The Concubine's Secret Part 26

'How do you know Alexei?'

'I met him in Felanka. After you'd left. He was looking for you.'

In Felanka. After you'd left. Looking for you. Lydia clasped her hands together on her lap to stop them banging in fury on the table. All these weeks she'd believed Alexei had deserted her. When all the time the truth was that she'd walked out on him. She could hear a noise, an odd rasping sound, and it took a moment for her to realise it was her own breathing. Lydia clasped her hands together on her lap to stop them banging in fury on the table. All these weeks she'd believed Alexei had deserted her. When all the time the truth was that she'd walked out on him. She could hear a noise, an odd rasping sound, and it took a moment for her to realise it was her own breathing.

'Are you all right?' Antonina was leaning across the table, one white-gloved hand stretched out, but she cast a wary glance round the room. 'Take care.' She waited quietly while Lydia struggled for control. 'Can I help?'

'I . . . didn't know.'

'That he came back for you?'

Lydia ducked her head, her hair falling across her face. She tugged at a lock of it. 'How was he?' she whispered.

'Alexei?' Antonina took a long drag on the ivory holder and let smoke coil from her nose like a waking dragon. 'Not in good shape, I'm afraid.'

'Why?'

'He'd been beaten up.' She hesitated and something caught in her throat when she added, 'Stabbed.'

Lydia refused to cry. 'Was he badly hurt?'

'The wound was healing, so don't worry. But it must have been bad at first.' Again that catch in her voice.

'Did he receive my letter?'

'What letter? I'm sorry, I know nothing about a letter.'

Lydia stared down at her own hands in her lap and shook her head.

'Listen to me, Lydia.' Antonina spoke fast, checking that no one was near. 'I went to Felanka to find you, but you'd disappeared. I had the information you wanted. I told Alexei that Jens Friis had been transferred to Moscow. But,' she flicked ash thoughtfully into a silver ashtray, 'you obviously already know that and that's why you're here, I presume. You must have discovered he's been moved out of Trovitsk camp.'

Lydia nodded.

'Clever of you,' Antonina murmured.

'Where is Alexei now?'

'I don't know. I wish to G.o.d I did.'

It was the way she said it, rather than the words themselves. As if they hurt her. Enough to draw Lydia's attention from her own despair and focus it on her companion. She looked lovely. Cool and elegant with bare, fragile shoulders and a single strand of pearls around her long pale neck. Her face looked calm, serene as a doll's, and it seemed to Lydia that this woman had learned to construct a hard sh.e.l.l between herself and the world that her husband was so convinced would one day be the Mecca of mankind's happiness. Her eyes were cool and secretive but only her full carmine mouth gave her away. One small corner of it trembled beyond her control when she mentioned Lydia's brother.

Lydia lifted her hand and hesitantly placed it on the white-gloved one where it lay on the table. 'Tell me what happened,' she said in a low voice.

'Nothing much. We met in Felanka . . . we talked. Then he left.'

'To come to Moscow?'

'That's what he said. Something about having to go to the Cathedral of Christ the Redeemer.'

'I know Alexei. If that's what he said, he will get here even if he has to drag himself by his fingernails.'

'Really?'

One word. That's all. But the unguarded eagerness in it told Lydia everything. So that was it, her brother and Antonina. It made her own loneliness even sharper, but she nodded and squeezed the hand under hers. 'He'll come. I know he'll come.'

'You'll tell me when-'

'Yes, of course.'

Lydia was aware of Dmitri's tall figure approaching their table. So this was the man who for the last few years had controlled the brutal camp where her father was imprisoned. How could she bring herself to speak to him? How could she bear even to look at him?

'Here you are, my darling,' Dmitri said as he placed a gla.s.s of red wine in front of his wife. 'And for you, young Lydia, a gla.s.s of champagne.'

'Champagne,' she said stiffly.

'Yes. To celebrate.'

'What am I celebrating?'

He studied her face for a moment and his expression struck her as sad, as if he knew he'd lost something. 'The Chinese delegation has arrived.'

Lydia rose to her feet, her legs suddenly clumsy. She looked around the crowded room and made it seem as if it meant nothing to her. 'Where are they?'

'Some of them are over there with General Vasiliev. The others are . . .'

Antonina's eyes widened as she focused on something over Lydia's right shoulder. Lydia's mouth went dry.

'Behind you,' Dmitri finished.

Lydia spun round, expecting Kuan. Her breathing stopped. Her heart split open. All the happiness stored inside it flooded through her veins. She was looking straight into the beautiful dark eyes of Chang An Lo.

There are times, Lydia knew, when life gives you more than you ask for. Oh yes, this was one. She wanted to shout a thousand spasibos spasibos to all his G.o.ds, to make it echo from the gla.s.s roof. Their abundant generosity took her breath away. She'd asked for Kuan tonight, but instead she was given Chang An Lo. to all his G.o.ds, to make it echo from the gla.s.s roof. Their abundant generosity took her breath away. She'd asked for Kuan tonight, but instead she was given Chang An Lo.

He was real. Not a figment this time. Her eyes feasted greedily on him. His lithe figure was tall and supple as a bamboo tree, his black hair longer than she'd seen it before but just as thick and energetic. And yes, he possessed that same stillness at his core that pulled at her heart. But his eyes . . . the eyes she'd kissed and bathed and even brushed with her own lashes, dark and intent and able to see right inside her soul . . . those black eyes had changed. They were more guarded and aloof. Withdrawn into himself.

He stood in front of her in a tunic and black trousers and she wanted to touch him so badly her hands were shaking. She forced them together in front of her and performed a polite bow of greeting.

'It is good to see you again, Chang An Lo.'

Good to see you. How did she find such restrained words on her tongue? How did she speak at all when her heart was thundering in her throat? And that was when he presented Kuan to the gathering and Lydia felt something crack inside her. Kuan, dressed in a similar black tunic and trousers, possessed solemn brown eyes, hair cropped to jaw level and a determined, capable mouth that made Lydia wary. But worse - far, far worse - she possessed a piece of Chang An Lo. Her arm rested against his as if their flesh was fused.

30.

Chang An Lo thanked the G.o.ds. He wanted to drop to his knees and touch his forehead to the floor nine times in grat.i.tude to them for granting him the impossible. His fox girl was safe. Alive and safe.

Yet as he observed the two people standing either side of her, the man with the fox hair and the woman with the wounded eyes, he had a sense that they were gnawing at her, wanting a piece of her. It was in the way their glances kept skimming her, reluctant to leave her, a hunger in their eyes that she seemed unaware of.

He bowed respectfully in Chinese custom to Lydia, but shook hands with the man and the woman in the expected manner. For the first time he understood why Westerners chose to shake hands on meeting instead of the cleaner and more civilised habit of bowing to each other. A handshake reveals the secrets of a man's heart whether he wishes it or not. This man with the fox pelt and the wolf's eyes had a handshake that was firm, too firm. He was trying to prove something to himself. And to warn Chang off, even though his smile of welcome was so genuine Chang couldn't spot where the fake began and the real one ended. This Russian, this Comrade Malofeyev, knew well how to control his smiles - but not his handshakes.

The woman was a different matter. Her hand rested so briefly in Chang's it barely touched his skin, as meaningless as the casual look of detachment she gave him. She saw a Chinese a Chinese, nothing more. But as his fingers brushed against her gloved ones, he could feel the tremor in them. Was it revulsion . . . or pain? He couldn't tell. She hid it too well.

'I am honoured to be in this great city,' Chang said, 'and my delegation humbly antic.i.p.ates learning much from our Soviet comrades.'

He didn't look again at Lydia. Wouldn't let himself. Didn't trust himself. Instead he introduced his two companions.

'This is Hu Biao, my a.s.sistant.'

Hu Biao bowed low. 'I am honoured.'

'And this is Tang Kuan, my invaluable liaison officer.'

He heard Lydia's breath. Faint as the beat of a b.u.t.terfly's wing but so tied to his own he could not mistake it.

Kuan neither bowed nor shook hands. She nodded her head in greeting and said in the perfect Russian he had taught her, 'It is a privilege to be here in Moscow. It gives us all hope to see the impressive strides Communism has made in our comrades' great country.'

'I would be proud to show you around our city,' wolf-eyes said so smoothly it was as though there were oil on his tongue.

Kuan nodded. 'Spasibo, comrade, tovarishch. tovarishch. I would very much like to inspect some of the new communal housing.' I would very much like to inspect some of the new communal housing.'

'And the industrial and technological developments,' Chang added. 'Perhaps a tour of some of your new factories?'

'Of course. I believe that has already been arranged.'

'We would all be honoured to visit Lenin's Mausoleum in Red Square. To view the greatest man in history, a man whose ideas will change the whole world.'

'It would be my pleasure to-'

'Comrade Chang.' Lydia interrupted the exchange, forcing him to look at her. Her amber eyes glittered brighter than sunlight as she asked, 'Would you do me the honour of dancing with me?'

His chest tightened. What was she doing, trailing her fingers through the fire? The two Russians stared at her in surprise but she ignored them and smiled at Chang in a way that robbed him of caution.

'My humble apologies,' he said, 'but I do not know your dances.'

'Then I shall teach you. It's not hard.'

He bowed. 'As our intention in coming to Russia is to learn as much as we can of your ways, I thank you and accept with pleasure. ' The words sneaked out before he could put a chain on them.

At his side Kuan frowned and opened her mouth to say something, but at a look from him shut it again. Under her breath she murmured a few words to Hu Biao who gave a brief nod. Hu Biao would stay close and watch who talked to whom.

Lydia turned with a determined little flounce and walked on to the dance floor. Chang followed.

Her hair smelled of tobacco. As if she'd been breathed on by too many men. Chang felt a twist of jealousy in his gut. Other men in the room were looking at her, and not just because she was breaking unwritten rules by dancing with a Chinese. He could feel their gaze yet she seemed unaware of it. She didn't pout or preen or toss her head self-consciously, as women so often did when they felt the heat of admiration. She was herself in her green skirt and her plain white blouse.

She floated, weightless as sunlight in his arms as he moved with her in time to the music, fitting herself with ease to his unstructured steps. Neither spoke. If he did, the words would never stop. He let his eyes take their time, let them dwell on each precious part of her face. The delicate balance of its bones, the arch of each eyebrow, the full soft sweep of her lips. The nose that was too long for Chinese taste and the chin too strong. A tiny white scar on the angle of her jaw was new, and a hollow-ness under her cheekbones.

These things he absorbed to join those parts of her already living and breathing inside him. Her hair - which he had touched a thousand times in his dreams - was longer, and he allowed his fingers to trace its fiery ends where his hand lay on her back. A small, recent wound had not yet healed on the skin of her pale hand where it nestled like a bird in his palm. Yet she was still his fox girl, still Lydia.

But there were changes in her. In her eyes. The loss of her mother, of her home, maybe even of himself, had done something to her. There was a sadness at the back of her eyes that hadn't been there before and he longed to kiss it away. She moved differently as well, more from her hips like a young woman, not like a girl any more. She had grown up. While they had been apart his fox girl had matured at some deeper level that he had not expected, and it grieved him to know he had not been there to keep the bad spirits from stealing her laughter.

He had deserted her - though he'd sworn it was only for as long as it took to fight for the future of China, and for the ideals that were wrapped around his soul. Denying himself. Denying her. Communism had demanded everything of him and he had given it.

But now . . . now things had changed.

'I've missed you.'

She breathed the words softly. He inhaled them. Did not let them go.

'I have missed you too, Lydia. Like an eagle misses its wings.'

She didn't smile as they drifted round the room. It seemed that her smiles were not as easy to find as they used to be in China, but her eyes never left his face.

'Lydia, my love.'

He felt her tremble. Saw the pulse at the edge of her delicate jaw.

'Lydia, I am watched every moment. The Soviet wolves circle our delegation day and night, wherever we go, regulating who we speak to and what we see. They will not let our delegation be contaminated contaminated.' His thumb imperceptibly stroked one of her fingers. Her eyes flickered, half closed. 'If we are seen together you will be seized, taken to the Lubyanka for questioning and not released.'

For the first time during the dance she smiled at him. He wanted to touch her face, to feel her skin.

'Don't worry, my love,' she said, barely above a whisper. 'I know what you are saying. I won't put you in danger.'

'No, Lydia. Don't put yourself in danger.'

'I feel safe now. Like this.' For a moment she let her head tip back with pleasure, the way a cat will when stroked on its throat, and her hair danced free and unfettered. 'Here with you.'

Their eyes clung to each other.

'We must stop, my love,' he told her.

'I know.'