Secrets We Should Keep 35 Care To Explain

" of course dear but you should care for your health, please don't drink like that next time....."

with going far away they voice faded. I closed my eyes and push my eyes with my finger and then my head.

Is it my punishment for suffering Saman, today?! Why I should hear those disgusting word?! 'my baby' 'dear' Agh!! I think my ears got dirty from hearing those words.

With hearing the knock on the door I sit on my bed and fix my scarf "come in" he opened the door and came in, I stand up and walked toward him "Did you enjoy from party?! I see you even bring her home, do you want I arrange second date for you?!" he closed the door behind him and locked the door. I stopped from going closer and asked "why you locked the door?" he stare at me with frown. What the heck?! Do I do something wrong that I don't know myself?! Or he saw me in Mr. Tehrani car?! Is he angry because I go out without his permission?!

He draw something out of his pocket and throw it on the table, I looked at him with the same frown and anger "what do you mean by this work Mr. Rad?? Can you care and explain what is wrong with you, and what the h.e.l.l is that paper?!" he rolled his eyes and said "you won't go to university tomorrow... And about your questions.." he walked toward me and stopped few step away from me

" you don't have right position to ask me... Read that f.u.c.king letter and explain for me tomorrow afternoon, after she left here, did you understand? he said while he was controlling his anger and the volume of his voice to not become louder, with the eyes full of hate and anger. "yes" I respond.

He turned and left the room without any more words.

I walked toward the letter and opened it to read with seeing the handwriting my blood freezed in my bones and cells.

I whispered "father..." I sit down on the floor and started to read the letter, he was written it for his son and in the letter he told him about my ident.i.ty and why I was staying there. He told him about our promise but why?! He said no one should know about our vow so why he talked about it in his own will?! How I should explain it for him?! What he want to hear from me while his father told him everything? Maybe he want me to leave here as soon as possible, no it can't be happen I promised to stay here at least for three month how I could leave just like this?

I looked at the date of letter, and my eyes opened wide 'this letter should be read after three month of my death' this is what written on the letter, why he didn't listen to his father wish?!

"why you should open it this soon?? Can't you keep your curiosity for yourself?!" I murmured to myself.

That Satan, he destroyed everything by opening the letter sooner. That piece of trash.....

I stand up and ran outside of my room I saw his girlfriend from corner of my eyes but I can't wait to show her my honor to meet her again, because I'm scared to break every single bones of her body.

I ran to downstairs and with entering to my little gym I throw my first fist to punching bag, second, third, fourth,.... Every heat becomes stronger and quicker...i heat untill all my angers left my body.... with the thunder that roar outside in the sky I stopped and grabbed the punching bag in my arm, what kind of psychology I am while I can't even solve my own problems and manner ?! With irritation that formed on my hand skin I looked at it 'blood'.

I throw myself on floor and stared at ceiling.

"what should I do now, father?!" I said and closed my eyes.