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"I was thinking of his death," he replied.
He spoke very quietly. He was resolved to have no more subterfuges, whatever the coward or the tender friend, or--the something else that was more than the tender friend within him might prompt him to try to hide.
"I was thinking of his death."
"His death!"
Artois felt cold with apprehension, but he was determined to be sincere.
"I don't understand."
"Don?t ask me any more, Hermione. I know nothing more."
"He was coming from the island. He slipped and fell into the sea."
"He fell into the sea."
There was a long silence between them, filled by the perpetual striving of the restless waves within the chambers of the palace. Then she said:
"Her father was on the island that night?"
"I think he was."
"Was it that? Was it that? Did Maurice make that atonement?"
Artois shuddered. Her voice was so strange, or sounded so strange in the dark. Did she wish to think, wish to be sure that her husband had been murdered? He heard the faint rustle of her dress. She had moved. Was she coming nearer? He heard her breathing, or thought he heard it. He longed to be certain. He longed to still the perpetual cry of the baffled sea.
"Then he was brave--at the last. I think he knew--I am sure he knew--when he went down to the sea. I am sure he knew--when he said good-bye."
Her voice was nearer to him. And again it had changed, utterly changed.
And in the different sounds of her voice Artois seemed to see the different women who dwelt within her, to understand and to know them as he had never understood and known them before. This woman was pleading, as women will plead for a man they have once loved, so long as they have voices, so long as they have hearts.
"Then that last time he didn't--no, he didn't go to--her."
The voice was almost a whisper, and Artois knew that she was speaking for herself--that she was telling herself that her husband's last action had been--not to creep to the woman, but to stand up and face the man.
"Was it her father?"
The voice was still almost a whisper.
"I think it was."
"Maurice paid then--he paid!"
"Yes. I am sure he paid."
"Gaspare knew. Gaspare knew--that night. He was afraid. He knew--but he didn't tell me. He has never told me."
"He loved his master."
"Gaspare loved Maurice more than he loved me."
By the way she said that Artois knew that Gaspare was forgiven. And a sort of pa.s.sion of love for woman's love welled up in his heart. At that moment he almost worshipped Hermione for being unable, even in that moment, not to love Gaspare because Gaspare had loved the dead man more than he loved her.
"But Gaspare loves you," he said.
"I don't believe in love. I don't want love any more."
Again the voice was transformed. It had become hollow and weary, without resonance, like the voice of some one very old. And Artois thought of Virgil's Grotto, of all they had said there, and of how the rock above them had broken into deep and sinister murmurings, as if to warn them, or rebuke.
And now, too, there were murmurings about them, but below them from the sea.
"Hermione, we must speak only the truth to-night."
"I am telling you the truth. You chose to follow me. You chose to hunt me--to hunt me when you knew it was necessary to me to be alone. It was brutal to do it. It was brutal. I had earned the right at least to one thing: I had earned the right to be alone. But you didn't care. You wouldn't respect my right. You hunted me as you might have hunted an animal. I tried to escape. But you saw me coming, and you chased me, and you caught me. I can't get away. You have driven me in here. And I can't get away from you. You won't even let me be alone."
"I dare not let you be alone to-night."
"Why not? What are you afraid of? What does it matter to you where I go or what I do? Don't say it matters! Don't dare say that!"
Her voice was fierce now.
"It doesn't matter to anybody, except perhaps a little to Vere and a very little to Gaspare. It never has really mattered to anybody. I thought it did once to some one. I thought I knew it did. But I was wrong. It didn't. It never mattered."
As she spoke an immense, a terrific feeling of desolation poured over her, as if from above, coming down upon her in the dark. It was like a flood that stiffened into ice upon her, making her body and her soul numb for a moment.
"I've never mattered to any one."
She muttered the words to herself. As she did so Artois seemed again to be looking into the magic mirror of the _fattura della morte_, to see the pale man, across whose face the shadow of a palm-leaf shifted, turning on his bed towards a woman who stood by an open door.
"You have always mattered to me," he said.
As he spoke there was in his voice that peculiar ring of utter sincerity which can no more be simulated, or mistaken, than the ringing music of sterling gold. But perhaps she was not in a condition to hear rightly, or perhaps something within her chose to deny, had a l.u.s.t for denial because denial hurt her.
"To you least of all," she said. "Only yourself has ever really mattered to you."
In a sentence she summed up the long catalogue that had been given to him by her silence.
His whole body felt as if it reddened. His skin tingled with a sort of physical anger. His mature pride that had grown always, as a strong man's natural pride does grow with the pa.s.sing of the years, seemed to him instinctively to rush forward to return the blow that had been dealt it.
"That is not quite true," he said.
"It is true. I have always had copper and I have always wanted gold,"
she answered.
He controlled himself, to prove to himself that she lied, that he was not the eternal egoist she dubbed him. Sometimes he had been genuinely unselfish, sometimes--not often, perhaps, but sometimes--he had really sunk himself in her. She was not being quite just. But how could she be quite just to-night? An almost reckless feeling overtook him, a desire to conquer at all costs in this struggle; to win her back, whether against her will or not, to her old self; to eliminate the shocking impression made upon her soul by the discovery of that day, to wipe it out utterly, to replace it with another; to revive within her that beautiful enthusiasm which had been as a light always shining for her and from her upon people and events and life; to make her understand, to prove to her that, after all allowance has been made for uncertainties and contradictions of fate, for the ironies, the paradoxes, the cruelties, the tragedies, and the despairs of existence, the great, broad fact emerges, that what the human being gives, in the long run the human being generally gets, and that she who persistently gives gold will surely at last receive it.
The thought of a lost Hermione struck to his heart a greater fear than had already that night the thought of a dead Hermione. And if she was changed she was lost.