake, I laugh. "I suppose I am. I really was preachy, wasn't I?"

"Not at all. You were right about being grateful to be alive, earning the chance we've been given. And now, with the war ending, getting to go home. It really is a second chance, isn't it?"

Home. Paul will be leaving, returning to America for good. He stops walking and turns to me suddenly, his expression troubled. "The only bad thing is leaving you." My heart pounds against my chest. "I mean, I realize we haven't known each other very long, but...I'm going to miss you, Marta."

So don't go, I want to scream. "I'll miss you, too."

We stand staring at each other for several seconds, neither speaking. "Well, it's getting late," he says at last. "We should get back and pick up your papers." We continue walking and, a few minutes later, approach the Servicemen's Hotel.

Through the closed hotel door, I hear shouting and singing, soldiers celebrating the end of the war. "Why don't you wait here?" Paul suggests. "Once I get your papers from Mickey, I can escort you back to your hotel."

My hotel, I think, panicking. In my excitement at seeing Paul, I had nearly forgotten that I was supposed to get to the Red Cross shelter. "That won't be necessary..." I begin, but Paul is already through the hotel door.

A minute later, he reappears. "All set," he says. There is a new number scrawled across the front of the train ticket. "Front desk called the station and reserved you a seat on the seven-fifteen train to Calais. It's a bit early, I'm afraid, but the only way you'll make the ferry."

"Thank you again." I tuck them into my bag as he leads me down the path to the curb, hailing a taxi.

"Paul, my hotel is clear across town," I say as the taxi pulls up. "There's no need for you to ride all the way there."

He opens the rear door. "But the city is crazy right now with all of the celebrating. I'm glad to escort you."

"I know. But I'd rather you don't. Please." It begins to rain then, thick drops splattering on the pavement.

"I don't understand..."

"If I don't say goodbye to you now..." I hesitate, looking down the street, then back at Paul again. I take a deep breath. "If I don't say goodbye to you now, it is going to break my heart." I reach up and kiss him, quick and hard. Then, before he can respond, I leap into the back of the taxi and close the door. "Drive, please," I manage to say in French.

"Where to?"

"Away," I reply. Paul is still standing outside the cab. Desperately, I come up with the only place in Paris I remember. "To the Louvre." I have no idea what a taxi costs, how far away the Louvre may be. I will stop the taxi and get out, I decide, as soon as I am away from here.

"But the Louvre is closed...."

"Just drive, please!" The cab lurches forward. Don't look back, I think. As we start to move, tears well up, overrunning my eyes. Suddenly there is a banging on the roof of the cab, as though someone has dropped a large rock on it. I jump. "Mon dieu!" the driver exclaims, slamming on the breaks. There is another banging noise. It's not coming from the roof, I realize, but the back window. I spin around. Perched on the trunk of the taxi on all fours, is Paul.

He jumps down, then comes around to the side of the taxi. I roll down the window. The rain falls heavily now, plastering Paul's hair to his forehead, but he does not seem to notice. "What on earth are you doing?" I demand. "Jumping onto a moving car like that, you could have been killed!"

"I needed to stop you," he replies simply, opening the taxi door.

"Why? What's wrong? Did you forget to give me some of the papers?"

He does not answer, but falls to the ground. "Oh!" I reach down. "Are you hurt?"

Paul does not answer but looks up, still kneeling. He hasn't fallen, but has dropped down on one knee deliberately, as though tying his shoelace. He reaches up and takes my hand. "Marry me, Marta."

CHAPTER 9.

I stare down at him, stunned. "Marta, when I had to leave you in Salzburg, I felt so helpless. I mean, I knew I liked you a lot, but we had practically just met. I thought I would never see you again and there wasn't anything I could do about it." His words come out in a tumble, almost too quick for me to follow. "And now, well..." He falters. "I know it's crazy. We haven't spent more than a day together. You barely know me. But there's some reason we seem to keep finding each other. I'm crazy about you. I feel like we've known each other forever. And I'm not going to let you go this time. Not when I can do something about it. Marry me, Marta," he repeats.

Is this really happening? I close my eyes, then open them again. Paul is still on one knee, gazing up at me expectantly. My mind races. Why is he doing this? For a second I wonder if he is still grieving over the loss of his fiancee, trying to fill a void. But looking down at his face, the intensity burning bright in his eyes, I know that his feelings for me are real. This is crazy. Paul is right, though. There is something special between us, something that makes it seem as though we have known each other forever. Suddenly I remember my first night at the palace, staring out at the mountains and wondering what life had in store for me. Now, at least in part, I know the answer. "Yes," I whisper. My eyes start to burn.

"Yes!" Paul shouts. He leaps to his feet, then reaches into the cab and picks me up. We hold each other close, neither speaking. An earthy smell rises from the wet pavement.

"Pardon," a voice says a few seconds later. Paul and I break apart. Behind us stands the taxi driver, arms crossed. "Louvre, Mademoiselle?"

"The Louvre?" Paul looks from me to the driver, then back again, brow furrowed. Suddenly I want to melt into the pavement and disappear. "Were you that desperate to get away from me?"

I can lie to him no longer. "You kept insisting on taking me back to my hotel and I was too embarra.s.sed to admit I didn't have one."

Paul's expression changes to one of understanding. He walks to the driver and hands him some bills. Then he turns to me. "Let's get inside out of the rain." Then he takes his jacket off and holds it over our heads as he leads me into the hotel. The lobby is crowded with soldiers overflowing the celebration at the bar, drinking and singing. As Paul leads me across the lobby through the crowd, a soldier carrying a camera and a dark green bottle blocks our path. I recognize him from Salzburg as the soldier who told Paul that they would be staying for the night. "War's over!" the soldier exclaims, hugging Paul so hard he is forced to let go of my hand.

"I know. It's fantastic. And more good news-I just got engaged. Drew, meet my girl, Marta."

My girl. I feel my insides grow warm. Drew turns to me, eyes wide, trying unsuccessfully to place me. "Congratulations!" He pumps Paul's hand up and down. "Lemme take your picture." Paul draws me close to his side as Drew raises the camera. There is a popping noise, followed by a blinding flash. "This calls for champagne," he adds, handing Paul the bottle.

Paul takes a swig, then turns to me. "Do you want some?"

"Sure." I take the bottle from him, lifting it to my mouth with two hands. Bubbles tickle my nose as I swallow the lukewarm liquid. I pa.s.s the bottle back to Paul, who turns to hand it to Drew. But he has already disappeared into the crowd.

"Come on. Let's get out of this mess." Paul takes my hand again and leads me down a corridor to a stairwell. He drops to one of the stairs, still holding the champagne bottle.

"So what do we do now?" I ask, sitting down beside him.

"Good question. Now that the war is over, they'll be sending us back to the States. But it's still going to be at least a few weeks. I could send you ahead to my family in America and meet you there. Or you can wait here in Paris. Then I can try to get discharged over here and we can travel back together."