Marry! My Black Horse Chapter 11

Under the escorts of manager and bodyguards, Gu Xi Ran went back to her lounge, sat down on the soft chair that exclusively for her, in a flash, her mind was empty and desolate, until her manager pa.s.sed her a cup of water, she just recovered from her thought. Then, her hand took out her phone from the pocket, and pressed down the gallery photo picture alb.u.m. Her photo alb.u.m was locked, and the pa.s.sword was Fei Jun's birthday, when it opened, it showed two to three of Fei Jun's photo.

Fei Jun didn't like to be photograph, so this few photos were taken secretly by her. There was a photo on the airplane, where Fei Jun was closing his eyes to sleep, his cold face looked calmed and composed, it really showed his soft expression. That time she felt his appearance made her heartbeat somewhat faster, so she secretly photographed it.

Until they broke up, she didn't willing to erase this photo, every time she was burned-out emotionally and physically, she would look at this picture, and felt that he was still by her side.

She was in relationship with Fei Jun for a year and four months, she was very happy during that moment. Fei Jun was her first love, she was really rejoice to be able to meet a man that was mature and attentive like him, almost everything was took care by him. When they were in relationship, like most of the women, she sometimes purposely made trouble with him to get her attention, but Fei Jun was a forgiving and tolerant with her. Couldn't help but to admit being together with him, her heart was really completely happy every day. It was until she mentioned about her intention to enter entertainment circle, she was encountered with his strong opposition.

He was a a bit male chauvinism, he didn't hope his woman to enter that complicated and changeful circle world, he hoped that her will continue to do her profession as news anchor, but she couldn't stand the attraction of it. From her early age until grow up, she was good at every kind of singing and dancing, because her mother was a famous dance teacher. Therefore, she was able to observe and join any kind of large-scale performance. Every time the performance ended, that big function was empty, she would get on the stage and start dance lightly, she really enjoyed. It was really her most happy moment. Slowly, she started to look forward to stand on the dazzling stage, received public compliments and approves. Her innate desire to perform let her yearn to join entertainment circle. Because of her image as a sweetheart news anchor gradually was climbing, she started to have many opportunities, such as endorsing advertis.e.m.e.nt, fashion show, be a female lead in MV, etc. It really made her felt happier than be just news anchor, what she needed was wider stage to show her ability and specialty rather than just be news anchor that was not really interested for her.

The sacrifice of fulfilling her dream was losing Fei Jun, the last time she mentioned her intention, she already to felt that she has somehow lost him. But she wanted to bet on her luck, bet that he once again will tolerate her, support her, but the result as they were fighting a big fight. Fei Jun left the house and turned his back on her, he didn't even took a glance back to her. Right then, she still didn't understand the situation, she didn't answer his call again. After that, Fei Jun completely and throughly left her world.

When she knew the news about Fei Jun's marriage, she was shocked that it felt the blood inside her whole body almost in a flash condensed, in her mind, a question lingered a question: "How can this be?"

If that day, she urged him to stay, pulled his hand, the result would not be this way; if that day she agreed to soften her att.i.tude, and not caring about her arrogance and dignity, the result would not be like this. But there was no if, the reality was Fei Jun was married, he gave up on her.

She was lifelessly did the jobs on her hand, went home and sat down her sofa. Her tears involuntary dropped. She just really aware that she really has lost Fei Jun, and would never be able to have any connection with him, why can this be? Is she do something wrong? She just only want to pursue her own dream, be a genuine worthy person, but how the sacrifice of pursuing this dream was losing Fei Jun? As a matter of fact losing him, made her realized Fei Jun was really important than what she had imagined. How could she continue stayed strong?

Recalling a song, one sentence's from that song that said "the days that I have with you made me used to losing myself", it was sentence really describe her feeling.

The most tragedy for her was she realized that for Fei Jun, she was replaceable, this man was came straight to the point didn't want her anymore, he didn't even hesitate.

This Sat.u.r.day, Fei Jun brought Guan Xin Mu to stroll around. Because of Guan Xin Mu was not someone who loved shopping, she weakly followed behind him to stroll around the shops for men. Fei Jun shopped a lot, bought a fountain pain, a necktie, a shirt, and a camera. Until he finished shopped, he moved his attention toward her, said: "You don't want to buy anything?"

"What I want know is I want to look to someplace to sit, my feet are aching!" Guan Xin Mu frowned.

Fei Jun had no choice, he only held her hand and took her to the top restaurant on the shopping mall. Guan Xin Mu ordered a lot of things, it was placed on the table and made it full. Fei Jun looked at her rudely like saying "you are pig".

The time Guan Xin Mu ate, something unexpected happened, one of the female intern of the restaurant ran to Fei Jun, to ask for his signature. She spoke bluntly: "You are Mr Fei right, I constantly read the financial business about you. I really admired your achievement in business world. I was a economic management student, my dream was to be nationwide first-rate food and drink chain, although, now I am just a waiter, but I am confident that I will success. You are my role model, can you give me your signature?"

Guan Xin Mu stared dumbfounded, she looked that Fei Jun took the little notebook and pen from the waiter, and signed it for her. She laughed and thanked him, then her eyes glance sideways at Fei Jun's used tissue, and politely asked: "Mr Fei, can I have that tissue that you had used?"

Guan Xin Mu was throughly startled, that was a napkin paper Fei Jun used to wipe the curry sauce on her mouth.

"Do as your wish." Fei Jun slightly smiled

The female waiter lightly left them, Fei Jun absurdly said: "Look at that little girl, that young she had already have dream and target, what about you?"

"Dream and target?" Guan Xin Mu sneered, "That was her attempt to strike a conversation with you. Things like you are my model and my encouragement, go go go, what she fancied was only that face of yours."

"You mean that my face is really good?" Fei Jun asked

Guan Xin Mu didn't say anything any more, even she dead, she will not admit Fei Jun was a handsome man, this firm reality.

Going out of the restaurant, going out from the shopping mall, Fei Jun's phone rang. He answered and chatted seriously, he released Guan Xin Mu's hand. Guan Xin Mu followed behind him, she gazed at his tall and st.u.r.dy back. She continuously raised her head, and didn't aware of the low stairs in front of her, and made a misstep. Fortunately, Fei Jun swiftly caught her.

"How can you are the same as child? That you can carelessly miss a step?" Fei Jun scold lightly

"Who let you don't hold my hand?" Guan Xin Mu naturally said it, when she said it out, she felt a little bit of regret, is this an act of coquettishly?

"Your act of coquettishly.." Fei Jun extended his forefinger and pointed to her brain, "is very cute."

Then a second, he held her hand again, his palm was big, and full of warm. It suddenly remind her of her little age the time she held hands with her daddy.

After a moment of immersed in happy memory, Guan Xin Mu felt something wrong with her feet, she lowered her eyes to look, and saw her wedge shoes was cracked. This shoes was bought collectively with her female colleagues in the company, it was quite cheap, it just 115 yuan. When she brought it home, she took and showed it to Fei Jun, Fei Jun casted a glance and rudely said: "What is the use of being cheap? This shoes is ugly."

This moment, this ugly shoes unexpectedly broke in front of Fei Jun's disappointing eyes, completely broke down Guan Xin Mu's beautiful and functional comment toward this shoes…..

"Wait here." Fei Jun said and turned his body inside the shopping mall.

Guan Xin Mu awkwardly stepped back toward the corner, and sat down on the long bench and waited for Fei Jun's return and brought her new shoes. Her mind suddenly appeared that scene again. The image of Gu Xi Ran and Fei Jun's romantic scene. In this public place, she also can enjoy the treatment of that princess treatment? Couldn't help herself, she started to expected, her corner of mouth involuntary raised up.

Less than 15 minutes, Fei Jun returned with the shoes that he called to be free from worries. He lifted the shoes box out of the plastic bag and opened it in front of Guan Xin Mu. Inside it, laid down a simple style flat shoes with silver color, he knew Guan Xin Mu was not fond of high heels, so he bought this style.

"It looks quite good." Guan Xin Mu praised, "It is a beautiful shoes."

Fei Jun pa.s.sed the shoes box toward her: "Hurry up change it."

"Ha?" Guan Xin Mu took the shoes box, felt it was different with her imagination.

Fei Jun already inserted his hand to his pant's pocket, and his other hand was lifted up for him to look at the time now. His meaning was clear and definite that she need to do it by herself.

Guan Xin Mu bent over, slowly took of her old shoes, slowly took the shoes, and gazed at Fei Jun, slowly changed her shoes.

"What happened?" Fei Jun turned sideways to look at her, "Why you are so slow?"

"Didn't you prepare to personally help me change my shoes?" Guan Xin Mu asked.

"Don't. You. Have. Your. Own. Hands?" Fei Jun asked the question and put a stressed on each of words. His face full of joking att.i.tude, as if Guan Xin Mu raised a very ridiculous request.

Guan Xin Mu glared at him, lowered her eyes, bit her lips and swiftly changed her shoes. Her heart was full of resentment, how can he treat her so unfairly? Why can Fei Jun bent down his honorable body, and help her change shoes for a time? Isn't she her wife, how can he do it for a girlfriend, but not her? Doesn't she have more authority to receive that kind of treatment?

She got more and more angry after thought it over and over, Guan Xin Mu finished changing her shoes, suddenly rose her body, held up her head and throw out her chest and moved forward, completely ignored Fei Jun. Who knows after a second, she was pulled into his warm embrace, he laughed: "Didn't you want me to hold your hand?" He completely regard her as a little brat