I’ll Still Love You Even If You’re a Man Vol 1 Chapter 9

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Mai Ding followed An Ziyan into his house. He didn’t have the time to observe the house for his head was only filled with the kiss which he totally lost himself in. His lips seemed to be able to feel the remnants of the warmth from just awhile ago as he touched it. “Why did you kiss me?” This is the question he desperately needed an answer to. Why did An Ziyan suddenly kiss him?

An Ziyan didn’t answer the anxious Mai Ding and took off his shirt. When he was topless, Mai Ding’s face turned red as he looked away. They were both guys, and there was no reason for him to be so shy.

An Ziyan went in to take a shower while Mai Ding was frozen, leaving him standing alone there. He looked around. So this is An Ziyan’s home, so cold. What did that kiss mean for An Ziyan? Now that the both of them are in a s.p.a.cious place, alone, it shouldn’t be inevitable that there would be some exciting “hot” things happening, right?

Mai Ding started to have crazy thoughts, but you can’t blame him because An Ziyan was showering, and they were only a wall apart. Mai Ding couldn't resist but to a.s.sociate the sound of running water with An Ziyan’s body. He pinched his thigh really hard, What the f.u.c.k man! What are you thinking! After a short while, An Ziyan came out of the bathroom with his hair wet, and that look aroused Mai Ding.

“Are you done staring? Go shower.” An Ziyan took out some of his clean clothes and threw it on Mai Ding’s head.

Mai Ding caught the clothing and entered the bathroom. The whole bathroom was filled with An Ziyan’s smell. Mai Ding was like a pervert, as he took deep breaths of it before starting to shower. He tried his best to control his emotions, but after washing halfway, his lower body was being useless, as it started to have a reaction. Luckily, An Ziyan’s clothing was a little big on him, so it couldn't be noticed. When he walked out, An Ziyan was watching TV.


“Erm… Where is the guest room?”An Ziyan turned around and squinted at Mai Ding.This a.s.shole is so much smaller wearing his own clothes.

“Come here.”

Mai Ding walked over and stood in front of An Ziyan, as he lowered his head and stared at the sitting An Ziyan saying, “What?”

“Hey, give me your first time.”

An Ziyan’s sentence was like a bomb as it shattered whats left of Mai Ding’s little amount of sanity. Mai Ding’s face suddenly flushed as he said, “What are you talking about? You're so crazy to tell me such low words!”

“Don’t you like me?”

Mai Ding was frozen for a short while, before he finally realized that this a.s.shole heard it that night*, so he was pranking him.
(* - When Mai Ding shouted at An Ziyan's door)

“So you knew about it, and you were still blunt to me. What do you want now? Treat me like a joke? Yes, I do like guys, and even if you feel disgusted, uncomfortable or don’t want to be friends with me anymore, I just f.u.c.king fell in love with you. From the beginning till now, you have been playing me like a fool. I still have something to do right now, so I gotta go.”

Mai Ding was just about to open the door, when An Ziyan pressed onto Mai Ding closely behind him saying, “Since you are here, I have no intention of letting you go.” After saying that, he carried Mai Ding and threw him on the bed.

“You a.s.shole, insisting what you want... I want to—” Mai Ding wasn't finished saying his words, as they were all swallowed into An Ziyan’s mouth. An Ziyan pressed onto Mai Ding very roughly, but he was very gentle when he kissed Mai Ding. Such gentle action made Mai Ding unable to resist as he grabbed onto An Ziyan’s arm tightly and returned his kiss.

His heart was being replaced by another type of thinking, maybe, just maybe, An Ziyan also likes him, because this kiss can’t be given by someone who hates the person he kisses.

An Ziyan felt something pressing against him very evidently, so he bent down to look. It was Mai Ding’s erection, so he stared at Mai Ding with a sneaky look saying, “Cla.s.smate, your thing is not very honest heh.”

After hearing An Ziyan mocked him, Mai Ding’s emotions initially were all destroyed as he struggled saying, “Do you want to do it or not?”

“So you are willing now?”

“After all, it has already ended up like this, I'll have no regrets giving my first time to someone I like.” Mai Ding thought about it rather quickly.

“You let go of me, I will do it myself.” Mai Ding requested again.

An Ziyan let go of Mai Ding. He wants to see how Mai Ding is going to “do it on his own.” Mai Ding’s face was flushed as he took off his clothes and lied down on the bed with his b.u.t.t facing An Ziyan, closing his eyes and biting his teeth saying, “Come here, quickly” Mai Ding didn’t know what to do so he guess it is like this, but he has heard that it hurts, so he has already prepared himself mentally.

An Ziyan turned to the side and couldn’t control his laughter saying, “Idiot.”

“What are you laughing for? That is too much.”

An Ziyan turned Mai Ding around and let him face him before dropping kisses on his face, neck, chest, and almost every inch of his skin. Mai Ding took a deep breath of cold air as he was attacked by this strange feeling. By the time An Ziyan reached 'down that area', Mai Ding exclaimed. “Ngh— There— No, I don’t want— Ah, Ah~”

He felt like he's going to melt in An Ziyan’s mouth as he put his hands tightly on An Ziyan’s shoulders. His whole body couldn’t control the shaking and his mind was starting to go blur, and so is his surroundings, except for An Ziyan, who is so clear.

At that moment, Mai Ding felt like there was something entering his body. He thought that An Ziyan has already entered, so he felt it for a short while before saying, “Why is your crotch is so small?”

An Ziyan’s face turned black and increased the force on his hand which made Mai Ding open his eyes in pain. He looked down to check, and realised that what went in was not An Ziyan’s crotch, but his finger.

After awhile, An Ziyan felt that Mai Ding was ready already, so he entered without informing Mai Ding. Mai Ding was initially feeling quite comfortable, suddenly, he felt something entering, and he felt so much pain that he shouted, “Ngh, ouch! Ah, ah! Can't you be more gentle?!” This time, he really felt how big or small An Ziyan’s length was.

“Gentle? It doesn’t matter, because it's going to hurt anyway”

“Ah, ah. You said that line again! Ngh, Ah, get out! I don’t want this anymore”

“It's not your choice.” How can An Ziyan even stop now?

“Ngh, Ngh, Ah, Ha! Ha, Ah~ It hurts~ An Ziyan~ Ah~”

Mai Ding frowned tightly, his back filled with searing pain. He tightly clenched his teeth as he endured the pain, but slowly, the pain subsided a little and the ‘high’ feeling came in. An Ziyan’s fingers were caressing Mai Ding’s body, and the places he touched felt as if they were burning. He tried to open his legs and give his everything to An Ziyan.


“Is it comfortable?” Mai Ding’s expression seemed to not be in that much pain anymore.

“a.s.shole.”

This went on throughout the night, until Mai Ding, exhausted from the throes of pa.s.sion, collapsed into An Zi Yan's arms and fell asleep

The next day, once Mai Ding woke up, he immediately wore his pants, and the sound woke An Ziyan as he frowned while saying, “What are you doing?”

Mai Ding saw the An Ziyan who did “it” with him last night has woken up, and he still felt a little embara.s.sed. But he quickly endured the pain on his back as he wore his pants saying, “If I don’t go now, your girlfriend might find out if stayed any longer.” That looked exactly like committing an extra-marital affair.

“She's studying in America.”

“Oh.” Mai Ding heaved a sigh of relief before asking An Ziyan, who was lying on the bed, “Then what are we considered as?” This question has been what Mai Ding wanted to ask ever since he woke up earlier, but he didn’t want to wake An Ziyan up.

“What do you mean?”

“Aren’t I asking you now? You're letting me talk, so will you agree with me if I say it out loud?”

An Ziyan used his hands to support his head saying, “Tell me about it.” “Then, I want to go out with you, how about that? You won’t agree to it.”

“Ok.”

Mai Ding was so shocked that he walked back 3 steps. He was clearly kidding just now, for he didn’t hold any hopes. But, An Ziyan just agreed so casually, looking at his expressionless face, you can’t tell if it was real or not. It was impossible, there was no reason for him to agree.

“You're so good looking, and since there are so many people who like you, why would you want to be with me?”

“You're so normal, and since there's no one who likes you, why wouldn’t you be together with me?”

“You must be crazy.” After saying that, he carried his shirt and haphazardly ran out of An Ziyan’s house.
 
On the bus, Mai Ding suddenly laugh as he knock on the bus seat saying, “He actually said he wants to be together with me.” After that, he went silent before he laughed and knocked on the seat saying, “What does he like about me?” After a while, Mai Ding laughed and knocked on the seat again saying, “Out of all people.... It's An Ziyan!”

The person sitting next to Mai Ding had shivers running down his spine.

Suddenly, all his fustration and insecurity were gently going away. Hope was shining on Mai Ding, warming every corner of his universe.

The worries about the past or future had no power over him, nothing or no one in this world was all unable to stop Mai Ding from him liking An Ziyan. The Mai Ding now only wants to love An Ziyan with all his heart because being together with him itself was already a blessing.


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To be continued...