Say and Seal Volume Ii Part 22

She was not suffered to sit so long.

"May I take you away?"--Mr. Linden said,--"you must not stay any longer."

"Do you think it is no use?" said Faith looking up at him wearily.

"It is of no use," said Dr. Harrison. He had come near, and took her hand, looking at her with a moved face in which there was something very like tender reproach. But he only brought her hand gravely to his lips again and turned away. Mr. Linden's words were very low-spoken. "I think the doctor is right.--But let me take you home, and then I will come back and stay till morning if you like--or till there comes a change. _You_ must not stay."

"I don't like to go,"--said Faith without moving. "She may want me again."

"There may be no change all night," said the doctor;--"and when it comes it will not probably be a conscious change. If she awakes at all, it will be to die. You could do nothing more."

Faith saw that Mr. Linden thought so, and she gave it up; with a lingering unwillingness got off the bed and wrapped her furs round her.

Mr. Linden put her into the sleigh, keeping Jerry back to let the doctor precede them; and when he was fairly in front, Faith was doubly wrapped up--as she had been the night of the fire, and could take the refreshment of the cool air, and rest. Very wearily, for a while, mind and body both dropped. Faith was as still as if she had been asleep; but her eyes were gazing out upon the snow, following the distant speck of the doctor's sleigh, or looking up to the eternal changeless lights that keep watch over this little world and mock its changes. Yet not so! but that bear their quiet witness that there is something which is not "pa.s.sing away;"--yea, that there is something which "endureth forever."

"He calleth them all by their names; for that he is strong in power, not one faileth." That was in Faith's mind along with other words--"The Lord knoweth them that are his." Her mind was in a pa.s.sive state; things floated in and floated out. It was some time before Mr. Linden said anything--he let her be as silent and still as she would; but at last he bent over her and spoke.

"My Mignonette"--and the thought was not sweeter than the words--"are you asleep?"

"No--" she said in one of those etherial answering tones which curiously say a great many things.

"Are you resting?"

"Yes. I am rested."

"You must try not to bear the burden of your work after it is done. Now lay it off--and leave your poor friend in the hands where I trust she has left herself. Her senses are not closed to his voice."

"I do"--she said with a grateful look. "I know it is not my work--nor anybody's."

He drew the furs up about her silently, arranging and adjusting them so as to keep off the wind which had risen a little.

"We are not very far from home now,--we have come fast."

And as Jerry did not relax his pace, the little distance was soon travelled over. How fair the lights in their own windows looked then!--with their speech of blessing and comfort.

They all came together round the fire first, and then round the tea-table; Faith being specially watched over and waited on by both the others. Mrs. Derrick's half developed fear at their long stay, had given place to a sort of moved, untalkative mood when she heard the explanation, but a mood which relieved itself by trying every possible and impossible thing for Faith's refreshment. Every possible thing except refreshing talk--and that Mr. Linden gave her. Talk which without jarring in the least upon the evening's work, yet led her thoughts a little off from the painful part of it. Talk of the Christian's work--of the Christian's privilege,--of "Heaven and the way thither,"--of the gilding of the cross, of the glory of the crown.

Faith heard and joined in it, but there was a point of pressure yet at her heart; and when they left the table and went into the other room, a slight thing gave indication where it lay. Faith took a little bench by Mrs. Derrick's side, drew her mother's arms round her close, and laid her head down on her lap.

How softly, how tenderly, did Mrs. Derrick answer the caress, as if she read it perfectly!--touching Faith's hands and brow and cheeks with fingers that were even trembling. And at last--whether her child's mute pleading was too much for her,--whether the pain which had never left her heart since the day of Faith's overturn had by degrees done its work,--she bent down her lips to Faith's cheek and whispered--"Yes, pretty child--I mean to try."

And so the door opened, and Cindy and Mr. Skip came in for prayers.

Faith hid her face, but otherwise did not stir.

How sweet the service was to them all that night!--yes, to them all; there was not one who could help feeling its influence. And yet it was very simple, and not very long,--Mr. Linden read first a few Bible pa.s.sages, and then Wesley's hymn of the New Year,--with its bugle note of action,--and then to prayer, for which, by that time, every heart was ready.

"Come let us anew our journey pursue, Roll round with the year, And never stand still till the Master appear.

His adorable will let us gladly fulfil, And our talents improve, By the patience of hope and the labours of love.

"Our life is a dream; our time, as a stream, Glides swiftly away, And the fugitive moment refuses to stay.

The arrow is flown--the moment is gone; The millennial year Rushes on to our view, and eternity's here.

"O that each, in the day of his coming, may say, I have fought my way through; I have finished the work thou didst give me to do.

O that each from his Lord may receive the glad word, Well and faithfully done!

Enter into my joy, and sit down on my throne."

CHAPTER VIII.

The first morning of the new year turned out as bright as could be desired for the great sleigh-riding expedition; the very day for it.

And in the very mood for it were the people who were to go. Not but somewhat of last night's gravity hung about Faith's bright face; the one did no hurt to the other; for the best brightness is always sure to be grave, and the best gravity is almost sure to be bright, on some side. However there was nothing _contemplative_ about the character of things this morning; there was too much action afoot. Such an army of meats and drinks, with all sorts of odd ends and varieties, from the shoes to the fishing-net, and such an array of apples and sugarplums!--to marshal and order them all in proper companies and ranks, wanted a general! But Faith was by no means a bad general, and up to the act of stowing the sleigh, at which point the things were made over to Mr. Linden and Mr. Skip, her part was well done. And Mr.

Linden found in the course of _his_ part of the business that Mrs.

Derrick and Faith had followed a lead of their own.

There had been a pretty packing and tying up and labelling at the table, before the sleigh-packing began,--Faith's busy little fingers went in and out with great dexterity; and either Mr. Linden thought it was pleasant to her--or knew it was pleasant to him, to have them so engaged; for though he stood by and talked to her, and laughed at her, he let the said little fingers have their way; except when they touched some harsh bit of string, or rough bit of paper, or unmanageable package, and then his own interfered. It was a bright packing up--without a shadow, at least that could be called such. But once or twice, when with some quick movement of Faith's hand the diamonds flashed forth their weird light suddenly,--she did see that Mr.

Linden's eyes went down, and that his mouth took a set which if not of pain, was at least sad. It never lasted long--and the next look was always one of most full pleasure at her. But the second time, Faith's heart could hardly bear it. She guessed at the why and the what; but words were too gross a medium to convey from spirit to spirit the touch that love could give and pain bear. She watched her chance; and when one of Mr. Linden's hands was for a moment resting on a package that the other was busied in arranging, suddenly laying the jewelled hand on his, Faith's lips kept it company.

"Faith!" he said. And then as if he saw it all, he did not say another word, only held her for a minute in a very, very close embrace. But then he whispered,

"Faith--you must give me that in another way."

Faith appeared to have exhausted her ammunition, for she only answered by hiding her face.

"Faith"--Mr. Linden repeated.

She looked up slowly, blushing all over; and her very doubtful face seemed to negative the whole proceeding. But then an irrepressible little laugh began to play.

"I wouldn't do it," she said unsteadily,--"at least, I don't know that I would--if I hadn't wished so very much to give you something to-day;--and I have nothing else!--"

And nerving herself desperately, Faith laid one hand on Mr. Linden's shoulder and slightly raising herself on her toes, did bestow on his lips as dainty a kiss as ever Santa Claus brought in his box of New Year curiosities. But she was overcome with confusion the moment she had done it, and would have rushed off if that had been possible.

"Let me go"--she said hastily--"let me go!"--

In answer to which, she was held as securely fast as she ever had been in her life. Covering and hiding all of her face that she could, Faith renewed her request, in a comical tone of humility--as if she didn't deserve it.

"I never felt less inclined to let you go!"

"There is all that work to be done," said Faith, by way of possibly useful suggestion.

"Mignonette, will you remember your new lesson?"

She whispered softly, "No.--It was only Santa Claus."

"Not Campaspe?"

"No--Certainly not!"