Darkyn - If Angels Burn Part 22

"Do you know her blood type? Can you give her a transfusion?" He blinked at her. "I thought not. Put her back down and get Cyprien up here right now. Marcel, I'll have to talk to Jamys later." "Doctor, you cannot," Marcel told her, and showed her why.

Chapter Sixteen.

Michael could not understand how Heather had been used twice by one of the Kyn. "Heather was brought to nurse Thierry. She only had one time, with Phillipe, when she first came here."

"Wrong. She was tapped twice today." Alex checked the bag of whole blood hanging from the pole beside Heather's bed. The nurse was still pale but had fallen asleep. "Whoever it was also had s.e.x with her. There's s.e.m.e.n all over her panties."

"What?"

"You heard me." She walked out of the room.

Michael rubbed a hand over his face. "Who could have done this?"

"Not one of us." Phillipe came to look down at Heather. "The jardin follow your laws. They would not use any human under your roof for s.e.x without permission, and they would never take blood twice in one day. To do either would be..."

A deadly insult as well as a risk of rapture and thrall. Michael went over and carefully sniffed the wound site. The scent of jasmine was unmistakable. "Lucan."

Phillipe used the handheld radio he carried to alert the staff and have the men search the house. "If he is still here, we will find him." He glanced at the ceiling. "Alexandra was very angry."

"She believes that you or I did this." No wonder she had walked out on him. "Stay with Heather. Don't leave her alone until the house has been completely checked."

Michael went upstairs, retrieved a canister and two gla.s.ses, and then let himself into Alexandra's room. It was empty, but he heard the sound of the shower, and sat down to wait.

She didn't look at him when she emerged from the bath. She had wrapped herself in a large, dark green towel, and her wet hair streamed in dripping curls over her shoulders.

"Get out," she told him as she went to the closet. She didn't touch the clothes he'd provided for her but took out the suit she'd been wearing before her shower.

He saw the towel gape and expose a smooth stretch of thigh. Instantly he wanted to run his hand over it, feel the firmness. He remembered how the insides of her thighs felt, against his hips. "I know you're upset with me."

"Oh, I'm way past upset. I'm cruising right around fully homicidal." Alex marched back into the bathroom and slammed the door.

Michael filled the gla.s.ses while she dressed and tried not to think about her thighs.

"Why are you still here?" Alex demanded when she emerged, fully dressed. Her gaze fell on the gla.s.ses. "I told you, I don't drink blood."

"It will calm you." He waited a minute, then sighed and set the gla.s.ses aside. "Very well, I apologize again. I did not mean to offend you. We must talk, Alexandra."

"Why, did you run out of nurses to hypnotize and a.s.sault?"

No one would dare speak to him with such scathing sarcasm, nor had anyone. Not in seven centuries. He did not know how to respond to it. "I did not do this to Heather, and neither did Phillipe."

She went over to the window and kept her back to him. "How many people have you killed over the years, Cyprien?"

The abrupt shift in subject caught him off guard. "I never counted."

"No, I guess the master wouldn't." She made a contemptuous sound. "What about the Durands? You figure, four vampires, they've probably wiped out the equivalent of a small city by now, right?"

"We don't kill humans anymore." Did she think him completely devoid of emotion? He walked up behind her and put his hands on her shoulders. "We did not hurt Heather. We would not. I promise you this."

She turned around and looked up at him. "I was human. You hurt me. You tried to kill me."

"Yes, I did." In that moment, Michael would have sold his soul to take back what he had done to her. "But I did not touch Heather."

She seemed to relax then, and even bent forward a little until her forehead rested against his shoulder. She always fought him so valiantly that to see her like this was like taking an arrow through his side. Alexandra, when will you trust me, and permit me to trust you?

"Will you give her four million dollars?"

He touched her hair, stroking his hand over the back of her head. "If you want me to, I will."

"You can make people forget things, Cyprien, but you can't buy forgiveness."

"I know." He hated the truth of that, and didn't say anything for a long time. "If it were in my power to take back what happened to Heather, or make you human again, Alexandra, I would. Please believe that. But I cannot."

She gave him a wry look. "So the master isn't all-powerful. Good to know."

Michael didn't make the mistake of lowering his guard. As much as he wished he could trust her, and bring her fully into his world, there was still much more to settle.

"I did not intend to impose myself on your life again"-that was a flat lie-"but it is for the Durands. They are your people, your Kyn, and they need you desperately now." As he did, Michael realized. She had created a s.p.a.ce in his carefully planned world for herself, and he was beginning to see that no one and nothing else would fill it.

"I made my peace with this, you know?" She toyed with a b.u.t.ton on his shirt. "I made up my mind; I wouldn't practice medicine anymore. I figured if I stuck to needle transfusions and did some research, tried to figure out what this thing is, that would be enough. If things got unbearable, I could even end it."

He took in a sharp breath. Hearing her speak so casually of suicide wounded him deeply, for he was responsible for driving her to such bleak thoughts. At the same time, it made him furious. She was his blood, his sygkenis, and he would not let her go.

Michael almost told her that, until he felt her shuddering against him. No, he would not shake her or shout at her.

Not when she was weeping in his arms.

"Now you bring me here and show me these people and say, 'Hey, Alex, be a doctor again, but this time, fix the monsters.' " Sun-gilded tears spilled down her cheeks. "Only the monsters look like people."

He pressed her head against his chest, so that her cheek covered his heart. "We are not monsters, cherie. We could be, if things do not change for us, but we don't have to be. We have learned to dwell among humans. We don't kill for what we need from them."

"Someone used Heather and nearly killed her. You're the master, so you can punish whoever did it, right?"

He thought of Lucan's mocking smile. "When I find him, I will see to it that he never does it again."

"What about these fanatics who tortured the Durands?"

She still knew so little about the Brethren. "We have fought them since the first Kyn rose." Michael lifted her chin and brushed the damp hair back from her face. "I will tell you about them, and us, tonight."

"Do you know what they did to Jamys?" He shook his head. "They crushed all of his fingers, and whipped his back down to the bone. But that wasn't enough." She swallowed. "They tore out that boy's tongue, Cyprien. They took a pair of tongs-like they were pulling a d.a.m.n nail out of a tire-and ripped it out whole." She used the heel of her hand against her eyes. "I don't like priests, but they couldn't do this, not even if they gave up everything they once believed in."

"They are not holy men, Alexandra."

"What did you do to them? Did you kill a bunch of their friends? Burn down one of their churches?" she demanded. "What is this curse you keep talking about? Is that why they do it?"

"The Darkyn-all of us-died as humans, and then rose again to live immortal lives. Very few things can hurt us, and hardly anything can kill us. G.o.d cursed us for our sins, and condemned us to walk the earth as demons, feeding off the blood of the living." She frowned. "And G.o.d told you this."

"No." How did he explain what had always been? "There is no other explanation, Alexandra. We-all of us-lived in dark times. Our human lives were violent and reprehensible. What else could we be but d.a.m.ned for our sins?"

"Okay, so how do you explain me?" At his blank look, she added, "In case you haven't noticed, I'm a surgeon who lives in a pretty enlightened time. I help people. I'm not perfect, but I've never been violent and I'm only occasionally reprehensible. So why do I get the curse? As an even trade for not having my period anymore?"

Period? Michael shook his head. "I don't know. It is one of the reasons I always questioned our origins. Many who we turned in the beginning were innocents, like you."

"I want you to consider making a big leap here," she said. "Maybe you're not cursed. Maybe you're just infected with something extraordinary. Say two or even three pathogens that together altered your physiology on the molecular level. Something that has made you evolve into another kind of human. If you carry that in your blood, then you can infect anyone. Genetics aren't my field, but you can find plenty to read about it at the library or on the Internet."

"I have Internet access," he a.s.sured her. "It is how I found you. Time dot com."

She ran a hand over her face. "Okay, so maybe the Internet isn't such a great idea. I'll need to use it, by the way.

I'm going to search Harvard's medical database and see if there's any sort of new reconstruction techniques that I can use for Thierry and Jamys."

Michael had not been Jamys's G.o.dfather-Thierry had given that honor to Gabriel-but he had stood in the church when the village priest had baptized the boy. He had watched him learn to walk, and then run. Jamys had always been full of life, even after his human death. "What can you do for him and the others?"

"Liliette's arm is fine. Marcel's eye can't be replaced, but I can straighten his foot and maybe get rid of his limp. I can fix Jamys's hands and back, but unless I can figure out how to rebuild his tongue, he'll never speak again. Thierry..."

She shook her head. "I don't know. I can try to repair his body, is all."

"Will you help them, Alexandra?"

Her expression became resentful. "You knew if I saw them, if I examined their injuries and found out how much pain they were in, I would."

"You are under no obligation to me or the Durands." Not precisely the truth, but if she stayed, Michael wanted it to be of her own volition. Unwilling, Alexandra could prove dangerous to herself and the Kyn. "You can leave at any time. You owe me nothing."

"If I do, then you'll want me to stay. Be this sygkenis thing you keep saying. What does that mean? I have to stalk blood donors?"

"Ah, no." He cleared his throat. "We see to our own needs, as you do."

"Yeah, when you're not getting the c.r.a.p beaten out of you." She grimaced. "What do you people do besides that?"

Michael smiled. She still had no idea of what it meant, to be Kyn. She thought it all bloodletting and pain and torture. "Why don't I show you?"

A week after Brother Taca.s.si tried to smother him with a pillow, John Keller was sent from Rome back to Chicago.

He did not talk to anyone on the plane, and was so silent at customs that a gate guard pulled him into a private room where the police searched him for contraband.

"Sorry about this, Father," one of the officers said as he handed John his shirt. "Next time, just answer the questions you're asked and no one will think you're running drugs." He glanced at the mottled bruises and sc.r.a.pes on John's torso. "Somebody jump you over in Italy?"

John looked down at himself and saw the long, thin sc.r.a.pes that ran over the old injuries. He wondered what the cop would say if he told him he was pretty sure that he had, in fact, killed a vampire and raped a woman.

It was all a dream, John.

"Yes. I was mugged."

He had not believed it a dream at first. When John had finally shaken off the drugs, he demanded to see Cardinal Stoss. The cardinal came to his room, and heard John's confession. He then astonished John by a.s.suring him that Taca.s.si's attack and the sick, twisted aftermath was but a terrible reaction to the mental and physical stress of his training and some painkillers he had been given.

"The doctor warned us that you might have hallucinations, Brother Keller."

"I saw Taca.s.si being garroted," John insisted flatly, "and I raped Sister Gelina."

Stoss drew back. "Who is this Sister Gelina?"

"My nurse."

The cardinal summoned the monk who had brought the breakfast tray, and consulted with him before turning to John again. "Forgive me, I wanted to be sure of this. We do not allow women in La Lucemaria, Brother Keller, and according to my staff, no female has been permitted to visit you. Only the brothers have been attending to your care."

John gave the cardinal a complete description of the nurse, down to the palm-size birthmark on her left thigh.

"Dear Brother Keller, I can now a.s.sure you with the utmost confidence that there is no such woman here. I would have noticed her." Stoss's chuckle dissolved into a sympathetic look. "The self-denial involved in training can play tricks on the mind, as can facing an evil such as the demons we battle. You must put this aside now, for you will be leaving in a few days for America."

John had even accepted what the cardinal claimed for a few hours, until he had gone to wash himself and found the long, painful streaks across his chest. The traces of dried s.e.m.e.n under his foreskin. All of that could be explained away-he had torn at himself with his own fingernails, and e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed in his sleep-but there was some last, d.a.m.ning evidence. He found crescent-shaped cuts on his shaft, along with several short sc.r.a.pes. The cuts and sc.r.a.pes were almost identical to the ones the girl in Rio had left on him, so he knew precisely what they were.

Fingernail marks. Teeth marks.

One of the deacons from St. Luke's picked John up at the airport and drove him to the rectory. He was a friendly man who droned on and on about raising orchids, his personal hobby, so John wasn't required to make much conversation. He knew who was waiting for him at the rectory.

"Your Grace." John sank down on one knee and kissed August Hightower's ring.

"I took the liberty of sending Mrs. Murphy home for the day," Hightower said. "Sit, sit." He poured a cup of tea and handed it to John. "First and foremost, congratulations on your success in Rome. I am proud to have you in our order."

"I will not be for long." John's eyes burned as he held the tea in numb hands. "I have to turn myself in to the police. I have committed sins, terrible crimes. Cardinal Stoss believes I imagined them, but I have proof." He bowed his head. "I would confess to you now, Your Grace, before I go to the authorities."

Hightower's smile vanished, and he murmured a short Latin prayer. "Very well, my son. Tell me everything."

It poured out of him: the training, the deprivation, the horror of killing the vampire. The temptation of Sister Gelina, the murder attempt by Taca.s.si. Being attacked by a woman who had appeared both as Sister Gelina and the young wh.o.r.e from Rio. The release of rage, the brutal rape. Even the pleasure he had taken in the act. By the time John was finished confessing, his voice had become a tight, whispery thread.

"You have these marks on your body now?" Hightower asked.

Would he have to show the bishop? That would be the final humiliation. Here, Your Grace, check out the bite marks on my p.e.n.i.s. "Yes."

"That is proof enough for me and G.o.d, John." Hightower templed his fingers. "But if I may make a suggestion, if this was not a delusion brought on by stress and drugs, then I believe you were the one who was raped."

John flinched. His elbow caught the cup of tea he had put down, and knocked it to the floor. The cup shattered and lukewarm liquid splashed the cuffs of his pants.

"A man cannot be raped." Was that his voice, growling like a dog's?

"Go to any prison in America, and you will find that is not true." Hightower put his hand on John's shoulder.

"You told me that this woman came to you. She drugged you. She mounted you like you were a mindless animal. She hurt you. She intended to force you into her body. Have you considered that what you did to her was a form of self- defense? Did you not strike back in such ways when you and Alexandra were homeless?" "I was a boy then." He closed his eyes, thinking of the prost.i.tutes he had watched, the alleyway s.e.x he had listened to. The needs that had disgusted and shamed him to his core. "I am a priest now."

"I can enter into a debate about whether those states are mutually exclusive or not," the bishop told him, "but that will not settle this. Come now, tell me, what causes you the most consternation? Killing a monster, or forcing yourself on a woman?"