Bitter Is The New Black Part 20

"I know you're tired, but we've got an appointment. You have to get in the shower. Let's move it." I yank the comforter off him.

He wraps the sheet over his head. "Nooo. Too sleepy. Want to snooze."

I'm getting aggravated. I've been up for four hours looking for jobs, walking dogs, cleaning the house, and making breakfast. "Sweetie, come on. You have to get out of bed. You've snoozed about ten times already this morning. We have less than a month to find a place, and we need to be on time for this appointment, so please get up." I tear the sheet away, and he curls into a tight ball.

"Shh, sleepy. Go 'way."

Sometimes I need to be gentle with Fletch. And sometimes he needs a bit tougher love. "GET YOUR DEAD a.s.s OUT OF THIS BED RIGHT NOW!"

That seems to do the trick. He scrambles out of his flannel pajamas and into the bathroom.

While Fletch showers, I make him a fresh pot of coffee.137 I print out some promising real estate listings from the brokers' Web site, find my Mont Blanc pen, and start to fill in the rental application.

Name. Easy enough. Date of birth, social security number, current address... done. Current rent. I fill in the dollar amount and stare at it for a minute. Wow, that's a lot of money. A LOT. How did I ever agree to pay this much a month to live in a place that I don't even own? I could have taken a year's rent and bought a brand-new, fully loaded Lexus. It seems sort of surreal that Fletch and I routinely sh.e.l.led out this much cash without a second thought.

I run my hand over the smooth, cool granite countertop in my gourmet kitchen, wondering if it was worth it. Then I remember when Shayla and Chris came over for the first time. Although it was winter, it was a particularly warm night, so we decided to use the roof deck. We set it up with comfy chairs and coffee drinks and put Sinatra on the stereo. Right as they stepped onto the deck to take in the incredible skyline vista for the first time, as if on cue, ol' Francis Albert began singing "My Kind of Town." It was like a scene from a Meg Ryan movie, and at that moment, I thought my heart would burst with pride.

I'm misty at the memory, so I continue with the application. Length of residency. Three years. Landlord's name and phone number. Another easy question...that's Pammie Kozul at 1-800-SHE-SUCKS. Nope, I'm not bitter about Pammie keeping $2000 out of our security deposit because I "destroyed that beautiful wallpaper in the bathroom," even though any judge in the world would consider its removal a mercy killing. But it would cost more to fight her than we'd recoup, so it's not worth it.138 And finally, I get to the employment section.

Uh-oh.

Landlords are going to expect one of us to have a job, aren't they? Shoot. What I am going to fill in for this part? Maybe if our credit were still perfect, I could be honest, but we no longer have that luxury. We will have rent money because we've held on to most of Fletch's severance, plus we have his unemployment checks, but we can't put that on the form. We'd be better off saying we're drug dealers-at least that's a growth industry.

I really hate to stretch the truth, but what other choice do I have? After much deliberation, I say that Fletch is a self-employed consultant. Technically, Chris did call last week with a question about a router, and to thank us, he took us out for drinks, so that's a form of compensation, right? And Fletch has talked about doing consulting-it's just that no one's hired him to do it yet. So it's not really lying when I provide large numbers in the Salary line-it's a prediction.

When I get to the part where I have to detail my own employment situation, I say that I'm a freelancer-free being the key word here. I mean, I do spend a lot of time posting my most trenchant thoughts on my Web site, and I already have a small fan base. At some point, it could turn into a moneymaking enterprise, although I presently have no idea how.

Besides, I've earned the right to call myself a writer because this rental application is a tremendous work of fiction.

We meet our apartment broker, Brandon, in his office, which looks like the bas.e.m.e.nt of a run-down fraternity house. The desks are of the plywood and sawhorse variety and the couches are circa 1962. I can practically feel my shoes sticking to what should be beer-soaked floors. Brandon matches his surroundings perfectly, from his three-day stubble to his filthy U of I sweatshirt. Melissa says she and her fiance found a condo-quality apartment through these guys, but I'm a little wary. I'd expect this guy to slip a roofie in my c.o.c.ktail, not to find me a cute but cheap living s.p.a.ce.

Since the burden of maintaining our application's lies falls on me, I do the talking. "Brandon, it's been a few years since we've looked for a place, and we have no idea how far our money will go. Like anyone else, we want the most apartment for our dollar but there are some basic amenities we need."

"What specifically?" Brandon leans forward and cups his chin in both of his hands.

"We absolutely have to have a dishwasher and air-conditioning, or we'll get divorced," I reply.

"She doesn't deal well with hot or dirty," Fletch adds helpfully.

I whip out my typewritten list. "We need two bedrooms, if not three, and at least one and a half baths. Plus, it has to have a tub. Jacuzzi would be nice, but not absolutely necessary. We also like exposed brick walls, skylights, stainless appliances, granite counters, gla.s.s block windows, and hardwood floors. What else?" I flip to the next page. "Oh, yes, it's got to be safe to walk the dogs in the neighborhood-naturally we'll need a landlord who accepts pets-and we have to have a deck or a patio, preferably with a southern exposure. A duplex apartment would be nice, but we also like town houses, coach houses, and lofts. And if you could find all of this for a thousand dollars or less in a good neighborhood, that would be ideal."

"Lemme see if I've got this straight. You want amenities, safety, and affordability?"

"Exactly!" Maybe Melissa was right-this guy does know what he's doing.

"Easy enough. Pick two."

"Well, that was a bust." I'm totally discouraged. All the apartments in good neighborhoods in our price range are either tiny or decrepit.

"I didn't think that one off of Western Avenue looked so bad. What was wrong with it?" Fletch asks. "It had a yard."

"Yeah, but it was right next to that business that stores all those gas canisters. If somehow we managed to not get exploded, we'd still hear those workmen loading up their trucks all day. Clang! Clang! Clang! No dice."

"I liked the artists' lofts on Paulina. What was the problem there?"

"Exactly what would we do with a twenty-five-foot-long, sloping concrete ramp in the middle of the apartment? You know we'd get a couple of beers in us and try to race our office chairs down it, and boom! Broken Wrist City. Considering neither of us has health insurance now, it seems like a bad idea. Plus the bathroom was grody."

"How about that one off of Fullerton? The one with no closets?"

"You can't seriously be considering it. IT HAD NO CLOSETS. How do you build an apartment without a closet? Where do you stow your vacuum? Where would your coats live?"

"Yes, I'm kidding. The Silence of the Lambs trapdoor in the pantry was a deal breaker for me."

"What did that door lead to? I was too scared to look."

"I don't know, but it was dark, dirty, and full of spiders."

I shudder. "No, thanks. But, really, what are we going to do? We have to be out of here by the end of the month, and we need to schedule movers. We should probably know where we're moving first."

"Well, it might make things a bit tight, but other than moving to the suburbs-"

"Perish the thought."

"I'm with you on that. We don't have a lot of options at the $1000 price point. Let's up our search to $1200 per month and see what Brandon can do for us in Bucktown," Fletch suggests.

Nothing.

Brandon could do nothing for us at that price, nor at $1400. Plus, he's lost his gas cap since the last time he drove us around and is now using a sock to plug the hole. He's turned his car into a giant Molotov c.o.c.ktail. I'm sitting in the backseat, huffing gas fumes, while Fletch and Brandon figure out our next steps. In my gasoline-induced high, I hear myself agreeing to see apartments off the beaten path for $1600 a month. There's no way we can pay that much until one of us starts working, but everything's so pretty and floaty right now that I find myself saying yes. I inhale deeply and smile.

We pull up to a c.r.a.ptacular crumbling limestone building on the unfashionable end of Ohio. "Blech," I say. "Hate the 'hood, hate the building. Next."

"Jen," Brandon pleads, "just give it a shot. Sometimes these places are nicer on the inside than you'd think."

Fletch shoots me a warning look. We've seen about thirty apartments so far, and I've found something wrong with each of them. The problem is that none of them are the Dot-Com Palace. I want to stay in my home and I hate that we can't afford it anymore.

"Fine." I trudge along behind them, kicking up small sprays of snow with my boot. "But I guarantee you, I won't like it."

We climb the freshly painted staircase, and Brandon works the double locks. He opens the door to a s.p.a.cious apartment with brand-new hardwood floors, a gourmet kitchen with granite counters, stainless steel appliances, and cherry cabinets. The kitchen is huge and modern with a gorgeous breakfast bar. Opposite the kitchen is a living room flanked with a marble fireplace, an ornate mantelpiece, and recessed, backlit shelving. The room has exposed brick walls and is at least three times the size of what we have now. "Is this the same place?" I ask, wondering if the gas fumes made me lose a chunk of time.

"It sure is." Brandon beams. This is the most positive reaction he's gotten out of me so far.

We check out the first bedroom, and it's s.p.a.cious and bright with a walk-in closet. Nice. Attached is a spankin' new bath decked out in sandy limestone tiles and gla.s.s block. Correction, very nice. "And you're sure this is only $1600 and they take dogs?"

Neither Brandon nor Fletch hears me. They're in the back room, which is the master suite. I join them, and when I notice the south wall, my jaw drops. One-third of the room is covered in dreamy aquamarine marble with sparkly blue-gold veins. Centered against the wall is the biggest Jacuzzi bathtub I have ever seen. It has three steps leading up to it and could easily accommodate two people. It's not a tub-it's a bathing altar. If we lived here, my dream of sitting in the tub while watching TV could finally come true.

We all stand gawping at the bath's magnificence. The only other lavatory I've ever seen like this was in Vegas, when the Luxor upgraded me to a high-roller's suite.139 Next to the tub is a gigantic gla.s.sed-in shower, and beyond that is a double marble vanity with cherry cabinets, framed in adjustable lighting. On the other side, a cherry-shuttered door conceals the commode.

On the opposite wall, huge French doors lead out to a s.p.a.cious balcony, and almost the entire wall is made of panes of gla.s.s. And to my left, there's an enormous walk-in closet, brilliantly outfitted with adjustable shelving and bars. This is truly one of the most lavish living s.p.a.ces I have ever seen.

"So are we looking at your new master suite?" Brandon asks with a giant grin on his unshaved maw.

"No."

In unison, Fletch and Brandon shout, "WHAT?"

"I'm a very modest person, and this bathroom, although lovely, leaves no room to the imagination. If I wake up in the morning and see Fletch in that clear shower soaping up the crack of his a.s.s, we'll get divorced. Next."

I think Brandon is going to cry.

"Jen, this is IT. If we don't find something today, we're going to have to live in a van down by the river because our lease is up in ten days," Fletch says sternly. We're in the parking lot outside the apartment brokerage, about to meet with Brandon to see another round of choices.

"Chris Farley was a tortured genius, and I won't have you using his words against me," I retort.

"Regardless, we have to make a decision. We've looked at a dozen different places that could have worked but you've nixed all of them for patently ridiculous reasons."

"That's not true."

"We didn't take the place on Ashland because the stove was electric. Why do you care? YOU DON'T COOK."

"I might cook if the stove were gas." I pull a tube out of my bag and apply a fresh coat of gloss. People? I can't stress this enough. When it's cold and raw outside, you MUST protect your lips or else they'll get all flaky and disgusting.

"OK, what about the place on Division with the roof deck?"

"The railings were too low. One of the dogs could have fallen over the side." I fluff out my hair. Since I'm not getting it colored as often, I have to wear it a bit bigger so my roots don't show. And, yes, I'd allow my ears to freeze and fall off before I covered my head with a hat.

"And the beautiful loft on Cortez?"

"The dark wood floors were fugly." I rim the inner part of my eyelids with BeneFit Eye Brightener and I instantly look refreshed.

"How about the duplex on Wabansia?"

"The hallway smelled like curry." A couple of quick blots to my chin, forehead, and nose with rice paper and I'm ready to go.140 "You like curry. You order it whenever we go for Thai."

"But I don't want to smell it in the hallway! Every time someone comes over, they'll ask, 'Are you cooking curry?' And I'll have to say no, and then they'll feel sorry for me for having to live in a place that smells like curry. I don't want to live anywhere that will engender sympathy."

"What was wrong with the town house on Erie with the yard and the skylights?"

"The corner supermercado was skeevy. Those people were standing out in front of it eating mangoes and throwing the pits on the ground. Yuck."

"You wouldn't have to shop there."

"Doesn't matter. I don't want to live within fifty yards of anything skeevy."

Fletch pounds his fist on the steering wheel. "That tears it! You've lost your vote. I know you don't want to leave our apartment and you're doing everything in your power to make it more difficult. I don't want to leave either, but we do not have a choice. The boom is over. It was nice while it lasted, but now we have to be adults, face our new economic reality, and make necessary changes. As it is, I'm not sure how we're going to come up with $1600 each month, but we'll worry about that after we've got a new roof over our heads. So right now, we are going to meet with Brandon, see all the places he has to show us, and we're going to choose one of them. Agreed?"

I contemplate his outburst. It's rare to see such an outpouring of emotion from him, so he must really mean business. Finally, I grunt, "Agreed."

"Thank you." We exit the car and Fletch zips up his parka.

I wrap my cashmere scarf around my neck and put on calfskin gloves before adding, "But if someone leaves mango pits on our lawn, you're picking them up."

Brandon takes us to ten different listings, and each is worse than the last. I'm frustrated, tired, and dreading living in any of them. As we pull into the brokerage office's parking lot, Brandon gets a call. He chats for a moment before addressing us.

"Hey, that was this guy Bill on the phone. He has a nice place on Superior that I've wanted to show you, but I didn't have the keys. He's over there now if you guys want to take a look. Sounds like a decent fit because it has all the amenities you want. I know it's pretty late, but do you want to swing by?"

"Bring it on," I say wearily.

"Can you try to be a little more positive?" Fletch asks.

"As you wish. Maybe this place will have empty crack vials on the porch, too!" I say brightly.

We drive to a west-side neighborhood I've never heard of before. It's dark and the streets are deserted, which, in my opinion, is a good sign. The last place we saw had thugs standing around in hooded sweatshirts, and they scared the pants off me. The cars on the street seem decent, and there's some new construction, which is also encouraging.

We're greeted at the door by Bill, who has big white teeth, an expensive coat, and stupid spiky hair. He's superenthusiastic and shakes my hand really hard while clapping me on the back.

I already hate him.

Bill leads us through the apartment and explains how he owns a mail-order cigar company but is starting to dabble in real estate development and this is one of the first buildings he's redone and he's really proud of the results and urban renewal and entrepreneur and blah blah blah.... Uh-huh, whatever. I'm a lot more concerned about a washer and dryer than I am about your resume, pal.

After our tour, Fletch asks the men to excuse us for a moment. We go upstairs to discuss the apartment.

"This place has everything we want. It's all new, there's central AC, and there's plenty of s.p.a.ce. We're taking it," Fletch says.

"Shouldn't we check out the neighborhood in the daylight before we decide?" I ask.

"Bill has five more showings tomorrow. If we wait, we'll lose it."

"The thing is, the apartment is fine, but I hate the landlord."

"He seems nice and professional. What's the problem now?"

"He crushed my hand when he shook it and he's reality-show handsome. He looks like he should be on The Bachelor. That bothers me."

Fletch rolls his eyes and hisses, "To think I believed your objections couldn't get more ludicrous." In a louder voice, he calls down the stairs, "OK, guys, let's talk lease."

Cannibal Birds Weblog Entry 2/12/03 MSNB-YOU-SHOULDN'T-SEE We recently disconnected our satellite dish to prepare for our move, so we're back on the building's basic cable. Because I haven't been able to consume my usual ba.n.a.l menu of A Wedding Story and The Real World/Road Rules Challenge, I made the mistake of watching MSNBC.

Not smart.

Every single one of their reports has caused me MUCH anxiety.

First of all, I'm highly concerned about Al Jezeera reports of suicide attacks and possible use of radiological devices. I'm also worried about nuclear proliferation in North Korea, France's rallying to weaken NATO, and the possibility of links between Al Qaeda and Iraq. And watching the Dow spiral down on the lower right-hand corner of my screen while these reports are read doesn't exactly help my stress level, either.

While the disastrous possibilities these stories propose put me on edge, the news that scares me the most is the segment I recently saw about college students and their increased consumption of club drugs such as Ecstasy.

When discussing usage statistics, the MSNBC reporter showed what now pa.s.ses for a college party...it was a bunch of unkempt girls and dirty boys sprawled over all the flat surfaces in someone's dorm room while horrific house music thumped in the background. Since they were "trippin' on E" they took turns touching each other, as apparently tactile sensations are far stronger when chemically enhanced. They also took turns making out with each other-boys on girls, boys on boys, girls on girls, boys on dorm furniture, etc. until someone shouted "Switch!"

Excuse me, but this is NOT a college party.