Borderline: A Novel Part 22

As soon as the words were out of her mouth she realized Gerry had not been listening in on her thoughts and then questioning her about them. She was referring to whether Anna would speak of the old case when it was reenacted years later.

"Yes," Anna said. "Sorry. My mind has been wandering of late."

"Ahh," Gerry said knowingly. "The Change." She said the phrase the way Rod Serling used to say "The Twilight Zone."

"Jeez," Anna said. That was all she needed at the moment. "I'm not even fifty."

Gerry looked at her over the top of her leopard-print half-gla.s.ses, one eyebrow lifted high. "But I expect you have always been precocious, haven't you?"

TWENTY-EIGHT.

The itching under Darden's armor was getting worse. If he could have peeled off the skin of humanity and left it lying in the dirt, he would have. Over breakfast, the way Judith was, the women discussing the corpse in the strainer, the baby, all of it grated against the speculations he'd been avoiding. Judith was different. She'd changed, and recently. Since they'd come to this G.o.dforsaken waste-land of gray rubble the state was so proud of. Even as a girl she'd been a creature of extremes, and she had grown into a woman who seemed capable of molding those extremes into visions, of holding opposites within her whose opposing natures would have destroyed a lesser woman: fragile and unbreakable, wise as a crone and innocent as an eight-year-old child, mean as a snake and capable of great kindness.

Stomping down the uneven natural stone steps that led from the lodge to the parking lot below, Darden startled a herd of deer no bigger than Great Danes and they scattered onto the pavement, their tiny hooves making a faint clipping sound.

Darden never saw them. He was looking for the city SUV his security men were driving. Where in the h.e.l.l were i="1Kevin and Gordon? Automatically he reached for his cell then stopped, snorting his displeasure like an old and angry bull. Why did anybody live in these primitive places? Cell phones were useless. Nothing to look at but snakes and spiny plants that would kill a man as soon as feed him.

And Judith hissing that Charles would never have kids, that he would never marry his girlfriend. Not saying it the way any woman would but spitting it like a curse or a promise. A line had been crossed and he hadn't been paying attention at the time. Probably lost in one of his furry old-man dreams. d.a.m.n it!

His little mayor had that look that said she'd crossed a personal Rubicon and there was no going back for her. Darden had seen the change before a couple of times. Once when an agent he was working with had made the decision to kill his wife and himself because she was running around. They'd been on a.s.signment together, Darden remembered. Out of the country for two weeks while the president made the rounds of the Middle East, for all the good it did. Terry, the guy's name had been Terry, Terrance Clark or Parks, a short name full of barking. They'd been standing around doing what they were paid to do, looking for trouble, and Terry had been out of it, not paying attention, caught up in whatever he was playing in his head. Then his face firmed, a sucking in like skin being shrink-wrapped to bone but subtle, a thousand tiny muscles and sinews tightening up a fraction. Terry had changed himself with the decision, Darden was sure of it. From that minute on he'd been a little different. He said things that didn't make sense until after he committed the murder-suicide, cryptic comments about his wife doing or not doing a thing again, about what he would or wouldn't need in a couple weeks. Little things that n.o.body commented on. They were just weird. Off.

Judith was weird and off. The fixation on the baby. She'd been upset when he'd told her on the way to breakfast that Anna didn't have the kid with her.

Her and Charles and kids and divorce, that had to be it. The worm turns and Judith falls apart. Darden had never asked her but he knew she never thought Charles would leave her. Never. She was aware on whatever level she allowed herself to be that he had had a couple of affairs. She didn't like it but they hadn't seemed to worry her, not in the sense that she felt she was losing her husband to another woman. For a man like Darden it was hard to see how a woman, especially a woman like Judith, who could have pretty much any man she wanted, could love a man at the same time she believed him to be such an utter coward that he'd never get up the gumption to walk out of a marriage he hated.

Well, now he had. Was that enough to bring the whole house of cards she'd so painstakingly erected down around her ears?

He caught himself fumbling for his cell again. He wanted to make a G.o.dd.a.m.n phone call. Was that too much to ask?

Wanting to give Judith time to get herself together, they'd walked down from the cabins to the dining hall, not more than a few hundred yards, but Darden wished they'd driven. Too ornery and set in his ways to listen to the voice of reason, he'd brought his usual shoes, black leather lace-ups with leather soles. He hadn't been standing long enough for his feet to hurt, but the leather clapped against the asphalt with each step. The racket jarred him. A fat sqod hsoluirrel, dun-colored with a white stomach that hadn't gotten so round gathering nuts, sat on a flat-topped rock at the side of the lane. It sat up and pressed a paw to its white chest and chittered at him as he neared it.

"What are you looking at?" he snarled. The creature dropped to all fours, twitched its tail, and vanished off the far side of the stone. No phone, no television and glamour rats mocking the paying guests, Darden thought.

The itching was killing him. Where the h.e.l.l was Gordon?

A car was coming up behind him too fast. Needing to have a place to put his anger, Darden swung around to glare at the driver.

"About d.a.m.n time," Darden muttered, and pointedly looked at his watch. They weren't late; in fact they'd turned the job around in record time. Darden wasn't appeased. He would have liked to have an excuse to ream somebody out.

Gordon let down the window.

"Hey, boss."

"Meet me at my cabin," Darden snapped, leaving his subordinate wondering what he'd done to deserve it.

It crossed his mind to ask for a ride the rest of the way, or pull Gordon out through the side window, Eastwood style, and drive the last forty yards himself, but he did neither. The first was embarra.s.sing, the second was no longer possible, maybe never had been possible, only a trick for stuntmen and actors.

Standing close to attention, Gordon and Kevin were waiting outside his room. Thin cool air and a hot desert sun at high alt.i.tude left Darden feeling overheated and chilled. He was also out of breath but he would die before he'd puff and pant in front of these two.

"Kevin, the mayor wants to see you," Darden said.

"Where is she?" Kevin asked.

"How the h.e.l.l do I know? Find her. There's only about three places she can be in this h.e.l.lhole." Darden was being unfair but that was the breaks. He didn't want to see Kevin's face for a while. Didn't want to hear his voice or smell his aftershave.

"Come on in," he said more kindly to Gordon. Now that relief was in sight he could afford to slow down and be civil. Sitting in one of the straight-backed wooden chairs, he gestured Gordon to take the other. When the man was settled, Darden said: "Tell me what you found."

"Lajitas Resort is quite a setup. I sure wouldn't mind being shunted off to cool my heels there for a week. All the bells and whistles. It must be setting the mayor back four hundred a night easy. That's if our friend leaves the minibar alone."

Darden knew it was a luxury resort. That's why he'd picked it. That and it was close. He would have preferred to set the woman up in a five-star hotel in Tai Pei or Queensland but she wouldn't budge farther tobudpichan Lajitas.

Gordon seemed to be enjoying sitting inside with the boss but Darden didn't have the patience to let him come to the news in his own time. As he was about to ask, he realized he was scared; he was afraid the answer would not be the one he wanted.

Ashamed of the weakness, Darden spat it out: "And Miss Emerson, is she doing okay there?"

"I guess," Gordon said. "She hasn't checked out or anything. I went up and knocked on the door to her room but she was out by one of the pools. Kevin was walking the grounds and saw her. He said she acted happy enough, like she was going to stay put for a couple more days. He said she got snippy when he asked if she'd gotten in touch with Charles but other than that she seemed to be going along with the game plan."

Relief hit Darden like two scotches on an empty stomach, he was so giddy with it. Miss Emerson was alive and well and had apparently kept her promise and not called Charles or accepted any calls from him. Otherwise the fool wouldn't be walking around punching numbers on his phone and scowling.

"Great," Darden said, and laughed. "Good work. That's just great."

"Thanks," Gordon said. Puzzlement shivered down one side of his face but he wasn't stupid enough to look a gift horse in the mouth. If the boss wanted to commend him for driving to a fancy resort to see a woman and back again, he would take it and be glad.

That made Darden laugh as well. Giddy.

"Why don't you take the rest of the day off, Gordon? The mayor is . . . occupied. I doubt she'll need you this afternoon." The specter of Judith parading Kevin in front of Charles in an attempt at revenge or to spark jealousy flitted darkly through his mind. Behavior like that anywhere was a huge no-no for female politicians. Doing it anywhere within a ten-mile radius of Gerry Schneider was political suicide.

"If you see Kevin, tell him to take the day off, too, go hiking." Hiking very far away, Darden thought.

"Will do, boss. Thanks."

Gordon rose gracefully from the hard n.i.g.g.ardly chair. He'd shown no emotion at the mention of Judith being occupied, though Darden had put it in such a way that he could have read a lot into it, and he hadn't smirked when Darden had suggested he tell Kevin to go take a hike, literally as well as figuratively. Maybe things hadn't gone as far as he'd thought. If Judith was having a fling with her security guard, the other guard was seemingly unaware of it. There was hope for discretion and therefore avoidance of detection.

If they stayed clear of Gerry.

TWENTY-NINE.

Anna and Gerry spent a fruitless hour or two trying to track down Martinez's connection-and Anna was positive there was one-with Gabriela, the woman who drowneo>nnd trying to cross the border eight months after 9/11.

They learned a lot about Freddy Martinez. His continuing agitation to reopen the border between the park and Mexico had landed him in the news several times, cost him promotions and nearly gotten him fired more than once. His mother and father were Mexican, from the village of Boquillas, just over the river from Rio Grande Village in Big Bend. Freddy's mother made the crossing when she was eight months pregnant and stayed with relatives in Alpine, a college town in the mountains that formed the spine of west Texas, so her son would be born on American soil.

Freddy was raised on the border, one foot in each of his countries. Summers were spent in Alpine with the great-aunt who had sheltered his mom during the last month of her pregnancy, winters in Boquillas. By the time he was eight he was ferrying tourists over the river to visit the village. Because he was bilingual he was much in demand. He saved enough to buy an ancient pickup truck, and at fourteen, he was taking tourists who wanted a more pristine wilderness to explore on camping trips in the Coahuilas.

At sixteen he went to live with his great-aunt to finish high school in the States. He went on to college at the university in Alpine and got a BS in forestry. His first job was as a boatman for a rafting outfitter in Terlingua. His second was as a GS-2 seasonal in Big Bend.

Though Martinez never mentioned the drowning incident, at least not in any way the press could get ahold of it, his border activism dated from the body recovery of Gabriela. In 2005 his mother died of a brain aneurism. His father was still living in Boquillas.

Blind to the beauty of the desert, greening with recent rains, flashing past the windows of the car, Anna turned this information over in her mind on the drive back to Terlingua. No great revelations came to her. The trials and tribulations of a river ranger, economically stranded villages and women fording rivers weren't things she wanted to dwell on but, with her own life in disarray, worrying about events that did not lead to the abyss was a bit of a vacation.

The closer she got to Terlingua the more her thoughts turned to Helena. The day away from infant care had been a relief. Returning to the baby was a greater relief. Anna wanted to see and hold her, make sure she was happy and fed, rea.s.sure herself that the spark of life she'd wrenched from the dead flesh of the woman in the river still burned brightly. Its tiny light was, in some incomprehensible way, able to penetrate the darkness that had bored the hole in her soul in a way Paul's love, her sister Molly's concern and even the beauty of the Chihuahuan desert could not.

Health and Human Services would take the baby and she would be put into the system. The only way around that was called "kidnapping," and Anna wasn't prepared for that battle. Even adoption would be a drawn-out process during which Helena would be in the hands of the state. Anna couldn't bring herself to think about what could happen if Helena was dropped into the system.

Anna sniffed and turned up the radio, tuned to a Tex-Mex station. It bothered her that she was carrying on with the stunted maternal instinct scenario. It wasn't as if the little creature was a kitten, for G.o.d's sake. Helena us sbotdidn't even have a tail or the good sense to chase a bit of string.

Two cars were parked in front of the Martinezes' idiosyncratic home. One was Lisa's Subaru. The other wasn't Freddy's truck and Anna wondered if he had been fired yet or if he was sitting in the superintendent's office being read the riot act for his political activities on park property. A horrible thought stabbed through the possible destruction of the Martinezes' livelihood; what if the second car belonged to who Anna thought of as the Evil They, who were going to take Helena and drop her into the meat grinder of foster care?

She pulled in crosswise behind the foreign vehicle so it could not be driven out except through the steel bones of the Honda. The trapped car didn't sport government license plates, but it could be a social worker's private car. Most state employees didn't rate government vehicles but charged mileage on their own when on state business. Anna locked the Honda then walked around the offending vehicle, wondering why she was acting paranoid. Wasn't it possible Lisa had friends? Might they not drop by? Family from Alpine? The Avon Lady? The babysitter? As she disparaged hersel for borderline behavior, her brain was collecting information: silve Chevy Malibu, current year, Texas plates, probably a rental, on th front seat a map of Texas, in the cup holders two thirty-two-ounc drinks in nondescript cups, the kind sold in gas station food store with on-tap sodas.

If these were any of the benign visitors she'd mocked hersel with, they had arrived from a distance in a rental vehicle.

"d.a.m.n," Anna whispered. During the drive from the park she'd been bracing herself for the reality of Helena's removal by authori ties. Now that it was very probably upon her, she wasn't ready for it In ways the "authorities" could wrap in red tape and choke on, Hel ena was hers; her mother had given her to Anna to care for with he dying breath. Though the woman had said only, "Take my baby, there was no doubt in Anna's mind that she was giving her unborn daughter into Anna's-and, probably, G.o.d's-hands. G.o.d might b busy stirring up typhoons or loading clouds with lightning, but Ann was not. Until G.o.d got through His "to do" list, Helena was Anna's.

At least this was what she told herself, in thoughts travelin through her brain at such high speeds they did not form int words but shot straight into her blood and cells, bones and muscl as she walked up the short gravel path to the front door of the Mar tinezes' home.

The door was open and, through the screen, Anna heard voices Stepping to the side where she would not be seen, she listened.

"Is the child in the house?" a woman asked. She had a sligh southern accent and a well-modulated voice in the lower register still Anna loathed her immediately and found the pleasant sound false and smarmy.

"She is with a friend," Lisa replied.

Good woman, Anna thought. Maybe it was true Helena was elsewhere, but she doubted it. If Lisa was home she would have the babies with her. The Martinezes didn't have the money to throw around for babysitters when Mom could do it.

mo3">"Where's this neighbor live?" asked a second voice, this one a man's, rougher around the edges and not as educated or politic as that of the woman. Anna liked his better; she didn't have to rationalize hating this one. Whether he sounded demanding or threatening or she was projecting her darkness on an innocent man, she didn't know. She didn't care either. Hating him was fun-or at least satisfying.

"Mrs. Martinez, I don't think you are being completely open with us," the woman came in smoothly before her male counterpart could say anything more. "Cooperating with us can only serve the client-"

Client, Anna sneered in her mind. This female was a heartless, bloodless, government wh.o.r.e who cared nothing for small and helpless beings. Hating her was getting much easier and Anna doubted it had anything to do with reality. Again she didn't care. Hate was a wonderful drug until, like every other wonderful drug, the high turned to acid and burned the addict out from the inside.

"From the reports, this infant is even more in need of expert medical intervention than most newborns. The manner of its birth was singularly traumatic."

Kind, rational. Anna hated her.

Infant. It. Anna really hated her.

As strong and good as Anna believed Lisa to be, she had a baby of her own to look after and a husband who could lose his job-if he hadn't taken care of that aspect of things already-if she refused to cooperate with state authorities. That coupled with the wretched b.i.t.c.h from the silver Malibu pretending to be a human being, Lisa might fold if the cavalry didn't come over the hill in the near future.

Making more noise than was absolutely necessary, Anna opened the screen and went in. Having made an entrance akin to that of Marshal Matt Dillon into Dodge City, or Wyatt Earp-some famous gunslinger with questionable ethics and a penchant for violence-Anna felt a bit silly to find three respectable grown-ups sitting around with cups of coffee on their laps.

"Hey," she said, letting the stunning anticlimax settle into her febrile imaginings.

"This is Anna Pigeon, the woman who saved Helena," Lisa said. She sounded relieved and Anna thought the gunslinger att.i.tude might not be such a bad idea after all. It occurred to her that she was spoiling for a fight. Not merely the exchange of heated words and insults but a donnybrook, a brawl, a bar fight John Wayne could be proud of. Since the graphic deaths on Isle Royale she had been running from violence, frightened that she had turned killer because others were frightened that she'd become a were-ranger and, once tasting human blood . . .

When had she gone from fleeing violence to embracing it?

Embracing it again?

Anna would think about that ugly possibility later, preferably in Paul's arms where she could believe she was a good person because he believed she was.

The two social workers stood. Both had on casual clothing but were neat and clean and conservative, she in dark blue slacks and a lime blouse with matching flats and earrings, her short dark hair waving around a pleasantly plump face that was between thirty-five and forty years old. He was in khakis, once pressed but now the crease ballooned out at the knees from hours in a car, a short-sleeved white shirt and a dark red tie. Short-sleeved shirts with neckties were as cheesy as pocket protectors and much less practical. He looked as if he had worn pocket protectors well into his twenties. An overgrown nerd who had discovered the gym and thought it would turn his life around. Or so Anna thought until the light from behind her was deflected from the lenses of the dark-rimmed gla.s.ses he wore.

He didn't have a cold steely gaze but there was a wariness Anna found too sharp for the job he was presently doing, an edginess that suggested he watched for a.s.sailants with deadly weapons more regularly than babies with rattles.

Taking children from their mothers might easily result in the deadly weapons scenario, so perhaps he wasn't so much an oddball as a bodyguard.

An enormous cat Anna had not met the night before, its long white fur weirdly mottled as if a white cat had been standing nearby when a bottle of India ink was shattered, was stretched out nearly the length of the sofa back watching the goings-on through slitted blue-green eyes.

The woman in the lime and navy stuck out her hand and smiled. "I'm Nancy Roland from the child-care division of Health and Human Services out of Midland."

Perfunctorily Anna shook the proffered hand. Ms. Roland's grip was firm and her skin pleasantly cool to the touch. This did not affect Anna's dislike of her one whit.

"Charmed, I'm sure," Anna said drily.

Nancy c.o.c.ked her head, her smile glued in place, as if a fish had flapped its tail in her face, and emotion flickered behind her irises. Pure meanness, Anna thought.

"This is Manny Rhoades, he's new to the office and has come along to observe." Manny didn't offer his hand and Anna didn't offer hers.

"Observe what?" Anna asked with all the innocence of a cougar who had eaten Shirley Temple for lunch.

Ms. Roland allowed herself an audible sigh and a sidelong glance at her compatriot.

"Would you like some coffee, Anna?" Lisa asked.

"That would be great," Anna replied. Once clear of the living room, Lisa turned down the hall to the back of the West Wing. Edgar and Helena were probably napping in the crib off the master bedroom.

"Why don't we sit down?" Anna invited politely to keep Roland's and Rhoades's attention away from where Lisa went or how long she stayed there.

Tufon awhe two social workers returned their b.u.t.ts to the wildly colored Mexican blanket Lisa used to decorate the couch. The navy polyester stretched over Roland's ample behind was liberally salted with white fur. Anna nodded at the cat in brief salute. Slowly the cat closed its eyes, acknowledging the tribute.

Anna walked around the coffee table and sat in the chair Lisa had vacated. There were others but she wanted Lisa's absence to go unnoticed to a certain extent. The best way to do that was to fill the physical s.p.a.ce she had occupied so the visuals did not change.

"Long commute?" she asked pleasantly.

"Not bad," Nancy said at the same time Manny said: "You can't get here from anywhere." Nancy shot her apprentice babys.n.a.t.c.her a cold look, which glanced off him without leaving a mark. Either he was indifferent to his boss's opinion or she wasn't his boss.

Nancy scooted forward on the sofa, a move designed to suggest the mood was now to be more intimate. Behind her the cat opened its eyes the barest fraction and Anna smiled. White fur would be bunching up in rolls beneath the woman's b.u.t.tocks. A small thing, really, but enjoyable for her and the cat.