Between Sisters Part 14

She needed to talk to someone about this. Not her sister, of course. A friend. She dialed Gina's number.

Gina answered on the first ring. "h.e.l.lo?"

Claire slumped back into the oversize chair and put her feet up. "It's me. The Insta-Marry Queen."

"Yeah, Claire. That's you."

"Meghann thinks I'm being an idiot."

"Since when do we care what she she thinks? She's an attorney, for G.o.d's sake. That's below invertebrates on the evolutionary chain." thinks? She's an attorney, for G.o.d's sake. That's below invertebrates on the evolutionary chain."

Claire's chest eased. She smiled. "I knew you'd put it in perspective."

"That's what friends are for. Would you like me to sing that?"

"Please, no. I've heard you sing. Just tell me I'm not being a selfish b.i.t.c.h who is going to ruin her daughter's life by marrying a stranger."

"Oh, so it's your mother we're talking about."

"I don't want to be like her." Claire's voice was suddenly soft.

"I've known you since all five of us showed up for the first day of school in the same blue shirt. I remember when you bought cream to make your b.o.o.bs grow and still believed in sea monkeys. Honey, you've never been selfish. And I've never seen you this happy. I don't care that you've known him less than two weeks. G.o.d has finally given you the gift of love and pa.s.sion. Don't return it unopened."

"I'm scared. I should have done this when I was young and optimistic."

"You are are young and optimistic, and of course you're scared. If you'll remember, I had to drink two tequila straight shots to marry Rex-and we'd lived together for four years." She paused. "I probably shouldn't have used us as an example. But the point remains. A smart person is afraid of marriage. You made it past the marriage-for-marriage's-sake years and you haven't reached the nursing-home-desperation years. You met a man and fell in love. So it happened fast. Big deal. If you're not ready to marry him, by all means, wait. But don't wait because your big sister made you question yourself. Follow your heart." young and optimistic, and of course you're scared. If you'll remember, I had to drink two tequila straight shots to marry Rex-and we'd lived together for four years." She paused. "I probably shouldn't have used us as an example. But the point remains. A smart person is afraid of marriage. You made it past the marriage-for-marriage's-sake years and you haven't reached the nursing-home-desperation years. You met a man and fell in love. So it happened fast. Big deal. If you're not ready to marry him, by all means, wait. But don't wait because your big sister made you question yourself. Follow your heart."

Claire's gut was clenched, her mind was clouded, but her heart was crystal clear. "What would I do without you?"

"The same thing I'd do without you-drink too much and whine to strangers."

Claire heard the tiny thread of depression in Gina's voice. It made her love her friend all the more for listening to her problems while her own whole world was caving in. "How are you doing?"

"This day or this week? I've got more mood swings than a teenager, and my a.s.s is starting to look like a Buick."

"No jokes, Gigi. How are you?"

She sighed. "s.h.i.tty. Rex came by last night. The son of a b.i.t.c.h has lost about ten pounds and dyed his hair. Pretty soon he'll ask me to call him the Rexster again." She paused. "He wants to marry that woman."

"Ouch."

"Ouch with a blowtorch. I'm remembering the day he proposed to me, and he's pricing diamonds. It hurts like h.e.l.l. But you haven't heard the real news: Joey's back."

"You're kidding. Where's he been?"

There was a pause, the sound of movement, then Gina lowered her voice. "I don't know. Here and there, he says. He looks bad. Older. He got home yesterday. He's been asleep for almost thirteen hours. Honestly, I hope I never love anyone as much as he loved Diana."

"What's he going to do?"

"I don't know. I said he could stay here, but he won't. He's like some animal that's been in the wild too long. And this house brings back a lot of memories. He stared at the picture of my wedding for almost an hour. Honest to G.o.d, I wanted to cry."

"Give him my love."

"You got it."

They talked for a few more minutes about ordinary, everyday things. By the time they hung up, Claire felt better. The ground beneath her feet felt firm again. Thinking about Joe and Diana helped, too. With everything that had gone wrong between those two, they still were proof that love could be real.

She looked down at her left hand, at the engagement ring she wore. It was a strip of silver foil, carefully folded and twisted around her finger.

She refused to think of what her sister would say about it, and remembered instead how she'd felt when Bobby put it there.

Marry me, he'd said, on bended knee. She'd known she should smile gently, say, Oh, Bobby, of course not. We barely know each other. Oh, Bobby, of course not. We barely know each other.

But she couldn't say those words. His dark eyes had been filled with the kind of love she'd only dreamed of, and she'd been lost. Her rational self-the part that had been alone for almost three dozen years and become a single parent-had warned her not to be a fool.

Ah, but her heart. That tender organ would not be ignored. She was was in love. So much so that it felt like drowning. in love. So much so that it felt like drowning.

Gina was right. This love was a gift she'd been given, one she'd stopped looking for and almost stopped believing in. She wouldn't turn away from it because she was afraid. One thing motherhood had taught her-love required boldness. And fear simply came with the package.

She grabbed her sweater off the back of the sofa and slipped it over her shoulders, then she went outside.

Night had almost completely fallen now; darkness enveloped the salmon-hued granite peaks. To the tourists who sat around their campfires making s'mores and roasting hot dogs, it seemed like a quiet time in this patch of green tucked up against the mountains' vertical walls. The locals knew better. Within walking distance, there was a whole world unseen by the casual observer, unheard by those who spent their lives listening on telephones and watching computer screens.

On peaks nearby, ones with names like Formidable, Terror, and Despair, the glaciers were never still, never silent. They slid forward, groaning, creaking, crunching every rock in their path. Even the heat of an August sun couldn't melt them away, and along the banks of the mighty Skykomish, just beyond where the humans walked, a thousand species of wildlife preyed on one another.

Yet the night felt still and calm; the air smelled of pine needles and drying gra.s.s. It was that time of year when, for a few weeks, the lawns in town would turn brittle and brown. That rarest of times in the Northwest-a patch of dry.

She heard the quiet buzz of the campers' dinner conversations, punctuated every now and then by a barking dog or a child's high-pitched giggle. Underneath it all, as steady and familiar as the beating of her heart, was the chattering of the river. These sounds had become the music of her youth, long ago replacing the jumbled cacophony of raucous music that had been Mama's soundtrack.

She didn't bother with shoes. Barefoot, her soles toughened by summers spent along this river's banks, she strolled past the empty pool. In the small, shingled pool house, the filter's motor thumped on, buzzing. A pair of inner tubes-one shocking pink and one lime green-floated on the darkening water.

She made her nightly rounds slowly, stopping to talk to several of their guests, even sharing a gla.s.s of wine with Wendy and Jeff Goldstein at campsite thirteen.

It was completely dark by the time she reached the small row of cabins on the property's eastern edge. All of the windows glowed with fuzzy golden light.

At first, she thought the sound she heard was crickets, gearing up for a nightly concert. Then she heard the sweet sound of strings being strummed.

Cabin four had a pretty little porch that faced the river. They had taken the cabin off the market this summer because of rain damage to the roof; the vacancy had given Bobby a place to stay until the wedding. Destiny Destiny, Dad had said when he gave Claire the key.

Now, destiny sat on the edge of the porch, cross-legged, his body veiled in shadows, a guitar across his lap. He stared out at the river, plucking a slow and uncertain tune.

Claire eased into the darkness beneath a giant Douglas fir. Hidden, she watched him. The music sent shivers skimming along her flesh.

Almost too quietly to hear, he started to sing. "I've been walkin' all my life . . . on a road goin' nowhere. Then I turned a corner, darlin' . . . and there you were."

Claire's throat tightened with an emotion so sweet and powerful she felt the start of tears. She stepped out of the shadows.

Bobby looked up and saw her. A smile crinkled the suntanned planes of his face.

She stepped toward him, her bare feet making a soft, thumping beat on the hard, dried gra.s.s.

He began to sing again, his gaze on her face. "For the first time in my life . . . I believe in G.o.d almighty . . . in the Lord my grandpa promised me . . . 'cause, honey, I see Heaven in your eyes." He strummed a few more chords, then thumped his hand on the guitar and grinned. "That's all I've written so far. I know it needs work." He put down the guitar and moved toward her.

With every footstep, she felt her breathing shorten until, by the time he was standing in front of her, she couldn't seem to draw a full breath. It was almost embarra.s.sing to feel this much.

He took her left hand in his, looked down at the strip of foil that was supposed to be a diamond ring. When he looked at her again, he was no longer smiling.

"Pathetic," he whispered, and her heart ached for the shame she saw in his dark eyes. "Not every woman would accept a ring like this."

"I love you, Bobby. That's all that matters. I know it's crazy, impossible even, but I love you." The words freed something inside her. She could breathe again.

"I'm no prize, Claire. You know that. I've made mistakes in my life. Three of 'em, to be exact."

Claire could practically hear Meg's voice in the breeze. But the sound meant nothing when she saw how Bobby looked at her. No one had ever looked at her like that before, as if she were the most precious woman on earth. "I'm a single mother who never got married. I know about mistakes, Bobby."

"I've never felt this way before," he said softly, a catch in his voice. "Honest to G.o.d."

"What way?"

"As if my heart doesn't belong to me anymore, as if it can't beat without you. You're inside me, Claire, holding me up. You make me want to be more than I am."

"I want us to grow old together," she whispered the words. It was her deepest dream, her most treasured hope. All her life, she'd imagined herself alone in old age, one of those white-haired women who sat on the porch, waiting for the phone to ring or a car to drive up. Now, finally, she allowed herself to imagine a better future, one filled with love and laughter and family.

"I want to hear our kids fight about who's touching who in the smelly backseat of a minivan."

Claire laughed. It felt so good to dream with someone.

He pulled her into his arms, danced with her to the music of the river and the crickets.

Finally, Claire said, "My sister, Meghann, is coming up to meet you tomorrow."

He drew back. Taking her hand, he led her to his porch. They sat down in the creaky oak swing and rocked gently. "I thought you said she'd boycott the wedding."

"Wishful thinking." She looked up at him. "She was predictably underwhelmed by our decision to get married."

"This is the sister Gina called Cruella De Vil?"

"Jaws is really the preferred nickname."

"Does her opinion matter?"

"It shouldn't."

"But it does."

Claire felt like a fool. "It does."

"Then I'll win her over. Maybe I'll write a song for her."

"It better go platinum. Meg doesn't like second best. She should be here by early evening tomorrow."

"Should I go down to the army surplus and check out some Kevlar?"

"At the very least."

Bobby's smile faded after a moment. "She won't be able to change your mind about me, will she?"

She was moved by his vulnerability. "She's never been able to change my mind about anything. It's what makes her foam at the mouth."

"As long as you love me, I can take anything."

"Well, Bobby Austin," she put her arms around him and leaned over for a kiss. Just before their lips touched, she whispered, "Then you can take anything. Even my sister."

CHAPTER ELEVEN.

CLAIRE STOOD AT THE KITCHEN SINK, WASHING THE breakfast dishes. It was a gray, not-quite-rainy day, the kind where the sky was so low it seemed to b.u.mp you in the forehead when you dared to venture outside. Perfect weather for a visit with Meghann. breakfast dishes. It was a gray, not-quite-rainy day, the kind where the sky was so low it seemed to b.u.mp you in the forehead when you dared to venture outside. Perfect weather for a visit with Meghann.

The thought made her head pound. She dried her hands and reached for the bottle of Excedrin on the windowsill.

"Mary Kay Acheson gets to have Cap'n Crunch for breakfast."

It was a common early-morning argument. "She'll probably have false teeth in time for eighth grade. You don't want to have to take your teeth out at bedtime, do you?"

Ali banged her feet rhythmically on the rungs at the base of her chair. "Willie has all his teeth and he's gonna be in ninth grade. He's practically a grown-up."

"That's because Karen feeds him Raisin Bran for breakfast. If he ate Cap'n Crunch, it'd be a different story."

Ali frowned, thinking about that.

Claire washed down the aspirin.

"Do you have a headache again, Mommy?"

"Aunt Meg's coming over tonight. She wants to meet Bobby."

Ali's frown deepened. Obviously, she was trying to understand the connection between Mom's headache and Aunt Meg's visit. "I thought she was too busy to breathe."

Claire went to the table and sat down beside her daughter. "You know why Meghann wants to meet Bobby?"

Alison rolled her eyes. "Duh, Mommy."

"Duh?" Claire bit back a smile. At some point, she'd have to address the issue of respectful responses, but she'd better wait until she could do it without cracking up. She held out her hand instead. "You know what this ring means?"