Glimpse - A Novel Part 18

I cringed, thinking about my gigantic pregnant belly. The Adams men really were an addiction. "Which part is intense?" Did Claire have to share everything?

He laughed. "All of it. The wreck, the blood, we're old...you're pregnant!"

"About that-"

Avery put his hand up to stop me talking. "Yeah, I can see where you're going with this. Don't freak. I know I'm your trigger, that we have a strong physical connection." He cleared his throat. "Claire seemed really interested in that part."

"G.o.d!" I huffed, "I wish she'd get her own strong physical connection and leave mine alone!"

"Really?" Avery laughed again. "'Cause I'm pretty sure that Jason would help her out with that."

"Seriously?"

Avery shrugged.

I took his hand from my knee, intertwining our fingers. "Is it okay if I'm not ready to...you know? I mean, I'm kind of ready, but not ready, ready."

He gazed into my eyes. "I'm not ready, ready either." He put my hand on his heart, right over the spot I'd pulled the bullet from. "I love you, Zellie Wells. We may have an expiration date, but we've got time."

I rewound the last bit, just to hear it again.

The End

I would like to thank my Lookout, cover artist, and little sister, Valerie Wallace for inspiring me to write the Zellie books. Thanks also to Sarah Scott, my BFF and the only person on this planet who has read Glimpse as many times as I have.

Kisses to Rob, Gus, and Arlo. I'll always do the welcome home dance for you.

The second book in the Zellie Wells trilogy, Glimmer, is now available.

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An excerpt from Hush Money A Talent Chronicles Novel Susan Bischoff www.susan-bischoff.com

Chapter 1.

Joss I already knew it had happened again.

Not like I'm psychic, not really, but you don't have to have any special mental Talent to see the signs...if you're paying attention.

Stacy Scarpelli had had her hand in the air for, like, five minutes. Eventually she was doing that thing where you lean one elbow on the desk, and your other elbow in your hand, like you're going to collapse from the exhaustion of trying to get the teacher's attention. But the teacher was paying attention. She was paying a lot of attention to checking off names on the role; or supposedly taking role but totally not looking at that whole side of the room where Stacy was flinging her hand limply about on her wrist.

And leave it to Stacy to be so wrapped up in Stacy that she didn't notice how quiet it was this morning in first period English, and how everyone just kind of sat there. The whispering would start later, as the shock wore off. Later, people would be saying how long they'd suspected and how much they'd never really liked Krista anyway. But just then we were all looking around at each other and wondering who else was keeping secrets and who would be the next one to disappear.

Ms. Carter looked up and set her pencil down very carefully on her desk, lining it up precisely next to her planner, and finally raised her eyes to Stacy.

"Yes, Stacy?"

"You a.s.signed me Krista to be my partner for the project. And it's not like I wanted to leave it to the last minute, but she was always later later later, you know? And finally I said we gotta get together this weekend, and we were supposed to meet on Sat.u.r.day morning before my tennis lesson? So I waited and waited for her, but she didn't show up, and I had had to get to my lesson, right? And then I called her house after, but no one answered. No one answered all weekend, and now she's not even here today, and I don't know if she did any work at all on it. I did some, but I was kind of waiting to find out what she had, you know, compare notes, because there was no point in us doing the same thing, right? But I couldn't cause she wouldn't answer her phone and then I didn't know what to do, and I was going nuts all weekend trying to get ahold of her-" to get to my lesson, right? And then I called her house after, but no one answered. No one answered all weekend, and now she's not even here today, and I don't know if she did any work at all on it. I did some, but I was kind of waiting to find out what she had, you know, compare notes, because there was no point in us doing the same thing, right? But I couldn't cause she wouldn't answer her phone and then I didn't know what to do, and I was going nuts all weekend trying to get ahold of her-"

"Ok, Stacy. See me after cla.s.s and we'll work something out."

"I mean, I don't think I should be penalized because she was too busy to work on the project. Which she probably didn't anyway, which is probably why she didn't show up Sat.u.r.day and dodged my calls all weekend, and she's probably ditching school today so-"

"She's not ditching; she's just gone."

All eyes slid toward Dylan. He sat sideways in his chair, the back of his leather jacket against the chalkboard along the side wall, long legs stretched out in front of him, his expression unreadable.

In the seat behind him, Marco tipped back in his chair. "NIAC hauled her off." His voice was laced with the kind of satisfaction over other people's tragedies that made me think about his chair tipping too far and his skull bouncing off the linoleum.

Ms. Carter glanced nervously around the room. I felt bad for her. How's a teacher supposed to handle this subject? Encourage open discussion? Answer questions? Should we all share our feelings about the fact that we were never going to see Krista Pace again? It just seemed to me that the faculty probably knew about it earlier. h.e.l.l, the National Inst.i.tutes for Ability Control National Inst.i.tutes for Ability Control probably sent out some kind of official letter to the school, wouldn't you think? Our regular teacher should have been there for support and guidance instead of leaving the poor student-teacher to the wolves. But then, what would Mr. Krause have done differently? probably sent out some kind of official letter to the school, wouldn't you think? Our regular teacher should have been there for support and guidance instead of leaving the poor student-teacher to the wolves. But then, what would Mr. Krause have done differently?

"[cough]Freak![cough]"

"Shut up, Marco." Dylan continued to bounce his pencil's eraser on the desk and examine his boot-tops.

"Why, did you and freak-girl have something goin' on? Need a new date for Homecoming now that NIAC's locked her up?"

Enquiring minds want to know. My mind was particularly interested, unfortunately. My mind was particularly interested, unfortunately.

"Thanks, but you're not my type," Dylan sneered back at his friend.

"Ok, people, that's enough," Ms. Carter finally gathered the courage to enter the conversation. "The topic of Krista Pace is off-limits in this cla.s.s. If you have questions regarding her disap- If you have questions, you may take them to a.s.sistant Princ.i.p.al Sims-on your own time. Meanwhile, I believe we have some oral presentations to hear today. Stacy, you can see me after cla.s.s about your project. Who wants to go first?"

Personally, I think the school system is pretty messed up. I mean, if Krista had been hit by a bus or if she'd died of some terminal disease she'd been bravely fighting in secret for years, there'd be announcements, a moment of silence over the PA, maybe a memorial a.s.sembly. And we'd probably have some kind of shrine where people would leave pictures of Krista with flowers and little teddy bears and stuff like that. Out front somewhere where the TV news cameras could see it clearly, and give it lots of attention, and call it a "makeshift memorial" fifteen times a freakin' day. Like you've got to spend $5000 on a friggin' stone pillar or fountain with an engraved placard on it because anything else is just "makeshift".

But I digress.

Maybe we'd have grief counseling to talk about how she was just ripped from our lives, and we would never be able to say goodbye. We'd talk about how we felt that she'd never told us about this horrible disease she had, and if we'd known we would have been nicer to her, and now we'd never have the chance.

Because really, Krista was never coming back. And what she had was a lot like a disease. Something she was born with, something that couldn't be cured, something very, very bad.

What Krista Pace had was a Talent.

Joss G.o.d save us from guidance counselors...

I swiped my sweaty palm down the front of the vintage army field jacket I always wore before grabbing the doork.n.o.b and letting myself into the guidance department office. I handed my hall pa.s.s to the woman at the desk inside the door whose name I'd never bothered to learn.

I absolutely hated it here.

"Jocelyn. Yes, Mr. Dobbs is waiting for you. Go on in."

I turned away and moved to the door, thinking belatedly that I should have said thank you. Eye contact, a smile, thank you. But I never was any good at that politeness stuff. I was a lot better at the being quiet and melting into the background stuff. Having someone call up my Math teacher, being singled out and told to report to the guidance office while the rest of the cla.s.s waited to get on with the being bored-er, educated? It really messed with my whole don't notice me don't notice me program. program.

I was already on edge from that morning-because of the whole Krista thing-and this just made me twitchy. It didn't help that I knew exactly why Dobbs had called me in here.

I did not want to talk about it.

"Joss." He shuffled some papers into a folder, closed it. "Come on in. Have a seat."

I took the seat across from the desk without speaking, keeping my messenger bag on my shoulder and my notebook to my chest. I kept my expression blank, rather than overtly sullen, but Dobbs prided himself on the whole reading the body language thing and my message should be clear.

He took off his gla.s.ses and drew the side of his hand along the bridge of his nose as he set them down on the desk. In a moment he would pick them back up and put them on again, because he needed them to see. But his ritual of taking them off, setting them down... that was his way of saying he was serious, yet caring, concerned, and open-minded.

See, I could do body language too.

"So....how's it going?" he asked, dragging out the question.

"Ok."

He picked up his gla.s.ses and put them back on. "You've heard about Krista."

I didn't say anything. It wasn't a question, and what was I supposed to say anyway? It wasn't like the school had any kind of official stance on this stuff. They must cooperate in whatever investigations went on, but they never made, like, statements to the press or anything. There was nothing for me to quote or agree with.

"I thought you might have some feelings you'd like to talk about."

You thought that? Really? Are you new here? "No, not really." "No, not really."

"Joss, I know this must bring up some issues for you, feelings I don't think you've ever really dealt with. About Emily."

The name was like an execute command, automatically flashing a series of images across my brain that started out like a real estate or life insurance commercial. Little girls playing, laughing, holding hands, dancing in sprinklers, birthday parties, sharing secrets, fire, screaming, end of reel.

I jammed the playback to a stop before it could loop, forced my eyes from the stupid cartoon character on Dobbs's tie, and actually met his eyes. I shoved the discomfort at the personal contact aside with the rest of my feelings and made myself cold. "Emily moved away. Lots of kids have childhood friends who move away. It's sad at the time, but it's not, like, traumatic or anything."

Dobbs waited for me to say more. I figured it was safer to let him steer the conversation rather than take the lead and risk saying the wrong thing. These counselor types could be so tricksy. It wasn't my first time in his office and I knew he liked to try to read into things people said.

"But Emily didn't just move away. A child's parent might get a job in another town, they break the news, and there's weeks, maybe months, of house-hunting, packing-a period to adjust before the actual move. It wasn't like that with Emily. One day the two of you were joined at the hip, running up and down the block, picking the dandelions from everyone's yards...Then all of a sudden she was just...gone."

I continued to hold the eye contact, because to drop it now would be a show of weakness, like I had something to hide. I did a mental check and loosened my fingers on my notebook a little before he noticed my white-knuckled grip.

Dobbs had lived a few houses down and across the street for as long as I could remember. He was the kind of neighbor who waved if he saw you but didn't walk over to chat. He didn't mind if you went through his gate after a lost ball or a Frisbee, but he never invited you to swim in his pool. In all the years of casual neighboring, he'd never once tried to talk to me about Emily. But since my first day in high school he'd used any excuse to drag me into his office to try to discuss my feelings feelings on the subject. on the subject.

Why was I suddenly of interest? Was it just because talking to me became part of his job? Or was there something in that folder he didn't know from just living in the same neighborhood? Had someone told him to ask questions?

Get a grip.

"And then there was the fire..." he continued.

"I told you I don't remember any fire."

"The last time we spoke I suggested you discuss it with your parents."

"I did. I asked my mom about it. She didn't know what I was talking about." This was a planned answer. If Dobbs went to my mom, she would explain that she and dad felt it was best that I wasn't reminded about the incident.

His eyes narrowed as he mulled over that response. I could see the wheels turning behind his pale eyes, realizing that my parents would probably not be open to the idea of him helping their daughter achieve any kind of emotional breakthrough.

Point scored for Team Marshall.

"Hmmm, well.... If you're sure there's nothing you'd like to discuss..."

"Nothing I can think of."

"Don't forget to have Ms. Clark give you a hall pa.s.s."

During cla.s.s the girls' bathrooms were usually deserted, but not the one closest to the guidance offices. That one was too close to the gym and chances were it would be occupied by those whose decision to skip gym was more whim than plan, and hadn't come up with any better option. So I'd had to shuffle along two hallways and up a flight of stairs before finding a quiet stall where I could take a few shuddering breaths and try to pull myself back together.

G.o.d, I hated Dobbs, the supercilious b.a.s.t.a.r.d. And then there was the fire... And then there was the fire... I mocked him in my head using my best idiot voice. I mocked him in my head using my best idiot voice. Yeah, now that you mention it, I do suddenly want to talk about it. And, you know, I feel so close to you now that I feel like I can share my secret. Yeah, now that you mention it, I do suddenly want to talk about it. And, you know, I feel so close to you now that I feel like I can share my secret.

As if. a.s.shat.

Thing was, I could be p.i.s.sed all I wanted to, but that didn't seem to be stopping the movie in my head, the feelings of dread as I watched it play out, knowing I couldn't stop the little girls from their stupid plan. It didn't stop me from reliving the terror as things spun out of control, or the equally worse fear in the aftermath as we waited to see what would happen. As the unthinkable happened. As everything changed.

I felt wetness on my face and muttered a curse, leaning down for some toilet paper. But of course it was empty. I banged the back of my head on the door as I rummaged in my bag with one hand. I had to get a grip on myself. No better way to get noticed in school than to walk around looking like I've been cry- No better way to get noticed in school than to walk around looking like I've been cry- Still clutching the oversized notebook in my arms, I fumbled the bunch of stuff I pulled out of my bag to sort through for a tissue. I instinctively reached out with my mind and caught everything. The objects hovered in the air above the bowl: a pen, a scrunchie, a few crumpled bills, and the tissue.

I held them there a moment, feeling in my head those fragile, invisible strings between each object and my mind. It would hardly take any effort at all to open up my bag, tug at those imaginary strings, and float everything right back in. But in my mind I could hear my dad's voice saying, "The best way to seem normal is to be normal."

I put out my hand, grasped the crumpled piece of Kleenex, and let the other things go. The scrunchie bounced off the seat landed in floor, the pen and the money hit the water. I put my boot to the handle and flushed.

Be normal, I thought. I thought. It's just that easy. It's just that easy.

Chapter 2.

Dylan "Dylan, b.u.m a smoke."

"No, man, I quit."

"What, again?" Marco half whined, like I'd made the decision just to inconvenience him.

"Hey, Marco, I gotcha." Jeff took a last drag and pa.s.sed his cigarette to Marco before reaching into his jacket for another.