The Concubine's Secret Part 17

He bent to one side and vomited last night's fish on to the gra.s.s.

'Oh Konstantin, you b.a.s.t.a.r.d, you thieving f.u.c.king b.a.s.t.a.r.d. You . . .'

Rage robbed him of words. He knew it was over. He lifted the knife. Without hesitation he cut through the material of his trousers and stabbed the blade into the spot high on his thigh where there was already a rough scar. A flow of blood spilled down over the pale muscle to form a pool on the gra.s.s. Using the knife tip he extracted something small and hard, covered in blood, from within the flesh and put it into his mouth. When he spat it out on to his palm, it was clean. A diamond. Too small to be worth much. Even less in a dog-s.h.i.t place like this. But hopefully enough to get him to Felanka.

It was the last. There was nothing left after this.

He cut a strip off the bandage on his side and knotted it tightly round his thigh. Blood still oozed, but Alexei ignored it. He welcomed the pain in the wound at each step. It deadened that other pain, the one in his chest, the one that was trying to suffocate him as he limped into the village.

'1908?'

'Yes, that's what it said. The stones spelled out Nyet Nyet and and 1908 1908.' Lydia frowned and turned to Elena. 'I don't understand what it means. What happened in 1908?'

On the train back to Felanka she had cudgelled her brain into trying to work out the significance of the number. 1908 1908. But however meticulously she trawled through her knowledge of Russian history, nothing came to mind that made the slightest bit of sense.

'1908?' Elena asked again. 'Are you sure it wasn't 1905? That's when the first revolution started in St Petersburg with the b.l.o.o.d.y Sunday ma.s.sacre. Maybe it's telling you he's in St Petersburg.'

'No, it was definitely an eight, not a five. I'm sure of it. 1908.'

They were walking back from the station and had stopped at a roadside stall which sold hot pirozhki pirozhki to pa.s.sers-by. Lydia was holding her hands out to the heat of the brazier, eyeing Popkov's broad uncommunicative back as he waited for the little pies to be fried. Since leaving the station he hadn't spoken to her. She stamped her feet on the hard compacted snow, frustrated by his silence and by the cryptic message from the camp. She rubbed her gloves together hard to bring blood to her fingers and turned to Elena. 'The Tunguska event happened in 1908, didn't it, the comet that exploded over Siberia?' to pa.s.sers-by. Lydia was holding her hands out to the heat of the brazier, eyeing Popkov's broad uncommunicative back as he waited for the little pies to be fried. Since leaving the station he hadn't spoken to her. She stamped her feet on the hard compacted snow, frustrated by his silence and by the cryptic message from the camp. She rubbed her gloves together hard to bring blood to her fingers and turned to Elena. 'The Tunguska event happened in 1908, didn't it, the comet that exploded over Siberia?'

'Da, but I don't see a connection.'

'Neither do I, except that it flattened millions of trees, just like the prisoners are doing.' She looked at the older woman hopefully. 'I thought you might think of something.'

Elena shook her head regretfully. 'Yet it must be obvious or they wouldn't have left you that message. Can you think of any connection to yourself?'

'No, it's four years before I was born.'

'And your parents?'

'They weren't married then, but they both lived in St Petersburg. Do you think it's referring to something that happened in St Petersburg that year?'

'Like what?'

They stared at each other blankly and shook their heads.

Popkov took a bite out of one of the pirozhki pirozhki and breathed hot air at the two women as he thrust a pie at each of them. and breathed hot air at the two women as he thrust a pie at each of them.

'It's not a date,' he growled and turned to the pie seller for more.

'What?' Lydia demanded.

'You heard.'

She prodded his back. 'What do you mean, it's not a date?'

He shovelled another pie into his mouth. How could he do that without burning his tongue?

'How do you know it's not a date?'

Popkov lumbered round to face her and she could still feel his anger at her, bristling on his clothes and lurking in his thick s.h.a.ggy beard. She wanted to tell him she was sorry, to promise she wouldn't stray again. But she couldn't do it.

'Tell me, Liev,' she said softly, 'if 1908 isn't a date, what is it?'

He glared at her and plucked at his eyepatch with a greasy finger. 'When the prison guards are drunk, they blurt out things. I've heard from several of them about the places so secret the authorities don't give them names, just numbers. 1908 is one of them. I've heard it mentioned.'

'So what is it?'

'It's a secret prison.'

'A secret prison?' The bones in Lydia's face seemed to freeze.

'Da. I have no idea where, except that it's somewhere in Moscow.' I have no idea where, except that it's somewhere in Moscow.'

Lydia seized the front of his coat and hugged it to her. 'Then that's where we'll go. To Moscow.'

18.

The silence. The stillness. The sameness. They rob you. Steal your sense of self.

In a set of bright bas.e.m.e.nt rooms deep under the streets of Moscow, a tall man leaned over a clutch of technical drawings spread out over the surface of his desk and for a moment wondered whether he was dead or alive. Sometimes he couldn't tell.

Week by week, the days scarcely varied. The electric light was never switched off and the concept of darkness became a luxury he craved. He worked whenever he chose, whenever he could concentrate his mind, unaware of time or routine. Right now, was it day or night? He had no idea. He released the pair of callipers from his hand and let them clatter on to the wooden surface of the desk, just to hear a noise of some kind other than the hum of the hot water pipes that trailed along the walls.

He rested his chin on his hand. What were other people doing? Eating? Singing? Best of all, talking? He allowed his mind to create a world up there above his head, a city where snow fell on to golden church domes in a thick lacy curtain. Where sounds were m.u.f.fled and there was the swish of greased runners, and hopeful young street urchins touted firewood for sale, hauling it along the gutters on sledges.

Moscow was alive above him. Living and laughing. He could smell the dough in the ovens and taste the sour cream on his tongue . . . but only in his dreams. In his waking hours there was nothing but silence, stillness and sameness.

'So you have a daughter.'

Jens Friis made no response. He was sharpening a pencil when the guard rattled his keys, unlocked the heavy metal door and entered the workroom with a grimace on his face. It was the fat one, Poliakov. He wasn't so bad. Better than some of the other b.a.s.t.a.r.ds. And this one liked to talk, even if it was just to poke and prod the prisoners out of their carefully constructed sh.e.l.ls. Jens didn't mind that. He'd developed a knack of letting the taunts slide past, and responding with comments that sometimes succeeded in enticing the warder into conversation.

But this. So you have a daughter So you have a daughter. This was different.

He sat back in his seat, a padded comfortable armchair in which he did most of his thinking, and showed no hint of surprise.

'What do you mean, Poliakov?'

'Your daughter.'

'You've got it wrong. I have no family. They were lost in the terrors of 1917.'

The warder leaned against the doorframe, his belly straining at the b.u.t.tons of his shirt, his round brown eyes full of amus.e.m.e.nt. That was a bad sign.

'No daughter?'

'Nyet,' Jens repeated.

'Are you sure?'

'Yes.' But his heart stopped.

Poliakov pulled out a cigarette, lit it with a match which he dropped on the floor, and took a long drag before letting loose a conspiratorial smile. 'Now what's the point of lying to me, Friis? I thought I was your friend.'

At least here they were called by their names. In the camp it had been just impersonal numbers. Jens dismissed the guard's words as another attempt to provoke him, so he refused to rise to the bait.

'Any chance of a smoke?' he asked instead.

'I tell you, Friis, you're going to love listening to this. Your daughter has turned up at your last camp, it seems. Don't look so shocked. She's searching for you in the wrong place, thousands of miles away from here. Isn't that funny?' He chuckled at first, but when he saw the expression on his prisoner's face he burst out laughing. 'What chance does a stupid kid have of tracing you here?'

What chance?

Jens wanted to strangle him, to squeeze that thick lardy neck. He stood up abruptly and as he did so a flash of fiery curls roared into his brain. A dainty heart-shaped face. A mischievous smile that could pulverise his heart. Lydia? Is it you? My Lydia? Is it you? My Lydia?

Could it really be her?

Sweat broke out on his skin. Was his daughter alive? After all these years that he'd believed her dead. And his wife?

Oh dear G.o.d, let my beautiful Valentina be alive. Let my little Lydia be . . . He choked. . . . He choked.

For twelve long barren years he'd lived without them, without even the memory of the two people he had loved most in the world. Because to think of them, of their smiles and their clear voices, would destroy him. So for twelve lonely years he'd lived without love and without hope. Only now when Poliakov said so slyly, She's searching for you She's searching for you, did images of the moment he lost them come crashing back.

He pictured once more the icy wasteland of Siberia, white and monotonous. The grey frozen slats of the cattle wagons packed with fear and fury, as the train with its cargo of fleeing White Russians growled its way across Russia in search of freedom. Valentina's breath on his cheek, the weight of their child asleep in his arms. Then came the rifles, the men on horseback with hate in their eyes, the cries as the women and children were s.n.a.t.c.hed from the train by the Bolsheviks. In flashes he recalled again the pitiless gaze of the Red Army commander as the men were herded away to be shot. Valentina's eyes huge with an agony of despair. Lydia's thin piercing scream. The terror spread around them as solid as the frozen snow under their feet.

He jerked his mind away from that moment, the way he would jerk his hand away from red-hot metal.

'Valentina?' he whispered.

'Who the f.u.c.k is Valentina?' Poliakov snapped.

Jens suddenly hated this guard, loathed and detested him for enticing hope back into his life. Hope was dead. Long ago he had slain it, a many-headed monster that made life in the prisons unbearable. But now it had risen from the dead to torment him again. The pencil in his hand snapped.

19.

'She's not here.'

'When did she leave?' Alexei asked.

'A while ago.'

'A week? A month? Longer?'

The concierge shook her head unhelpfully. She was a st.u.r.dy comrade who took her job seriously. 'I don't keep track of everyone's movements, you know.'

I bet you do, comrade. I bet that's exactly what you do.

But she wasn't going to share the information with him. He couldn't blame her. He looked a mess, his filthy clothes and unshaven appearance didn't exactly inspire confidence.

'I'm her brother.'

'So?'

'I was delayed elsewhere. I thought she'd still be here in Felanka.'

'Well, she's not.'

'Did she leave anything? A note perhaps?'

'Nyet.'

Alexei rested his elbows on her desk and leaned so far forward it occurred to him she might think he was trying to kiss her. He smiled but it wasn't friendly. 'I believe she did,' he said evenly.

The woman thought about that. 'I'll check.'

She backed away, rummaged in a drawer and, after a show of considerable effort, produced an envelope. Scrawled across it in large looping letters was his name, Alexei Serov. He realised he'd never seen his sister's handwriting before in all the time they'd been travelling together. It surprised him. It was bold - but that much he would have guessed. What he hadn't expected was the softness within it, the uncertain ends to the words and a carefulness in the forming of the capital S. Oh Lydia. Where the h.e.l.l are you? Why didn't you wait? Oh Lydia. Where the h.e.l.l are you? Why didn't you wait?

His fear was that she'd gone to the camp and been arrested.

'And the man we were with? The big-'

'I remember him.' For the first time she smiled and it made her almost pretty. 'He's gone too. They went together.'

Her memory was improving, so he decided to try again. 'I left a bag in my room. Is it-'

'Any possessions remaining in the room are kept for three days and then sold to cover any unpaid rent.'

'But I'm sure my sister would have paid anything owing.'