Ask for It Part 5

Clenching his jaw, Marcus thrust the torturous thoughts away. "You know of Ashford Shipping?"

"Of course."

"One year I lost a small fortune to a pirate named Christopher St. John."

"St. John?" She frowned. "My abigail has mentioned the name. He's quite popular. Something of a hero, a benefactor of the poor and underprivileged."

He snorted. "A hero he's not. The man is a ruthless cutthroat. He was the reason I first approached Lord Eldridge. I demanded St. John be dealt with. Eldridge offered instead to train me to manage the pirate myself." His lips curved wryly. "The prospect of exacting my own retribution was irresistible."

Elizabeth pursed her lips. "Of course. A normal life is so dreadfully boring after all."

"Some tasks require personal attention."

Crossing his arms over his chest, Marcus enjoyed this opportunity to have her undivided attention. The simple act of conversing with her was a pleasure he relished, regardless of her scornful remarks. He'd been fawned over and catered to his entire life. Elizabeth's refusal to treat him as anything other than an ordinary man was one of the traits he found most attractive in her.

"I will never understand the appeal of a dangerous life, Marcus. I want peace and quiet in my life."

"Understandable, considering the family in which you were raised. You've had no structure, left to do as you wished by male family members too preoccupied with the pursuit of pleasure to see to you."

"You know me so well," she said scathingly.

"I have always known you well."

"Then you admit how poorly we would have suited."

"I admit nothing of the sort."

She dismissed the topic with a wave of her hand. "About that night..."

He watched her chin lift, as if she awaited a punishing blow, and he sighed. "I learned of a man who offered potentially d.a.m.ning information about St. John. We agreed to meet at the wharf. In return for his a.s.sistance the informant had one request in return. His wife was with child and knew nothing of the activities he'd engaged in to provide for her. He asked me to see to her welfare should anything untoward befall him."

"That was his wife in the robe?" Her eyes widened."Yes. In the midst of the meeting we were attacked. The sounds of a scuffle drew her attention and she came closer to investigate, into harm's way. She was thrown into the water and I leapt after her. Her husband was shot and killed."

"You did not bed her." I t was a statement, no longer a question.

"Of course not," he answered simply. "But we both were covered in filth. I brought her to my home to bathe while I made arrangements for her."

Elizabeth stood and began to pace, her hands clenching rhythmically in the folds of her gown. "I suppose I have always known."

A humorless laugh broke from his throat. Marcus waited for her to say something further, wondering at his sanity in wanting her still. He'd long suspected his imagined infidelity was merely the excuse she'd sought to sever their ties. To his mind, this afternoon only proved that to be true.

She did not run into his arms and beg his forgiveness. She did not ask for a second chance or make any attempt to reconcile, and her silence infuriated him to the point where he wished to do violence.

His hands clenched into fists as he fought the urge to grab her and tear her clothes from her skin, to press her to the floor and plunge his c.o.c.k into her, making it impossible for her to disregard him. I t was the one and only way he knew he could penetrate her protective sh.e.l.l.

But his pride would not allow him to reveal his pain. He would, however, effect some change in her, a tiny crack in her reserve at least.

"I was as stunned as you when she entered, Elizabeth. She a.s.sumed you were the woman a.s.signed to care for her. There was no way for her to know that my betrothed would visit at such an hour."

"Her dishabille..."

"Her garments were soaked. She had nothing aside from the robe lent to her by my housekeeper."

"You should have followed me," she said in a low, angry tone.

"I attempted to. I t took me a moment, I admit, to recover from your slap to my face. You were too quick. By the time the widow was settled and I was free to come for you, you had departed with Hawthorne."

Elizabeth stopped her fevered pacing, her skirts settling slowly as she stilled. Her head turned, revealing eyes that hid far too much from him. "Do you hate me?"

"Occasionally." He shrugged to hide the true depth of his bitterness, a bitterness that gnawed at him from the inside and tainted everything in his life.

"You want revenge," she stated without inflection.

"That is the least of it. I want answers. Why the elopement with Hawthorne? Do the feelings you have for me scare you that much?"

"Perhaps he was always an option."

"I refuse to believe that."

Her lush mouth curved grimly. "Does the possibility p.r.i.c.k your ego?"

He snorted. "Play whatever game you like. You may hate wanting me, but you do want me."

Moving toward her, Marcus was stopped by her outstretched hand. She appeared calm, but her fingers shook badly. Her arm dropped.

There was far more to their differences than he'd yet discerned. They were strangers, bound by an attraction that defied all reason. But he would learn the truth. Despite his fear that she would elude him again, his need for her outweighed his instinct for self-preservation.

She'd asked if he hated her. At moments like this, he did. He hated her for making him care, hated her for remaining so beautiful and desirable, hated her for being the only woman he had ever wanted in this manner.

"Do you remember your first Season?" he asked in a hoa.r.s.e voice.

"Of course."

He walked to the intricately carved sideboard and poured a small libation. I t was too early for alcohol, but at the moment, he didn't care. He felt cold inside and as the fiery beverage splashed down his throat he relished the warmth it brought.

Finding a bride had not been his aim that year or any year thereafter. He'd made it a point to avoid debutantes and their marriage machinations, but one look at Elizabeth and his intentions had changed.

He'd arranged an introduction and she'd impressed him with a confidence that belied her age. Securing permission to dance with her, he'd been delighted when she accepted despite his reputation. The simple contact of her gloved hand on his elicited a powerful s.e.xual awareness, one he had never experienced before or since.

"You impressed me from the first, Elizabeth." Staring at his empty gla.s.s, he rolled it back and forth restlessly between his palms. "You didn'tstammer or look faint when I was overbold with you. Rather you teased me and had the temerity to scold me as well. You shocked me so deeply the first time you swore at me I missed a step. Do you remember?"

Her voice was soft as it floated across the room. "How could I forget?"

"You scandalized every matron there by making me laugh aloud."

After that memorable first dance, he'd made it a point to attend the same events she did, which sometimes necessitated stopping at several houses before finding her. Society dictated that he could claim only one dance per evening and every moment spent with her had to be chaperoned, but despite these restrictions they'd discovered a mutual affinity. He was never bored with her, was instead endlessly fascinated.

Elizabeth was genuinely kind but had a quick temper that rose in an instant and dissipated as rapidly. She had in abundance all of the things that made a girl a woman but retained a childishness that could be at once endearing and frustrating. He admired her strength, but it was the fleeting glimpses of vulnerability that pushed him far past infatuation. He longed to protect her from the world at large, to shelter her and keep her all to himself.

And despite the years and the misunderstandings between them he still felt that way.

Marcus cursed under his breath and then jumped as her hand touched his shoulder.

"I know your thoughts," she whispered. "But it can never be that way again."

His laugh was harsh. "I 've no desire to have it that way a second time. I want simply to be rid of the craving I have for you. You won't suffer in the slaking, I can promise you that."

Turning, he stared into her upturned face, seeing the violet eyes so unfathomable and sad. Her lower lip quivered and he stilled the betraying movement with a soft stroke of his thumb.

"I must go and make preparations for the meeting tomorrow." He cupped her flushed cheek and then lowered his hand to her breast. "I will speak with the outriders Avery a.s.signed to you. They'll follow at a discreet distance. Wear neutral colors. No jewelry. St.u.r.dy shoes."

Elizabeth nodded and held still as a statue as he lowered his head and brushed his lips across hers. Only the racing of her heart beneath his palm told him how he affected her. He closed his eyes at the painful tightening of his loins and chest. He'd give up his fortune to be rid of this longing.

Sick with self-disgust he stepped past her and departed, hating the hours between now and the moment when he could see her again.

Chapter 5

Marcus stared through the cover of bushes, his jaw clenching as a droplet of sweat trickled between his shoulder blades. Elizabeth stood a few feet away in the clearing with her husband's journal clutched tightly in her tiny hands. The gra.s.s beneath her feet was trampled by her pacing, releasing the scent of spring into the air, but it didn't soothe him as it normally would.

He hated this. Hated leaving her out there, exposed to whoever it was that wanted Hawthorne's book. She shifted nervously from one foot to the other and he longed to go to her, longed to soothe her and take the burden of waiting from her slight shoulders onto his own.

He'd had precious little time to prepare. Surrounded by trees, the specified location made surveillance frustratingly difficult. There were too many places to hide. Avery and the outriders, who stood nearby watching the worn paths that led to the meeting place, were completely undetectable to him. He couldn't signal them, nor they him, and he felt helpless. Waiting patiently was not in his nature and he gripped the hilt of his small sword with barely restrained ferocity. What in h.e.l.l was taking so d.a.m.n long?

This mission was the most important of any he'd previously been a.s.signed to; it required the presence of mind and unflappable calm that marked all of his dealings. But to his dismay, he was as far from level-headedness as he'd ever been in his life. Failure was never an option, but this...this was Elizabeth.

As if she sensed his turmoil, she glanced around furtively, searching for him. She chewed her bottom lip between her teeth and his breath caught in his throat as he watched her. I t had been so long since he'd had the opportunity to study her at his leisure. He drank her in, every detail, from the uplifted chin that defied the world, to the restless way she shifted the journal. A slight breeze ruffled the curls at her nape, revealing the slender white column of her throat. Distracted momentarily by her courage and the fierce protectiveness it engendered, Marcus failed to see the dark-clad body dropping from the tree until it was too late. He leapt to his feet as the realization hit, his blood roaring so loudly he could scarcely hear past it.

Elizabeth was knocked to the ground, the book flying from her hands to land a few feet away. She cried out, the startled sound cut short by the crushing weight of the man atop her.

With a low growl of fury, Marcus lunged over the bushes and tackled the a.s.sailant away from her, his fists striking before they rolled to a halt.

A quick blow to the man's masked face subdued him and Marcus continued pummeling him with punishing blows, his rage such that he couldn't think beyond the instinct to kill anyone who threatened Elizabeth. He fought like a man possessed, snarling with the need to ease the fear that gripped him.

Elizabeth lay immobile, her mouth agape. She'd known Marcus was a physically powerful man, but he had always controlled himself with a confident air of self-mastery. She had romanticized him in her thoughts, imagining the self-a.s.sured rogue brandishing a sword or a pistol with careless arrogance, taunting his opponents with a few cutting remarks before making quick work of the matter with nary a bead of sweat on him.

Her imagination had not pictured the Marcus before her-a vengeful beast, easily able to kill a man with his bare hands and at this moment quite willing to do so.

She scrambled to her feet, eyes wide, as he wrapped his hands around the man's throat, a man who was their only clue to the importance of Nigel's book. "No! Don't kill him!"

Marcus loosened his grip at the sound of Elizabeth's voice, the haze of bloodl.u.s.t retreating. With amazing strength after such a beating, the a.s.sailant bucked upward, effectively garnering his release by throwing Marcus to his back.

Rolling quickly to his stomach, Marcus pushed himself up, prepared to fight, but the attacker scooped up the book and fled.

There was the barest glint of sunlight off the muzzle of a gun as the fleeing man turned and took aim, but it was warning enough. Marcus rose from the ground, his only goal to reach Elizabeth and shield her from harm. But he couldn't move fast enough. The report of the pistol bounced off the trees around them. He yelled a warning and turned, his heart stopping at the sight that greeted him.

Elizabeth stood by her mount, her hair in disarray about her shoulders. In her outstretched hands was the smoking muzzle of a gun.

Realizing where the shot originated, he turned his head and watched in confounded wonder as the a.s.sailant stumbled to his feet from where he'd fallen, his dropped gun skittering away across the dewy gra.s.s. The man's left hand was limp, the red journal abandoned, while his right hand pressed against a wound to his shoulder. Swearing, he ducked between two bushes and disappeared into the trees.

Stunned by the series of events, Marcus was startled as Avery ran past him in pursuit."b.l.o.o.d.y everlasting h.e.l.l," he snapped, furious at himself for allowing the situation to go so awry.

Elizabeth took his arm, her voice shaky and urgent. "Are you hurt?" Her free hand drifted over his torso.

His eyes widened at her obvious concern.

"d.a.m.n you, Marcus. Are you injured? Did he hurt you?"

"No, no, I 'm fine. What the devil are you doing with that?" He stared, dazed by the sight of the pistol she held at her side.

"Saving your life." Her hand to her heart, she released her breath in a rush and then walked to the fallen journal to retrieve it. "You may thank me when you recover your wits."

Marcus sat silently in the sitting room of his London townhouse. Divested of his coat and waistcoat, he lounged with his feet propped up on the table, and watched the play of light from the window behind him as it moved through the brandy in his snifter.

To say the morning had been a disaster would be an understatement, and yet Elizabeth had retained the book and wounded her attacker.

Marcus was not surprised. His friendship with William had given him rare insight.

Her mother lost to illness, Elizabeth had been raised by a father and older brother who were both notorious voluptuaries. Governesses never lasted long, finding the young Elizabeth to be incorrigible. Without the calming influence of a woman in the house, she'd been allowed to run wild.

As children, William had taken his sister with him everywhere-galloping neck-or-nothing through the fields, climbing trees, shooting pistols.

Elizabeth had been blissfully unaware of the societal rules women were expected to follow until introduced to them at boarding school. Years of rigorous training in deportment had given her the tools she used to hide herself from him, but he paid them no mind. He would know her, all of her.

The mystery of the book was proving to be far more dangerous than any of them had previously realized. Steps had to be taken to ensure Elizabeth was kept safe.

"Thank you for allowing me to repair myself here," Elizabeth said softly from the doorway that led to the bedroom.

She'd used the room that was meant to be hers-that of the lady of the house. Turning to face her, he saw her staring down at her clasped hands. "William would have known something was amiss if I 'd returned home looking a mess."

Marcus studied her, noting the dark circles that rimmed her eyes. Was she having trouble sleeping? Was he tormenting her dreams the way she tormented his?

"Is your family not in residence?" she asked, looking about as if she could find them. "Lady Westfield? Paul and Robert?"

"My mother writes that Robert's latest experiment is delaying their arrival. So that leaves you and me quite alone."