Between Sisters Part 6

"Tomorrow we find out if he get stationed at McChord. We keep our fingers crossed, si?"

"It would be great to have your son so close," Meghann said as she gathered up her files.

Ana mumbled something. It sounded a lot like, "You should have a son nearby, too. Instead of all that work, work, work."

"Are you chastising me again, Ana?"

"I don't know chastising. But you work too hard. Every night you're here. When you gonna meet Mr. Right if you always at work?"

It was an old debate, one that had started almost ten years ago, when Meghann had handled Ana's INS hearing pro bono. Her last moment of peace had ended when she handed Ana a green card and hired her. Ever since, Ana had done her best to "repay" Meghann. That repayment seemed to be an endless stream of ca.s.seroles and a constant harangue about the evils of too much hard work.

"You're right, Ana. I think I'll have a drink and unwind."

"Drink isn't what I'm thinking," Ana muttered, bending down to plug in the vacuum.

"Bye, Ana."

Meghann was almost to the elevator when her cell phone rang. She rifled through her black Kate Spade bag and pulled out the phone. "Meghann Dontess," she said.

"Meghann?" The voice was high-pitched and panicky. "It's May Monroe."

Meghann was instantly alert. A divorce could go bad faster than an open cut in the tropics. "What's going on?"

"It's Dale. He came by tonight."

Meghann made a mental note to get a TRO first thing tomorrow. "Uh-huh. What happened?"

"He said something about the papers he got today. He was crazy. What did you send him?"

"We talked about this, May. On the phone, last week, remember? I notified Dale's lawyer and the court that we'd be contesting the fraudulent transfer of his business and demanding an accounting of the Cayman Island accounts. I also told his attorney that we were aware of the affair with the child's piano instructor and that such behavior might threaten his suitability as a parent."

"We never discussed that. You threatened to take away his children?"

"Believe me, May, the temper tantrum is about money. It always is. The kids are a shill game with guys like your husband. Pretend to want custody and you'll get more money. It's a common tactic."

"You think you know my husband better than I do."

Meghann had heard this sentence more times than she could count. It always amazed her. Women who were blindsided by their husband's affairs, lies, and financial gymnastics continually believed that they "knew" their men. Yet another reason not to get married. It wasn't masturbation that made you go blind; it was love. "I don't have to know him," Meghann answered, using the canned speech she'd perfected long ago. "Protecting you is my job. If I upset your"-no good, lying-"husband in the process, that's an unfortunate necessity. He'll calm down. They always do."

"You don't know Dale," she said again.

Meghann's senses pounced on some nuance. Something wasn't right. "Are you scared of him, May?" This was a whole new wrinkle.

"Scared?" May tried to sound surprised by the question, but Meghann knew. d.a.m.n. d.a.m.n. She was always surprised by spousal abuse; it was never the families you expected. She was always surprised by spousal abuse; it was never the families you expected.

"Does he hit you, May?"

"Sometimes when he's drinking, I can say just the wrong thing."

Oh, yeah. It's May's fault. It was terrifying how often women believed that. "Are you okay now?" It was terrifying how often women believed that. "Are you okay now?"

"He didn't hit me. And he never hits the children."

Meghann didn't say what came to mind. Instead, she said, "That's good." If she'd been with May, she would have been able to look in her client's eyes and take a measure of the woman's fragility. If it seemed possible, she would have given her statistics-horror stories designed to drive home the ugly truth. Often, if a man would hit his wife, he'd get around to hitting his children. Bullies were bullies; their defining characteristic was the need to exert power over the powerless. Who was more powerless than a child?

But none of that could be done over the phone. Sometimes a client sounded strong and in control while they were falling apart. Meghann had visited too many of her clients in psych wards and hospitals. She'd grown careful over the years.

"We need to make sure he understands that I'm not going to take his children from him. Otherwise he'll go crazy," May said. There was the barest crack in her voice.

"Let me ask you this, May. Say it's three months from now. You're divorced, and Dale has lost half of everything he owns. He's living with Dance Hall Barbie and they come home drunk one night. Barbie's driving because she only had three margaritas. When they get home, the baby-sitter has let the kids demolish the house and little Billy has accidentally broken the window in Dale's office. Are your children safe?"

"That's a lot of things going wrong."

"Things go wrong, May. You know that. I'm guessing that you've always been a buffer between your husband and kids. A human shock absorber. You probably learned how to calm him down and deflect his attention away from the children. Will Barbie know how to protect them?"

"Am I so ordinary?"

"Sadly, the situation is. The good news is, you're giving yourself-and your children-a new start. Don't weaken now, May. Don't let him bully you."

"So, what do I do?"

"Lock the doors and turn off the phone. Don't talk to him. If you don't feel safe, go to a relative's or friend's house. Or to a motel for one night. Tomorrow we'll get together and come up with a new game plan. I'll file some restraining orders."

"You can keep us safe?"

"You'll be fine, May. Trust me. Bullies are cowards. Once he sees how strong you can be, he'll back down."

"Okay. When can we meet?"

Meghann dug through her bag for her PalmPilot, then checked her schedule. "How about a late lunch-say two o'clock-at the Judicial Annex Cafe by the courthouse? I'll schedule a meeting with Dale's lawyer for later that afternoon."

"Okay."

"May, I know this is a sensitive question, but do you by any chance have a photograph of yourself . . . you know . . . when he hit you?"

There was a pause on the other end of the line, then May said, "I'll check my photo alb.u.ms."

"It's simply evidence," Meg said.

"To you, maybe."

"I'm sorry, May. I wish I didn't have to ask questions like that."

"No. I'm I'm sorry," May said. sorry," May said.

That surprised Meg. "What for?"

"That no man has ever shown you the other side. My father would have killed Dale for all of this."

Before she could stop it, Meghann felt a sharp jab of longing. It was her Achilles' heel. She was sure she didn't believe in love, but still, she dreamed of it. Maybe May was right. Maybe if Meg had had a father who'd loved her, everything would be different. As it was, she knew that love was a rope bridge made of the thinnest strands. It might hold your weight for a while, but sooner or later, it would break.

Oh, there were happy marriages. Her best friend, Elizabeth, had proven that.

There were also forty-eight-million-dollar-lottery winners, five-leaf clovers, Siamese twins, and full eclipses of the sun.

"So, we'll meet at the Annex tomorrow at two?"

"I'll see you there."

"Good." Meghann flipped the phone shut and dropped it in her purse, then pushed the elevator b.u.t.ton. When the door opened, she stepped inside. As always, the mirrored walls made it feel as if she were stumbling into herself. She leaned forward, unable to stop herself; when a mirror was near, she had to look into it. In the past few years, she'd begun to search obsessively for signs of aging. Lines, wrinkles, sags.

She was forty-two years old, and since it felt as if she'd been thirty a moment ago, she had to a.s.sume it would be a blink's worth of time before she was fifty.

That depressed her. She imagined herself at sixty. Alone, working from dawn to dusk, talking to her neighbor's cats, and going on singles' cruises.

She left the elevator and strode through the lobby, nodding at the night doorman as she pa.s.sed.

Outside, the night was beautiful; an amethyst sky gave everything a pink and pearlized glow. Lit windows in towering skysc.r.a.pers proved that Meghann wasn't the only workaholic in the city.

She walked briskly down the street, bypa.s.sing people without making eye contact. At her building, she paused and looked up.

There was her deck. The only one in the building without potted trees and outdoor furniture. The windows behind it were black; the rest of the building was a blaze of light. Friends and families were in those lighted s.p.a.ces, having dinner, watching television, talking, making love. Connecting with one another.

I'm sorry, May had said, that no man has ever shown you the other side that no man has ever shown you the other side.

I'm sorry.

Meghann walked past her building. She didn't want to go up there, put on her old UW sweats, eat Raisin Bran for dinner, and watch a rerun of Third Watch Third Watch.

She went into the Public Market. At this late hour, pretty much everything was closed up. The fish vendors had gone home, and the dewy, beautiful vegetables had been boxed up until tomorrow. The stalls-normally filled with dried flowers, handmade crafts, and homemade food items-were empty.

She turned into the Athenian, the old-fashioned tavern made famous in Sleepless in Seattle. Sleepless in Seattle. It was at this polished wooden bar that Rob Reiner had told Tom Hanks about dating in the nineties. It was at this polished wooden bar that Rob Reiner had told Tom Hanks about dating in the nineties.

The smoke in here was so thick you could have played ticktacktoe in it with your finger. There was something comforting in the lack of political correctness in the Athenian. You could order a trendy drink, but their specialty was ice-cold beer.

Meghann had perfected the art of scoping out a bar without being obvious. She did that now.

There were five or six older men at the bar. Fishermen, she'd guess, getting ready to head up to Alaska for the season. A pair of younger Wall Street types were there, too, drinking martinis and no doubt talking shop. She saw enough of that kind in court.

"Hey, Meghann," yelled Freddie, the bartender. "Your usual?"

"You bet." Still smiling, she moved past the bar and turned left, where several varnished wooden tables hugged the two walls. Most were full of couples or foursomes; a few were empty.

Meghann found a place in the back. She sidled into the glossy wooden seat and sat down. A big window was to her left. The view was of Elliot Bay and the wharf.

"Here ye be," Freddie said, setting a martini gla.s.s down in front of her. He shook the steel shaker, then poured her a cosmopolitan. "You want an order of oysters and fries?"

"You read my mind."

Freddie grinned. "Ain't hard to do, counselor." He leaned down toward her. "The Eagles are coming in tonight. Should be here any minute."

"The Eagles?"

"The minor league ball team outta Everett." He winked at her. "Good luck."

Meghann groaned. It was bad when bartenders started recommending whole ball teams.

I'm sorry.

Meghann began drinking. When the first cosmo was gone, she ordered a second. By the time she saw the bottom of the gla.s.s again, she'd almost forgotten her day.

"May I join you?"

Meghann looked up, startled, and found herself staring into a pair of dark eyes.

He stood in front of her, with one foot up on the seat opposite her. She could tell by the look of him-young, blond, s.e.xy as h.e.l.l-that he was used to getting what he wanted. And what he wanted tonight was her.

The thought was a tonic.

"Of course." She didn't offer a half smile or bat her eyes. Pretense had never appealed to her. Neither had games. "I'm Meghann Dontess. My friends call me Meg."

He slid into the seat. His knees brushed hers, and at the contact, he smiled. "I'm Donny MacMillan. You like baseball?"

"I like a lot of things." She flagged down Freddie, who nodded at her. A moment later, he brought her another cosmopolitan.

"I'll have a Coors Light," Donny said, leaning back and stretching his arms out along the top of the seat back.

They stared at each other in silence. The noise in the bar grew louder, then seemed to fade away, until all Meghann could hear was the even strains of his breathing and the beating of her heart.

Freddie served a beer and left again.

"I suppose you're a baseball player."

He grinned, and d.a.m.n d.a.m.n, it was s.e.xy. She felt the first twinge of desire. s.e.x with him would be great; she knew it. And it would make her forget- I'm sorry.

-about her bad day.

"You know it. I'm gonna make it to the show. You watch. Someday I'll be famous."

That was why Meghann gravitated toward younger men. They still believed in themselves and the world. They hadn't yet learned how life really worked, how dreams were slowly strangled and right and wrong became abstract ideas instead of goalposts for all to see. Those truths usually hit around thirty-five, when you realized that your life was not what you'd wanted.

That, of course, and the fact that they never demanded more than she wanted to give. Men her age tended to think s.e.x meant something. Younger men knew better.

For the next hour, Meghann nodded and smiled as Donny talked about himself. By the time she'd finished her fourth drink, she knew that he had graduated from WSU, was the youngest of three brothers, and that his parents still lived in the same Iowa farmhouse that his grandfather had homesteaded. It all went in one ear and out the other. What she really focused on was the way his knee brushed up against hers, the way his thumb stroked the wet beer gla.s.s in a steady, sensual rhythm.

He was telling her about a frat party in college when she said, "You want to come to my place?"

"For coffee?"