Medieval Hearts - For My Lady's Heart Part 35

Cara kept a vigil in the chapel, for she could no more sleep than she could flee. She prayed for the souls of her parents and for her sister. She prayed for Desmond. The priest looked at her curiously when he rang the little bell for hours. She left then, unwilling to draw attention, pulling her headscarf close to her as she pushed open the door. The bailey lay silent and still under the cold stars before dawn.

A black figure stopped away from the wall beside the arched entrance. It was Allegreto, shaking in the frigid air. "Wait," he said, his voice a faint tremor in the quiet.

She felt sick. "Is it over?"

"Nay," he murmured. "Nay, he holds yet. It is early." A shudder ran through him. In the starlight she saw him grip his fists tightly. "I'm sorry."

She bit her lip. Then she shook her head. "It is your father."

"I did not know-I never thought-" Another shiver broke his words. "You must stay away from him. I never once thought he would come here!"

A soft frightened sound seemed to seep from him against his will. His shaking increased. She reached out to him, for she thought he would fall, and he caught her hand and held it hard against his face. She felt wetness there-ice, his tears and his cheeks were, as if a marble statue wept.

"Don't!" It frightened her beyond wit to feel him shake. She pulled him close to her, against her breast to make him stop, pressing her back to the wall and holding tight to force him to be still. With a groan he brought his hands up around her shoulders and kissed her.

She said, "No," but his cold lips and cheek touched hers, drawing life, taking away what warmth she had with desperate greed.

"No!" She turned her face away. She twisted her fingers in his hair to check him and yet still hold him-hold him like a child with his face buried in her throat, her arms tight around him.

She kept him there, stroking his hair. She held him until her arm ached with the strain. The tremors pa.s.sed through him to her, easing, but before they had left him, he shoved suddenly away from her and turned his back.

"Monteverde b.i.t.c.h," he said, but he had no venom in his voice, only anguish.

His figure cast a faint, smeared shadow on the wall beside her. She opened her palm against it, but it was only cold and darkness, an illusion. She did not have life enough in her, she thought, to give him as much as he needed, even if she gave it all.

"Come with me," he said coolly, as if he had never trembled in her arms. "I have a scheme; I need your help." He flashed a look at her, his face stone white in the starlight. "But if you slip, Monteverde, you kill all three of us."

She could not look at Desmond. She was afraid to look; he made a sound as the heavy door opened that was pain and terror, choked off into wordless pants. There was no guard-Allegreto had told her to watch, and speak when she was told to speak. She no more asked what he had done to the guard than she looked at what they had done to Desmond.

A candle had been left burning in the larding cellar, lighting ordinary things. Allegreto's shadow pa.s.sed across smoked meats and a bushel of apples. "Now, my stubborn little a.s.s, you've made acquaintance of my father," he said quietly. "You may take your choice between us."

Cara wet her lips, her eyes fixed on the open door and the stair beyond. No sound came from Desmond but the faint gasping of his breath.

"You have one hope to live," Allegreto said. "You can tell me where she is, and I'll take you out of here before my father comes again."

"Nay," Desmond whispered.

"Then tell me where I can get a message to her. She must be told that my father is here. She will not expect it. None of us-expected it."

"Nay, you-will-tell him," Desmond said, his voice a weak grate.

"Cara."

She had to turn. She looked only at his face, his white face, his head lying against the wall. His face was whole.

"You would not listen to me," she hissed. "Listen to me now! Allegreto means to get you free. You can't fight Gian; he'll kill you by inches, or let you live, which will be worse. And we'll die, too, if he finds we came here to aid you! We tried-we tried to spare you this, and you would have none of it! Well might you help yourself now, stupid boy, that Allegreto risks life and limb for thee!"

His eyes closed. He rolled his head to the side, mumbling in English.

"Speak French," Allegreto said harshly. "We can't understand you."

"I don't know," the youth muttered. He swallowed and groaned. "I don't know. It hurts."

"Here's my dagger," Allegreto said. "Do you see it? I'll cut you free, and you won't hurt. As soon as you tell me where to send, I'll cut you loose." He turned Desmond's head, to make him see the knife before his eyes. "I give you until she counts to twenty, and then we leave you here to G.o.d and my father's mercy."

He nodded to Cara. She began to count, as slowly as she dared, staring at Desmond's racked face. He turned his head from side to side, panting. From somewhere up the stairwell, a dove cooed, waking.

"Eighteen," she said, and closed her eyes. Nineteen."

"I can't tell you," Desmond gasped. "But I can-take..."

Allegreto slashed the knife across one set of cords. Desmond cried out as his arm fell.

"Take?" Allegreto demanded, the dagger hovering.

"Take ... near. You-give me... the message. Wait for- answer. I swear. Help me!"

Allegreto cut him down.

A band of deep gray-blue threatened rain along the tops of the hills. As the wind blew a warning of late frost from the north, the black branches tossed, showing their tiny green buds in shafts of sunlight.

She had not flown Gryngolet long. Her moult would begin soon, and in this weather any stray gust might sweep the falcon beyond a ridge and out of sight. The horses plodded along beside the river, taking s.n.a.t.c.hes at new growth. Melanthe rode dreaming, her mantle close about her ears, thinking of ways she might coax her husband into bodily fellowship.

The music at first seemed like part of the wind. She lifted her head, listening. In a lull she heard it again, or thought she did. Sometimes it seemed a melody, and sometimes only single uncertain notes. She turned in the saddle to look at Hew.

"Yea, I hear, my lady." He scowled up at the ridge. "Desmond, my lady. I think me."

Melanthe's hand closed on her reins. "He's come." An old foreboding fell over her, hearing that elvish measure on the high wind-but wavering and broken, a travesty of the song.

Hew was still looking up over the sweep of trees to the heights. He reached for the horn slung over his shoulder.

"Take me to him," Melanthe said.

He paused, the horn lifted. "My lady, Lord Ruadrik said-"

"Take me!" She turned her horse. "Or I will finden my way alone." She urged it down the riverbank. The animal plunged in, fording the stream in knee-deep splashes. They heaved up onto the overgrown track on the other side.

Hew came behind. Without another word he splashed out of the water and p.r.i.c.ked his rouncy past her.

Ruck pulled up Hawk from his last gallop. While the destrier recovered its wind, shedding a furry winter coat along with winter fat, Ruck guided him out of the lists. He let his feet dangle out of the stirrups.

He smiled at the May pole that stood ready in the middle of the sheep meadow, ribbons bound tight, the spring blast whistling through them as he rode Hawk in a circle around it. The weather would not smile on their celebrations, he feared; it seldom did, but hope sprang anew each year. If the sun failed them, they would move the pole and festival into the castle bailey.

He left his ax and mace leaning outside the wooden rail of the lists, ready for him when he returned after eating, and let Hawk amble up the slope toward the road. There were already twenty lambs, leaping and running, or staring fixedly at him as if he were some pressing secret to be unraveled. Joany Tumbster stopped him at the gatehouse and demonstrated how she could vault up behind him over Hawk's tail. The destrier bore it patiently, as lenient with girls in fluttering dags as he was intolerant of full-grown men in armor.

They rode into the yard with Joany standing on Hawk's rump, her hands on Ruck's shoulders. Her brother, sc.r.a.ping cow dung into a barrow, yelled at her to let go and stand straight. Just as she dared to chance it, a horn sounded from far outside the walls, taken up by another at the gate.

"Desmond's come!" Joany slipped and s.n.a.t.c.hed at Ruck's neck, bounding free just before she strangled him.

"Nay. Hold!" His command caught her halfway across the yard to the gate.

She and the others halted, turning their young faces to him, wind-burned and innocent.

"No one goes to him until I know that he does nought bring pestilence." He reined Hawk around. "Joany, you come with me, far enow to fetch the princess back-she and Hew have gone downriver with the falcon. Tell her that I wait on her in the bower when I return."

Until he had heard the horn, Ruck had not known how much he dreaded it. After he dropped Joany at the crossing, he let the destrier walk across the bridge, as if by going slowly he could gain back the time that had slipped away as the ice had melted from the river.

Hawk hoisted himself up a turn in the familiar path, his hooves sucking in mud. He went without Ruck's guidance, knowing the way out as he knew the way in. They had climbed high on the slope, where the hawthorn buds were still tight and purple-black instead of bursting, when the sharp scent of fresh droppings jolted him from his brood.

He halted Hawk. The tracks were fresh, ascending instead of descending. They had not been on the lower path-they had come in on a side trail.

It could only be Melanthe and Hew. Ruck scowled, unhappy that they had rushed up here to meet the boy. Desmond had not been outside before; he was young and impetuous; he might be fetching anything back-plague and more.

Ruck whistled, but the wind in the upper crags was whining too high for hearing. He slapped the horse, urging him to a swifter pace.

Hawk heaved and blew frost, his ears flicking as they drew up to the howling rock and pa.s.sed it by. The slate cliffs loomed above. Ruck kept expecting to hear Desmond's flute, to meet them all coming down; his nerves grew more taut as Hawk climbed on alone.

The destrier gathered himself for a lunge up onto the stony ledges. Pebbles skittered down from under his feet as he made the shelf and broke into a brief trot on easier ground. Ruck's hair whipped his cheek in the wind. Another ledge up, and another-and he guided Hawk into the stone fissure.

The sudden hush of the tarn was like a sound of its own. Beyond the moaning crevice, the pool was tranquil as it always was, black, still ice-skimmed in the cold shadow of the cliffs. As they entered, Hawk shied violently. Ruck grabbed for his sword as a figure rose from the bushes.

It was Hew, without the horses or Melanthe. Ruck controlled the destrier, spurring him forward. "Where is she?" His alarm echoed off the slate, mingling with the ring of Hawk's hooves.

Hew sank to one knee, his head bowed. He had no blood or look of a fight on him. Ruck threw himself from the saddle and grabbed the austringer's shoulders. "What happened?"

"My lord-a message, my lord. For you, my lord."

For an instant, sight and heart and lungs failed him. She was abducted. Blindly he grabbed for Hawk, to remount. "How long? How many of them?"

"My lord!" There was a hot strain in Hew's voice. "A message from my lady!"

Ruck paused, leashing his urge to throw Hawk into a pell-mell charge down the path. As soon as he turned, Hew stood up and closed his eyes. He looked miserable and scared, squeezing the wool mitts on his hands.

"My lord, my lady commanded me. I am to sayen you as if she herseluen spake, my lord, and her message to you be thusly-" He wet his chapped lips. " 'I leave thee of my own desire. Desmond says that Al-Allegreto lives, and his father comes in this country to wed me. I love this man as my life, better than e'er I loved thee.'" He took a breath while Ruck stared at him. " 'What was between thee and me is naught and nis,'" he recited with a nervous flick of his tongue. " 'I sore repent it. Ne do nothing to abashen me, for henceforth nill I desire to beholden thee, ne'er again, for base shame and disgust of such a connection.'" He opened his eyes and flung himself down on his knees. "And so did she charge me to sayen exactly, my lord!" he cried. "I swear to you, for ne'er should I speaken such words else!"

"It is false!" Ruck shouted. "The horses are gone! They took her; they forced her!"

He gripped his hands together and bent his head down. "Nay, only Desmond watz here, my lord, and she went apart and spake to him within the sight of my eyes, lord! And she mounted him upon my horse, and said that he would haf it to carry him, and bade me on pain to stayen you from following her."

"Nay." Ruck took a step forward. "She did nought!"

"My lord, she instructed me to sayen you, if ye would nought abide her word"-Hew lifted wretched eyes-"to remember, my lord, that she warned you once, that always she deceived."

Chapter Twenty-two.

He had no memory of coming down from the mountain. Hawk was galloping, pounding down the road before the castle. The May pole stood in the meadow. He sent Hawk flying off the track, drawing his sword, careering down the slope with his arm outstretched.

The sword hit, slashing through the ribbons, a violent impact in his hand. The stave vibrated wildly as he swept past. He reined Hawk on his haunches and spurred the destrier at the pole. He was yelling as he rode it down, swinging his sword overhead. The bright silks flew in the wind. The blow rang through him, opening a white gash in the wood.

Ruck carried away strips of blue and yellow; they fluttered and curled around his gauntlet and the guard. He flung the weapon from him as he pa.s.sed the lists, leaning down to catch the haft of the battle ax. His arm took the heavier weight. He swung upright in the saddle and charged the May pole howling fury in his throat.

The blade flashed and bit deep in the wood. With a crack the pole bent drunkenly. Hawk carried him by it as the upper half listed. He drove the horse around with his legs, hefting the length of the ax in both hands. He cut at the stave, spurring Hawk in ever smaller circles around the fractured pillar, swinging again and again as wood chips flew past his face, chopping until the log fell with a squealing groan.

He raised the ax over his head and brought it down, cleaving the standing wood down the center with a crack like a lightning bolt. He yanked the weapon free and dismounted amid trampled ribbons, a.s.saulting the downed spar.

The wood splintered beneath the blade. He lifted the ax and swung it, lifted and swung, grunting, mangling the pieces, driving them into the muddy ground. He had no thoughts, no idea of time. He hewed until his hands went numb with the work, until he could not pull the blade from its seat but stumbled forward over it when he tried.

He fell on his knees amid mutilated silk and sundered wood. His breath burned his throat. With his dagger he stabbed at a scarred length of pole beside him, the only thing in reach, grinding the knife tip around, deepening and widening the wound, stabbing at it again.

He could hear nothing but his own heaving breath and the sound of the point impaling wood. Sweat trickled down into his eye, sharp salt. He wiped it with the back of his leather sleeve.

The cold wind bit his cheeks when he looked up. All of his people stood at the edge of the lists, a cl.u.s.ter of color and silence except for one little girl who was weeping. Their May stave and garlands lay maimed and dismembered about him.

He shook his head. He shifted the dagger and speared the mud beside his knee. He pulled it free and gored again, his fist rising and falling weakly. He shook his head once more.

"My lord." It was Will Foolet's voice, heavy with fear and question.

"I cannought speak of it." Ruck's throat was hoa.r.s.e. He shoved himself to his feet. "I cannought speak of it. Ask Hew."

He took up the ax and walked toward the lists, wiping his muddy knife on his thigh. The tear-stained girl came up to meet him as he pa.s.sed, reaching for the hem of his surcoat. "Won't we have a May then, m'lor, if you please?" Her large eyes fixed him. "My lady's grace said me that I might carry her flowers to the stave-" Her mother hurried up, trying to lift her away, but she clung stubbornly to him. "And ne can I now!" she cried.

"Beg grace, my lord!" her mother exclaimed, yanking the small fist free.

Ruck saw a lone figure walking toward them from far away down the track. Hew. Soon enough they would all know, and stare at him, and pity him for a wretched love-sot, more fool than they could invent in their best playing at fools.

"I'll fell another." He turned from them, hefting the ax onto his shoulder. "Ne do I desire company at it."

Desmond had told Melanthe nothing more, but that Allegreto's father had come to Bowland. She had not asked. He did not use his bandaged hand, and he moved like an old man, his young face unsmiling, his eyes bleak.

He brought her to her senses. She had looked on him, the boy who had left with a merry melody that knew nothing of pain, and she had known that she must go.

She could not let this come to Wolfscar. And it would come, if she stayed, if Gian was here. The world would come no matter the depth of the woven wood barrier. Gian would hunt her until he found her.

As dreams and vapor vanished, as a laughing youth came home a cripple, so would such things perish if she tried to hold on to what she could not possess. She had not forgotten who she was, but she had let herself forget what it demanded.

She had looked back once, halting the horse at a crossroad where a monk and a farmer worked to repair a harrow. Gryngolet sat on the saddlebow, asleep, her head tucked beneath one white wing. The wind blew warmer here, pushing fat low clouds and showers off the sea. The lowland was alive with the work of spring, with cleared fields and flowers, church bells and children chasing birds off the new seeds.

Behind her the mountains rose, catching the rain against their flanks-a dark watch, a malevolence that made the eye long to turn to the new foliage and fresh red soil. She stared at the boundary. High and impenetrable it seemed, and yet precious frail, vanishing at a glance for anyone with the key.

Her message to Ruck had been a more powerful kind of barrier, designed to kill all trust and love. He would have followed her-she made a pit of broken faith between them to prevent him.

Desmond did not halt or look back at her. His fat sluggish rouncy, taken from Hew, carried him step by step. She had seen him wrap his good hand in the mane, his mouth drawn hard against every jolt. Sometimes, when his face grew too white, she had told him they would rest, and gave him time to recover himself.