Saul Steinberg: A Biography Part 5

THE STRANGER SHE MARRIED.

Steinberg arrived in New York on a parachute with no credentials but he made quite a personage of himself in a very short time. He knew how to make his way in the sophisticated world and was very good at it.

The plane that carried Saul Steinberg home was based at the Patuxent River, Maryland, naval station, and it landed there on October 4, 1944. His orders were to report directly to the OSS Naval Command in Washington, "where his services are desired in connection with the operations conducted by this agency." He reported just long enough to ensure that the paperwork for his furlough was in order and to let his superiors know that he would be back when it ended on October 25. He went to New York to make arrangements for an immediate wedding, and on October 11 he and Hedda went to City Hall to begin the process. A kindly clerk waived the waiting period and married them that very day. The marriage license was filled out by someone who was Spanish and illiterate in English and who wrote illegible English answers to the questions. Hedda called it "the first of Saul's phony doc.u.ments, maybe."

The suddenness of finding themselves married was so unexpected that neither Saul nor Hedda had planned anything to do, so they bought a bottle of champagne and went home to drink it. Hedda had one gla.s.s and promptly got so sick that she vomited all night long. "Subconsciously," she recalled, "I think I knew it was not going to last. The problem was that from the first day I expected it to end."

Despite her qualms, Hedda was radiant with good health and br.i.m.m.i.n.g over in equal parts with relief that Saul had survived the war and happiness that they were together. Beside her he seemed wraithlike, his mustache not the only part of his body that was diminished. He was so thin as to be emaciated, his digestion ruined by so many army rations, his health depleted by months of malaria and diarrhea. None of his clothes fit, and he had to shop for new ones in the boys' department for a child's size 14.

Harold Ross insisted on giving Saul and Hedda a wedding dinner and asked them whom to invite. Hedda left the guest list to Saul, and the single name he mentioned was S. J. Perelman, who "always made Saul weep with laughter." Even before he came to New York, Steinberg had studied Perelman's "satires of, let's say, Hollywood conversations" as a way of teaching himself how to avoid the gaffes of cliches in English. To him, Perelman was "indispensable as a teacher of pitfalls, common wisecracks, a hint of the fairly high level of popular sophistication."

Perelman and his wife, Laura, graced the dinner, as did Eva and Jim Geraghty, the New Yorker's cartooning couple Alan Dunn and Mary Petty, and Carmine Peppe, the makeup editor and "de facto art director," who became one of Steinberg's best friends at the magazine. Ross was then married to his much younger third wife, Ariane Allen, whom he placed next to Saul, while he sat at Hedda's left and placed Sid Perelman on her right. When Sid learned of her friendship with Victor Brauner, he became the life of the party, and everyone hung on his tales of how he formed his surrealist underpinnings during the 1920s when he was an expatriate in Paris. The guests sat spellbound as Sid improvised examples of surrealism's influence, such as the one he swore best contrasted the American and British approaches to art: elbow patches on tweed jackets. He and Saul bonded over the shared opinion that what to the British was only a way to repair worn-out clothes and make them last longer had become in American hands a symbol of high style when Brooks Brothers sewed the patches onto brand-new and expensive tweed jackets. Quirky and offbeat, it was just the sort of story that sparked the imagination of the two men, whose friendship lasted for the rest of their lives. It was, in fact, such a deep friendship that Perelman later gave Steinberg his first-edition copy of Ulysses, signed by James Joyce, who was Steinberg's favorite author.

Both Hedda and Saul took another memory of lasting resonance from their wedding dinner, albeit of a different kind. All was not well in the Ross marriage, and although everyone at the table imbibed freely, the liquor affected Ariane Allen more than the other guests. She spent the whole evening caressing Saul's thigh under the table, most of the time not bothering to hide what she was doing. Hedda was aghast, but Saul enjoyed being the object of a young and attractive woman's attention. Hedda realized that what she feared most about her new husband was true: he enjoyed being "a real success with women" because "he just loved women." Hedda thought he was like a little boy wanting any woman's praise and attention because "he thought it built him up in my eyes."

Several weeks later, the Steinbergs were still learning how to live and work together in Hedda's apartment on 50th Street when a WAC who had worked with Saul in Europe came to visit. Pa.s.sing through New York on her way home, she was visibly pregnant and therefore had been discharged, as women were at the time. Hedda welcomed her, and when she went into the tiny kitchenette to prepare refreshments, she could see Saul and the WAC in a pa.s.sionate, bent-over-backward kiss. Saul was not embarra.s.sed but "rather proud of himself," even though Hedda was "heartsick. It was a disaster to have to see this after two or three weeks of marriage."

Hedda was trying to come to terms with this stranger she had married, the civilian husband who had replaced the pa.s.sionate wartime lover whose every letter pledged undying love, adoration, and above all fidelity. The lover wanted nothing more than to be cloistered with her in a room where they could make art side by side. Now she found herself living with a husband whose "idea of marriage was that he should be free, free, free, and not one bit guilty because of a girlfriend, or actually, a lot of girlfriends." When they packed one small valise for an overnight outing and Hedda found inside a long, still unfinished love letter he was writing to Ada, she was terrified that she had given up a loveless but secure marriage to Fred Stafford for one that might be predicated on Saul Steinberg's whim of the moment, fraught with every kind of insecurity from emotional to financial.

Many years later, Ian Frazier, a trusted friend to both Saul and Hedda, tried to explain the complexity of their relationship as he, the outsider, observed it. "To know Hedda through Saul would be to underestimate her," he said. "She is so remarkable you have got to give him credit for having chosen her." The obverse is true as well. Both had come to the United States eager to throw off their embarra.s.sing Romanian antecedents and to become as fully American as they could, with every nuance the adjective implied. Both were nourished by the American society that gave them refuge, and both were eager to get to work and find happiness and prosperity within it.

There were several niggling wasps in this fragrant ointment, and one of the largest was Saul's suspicion that disaster of every sort lurked just around the corner, waiting to sting him. Frazier wondered how, during the early years of his American life, he controlled the rampant paranoia that intensified as he aged. When asked if Steinberg had been this fearful and superst.i.tious in Italy before the war, Aldo Buzzi just laughed, shrugged, and spread his hands in a gesture of hopelessness, unable to explain why his friend believed that at any given moment he could lose everything for which he had worked so hard. Steinberg's nephew, Stephane Roman, described it as the "ordinary superst.i.tious Romanian fatalism that is impossible to overcome, no matter how long you are away from the country." Hedda and Saul seldom compared their adopted country to the one of their birth, and even though they had many Romanian friends, they never reminisced. But when Norman Manea came to New York, Saul told him fiercely to embrace being American and never to be frightened or ashamed of it.

IN THIS ATMOSPHERE, AND IN THE not very large apartment on 50th Street, the two people who wore so many different metaphorical hats-among them newlyweds, artists, naturalized U.S. citizens, and friends to an ever-growing number of New York's cultural elite-set up their worktables and got on with their life. For Steinberg, this meant solidifying his role at The New Yorker and accepting as many of the commercial commissions that were being offered as he could. He was eager to pay back everyone whose earlier generosity had helped him to leave Italy, especially the Civitas, Aldo, and Ada. After he started to work in 1945, he sent regular money and CARE packages to Aldo and Ada throughout Italy's long postwar recovery.

First and foremost, however, there was his family to support, which, besides his parents, now included Lica and her husband and their newborn son, Stephane. It was still difficult to establish direct contact with them, and here he was helped by his uncle Harry, who diligently explored every channel through which Saul could funnel money, clothing, medicine, and anything else that the Soviet-dominated Romanian government permitted its desperate citizens to receive from foreigners. Saul had to do all this while commuting to Washington, where he was still on active duty with the OSS.

The navy authorized him to commute to New York on weekends while wearing his uniform but did not grant travel or per diem expenses, which meant he had to find more and more work to pay for everything. In Washington he did whatever the OSS a.s.signed, but it was easily and quickly finished, leaving him lots of time to devote to his own projects. His days were uneventful until he saw his latest fitness report, with the unnerving statement that he would be "trained for a future overseas a.s.signment." The uncertainty that such an interruption could bring to the new life he was busy crafting was a specter that haunted him until May 1945, when he was transferred permanently to New York and the Training Literature Field Unit at One Park Avenue. There he made drawings for posters and brochures until December, when he was discharged from active service. Until his final discharge from the Naval Reserve, in 1954, his major worry was the fear of being recalled to active duty, especially during the Korean War, but fortunately he was not. His major irritation was being required to notify the Third Naval District of the dates every time he left and returned to the country, which he dutifully did.

In September 1945, he learned that Aldo Buzzi was "alive and well" and working as a writer and set designer for Alberto Lattuada and occasionally for the exciting newcomer Federico Fellini. Steinberg knew of Fellini, for they had met by chance in a restaurant in Rome where Fellini was trying to eke out a living by sketching patrons for a few lire. Aldo told Saul that Ada was in Ravenna and, as far as he knew, still married. Saul resumed contact with her, but his most intense correspondence was with Aldo. It served in lieu of a diary of his daily life, as he told Aldo everything, starting with descriptions of his life as a stateside sailor: the worst part was having to "get up every morning and go to an office" and spend most of the day "sitting still and bored." This was not entirely true, as his career had taken off like the proverbial rocket, and he spent most of every day while in the navy doing his own work.

THE FIRST MAJOR ITEM OF BUSINESS was to choose a t.i.tle for the forthcoming book. Everyone he knew had a role in the debate, but for want of something better it remained "Everybody in Line." One of the first groups of friends Saul and Hedda made were some of the artists and editors at The New Yorker, and because Hedda was a superb cook, they had fallen into the easy camaraderie of inviting friends for casual suppers and drinks and conversation afterward. "Those were the years," Hedda recalled, "when I cooked for whoever dropped by." One evening when they were entertaining Jim and Eva Geraghty, William Steig and his wife, and Alan Dunn and Mary Petty, someone said the magic words "All in Line." They all agreed that it was a perfect t.i.tle because of its many resonances, from the chronology of the drawings to the unending lines of soldiers and sailors who had to "hurry up and wait" and the truck convoys that snaked up and down winding mountain roads. Steinberg was so pleased with the t.i.tle that he immortalized the tableau of all the guests as they sat around discussing it by drawing them in his daily diary for the week of April 26May 2. He captioned it "t.i.tle for book and world of future," and noted beneath it-perhaps as his way of indicating better times to come-that this was the same week when Mussolini was hanged in Milan and Hitler committed suicide in his bunker.

All in Line was a hit in bookstores, selling 20,000 copies before the summer ended and becoming a bestseller for the Book-of-the-Month Club. It hit all the right notes for a public eager to understand daily life in wartime but not yet ready to confront its atrocities. Steinberg's depictions of life overseas that had appeared in The New Yorker helped to whet the public's interest in the book; the magazine's subscription list was ten to one military to civilian, and his low-key representations of the daily life of soldiers and sailors resonated strongly with both groups. Fan mail poured in to the magazine, as readers responded to, complimented, and even corrected his drawings. In the book, Steinberg's. .h.i.tler and Mussolini appear as objects of amus.e.m.e.nt rather than fear and scorn; his civilians, officers, and bureaucrats are gently chided and ridiculed in equal part. The country was eager to get on with the business of rebuilding for peacetime, but it was not too soon for a nostalgic glance back at military life during the past few years, and Steinberg's book provided the perfect venue.

Steinberg's success coincided with an interesting moment in the publishing history of The New Yorker. His wartime drawings brought him to the forefront of what was then known as "the department of fact" under managing editor William Shawn, who was positioning the magazine to be an intellectual powerhouse and a leader in various forms of investigative journalism. After the war, the reading public's insatiable desire for facts led to the rampant growth of straight newsmagazines and to The New Yorker's transformation into a curious hybrid of fact and fiction. Steinberg's contributions fit right in with Shawn's plans, for they were also a hybrid, of "wordless dispatches as pictorial reportage." As such, they placed him among the other artists and cartoonists who had their fingers on the pulse of the contemporary zeitgeist, not only in the United States but in other countries as well. By 1949, Steinberg's influence in Germany was such that two relatively unknown writers who were just at the beginning of their distinguished careers, Heinrich Boll and Max Fritsch, were asked by a magazine to write stories based on Steinberg's drawing of a wife seated at one end of a long dinner table playing the violin for her dining husband. When the stories were sent to Steinberg, he put them aside without trying to get them translated into English, because he "may have been embarra.s.sed" by all the attention.

Steinberg's art captured what his friend Harold Rosenberg called "the problem of ident.i.ty as central to the work." Rosenberg, the scholar and critic with a larger-than-life personality, placed Steinberg among the American artists who began to dominate the scene in the 1940s and 1950s, among them de Kooning, Rothko, and Hans Hofmann, all of whom either immigrated to America themselves or whose parents brought them as children, giving them roots in the immigrant experience. For these artists, Rosenberg wrote, "The issue 'Who am I?' was sharpened by 'Where am I?' " Those he named as examples were different from previous generations of traditional American painters because they were not only determined to "realize" themselves, they were out "to make a name for themselves." They made their work take on a new function as they strove to create themselves socially (that is, within American society) "as well as metaphysically."

In the last decades of his life, when Steinberg was collaborating with Aldo Buzzi on editing the dialogue that became the book Reflections and Shadows, he looked back at the decades of the forties and fifties, the years he believed were the time when American art began to flourish after a long period of neglect. He thought that because the artists who were his friends had spent their youth "in poverty and neglect," by the time they became famous they were already "almost posthumous." That, he determined, was "the cruelty of Art History."

Steinberg was paramount among those artists in his desire to "milk that huge cow," as he described the United States. He told the French journalist Alain Jouffroy that it would be "stupid" not to want to milk this particular cow from time to time, but the interviewer was astute enough to recognize this as a "gentle cynicism" that hid something much deeper: "What really attaches him to the United States is not its 'milk,' but the quant.i.ty of ideas and the spectacle of its streets, towns, and its contradictory customs ... the mixture of burlesque and tragedy, false and true, old fashioned and modernism and even utopianism, which makes this country the most aberrant cultural kaleidoscope of the western world."

In the exchanges with Buzzi, Steinberg verified Jouffroy's contention when he compared the American art world to the kaleidoscopic Tokyo Ginza. Once an artist became a part of this difficult and mysterious world, he found that "it contains the two most important and poisonous things of life, fame and money. One desires them and one fears them." In his case, he had not become an artist primarily for fame and money, although "it's true. I wanted them, too." All his life he was suspicious of young artists who devoted themselves to the "n.o.bility of art," finding it far more reasonable to consider art "as a stage for visibility." If this att.i.tude was "cynical," he still thought it was "truthful and logical." For Steinberg, "Art with a capital A makes me suspicious."

IN STEINBERG'S CASE, AND ESPECIALLY IN the immediate postwar years, "milking the cow" was essential for reasons other than furthering his art. There had been a slight opening in communications with Romania, but it usually took as long as four months for a letter to reach Bucharest and equally long for a reply. Owing to "political circ.u.mstances" after the Soviet occupation imposed harsh restrictions and penalties on all aspects of life, it was difficult to send anything, even through legitimate channels. Neither money nor certified mail was permitted until international relief agencies such as the one known by the acronym HIAS were set up. Even then, despite the list of approved items that could be shipped, the chance that money or goods would reach the intended recipient was low. Armed with the official approved list, Hedda shopped for items that Saul paid to send every week, among them bolts of woolen or cotton material that his relatives could sew to make clothing, coats, shoes, and household supplies. He wanted to send medicines, everything from cold remedies to aspirin, but initially they were not allowed. When medicines were finally approved, he sent penicillin until Moritz told him that the crooks involved kept and sold more than half of it. For Lica he sent cosmetics and dresses, and when he was permitted to funnel cash through the agency, he sent several hundred dollars both to her and to his parents several times each month. He begged for news that they had received it in every letter, but like the dresses and cosmetics he sent to Lica, they received it one time out of every three or four.

Moritz would have been content to soldier on with life in Romania, but Rosa wanted to leave. Saul investigated and found that it would be "fairly easy" to bring them to the United States, because they were his parents and therefore not subject to the quota. It would be different for Lica and her family, because they would qualify for the quota and would have to wait their turn. He filed an affidavit of support for all of them, which meant that he would a.s.sume full financial responsibility for everyone.

And then, when the reality sank in of what it would mean to his own life if his parents were in New York, Saul experienced some highly conflicting emotions until, as Hedda said, he realized that "he didn't want them here. He knew that wherever they were, if they were outside Romania they would be unhappy. So he sacrificed himself anyway: by bringing them out, he set them up to be unhappy and to blame their unhappiness on him."

The obvious choice of a place for them to settle was Israel, where more than one hundred thousand Romanian Jews had gone and where both Moritz and Rosa had siblings and other relatives as well as friends and former neighbors. Moritz wanted very much to go there, but Rosa had other ideas. Saul called her a sn.o.b when she insisted on France, preferably Paris, and as the years pa.s.sed, he held her "responsible for the unhappiness" that resulted. However, "No matter how much loneliness and suffering [she had] from French xenophobia, she had the satisfaction of thinking that she was envied by her sisters and some despised [Romanian] neighbors."

Saul knew it would be an expensive process to get them resettled, and he got to work with a vengeance, taking up most of the offers of work that were made by advertising agencies representing businesses, manufacturers, and corporations and that sometimes came directly from these ent.i.ties. The commercial requests intensified at the same time that his work was selected by the influential curator Dorothy Canning Miller for a group show at the Museum of Modern Art t.i.tled "Fourteen Americans." The exhibition had several far-reaching repercussions as it traveled extensively: first, it brought his work to the attention of midwestern industrialists and businesspeople, all of whom were quick to offer lucrative commissions; and second, it led to lifelong friendships with Robert Motherwell and Isamu Noguchi, who were also featured.

Miller's approach was to select artists who were just beginning to be recognized (although youth was not her primary criteria) and to present their work in depth. Of Steinberg (then thirty-two), she wrote that his work revealed "the oddities of everyday italicized with the razor's edge of humor." He, like all the artists, represented a strongly American idiom, but to Miller it was coupled with a "profound consciousness that the world of art is one world and that it contains the Orient no less than Europe and the Americas."

Miller's editorial essay was brief and to the point, and rather than just expressing her interpretations, she allowed the artists to offer theirs in personal statements in the catalogue. Steinberg was the only one of the fourteen who did not provide one, choosing instead to let the work speak for itself through a drawing that featured the unreadable handwriting of one of his "phony doc.u.ments." Miller kept it for her private collection but chose not to reproduce it in the catalogue, so his page was blank. In the years that followed, whenever he was asked to explain what his work was about or where his inspiration came from or what he was trying to convey, he did one of two things: he either made up answers on the spot (such as the ones about stamping his wartime underwear "top secret" or inventing the official-looking rubber stamps to forge the doc.u.ments that let him leave Europe) or he chose not to reply at all. In 1961, when his friend Katherine Kuh asked him to sit for an interview in a series with American artists that she was conducting for the Smithsonian's Archives of American Art, he initially agreed but almost immediately changed his mind. He told Kuh he could not collaborate "to create a complicity in which I would play my part according to popular expectations." He thought it would be a "dangerous" exercise to do this: "The man involved in his own history becomes himself a work of art. And a work of art doesn't permit changes and it doesn't paint or write."

In "Fourteen Americans," Steinberg's major presentation was an ink drawing t.i.tled The City, executed on a scroll fifty feet long and twenty inches high. He also showed humorous images of birds in cages and a larger-than-life hen, but he faced the harrowing aspects of the war head-on as he chose to exhibit images of the destruction of Monte Ca.s.sino and the vaporization of Hiroshima. A year before the exhibition, he told an interviewer from Newsweek that he feared that being in the service had damaged his art: "There is an inside discipline which does not allow me to do freely what is not logical. I cannot think of what is absurd anymore." He also told Aldo Buzzi that because he had spent the past three years in uniform, all his impressions were "from the military point of view, or anyway, in uniform. I hope it influenced me."

This show was also the first time he attempted to show the public what Hedda called his "phony doc.u.ments," now generally known as the "false doc.u.ments," inspired by calligraphy and books about handwriting a.n.a.lysis (he had a large collection) and replete with official-looking rubber stamps and seals of his own creation. At various times he gave them to friends to celebrate everything from diplomas (as to Primo Levi, whose diploma from the University of Turin also bore the detested "raza Hebraica") to travel pa.s.sports (Henri Cartier-Bresson, John Hersey, and Janet Flanner), and he made two separate ones for Hedda, to celebrate her talents in cooking and dishwashing.

"Fourteen Americans" was also the first time that his place in the postwar art world was questioned. Howard Devree, reviewing the show for the New York Times, thought it "a safe guess he never dreamed his cartoons would someday be 'museum pieces' " and went on to list the questions he felt were bound to be asked about Steinberg's inclusion: "Why do they include him? What's that stuff got do to with art? What do they mean, art?" Actually, Devree was wrong: these questions did not end when the show was over; they plagued Steinberg for the rest of his career.

Steinberg held a curious position among such friends and luminaries as Willem de Kooning, Jackson Pollock, Mark Rothko, Phillip Guston, Alexander Calder, Barnett Newman, Ad Reinhardt, Richard Lindner, and a host of others. Milton Glaser saw him as a cartoonist "who by some extraordinary series of shifts became a major artist." Glaser thought him the only visual artist who had been able to achieve the highest status as both. And yet as one of Steinberg's close friends, the artist Mary Frank, noted, "He was somehow not treated as the great artist he was. People would say, 'Yes, he's fantastic,' but then they'd call him a cartoonist and the word cartoonist had a bad edge to it." As an intellectual and an artist of ideas, Steinberg was out of sync with the reigning genre of abstract expressionism, in which emotion was the primary response to the blank canvas. Frank a.s.sessed his curious position: "Here he was, in the sixties and seventies, when he was an extremely famous artist, but when there were big shows of U.S. art in Europe, he was not included. He was distinguished but not the same as people like Motherwell and de Kooning."

Frank thought this was "very hard for him," but Hedda Sterne disagreed. She thought many of the artists who befriended Steinberg "felt safe with him because they did not consider him a compet.i.tor. They looked down on him because he was a cartoonist, but what they didn't realize was that he was a genius. He knew exactly who he was, and he knew that he had to make money. He could do anything, from wallpaper to fabric design to greeting cards. He was not happy doing these things, but no matter what he did, it was always brilliant. He could not put his pen to paper without doing something marvelous every time." Still, although Hedda and other good friends sometimes expressed anger or dismay that Steinberg was somehow outside the mainstream of American art, he never commented or expressed his own frustration.

Steinberg had become an "AA" artist at The New Yorker ("most wanted, highest paid"), which put him in the company of William Steig, Charles Addams, and Sam Cobean, all of whom became his friends, but it also put him a cut above them. All the artists who worked for the magazine had private agreements and contracts with "different pay scales, different arrangements," so that none knew what the others were being paid, although all were eager to find out. Steinberg was one of the two highest paid, with a "special deal" shared only by Peter Arno. When Steig learned of it, a compet.i.tive tension on his part soon disrupted their friendship. After 1950, Steig was no longer part of Saul and Hedda's "New Yorker circle," which had grown to include Geoffrey h.e.l.lman, A. J. Liebling, and Joseph Mitch.e.l.l. Charles Addams, however, remained the artist to whom Steinberg was closest. Charlie, as Steinberg called him, was "a quiet and elegant man, in both the physical and moral sense." Steinberg's "quiet friendship" with Addams began in 1942 and ended with his death in 1988.

The ever-cheerful Addams was never bothered by discrepancies in status or pay. He was too busy enjoying the puns and practical jokes, the naughty postcards and witticisms they exchanged, but most of all their mutual love of automobiles. Addams helped Steinberg buy his first car, a 1947 gray Packard convertible with a red leather interior. Saul and Hedda drove the behemoth to Jamaica, Vermont, in the summer of 1947, where they rented the house of a painter and hoped to do work of their own. Despite the company of Ruth and Tino Nivola, the summer was not their happiest: "We went up there in complete ignorance, and you can imagine what successes we were," Hedda recalled, "what with those accents and that car."

Saul, whose only driving experience before this had been in a navy jeep, "was a bad driver who specialized in losing his way." In their many road trips, his erratic driving often resulted in detours that led to thrilling adventures, such as the one a few years later when they drove their second car, a secondhand Cadillac bought from Igor Stravinsky, to the West Coast. A wrong turn found them outside Seattle on "a remote and rarely visited Indian reservation. The road to get there was corrugated and on the sides it appeared to be decorated with empty whiskey bottles." The elders welcomed these curious strangers by inviting them to stay at a tribal motel and attend a Native American rodeo. Steinberg was delighted and "stored these images, which he used with great affection again and again."

IN THE FALL OF 1945, THE commissions were piling up to the point of threatening to engulf him, but he still described himself as "fine, fat, I eat, and create artificial difficulties for myself," no doubt referring to the undefined disasters that he feared might strike at any moment. His drawing table was a "mountain of sc.r.a.p paper" that he had to dig through in order to make room to work. He had become intrigued by the idea of "baths, bathrooms, tubs, and basins" and was deeply involved in the world of "tiles, ornamental fretwork, women bathers with little portions of their bodies sticking out of the water." He meant it all to be humorous, and whether it became beautiful or not was "incidental," but these drawings were a big hit when he included them in his second book, The Art of Living, in 1949.

Once his position at The New Yorker was firmly cemented, much of his life during the years from 1945 to 1950 was centered on proliferating commercial work that ranged from the "highbrow to the low." He signed on in 1945 to do an annual series of Christmas cards for the Museum of Modern Art, which he ended in 1952 for a more lucrative commission that lasted for a decade, creating a series of Christmas cards, calendars, and other seasonal novelties for Hallmark. He also did drawings for the Neiman-Marcus Christmas catalogue, and in the process acquired a friend and major collector in Stanley Marcus. He did many dust jackets for books, among them the highly successful Chucklebait series for children by Margaret Scoggins. He created wallpaper and fabrics, some of which featured his representations of landmarks in Paris, Venice, Milan, and Rome. He created ads for companies that manufactured copper tubing and sheet metal, and the Noilly Pratt vermouth campaign ("Don't Stir" without it.) His drawings were in magazines such as Life, Flair, Fortune, Harper's, and Town & Country. Vogue sent him to Washington to do political drawings, and Harper's Bazaar sent him to Paris to cover the fashion shows. He also produced drawings for architectural journals, which he drew for the money, keeping his thoughts to himself and not telling the editors that he thought the general tendency in postwar architecture and industrial design was "toward streamlined bad taste." As for his overview of general-interest and fashion magazines, he thought them far more conservative than those in Europe, because of "advertising, which is the basis for every publication with a few exceptions." In his view, there was no "real" art magazine in the United States, only "mouthpieces for art and antique dealers." He added architecture magazines to this category, particularly Architectural Forum, because it was sold only by subscription and "lives on the advertising of construction companies, etc., which often control the content." The only publication he deemed "perfectly free and more intelligent than its time" was The New Yorker.

In the dialogues with Aldo Buzzi that took place a good twenty-five years later, Steinberg spent quite a lot of time explaining what the magazine meant to him. Drawing for it made him feel that he was doing "a useful task" that allowed him to be "an active part of society." What made him happiest was the vast number of readers who related to and appreciated his drawings, which gave him feelings of acceptance that he did not find anywhere else. Thinking about the early days of his career at The New Yorker brought back memories of his childhood and adolescence, when, like so many other youngsters with a creative bent, he was convinced that he was the only one beset by adults who did not understand him and who were constantly criticizing, scolding, and finding him lacking. He only felt "normal" when he retreated into the privacy of his art, and it was not until (in his exaggeration) "millions of people" responded to his cartoons and drawings that he became "an inventor of normality" who was able to exert a "social and political influence" that other adults willingly accepted.

For Steinberg, The New Yorker was an oasis: "[The editors] ask for a specific product and I give it to them. It's a clear situation and therefore my relations with the magazine are logical, stable, without doubts; also due to the kindness (decency, loyalty, honesty, correctness) that has always reigned over the editorial environment, from Harold Ross to Bill Shawn to Jim Geraghty. They tell you yes or no at once, without hesitation, no possibility of misunderstandings, immediate payment, publication at the right moment, the author's rights observed with meticulous care, complete protection of the artist: a marvelous kindness, which unfortunately is now vanishing everywhere."

When Steinberg wrote this in the late 1970s, things were rapidly changing at the magazine, and he feared that "the Levantine system [bribery and corruption] has arrived in America, the homeland of trust." He regretted the loss of what had been for him until then "an oasis, where America's ancient morality survives intact."

WHILE WORK FILLED HIS DAYS, STEINBERG was busy educating himself. He loved the movies, and after several hours at his worktable, when the pleasure of drawing threatened to become tedium, he took a walk and often ended up in a movie theater. His tastes were eclectic, ranging from The Lost Weekend to Open City, which he thought was proof that "the absence of Fascism is good for art." He went to galleries and museums but complained about crowds that behaved as if they were in the funhouse at a fair. He thought Salvador Dali and the crowds at his exhibition were well suited to each other, as he was "a clever pirate who cheats his buyers and they get what they deserve." Always a voracious reader, he found Flaubert "better than ever" in Three Tales; Proust "sort of" bored him. He liked Tolstoy and often returned to War and Peace, as well as to Balzac, and was so fond of his New Yorker colleague Joseph Mitch.e.l.l's writing that he considered translating some of it into Italian. Most of all when he read, he was studying the history of the United States.

Steinberg was easily bored and often restless, and he needed excitement. He was so eager to see every part of his adopted country that he would go just about anywhere he was invited. One of his first excursions came in the spring of 1946, when he went to Pittsburgh to judge a nationwide contest for children's painting at the Carnegie Inst.i.tute (now Carnegie Mellon University). After wading through approximately six thousand drawings, he gave the prize to a little boy's painting of "an old woman being decapitated." In June, while spending the summer in Provincetown on Cape Cod ("a more violent place than the Italian Riviera"), he got word that Jim Geraghty had secured a press pa.s.s for him to cover the Nuremberg War Crime Trials.

These were the years when every glittering name in New York and Europe found its way into Saul Steinberg's address book. In New York, he was a habitue at Del Pezzo, the midtown restaurant that was a hangout for artists, designers, writers, and architects, most of them an international mix of refugee "raffinati" like himself. On any given night he might share a table with Tino Nivola, Leo Lionni, Niccol Tucci, Marcel Breuer, and Bernard Rudofsky. When Henri Cartier-Bresson was in New York, he too was a regular. Dorothy Norman and Jean Stein invited Steinberg to parties that included socialites, left-leaning intellectuals, and movie stars. Geoffrey h.e.l.lman and his wife Daphne gave soirees at their town house, where the hottest new writer or painter held court and Daphne often played her harp. Mary McCarthy, then married to Bowden Broadwater, introduced him to the crowd at Partisan Review; Steinberg shared her political views, and they formed a deep friendship based in later years on mutual activism. He enjoyed conversations with Joel Sayre and shared his love of postcards and exchanged them with Walker Evans; he learned a little bit about etching from Stanley William Hayter, with whom he exchanged examples of work; and he kept up his friendships with the Italian circle that included Nicola Chiaromonte, Carlo Levi, and Ugo Stille. When he and Hedda were not entertaining, he was out every night of the week, elegantly dressed in the clothing he now bought exclusively at Brooks Brothers.

HE AND HEDDA SAILED FOR ENGLAND on the Queen Mary in July 1946 and stayed there long enough to visit their various galleries and renew contact with friends before going on to France. In Paris they began a close friendship with Janet Flanner, The New Yorker's "Genet." Through Henri Cartier-Bresson they met Giacometti, and Gjon Mili gave them an introduction to Jean-Paul Sartre and Simone de Beauvoir. Steinberg was entranced with the laconic and taciturn Giacometti after his first visit to his studio, where everything was a work of art, even the plaster-encrusted telephone. It was different with existentialism's high priest and priestess, with whom there was no rapport.

Steinberg went to Sartre's Rue Bonaparte apartment "because of my own sn.o.bbery," to draw a small portrait. Sartre's mother (with whom he lived) made him uncomfortable by watching over his shoulder as he drew. Later he drew Beauvoir, but her portrait was perfunctory and unsatisfying, as she was in a hurry for him to finish and there was no conversation between them. Neither she nor Sartre was interested in the portraits, and Steinberg never showed them his drawings. "Things never clicked for us with them," Hedda recalled. Steinberg was furious with Sartre's contention that "the Jews had survived only because of their persecution-for which therefore, they should thank G.o.d"; Sartre and Beauvoir dismissed Steinberg because of his hatred of communism and his embrace of all things American. When they saw each other in the Cafe Flore or the bar at the Pont Royal, they always nodded politely, but that was all. Several years later, when Hedda was in Paris without Saul, he scolded her for forcing Sartre to recognize and greet her in the Bar Pont Royal. He thought she should have snubbed Sartre, as she was far too good for the likes of him.

WHEN THEY LEFT PARIS, SAUL AND Hedda headed for Monte Carlo, because he wanted to gamble. They took a scenic route that had them rambling through Angers, Auxerre, Aix, Montpellier, Albi, and Toulouse. Saul won a little at the casino, which put him in a jolly mood as they continued on to Italy, where he saw Aldo in Milan for the first time since 1941. He was so determined to get Aldo to America that he launched a number of schemes, including trying to get press credentials from The New Yorker, which didn't happen. He gave Aldo 50,000 lire to pay for a trip to Paris, where he wanted them to meet once his stint covering the Nuremberg trials was finished. He also promised to send more money to Aldo in regular increments.

Hedda returned to Paris to stay with her mother and brother while Saul went to Rome. He told her he was going to meetings with various friends who were interested in vague and amorphous film projects, which he mostly invented, but he didn't tell her his real reason: Ada was living there and he wanted to see her. The meeting went badly, and although he did not tell her he was married, "she figured it out." They resumed their affair, and he was relieved to find that he had no further doubts about having married Hedda instead of her. Nevertheless, when he left Ada he was "feeling guilty" for how he had treated her, which he tried to a.s.suage by giving her 50,000 lire and promising to write and send money on a regular basis.

Steinberg with Sterne and Aldo Buzzi in New York, early 1950s. (ill.u.s.tration credit 12.1) After he left Ada, he went to Udine, Vienna, and Munich and then on to Berlin to prepare himself to face Nuremberg. When he wrote to Aldo, he said he saw "Goring and company" but made no comment about the trials themselves. He was quartered with other American correspondents in the Faber Castle, home to the pencil-manufacturing family, sharing a room the size of a basketball court. Among them were John Stanton of Life and Victor Bernstein of PM, for whom he made his first "pa.s.sport," a fanciful false doc.u.ment akin to the larger diplomas, this one proclaiming Bernstein a "special amba.s.sador to the War Crimes Trials." Otherwise, everything he saw was "very depressing." He tried to make a joke of it when he wrote to his parents: "I was in Nuremberg for the end of the trial and the executions (I didn't a.s.sist in this)," but he was serious when he described to Aldo his sadness at what he saw throughout Germany. There was too much "pointless misery and destruction, especially in Berlin, where the ruins of bad architecture created ugly buildings and ugly ruins." His drawings of the devastated landscape and the wretchedness of daily life appeared in the portfolio "Berlin" in The New Yorker on March 29 and April 12, 1947. By that time he and Hedda had finally managed to get out of Europe and back to New York, where they made some major changes in their working lives.

THEY HAD BEEN IN EUROPE FOR six months, which was almost three months longer than they had originally intended to stay, and Saul had "loafed" and done no work. They dallied because of the pleasure of unplanned side trips, such as an extended stay on the French Riviera, but the main delay was caused by both ship and airline strikes in France. They tried from Paris to confirm departures from England or Sweden, but everything was fully booked and they were unable to leave before cold weather set in. They had only taken summer clothes, so they had to ask friends in New York to send their winter clothing, because they could not sail until the end of November. The return voyage in early December was "calm and dignified," but when compared to Paris, they thought "New York was dirty, disagreeable, and smelled bad." Nevertheless, "little by little, one falls in love with it again."

Steinberg had so many projects under way that he needed more s.p.a.ce than the 50th Street apartment could provide, so he left it for Hedda to work in and rented a studio at 38 West 59th Street. Saul told Aldo it would solve the problem of where he would live when he came to New York, because he was determined to get him there. But even the studio s.p.a.ce was not enough room for Steinberg's many projects, so he also rented office s.p.a.ce at 107 East 60th Street. He liked the daily walk to the studio but did not like the feeling of leaving home each morning to go to a job-he had had enough of that in the navy. One way he thought to make himself feel more at home was to install a bed and a carpet, which he soon did, more for Aldo's future comfort than his own.

Once he had an office, his first order of business was to try to persuade Iris Barry, the founder of the film department at the Museum of Modern Art, to curate a film festival, with which he would cooperate as another of his ongoing schemes to bring Aldo to New York. Aldo had never practiced architecture, and his career in the early postwar years consisted of working on whatever tasks his Lattuada brother-in-law found for him on the sets of his films. It was Aldo's wife (as he always called Bianca) who held what Hedda called "the big job" as her brother's most trusted a.s.sociate, while Aldo was "more like a nineteenth-century gentleman-a bit of a dabbler in many things." Steinberg loved the movies but was not interested in the intellectual idea of film, nor was he interested in the attention to administrative detail required to make an international doc.u.mentary film festival happen, and the project soon languished.

He threw himself into socializing, and his date book grew fat with new names of people who became good friends, such as Monroe Wheeler, Russell Lynes, Herbert Berghof and Uta Hagen, Leo Lerman, and Hattie Carnegie. He was a guest at the elegant Gramercy Park mansion owned by Benjamin Sonnenberg, where he met the ten-year-old Benjamin Jr. (a good friend as an adult) for the first time. Alexander "Sasha" Schneider, the violinist famed for his excellent cooking, was then living with the actress Geraldine Page, to whom Saul paid the kind of attention that made Hedda embarra.s.sed and sad. Schneider loved to gather friends for glittering conversation over his gourmet food, and he invited Saul and Hedda to dine with Vera and Vladimir Nabokov. At their first meeting they discussed Nabokov's study of Nikolai Gogol, which Steinberg had already reread several times. He continued to reread it frequently for the rest of his life, each time finding in it something new to pique his intellectual curiosity. It became one of his frequent references, almost a kind of symbolic shorthand for ideas of his own that he wanted to convey, particularly in the drawings that featured an enormous nose. Similarly, Nabokov's favorite artist was the "wonderful Saul Steinberg," who "could raise unexpected questions about the consequence of a style or even a single line, or could open up a metaphysical riddle with as much wit as an Escher or a Magritte and with far more economy." With Nabokov, Steinberg formed another of his lasting intellectual friendships, which were almost always with writers, Saul Bellow and William Gaddis primary among them. Other writers played important roles in Steinberg's intellectual development, but it was Nabokov who was responsible for a major impact on his life: a few years after they met, Nabokov told him how to break his daily habit of smoking three or more packs of Salem cigarettes "cold turkey." It took two attempts, but Steinberg followed Nabokov's instructions and never smoked again.

THERE WAS ANOTHER MAJOR TRIP IN the spring, this time to Mexico City for the month of April. Hedda was already there, studying and working with Miguel Covarrubias, and Saul and Henri and Monique Cartier-Bresson joined her. They and Hedda stayed on after Saul returned to New York to finish up a mural commission for the Bonwit Teller department store. Afterward, on May 20, Saul left for Cincinnati, where he had a commission to create murals for a new restaurant, the Skyline at the Terrace Plaza Hotel. The latter mural interested him most but not for the actual work: he had been as far as Pittsburgh, and now he had the opportunity to see Cincinnati and to cross the Ohio River into Kentucky as a side trip.

He made the Bonwit Teller mural quickly but was not pleased with it. The one for the Skyline restaurant, which was "much bigger and more serious," was going to require a lot more thought before he could even begin to do the considerable work required. He made a preliminary visit to the site in May, driving along the Pennsylvania Turnpike in his big Packard convertible, thought about the mural over the summer while he and Hedda were in Vermont with the Nivolas, and then worked on it from October until the end of the year. His friend Gjon Mili offered his photography studio on the Lower East Side because Steinberg needed more s.p.a.ce than his own small room to execute a mural whose dimensions were too large for it. He planned to make it in sections using oil on canvas, and, in yet another of his schemes to bring Aldo to New York, offered him the job of "a.s.sistant, with excellent pay." Aldo declined, so Steinberg worked alone.

Another request came in August, when he interrupted his Vermont vacation to rush to New York and supervise the installation of the Bonwit Teller mural and worry about the Cincinnati project. The industrial designer Henry Dreyfuss wanted Steinberg to execute murals for the four bars on the "Four Aces" ships of the American Export Lines. Steinberg accepted, as he did every lucrative commission, but he was growing both weary and wary of murals: "The trouble is that these things give me no pleasure; from the time the first drawing is made to when the mural is finished too much time goes by for the original drawing to go on pleasing me." Once the original was complete, he found things that he wanted to change, but by then it was too complicated to do so, "and so I say to h.e.l.l with it, let's finish it as it is, get rid of it as though it were mumps or some other illness." Even worse was the process that followed the execution, when he had to deal with the architects in charge of installing what he drew. This part of the process reminded him of the despised GUF in Mussolini's Italy-the Gruppi Universitari Fascisti-"because they have to combine art or idealism with business."

As was usual with Steinberg, however, once he got involved in the actual work, the "tribulations" turned into an appreciation of its "pleasure." He was sorry to see the Cincinnati project end because he so enjoyed painting with oils on "very fine canvas, the best Belgian linen." He was delighted that it turned out so well and was happy to have at least one bright spot in a year that was not ending on a high note.

IN ROMANIA, THE RUSSIANS WERE THREATENING to close the frontiers and cut off immigration, and Rosa was growing frantic that she and Moritz would not be able to leave. Now that the country was solidly in the Soviet bloc behind the Iron Curtain, there was no possibility of bringing them directly to New York or to France, so Steinberg began to investigate whether he could send them to a South American country for several years until they could qualify for entry into the United States. "The business of visas begins again," he noted wearily. Anything beside his work was "a bother" he did not want to deal with, nor did he have to, because Hedda took care of every detail of their daily life. She was left to plod with the mundane in order for Saul to soar. For him, "if I have to do anything beyond [work] such as life, money, supervision, strategy, then the work-quality-turns out badly."

Saul did secure South American visas for his parents, but immediately after, Hedda took charge. She was able to arrange for them to pa.s.s through France, where they would stay in Paris on an extended visa for as long as they wished as guests of her mother and brother. She went to Paris before New Year's 1948 to prepare for their arrival, which, because of Rosa's requirements, she compared to setting up a small village. Hedda left Saul to welcome the new year in yet another fit of the gloom and doom he always felt about the holiday. He was in such a bad mood that he invented a bad case of the "grippe" to escape most of the invitations from "old bores," who were actually people whose company he otherwise enjoyed.

He told Aldo that it was no small matter to have to face taking on the responsibility for five or perhaps seven new Romanian dependents, for besides his parents and his sister and her family, one of Rosa's sisters and her son also wanted to come. Since he left the navy, he had tried to set up a routine wherein he worked hard for six or seven months of the year on as many commercial commissions as he could fulfill so that he would have enough money to support his dependents and then travel and do his own work for the other five. Now that he would be entirely responsible for the well-being of so many, he worried not only that the pleasant lifestyle he had created would be disrupted, but also that it might vanish if he was not able to earn enough to support everyone. Ever since childhood, he had "always looked for ways to escape and avoid families." Now it appeared that all his efforts were for naught, and he would never be free of the familial bosom.

CHAPTER 13.

SLAVING AWAY WITH PLEASURE.

To work, I must isolate myself. It's a weakness of mine. I also find it very difficult to accept things from other people. I prefer to exchange gifts, or even to pay excessive sums to get exactly what I want. I realize it's a kind of arrogance: I want to be the person in charge, the person steering the car, the one in control. If anybody does something for me, I feel used, manipulated, no longer free.

Hedda was in France in the winter of 1948, ostensibly to prepare for settling Saul's parents, while he stayed in New York to work on the many commissions that had spring deadlines. That was the reason Hedda gave to friends to explain her long absence, but in reality it was one of the many times she went away to give Saul time to think about the state of their marriage and the responsibility he bore for the problems within it. From the moment she left, he missed her and reverted to the wartime lover who could not live without her and worried that she would leave him, a far cry from the dominating and domineering husband who took her for granted when she was at home. He wanted to join her in France as soon as he could get his various commissions under control, but he claimed to be afraid of commercial airliners and refused to fly, insisting that he had to sail in a first-cla.s.s cabin on the best ocean liner. It was difficult to secure pa.s.sage when the completion dates of so many projects (most notably of the Cincinnati murals) were indefinite.

He was surprised to find how upsetting it was to be alone in their apartment without her. At night the building was full of noises he never heard when she was with him, and sometimes he woke up in a panic when he reached for her and found her side of the bed empty. He even ate his meals in her seat at the table so that he didn't have to look at her empty chair. He wrote to her almost every day and in each letter told her how much he loved her and how she was his dearest friend and the best thing ever to happen in his life. He wrote these letters during the time that he was at the height of his philandering; Hedda was well aware of it, and it was the cause of the first and thus far most dangerous period of tension between them.

Many years later, when she was an incapacitated woman in her nineties, Hedda spent much of her time reflecting on her marriage to Saul. She described it as "highly interesting, occasionally wonderful, very often difficult. Saul was not prepared for conjugal life; he wanted total freedom from every point of view." Hedda knew from the beginning that hers would be an open marriage, with "Saul having casual affairs every two minutes if he could have managed," and she had no choice but to accept it. She did not need to read the appointment books he always left open on his desk to know when he was in the midst of an infatuation, when his only nod to discretion was to note his a.s.signations in an easily recognizable shorthand or code with cryptic notations of single initials, room numbers, and times. Even though Hedda always considered herself unconventional, she still resented it when he casually described "interesting things" about other women's bodies, such as "her ankles as seen from the left," or "the inside of her upper arm," or her "nice earlobes." Only much later, when she forced herself to accept that his idea of marriage was "Fellini's 8," was she able to feel more compa.s.sion than anger toward him: "In a way, s.e.x was his life. He deprived himself of true union because he was not ever in love." It took her years to arrive at this understanding, but in the beginning it was hard.

Hedda had gone to Paris earlier than she needed to and was staying longer than she had originally planned just to give Saul time to realize what she brought to the marriage. It was the first of the many separations she instigated in order for her absence to make his heart grow fonder-a difficult course to take the first time she did it, but one she used repeatedly during the years they lived together. Indeed, as soon as she was gone, he broke off several of his more persistent liaisons with women who wanted him to commit to more than casual and occasional s.e.x, for without the security of Hedda's presence, they frightened him. Worried that she might retaliate by initiating a relationship of her own in Paris, he told her that they should both remember that they were married to each other and should not "harm" themselves or their marriage in any way. Now that she was gone, he realized how much "self-confidence" she gave him, and the reason he missed her so much was that he truly loved her.

HE WENT OUT ALMOST EVERY NIGHT just to avoid the loneliness of being in the apartment without her, but he curtailed his womanizing and socialized mostly with male friends, particularly Richard Lindner, to whom he and Hedda had become close. Within minutes at their first meeting, they both knew that Lindner would become their lifelong friend, and he did. Like them, he was a refugee who embraced all things American from the moment he arrived in 1941. They were all approximately the same age and had many things in common, from their personal backgrounds to their political underpinnings. Lindner was born in 1901 to German Jewish parents, and his upbringing in a cultured middle-cla.s.s household in Nuremberg was similar to Sterne's. Like Steinberg, he was always aware that as a Jew, he was an outsider in a precarious situation in his birth country. Lindner was educated at art academies in Nuremberg and Munich and worked for a short time in Berlin before becoming the art director of a Munich publishing house. He resigned in 1933, the day after Hitler became chancellor, and went into exile in Paris, where he became active in the Resistance, served in the French Army, and was briefly interned before he made his way to the United States. When he met Steinberg and Sterne in 1945, he was working as an ill.u.s.trator for books and magazines, among them Harper's Bazaar and Vogue, but he was eager to devote himself to painting. In 1953 he put his friends into one of his most famous paintings, The Meeting, now in the collection of the Museum of Modern Art, and in 1954, when he had his first solo exhibition, he followed them to Betty Parsons's gallery.

They and Lindner shared the same idiosyncratic but insightful responses to much of contemporary American art and artists. Steinberg credited Lindner with a "proto-pop [art] color sense," one that he shared. They had many friends in common, both abroad and in New York, which further deepened their bond. Saul was a dedicated poker player and spent many pleasant evenings playing at Sasha Schneider's apartment with Lindner and Gjon Mili. Lindner introduced them to the set designer Rene Bouche, and Saul and Hedda befriended him as well.

Invitations continued to pour in while Hedda was in Paris, and Steinberg accepted most of them, but only if he was in the mood. He saw a lot of his old friends, the writer Niccol Tucci and the photographer Dave Sherman, but he dismissed them as his "old bores" on the rare occasions when he felt like staying home alone. When Hedda was in New York, she generally accompanied him, but after she returned from the Paris sojourn, she told him she did not like the constant round of parties and dinners and preferred to spend her evenings at home reading or painting. She liked it when friends dropped in for casual suppers in her kitchen because she liked to cook and enjoyed intellectual conversations, but only one-on-one or with two or three people she knew well.

Saul, on the other hand, liked to get dressed up and go out, to places where more and more he could count on holding the floor. He liked to dine at the home of the dancer Sono Osato and her real estate developer husband, Victor Elmale, because they always deferred to him for conversation. It was always a pleasure when the Covarrubias were visiting them from Mexico and he could steer the dinner table conversation to Hedda and her work, which they all admired. Irving Penn invited him to an opening of his photographs, where he chatted with Tatiana and Alexander Liberman about future projects he might do for Vogue, and soon he was one of their favorite dinner guests. These occasions soothed the paranoia that always lurked in his mind, that he would be a penniless failure because at any moment everyone might stop buying his work; in this instance, because he had just done a series of drawings for the magazine that did not "come out well" and Liberman had rejected them. No publication had done this in recent years, and the Libermans' invitations a.s.suaged his fear that Vogue might become the first of many.

He was working hard every day and drawing constantly, but much of what he submitted to publications that had hitherto accepted everything he sent was now being culled, sometimes with a high percentage of rejections. When a politically themed drawing he was trying to make for a New Yorker cover during the forthcoming election cycle was rejected-"something corny with eagles and floating allegories"-it made him look back with the eye of a critic at the earliest drawings he had done for the magazine; he concluded that they were "mediocre," and he could not see any genuine progression or development in his work since then. He worried that he might become "forced by necessities to perfect my mediocrity." A qualified joy came when various commercial firms accepted without comment a dozen advertising drawings because they made "lots of money (no Victor [Civita] involved)."

Every morning he went to his studio and worked on commercial projects and his own drawings; each afternoon he returned to the apartment, where he took over Hedda's works.p.a.ce and tried to paint with oils to ama.s.s enough canvases for a show at Betty Parsons's gallery. He told Hedda he was amazed by how much he had to learn about using oils and how difficult it was. He was pleased when he taught himself to spread color with a knife and with the tricks he picked up from studying the work of other painters in museums, particularly Matisse. When he was invited to a "private selected pre-preview" of his friend Joan Miro's show at MoMA, he went to see what techniques he might copy, but he left after ten minutes, sure that he would learn nothing while surrounded by a "sad bunch of sn.o.bs."

WITH HEDDA AWAY, HE HAD LOTS of time to worry about his general health, as he had still not fully recovered f