Friends I Have Made Part 9

"`Lizzie, I'm going to get strong now.'

"`Yes, yes; of course, dear,' she said; and I saw the hopeless tears gathering in her eyes.

"I smiled. She told me afterwards that I had not smiled with such a calm contented look on my countenance for many, many months, and it frightened her; for she thought it might be the precursor of a terrible change.

"`Yes,' I said, `get strong;' and I patted the little transparent hand that had grown with anxiety and watching as thin as my own. `Yes,' I repeated again, `get strong. I can feel it now. What is to-morrow?'

"`Friday,' she said; and her eyes dilated with fear.

"`Then get a few things ready, and on Sat.u.r.day we will go down to one of those little villages near Dover for a month. The sea-air will give me the strength I want, and then to work once more. Thank G.o.d the worst is past!'

"`Harry, Harry, dear Harry!' she sobbed, flinging her arms wildly round me, and drawing my head to her bosom. `Oh, speak to me--speak again!

You are worse--much worse. No, no; let go, let go,' she cried frantically, as she struggled to get away, `let me ring.'

"`What for? what for, little woman?' I said, holding her more tightly to my breast.

"`To get help--to send for the doctor,' she cried wildly.

"`Hush, hush!' I said. `Look at me--look in my eyes--do I seem worse?'

"`N-no,' she faltered, gazing at me with her poor face all drawn and haggard; `but--but--'

"`Lay your head on my arm, darling, and listen,' I said calmly. `There, there, I tell you calmly and sanely that I am better. I know I am better. The old weary feeling has gone; and I believe--yes, I believe that my prayer has been heard.'

"Poor little weary heart, that had been so tortured for my sake! It was long enough before I could calm her to the same belief as mine; but at last she sat there with her head resting on the pillow nearest mine, and she answered my questions about her journey to town with Hetty.

"`A nice house?' I said.

"`Yes; a large pretentious place in a new square.'

"`And the people?'

"`I only saw the mistress and children.'

"`Nice?'

"`Ye-es.'

"`Wife a little pompous, perhaps?'

"`Yes; I could not help thinking so,' she faltered.

"`And the children rude and disagreeable?' I said, smiling.

"`I'm--I'm afraid so,' she faltered.

"`Never mind, never mind,' I said cheerfully. `It shan't be for long, little woman. I shall never rest till I have a comfortable home for our darlings once again; and Hetty, G.o.d bless her! she has a way and disposition that must make every one love her. Mistress, children, servants, they will all love and respect her; so we must be patient for a while--only be patient.'

"These words frightened my poor wife again, but my calm quiet smiles rea.s.sured her; and that evening I eat up and had tea with those who were left--the two little ones--by the open window of my bedroom, and a sweet sense of calmness and content was over me, such as I had not known for many weary months.

"I was down in the garden the next morning before the sun was hot. I had always loved my bit of garden, and by the help of a hoe walked all round it, feeling a little sad to see how it had gone to ruin, but already making plans for the future.

"`Ah, Mr Hendrick!' said a cheery voice, and I recognised a neighbour with whom I had often ridden up to business of a morning; `glad to see you so much better.'

"`Thank you, I am much better,' I said, catching the extended hand, and feeling a warm glow at my heart in the friendly grasp.

"`By the way don't be offended,' he said, `but are you going to leave your house?'

"`I am thinking of doing so,' I said sadly.

"`I don't mean that,' he said hastily. `I mean for a month or six weeks. An old friend of mine, a country lawyer, wants a furnished residence for self and family for a time, handy to town, where he has a big railway case on. I thought, perhaps if you were going to the sea side for a bit--you know--he's well off--ask stiff rent, and that sort of thing--eh?--think it over.'

"`I--I will,' I said, gasping for breath; for this new piece of good fortune was almost too much for me.

"Suffice it that I promised to send him word, and the result was that, though it delayed my going for a few days, before the next week was over I was down in a pleasant cottage by the sea side, with not only enough for current expenses, but a good surplus coming from the rent of our own house, for my neighbour had secured for me a far higher sum than I should have asked; and there was no occasion to touch the fifty pounds, with which I cleared off all my debts.

"That was a calm and delicious time, when with the sweet sense of returning strength I lay upon the sands, drawing in the iodine-laden sea-breeze, and seeming to feel a change day by day. We had the most cheerful letters from the girls and our boy, telling us of their success, and Hetty's were above all long and affectionate.

"But I was not satisfied; there seemed to me to be a forced gaiety about Hetty's letters that troubled me, and I could not think them real, for it seemed to me as if she wrote these notes solely for the sake of making me cheerful, and they had the opposite result. In fact, I would at that time far rather have heard that she was uncomfortable, and longing for the time when she might return home.

"Meanwhile, as the weeks slipped by, I grew so well that I felt almost like my former self; and had anything been wanting to complete my cure, it was a visit from a former partner of the firm I had served. He had left them years before to commence business for himself, and had thriven so that his establishment was as large as that from which he had split.

"We had always been on civil terms, but I never thought he had noticed me. Now, however, on finding out that I was disengaged, he came to me with a most brilliant offer--at least it seemed so to me then.

"`I always longed to have your clear head to depend on,' he said, `but, of course, honour forbade any negotiations while you were with the old firm. Now you are free, I shall be very glad if you will join me.'

"`I'm afraid my clear head has gone for ever,' I said sadly.

"`Pooh, nonsense, man!' he said, laughing. `You've had a nasty attack, but that's all gone, and you'll be your own man in another week. Come, say the word, you'll join me, and I won't make promises, but come to me and let me feel that I've always somebody at the house that I can trust and depend on while I'm away, and perhaps some day we'll talk about a junior partnership.'

"I could not thank him, but I gave him my hand, and he left me, evidently congratulating himself on having done a good stroke of business; while I--I felt as if I could never atone for my repinings under affliction.

"But my great trouble was to come.

"We were sitting at breakfast the next morning, talking about how it would be quite unnecessary now to give up the house, when a letter came.

"It was a strange hand, from London, and somehow with a sense of impending evil I began slowly turning it over, and telling my wife that it had been down to the old house, and re-directed here, so that it was over a day old.

"At last I opened it, read it, and it dropped from my hands.

"I caught it up again though, the next moment, and read it out to my wife. It was as follows:--

"`50, Woodmount Square.'

"`Wednesday.'

"`Sir,--It is an unpleasant task, but as I have had your daughter living beneath my roof, I feel it to be my duty to inform you that two days ago she left here in a clandestine manner, and has not thought proper to return. It is, of course, a very painful admission to make, especially to her father, but as it is a duty, I do not shrink therefrom. Your daughter's conduct has given Mrs Saint Ray great cause for anxiety from the first, as it has been flighty, and not at all lady-like. We should very shortly have dismissed her, as we do not approve of gentlemen visiting the instructress of our children.

As she has, however, taken this step, I have no more to say, and feeling that I have done my duty,'