On The Record Part 10

"Bob. Susan," Professor Mires said, acknowledging the other two people. Bob was tall and lanky, with an air of importance to him that matched his black suit. Susan was the youngest of the bunch, no more than ten years older than Liz. She had short straight hair cut with sharp bangs and she tapped her foot incessantly. "This is my student Liz Dougherty. She's the one I've been telling you about."

Liz turned to look at Dr. Mires, slightly slack-jawed. She had been talking to people about her?

"Pleasure to meet you," Nancy said first, shaking hands just as warmly. "It's always good to meet one of Lynda's students."

"Pleasure is all mine," Liz said automatically, shaking hands with the others as well.

"Liz, Nancy is a senior editor for the New York Times. We went to college together at Columbia. Bob works for the Washington Post. You've spent, what, fifteen years reporting there?" Dr. Mires asked.

He nodded and shrugged. "Twelve."

"And Susan here works for USA Today. Before that she was several years at the Chicago Tribune. She was also one of my students," Dr. Mires explained cordially.

Liz smiled on the outside while on the inside she was freaking out. First Brady. Now this. Holy s.h.i.t! She was meeting people who worked her dream jobs. She would kill to get a job at the Times or the Washington Post. And Dr. Mires was introducing her to these people as if it were no big deal. In fact, as she looked at Professor Mires, she realized it was no big deal to her. These were her colleagues, her friends, her students. These were the people she was introducing to Liz because Liz was also all of those things.

Liz wanted to be a reporter, and as her advisor, Dr. Mires was ensuring that she didn't just become a reporter, but a d.a.m.n good one.

"Liz, why don't you come to lunch with us and discuss your work and future aspirations? I'm sure my colleagues would be able to point you in the right direction for your scholarship internship hours next year," Professor Mires said.

"Oh yes, we're always happy to meet with Lynda's students," Nancy said.

"I would love to join you. Thank you," Liz responded. She felt as if all the pieces to her life were falling into place in this moment, and it felt incredible.

Liz knew that she shouldn't go to the politicians' panel. She should find something else to do with her time. She had just had lunch with Dr. Mires, Nancy, Bob, and Susan. They had all been interested in her work on the paper and her interests in political journalism. They had even given her their business cards and told her to keep in touch. It was definitely a step in the right direction. Walking into the politicians' panel was the exact opposite of that.

But she couldn't stay away from Brady . . . not when the opportunity to see him was staring her in the face.

Extra credit was being offered to most of the journalism cla.s.ses for attendance, and when Liz ducked into the back of the room, she picked out a ton of her cla.s.smates and a large chunk of the newspaper staff.

Liz plopped down into the seat next to Ma.s.sey with a sigh. She hadn't seen Hayden all day and prayed that he wouldn't show up to this. She knew that he had cla.s.s most of the day and his electives wouldn't let him out for the presentations. They didn't care that he got extra credit that he in all honesty didn't need in cla.s.ses other than their own. He thought it was pretty ridiculous, considering he would be graduating in less than two months. Her heart stopped at the thought, and she pushed it away. She could clam up about graduation until it got closer.

Her thoughts trailed off as a side door opened and Brady walked into the room. He took a seat and she couldn't even remember what she had been thinking.

Ma.s.sey's sharp intake of breath was enough for Liz to know that she had noticed how f.u.c.king attractive he was. "Holy s.h.i.t!" she squealed in Liz's ear. "He's so hot."

Liz nodded.

"Oh, please, just because you have Hayden doesn't mean you can deny pure male attractiveness. You guys aren't perfect enough for that."

Liz swallowed. "I didn't deny anything." And she couldn't. She couldn't even pull her eyes from his face.

She had missed him.

Christ, she wasn't going to think about that.

"Why is he a politician? He can just come right over to get work done in my bed," Ma.s.sey said with her sorority-girl giggle. "I promise we'll be more effective than Congress, baby."

Her friends next to her snorted through their laughter, and professors turned around to give them nasty looks. It just made them laugh louder.

"I'll avoid a government shutdown, if you know what I mean," she said, nudging Liz.

"That doesn't even make sense," Liz said, allowing herself to laugh a little.

"Whatever. I'd do it for that body."

"You're ridiculous."

"I feel a little bad for Savannah. Having a brother that hot must suck," Ma.s.sey whispered, glancing around to see if Savannah was in attendance. Liz hadn't seen her all day. Liz wondered if she was hiding out because her dad and brother were here.

"I doubt she even notices."

Ma.s.sey rolled her eyes. "Puh-lease."

The room quieted down as Dr. Mires stood to begin the roundtable. The main topic was the November election. Each politician gave their thoughts on what had happened, the role of the media in the election, and their early projections for the presidential election next November.

As much as it pained her to think about Brady, she was glad that Hayden wasn't here to witness it. He read her like an open book. She couldn't hide what was warring inside of her. She couldn't lie to him, and she wasn't ready to tell him. She wasn't sure she would ever be ready for that.

It wasn't as bad as Liz thought it was going to be. Brady didn't look in her direction once . . . if he even knew that she was there. It hurt, of course. But really it was for the best. She certainly wasn't going to ask him a question during the Q&A.

"What do you think about asking, boxers or briefs?" Ma.s.sey leaned in and asked.

Liz swallowed. She had some firsthand experience with the answer to that question. It made color rush to her cheeks.

"Oh my G.o.d, Lizzie," she joked. "I'm not actually going to ask him that. I'm not that embarra.s.sing!"

Liz just shook her head and tried to hide her own embarra.s.sment. Somehow Ma.s.sey managed to pull herself together to get a question out to Brady.

"Congressman Maxwell," she said.

Brady looked over in their direction and Liz felt his eyes flicker over her face. Her heart stopped as her blue eyes met the dark depths of his chocolaty brown ones. She felt her world spin in that one look before he pa.s.sed over her and turned to address Ma.s.sey.

Liz didn't even hear the question. Ma.s.sey had it written down, so Liz could grab it from her later . . . and it probably wouldn't be essential to include in her report anyway. But all she could see were memories flashing before her eyes. The lake house, Fourth of July, the moment he slid his key into her hand, the feel of his hands on her body, the sound of his voice when he said that he loved her. It all came rushing back so perfectly.

She thought about the chain sitting in her jewelry box on her dresser and the meaning of each of those charms inside the locket: an airplane, the number four, a key, and the November birthstone. Brady had given it to her on the beach in Hilton Head as a gift, maybe even a promise of a future that they had never had. She had worn it every day for months. She never took the d.a.m.n thing off except to shower. Even then she felt lost without it. But after the election she had forced herself to stop wearing it. It didn't make any difference. In that moment, she wished desperately that she was wearing it. Her eyes stung as she fought to hold back her tears.

She hadn't felt like this in months. The last time had been when she found out about Brady's new girlfriend, and before that New Year's. She had moved on. But then why did she feel as if she was being torn to pieces with just one lingering look?

The panel concluded and Liz numbly followed Ma.s.sey out of the auditorium. She was hanging with a group of sorority girls Liz didn't really fit in with, but the benefit of that was that she didn't have to say anything. They carried on the conversation just fine without any input.

The lobby of the campus conference center was full of people milling around after that last panel. There were two more panels after it, but Liz had a.s.sumed they would be smaller. A lot of the students wouldn't be attending them. Liz was only going because she had helped Dr. Mires put the entire thing on, so she didn't think she would be able to sneak away.

Liz caught sight of a head of long dark hair and smiled. Savannah. So she was here. Ever since the day that Liz had told her that she had actually voted for Brady, things had been different between them. Both girls had relaxed around each other at work and the few occasions when they hung out. Liz found that she actually liked Savannah best of anyone else at the paper. They had similar work ethics, and each was more determined than the other to prove herself.

Liz waved to her as she walked over to where Savannah was standing. "Hey, I didn't see you in there."

Savannah shrugged. "I've heard them speak a million times. I didn't need to hear this one."

"You didn't miss much. It was pretty boring," she said softly.

"Oh, I figured. Brady said at lunch that it was going to be."

Liz breathed in and out as slowly as possible. Of course Savannah had lunch with her brother while he was in town. Nothing to freak out about.

"Well, he was right." As always.

"Hey, I'm glad I ran into you. What are you doing for dinner tonight?" Savannah asked.

"Um . . . I don't know. Why?"

"Want to come with me? I'll pick you up and everything."

"Are you asking me on a date, Savannah?" Liz asked with a half laugh. "You're not really my type."

"Okay, it's super secret. Like, don't even tell Hayden about it. Just tell him you're going out with me, but we'll have a good time, okay?"

"I haven't even agreed," Liz said, her interest piqued.

"Oh, did you not? I didn't notice. I'll come get you around eight," Savannah told her.

"All right," Liz said with a shrug.

"Brady's going to be out in a second. Want me to introduce you two?" she asked. "I know you guys met on campaign, but I'll introduce you to the real Brady Maxwell. He's actually not as stuck up as he looks." Savannah giggled and started dragging her across the room.

"Oh, no, Savannah . . . that's okay. We've . . . we've already met. It's, um . . . really not necessary," Liz stammered out.

"Come on. It's just my brother. He doesn't bite."

Liz disagreed. He most certainly did bite . . .

"Oh, there he is," Savannah said, just as Brady walked out of a back door from the auditorium. "I had a feeling he'd come this way."

"Oh," was all Liz managed to get out as she stared at Brady standing there talking to his father. She felt as if her legs were made of lead and she wasn't sure how she was dragging them along.

"Brady!" Savannah called as they approached.

His eyes snapped up to Savannah and he smiled. She knew that smile. G.o.d, how many times had she seen him look that happy? He loved his sister. They were really two peas in a pod. And then he saw Liz walking next to her and the smile dropped off of his face. Her legs didn't just feel like lead then; her whole body felt like lead, sinking straight to the bottom of the ocean.

Savannah pulled Liz along behind her and kept that smile on her face. "Brady, this is my friend Liz. I work with her on the paper. She was my boss during the campaign. I don't know if I mentioned her."

Brady swallowed, his Adam's apple bobbing. "I don't think you did." He seemed to have composed himself, but his eyes were still hard. She felt two feet tall in the shadow of that gaze. Then he stuck his hand out. "Brady Maxwell. I believe we met on campaign. Yes?"

"We did," she whispered, nodding. She took his hand in hers. Sparks flew as if someone had struck a match between them. It jolted her, and she actually jumped a little on contact. He took in a deep, even breath and then quickly dropped her hand.

"How nice to meet you again," he said, that campaign mask firmly in place. She wouldn't be seeing her Brady the rest of the conversation. Not that anything about him was hers anymore. "How was the rest of the campaign?"

Liz felt the weight of that question to her very core. "Same old, same old. It took forever to get to November," she all but whispered. "Congratulations on your victory."

"Thank you. I had a great team behind me. They really believed in me and my vision," he said, each word stabbing her like a knife wound.

"That's very . . . fortunate," she said, not knowing what else to say.

Savannah smiled, oblivious to the underlying conversation going on between them. "I'm glad I could reintroduce you," she said brightly. "I know Liz voted for you in the election and spent a lot of time ensuring students on campus voted."

"Is that right?" Brady asked, his gaze shifting to Savannah.

"I know how you like to talk to your const.i.tuents," Savannah said with a pat on his arm, as if he weren't some big politician. To Savannah he was just her brother. "I'm going to go find Dad. Find me after, Liz, okay?"

Savannah traipsed away to find her father before Liz could say anything. And then she was left alone with Brady.

They stood there together awkwardly. How many times had she envisioned what she would say when she finally saw him? How many times had she thought that she would beg his forgiveness, yell at him for never coming after her, throw herself at him? But none of those things happened. They just stared at each other.

Liz knew that she should say something. She even opened her mouth. But what could she say? They were so far removed from where they had been last August. She just wanted to apologize, to explain, but she couldn't. Not here. Not like this.

"There you are," Liz heard from behind her. Her stomach sank. s.h.i.t.

She broke Brady's gaze and turned to see Hayden walking toward her. He was in a navy sport jacket and khakis with a striped shirt underneath. His hair was perfectly tousled and his hazel eyes were almost green as he smiled at her.

He walked right up to her and kissed her softly on the lips. She didn't think she even responded.

"Hey, Lizzie," he said when he pulled back.

Liz stepped away from him, feeling terrible at the realization that Brady was watching. f.u.c.k.

"Um, hey," she said awkwardly.

Hayden noticed who she was standing by and straightened up immediately. "Oh, you must be Brady Maxwell," Hayden said, having the sense to look slightly embarra.s.sed. Though she wondered if he had kissed her on purpose. No. This was Hayden. He didn't have a bone in his body that wasn't good and decent.

"That's right," Brady said.

Hayden thrust his hand out. "Hayden Lane. I'm the editor at the college newspaper."

Brady took it, keeping his campaign mask firmly in place, but Liz could see the fire br.i.m.m.i.n.g in his eyes as he stared at Hayden. His gaze shifted to Liz and she could see precisely what he was thinking in that moment. You're with this guy now?

Brady knew exactly who Hayden was. She had kissed Hayden in D.C. while she had been seeing Brady. Their picture had shown up in the newspaper when school started.

"Nice to meet you," Brady responded. "If you'll excuse me, I have a meeting to get to."

And without another second's pause, Brady turned and walked in the opposite direction. She was left alone with Hayden, but she might as well have been all by herself all over again . . . because her heart had been ripped out of her chest with Brady's departure.

Chapter 10.