A Heart Revealed Part 6

Amber's first thought was to tell him, "No." She had not made her final decision, and the thought of him removing himself from her list of suitors left her anxious. But she was embarra.s.sed enough at having spent their waltz looking upon another man that she took Lord Norwin's hand and wished him, as sincerely as she could, the very happiness he requested of her.

He smiled widely, thanked her for the dance, and removed himself from her company. A few moments later he was bowing over the hand of a golden-haired woman who could scarcely contain her pleasure at his attention. From the look on Lord Norwin's face as he led the girl to the floor, Amber had no doubt that she was the very woman of his favor.

"So it seems you have lost one."

Amber stiffened at the sound of her mother's voice behind her. Her mother could not have overheard the conversation she and Lord Norwin had shared during their waltz, which meant their expressions had said quite enough. Before Amber spoke, she made certain her tone and bearing was quite even. "He has grown an affection for someone else. I shan't try to interfere with such an attachment."

Her mother came to stand beside her, but looked upon the crowd rather than her daughter directly. She wore a gray gown that set off her features and blue eyes well without looking as though she were in mourning. Lady Marchent had always been fashionable and admired, so much the kind of woman Amber had expected to be. "You are down to two ardent suitors, then," Lady Marchent said.

"Three."

"Lord Sunther prefers Darra," she said with pointed sympathy. "Surely you can see that."

Amber could not keep the bite from her words as she turned her head sharply. "Darra well knows my feelings toward him. That she should undermine me in such a way is beyond belief."

"You were out of society for more than a week," Lady Marchent said.

"And she made good use of the absence of my shadow, did she not?"

"You cannot fault her," Lady Marchent said, her voice calm but intolerant. "Nor him. Your sister is quite fine in her manners and a beauty in her own right. I wonder that anyone noticed so long as she was at your side night after night, but once you were not there, her charms were quite obvious and very highly favored."

Amber looked at her mother, sorrow and jealousy and confusion milling about in her head. "Did she not come to London as my companion? Is she not to have another season next year without me?"

Lady Marchent met Amber's eyes for the first time in their conversation. "We had many plans for this season that have changed, my dear." The softness in her words made Amber nervous, as though they were a prelude to something decidedly unpleasant. "And we have all faced changes of circ.u.mstance. I shall not expect Darra to be your attendant any more than I shall expect you to procure the type of man you initially sought for. It would be in everyone's best interest if you made quick work of procuring a satisfying arrangement and let Darra stay her course."

Amber considered the words, the truth and the coldness of them. "You feel I should allow her to pursue Lord Sunther?"

"They have an affection for one another," Lady Marchent said. "Many couples would wish for as good a start. Did you not just tell me that you would not stand in the way of Lord Norwin's attachment? You can give the same consideration to your sister."

"Lord Sunther is the most eligible man in all of London, Mama. For Darra to secure his interests would mean that I would end in a position below her. I am still the eldest sister. Do you not feel bound by the expectation that I marry first and of the higher level?"

"You are in need of a match, and in such cases as this it is not to be expected that you supersede the future station of your sister." Her words were beginning to snap upon the edges, showing the fullness of her feelings. "I will accept whatever censure the ton may direct in exchange for the relief of you making an arrangement and retiring from London so as to recover from your condition outside the glare of society."

An acquaintance approached, and Lady Marchent's expression changed to one of welcome as she began to converse with her friend. After a moment, the two matrons removed from the edge of the dance floor, leaving Amber to stew over her mother's words alone.

No one had asked her to dance this set and the awkwardness she felt added to her enflamed nerves. That her mother expected Amber's condition to change her entire future was upsetting. And unfair. Amber had been groomed for this, taught and positioned to set the level. But it seemed that Amber was the only person who thought herself still capable of such a match. Which meant she was the only person to change the mind of everyone who doubted her abilities.

It took nearly an hour before Lord Sunther asked Amber to dance a second time. He had danced a fourth with Darra by then, and even Lady Marchent had shared her disapproval at the impropriety of such behavior; there would be no more dances between them tonight.

Lord Sunther and Amber were set opposite for a quadrille and each time they met up, Amber asked him a question about his family or what he liked best about London, desperately seeking some common topic of discussion she could use to get his attention. She was well studied in literature, history, and music and felt eager to make him mindful of her education as he was an intellect himself. He was polite in his short replies, and Amber knew she needed to make more of an impression.

When the dance finished and Lord Sunther was leading Amber back to the edge of the room, she pulled on his arm and pointed toward an elaborate stairway leading off the ballroom. "I believe the statue room is located up those stairs. Would you escort me to see Prinny's collection?" She turned her face toward him expectantly.

"Certainly," he said, with enough hesitation for Amber to notice, which only confirmed her course.

She pressed against his arm and thanked him profusely. His ears colored at her forwardness but she pretended not to notice. They took the stairs and wandered through the statue room, which was quite impressive although Amber had seen it before. Lord Sunther was quite informed on the history of several of the pieces, and Amber took confidence in his growing comfort the more she asked him about the statuary.

As Lord Sunther moved around a large piece, Amber moved quickly around the other side so it appeared an accident when they met face to face at the front. Amber giggled as though surprised, while Lord Sunther's ears colored and he took a step back. Amber took a step toward him, and he looked down at the neckline of her gown for a moment before looking back into her face. She made sure she did not show any embarra.s.sment of his notice. She reached out to run her finger along the lapel of his coat and watched his Adam's apple bob as he swallowed nervously. His ears were flaming red, but she kept her eyes locked on his own though her chest burned in embarra.s.sment for the lengths she was taking for his attention. How had she come to this? And yet, what other course did she have?

"My lord," Amber said in a throaty voice she hoped sounded seductive and not hoa.r.s.e. She'd been told her lower tones were already quite exciting to gentlemen, and she hoped taking them a degree lower would only add to the appeal. She moved closer, enough that she knew he could smell her cologne-and hardly ignore the neckline of her dress as he was trying to do since his first notice of it. "I must tell you that-"

"Lord Sunther?"

Amber whipped her head around and narrowed her eyes when she saw Darra standing a short distance away with another debutante. "What is happening here?"

"Miss Darra," Lord Sunther said, taking two large steps away from Amber, his ears nearing to burst into flames they were so bright. "I . . . Miss Sterlington wanted to see the statuary. I studied art history at Cambridge and was telling her of the different pieces. Would you like to join us on a tour?"

Darra looked between the two of them, keeping her expression neutral. She let her gaze finally settle on Lord Sunther and smiled sweetly. "My mother has requested Amber attend to her. My apologies for the interference in your tour."

"Not at all," Lord Sunther said, shaking his head. "We were nearly finished, were we not, Miss Sterlington?"

Amber hardly knew how to react, especially as she looked between Darra and Lord Sunther and saw what her mother had warned her was there-mutual affection. She had already lost Lord Norwin's interest this night, but now she realized she'd lost Lord Sunther even before that. In the process she had betrayed herself with such a low display of her own character.

Embarra.s.sed by her behavior and frightened at her dwindling prospects, Amber walked past her sister and the girl she did not know without speaking, intent on the stairs that led back to the ballroom and away from this place of humiliation. Darra must have followed them up the stairs. Had she known what Amber was planning? The thought embarra.s.sed her even more.

She reached the stairs and lifted her skirts as she began her descent, her thoughts tangling, her concerns growing, and questions regarding her own character overwhelming any good thought in regards to herself. She heard another footfall on the stairs and turned to see Darra's companion a few steps behind her. Amber did not recognize her and wondered if she was new to London during Amber's absence.

At the top of the stairs was Lord Sunther with Darra on his arm-his ears nearly returned to their normal shade. They looked so comfortable together, so . . . happy. Amber felt tears in her eyes at the full realization. They had found a connection between themselves that Amber had not found with any man. Would she ever find it?

What she'd said to her mother about requiring the first choice of men and her desire to outrank her younger sister suddenly sounded so infantile, so beyond the point. Why could Amber not be happy for her sister? Why could she not find someone with such affinity herself?

She was nearly to the base of the stairs when she felt someone brush against her skirt from behind. Startled, she turned to see Darra's friend only one step above her. At the same moment, there was a tug at the back of her head as the girl took hold of the crowning braid of the wig and pulled. Amber grabbed for the girl's hand, but then felt the girl's fingers slide beneath the binding. This girl was not simply pulling Amber's hair without understanding it was not real, she was attempting to remove the wig entirely!

"No, please." Amber could not keep a grip as the girl moved backward up the stairs, holding tightly to Amber's wig as she went. Amber stumbled upward and back, tripping on her skirts. She let go of the girl's arm and grabbed hold of the wig with both hands, pulling it against her head while attempting to hurry down the stairs, away from this fiend and her dark intentions.

The girl did not let go but moved down the stairs with her, a firm grip on the edge of the wig just behind Amber's right ear. Two steps from the bottom, Amber tripped on her dress and fell against the railing. The girl fell with her, knocking her down and causing them both to tumble down the remaining stairs. Amber hit her knee, then her hip, and ended in a heap at the bottom of the flamboyant marble stairs, tangled in the layered fabric of her dress and dazed from the fall.

She was vaguely aware of the girl scrambling away amid the sound of gasps and screams from the crowd concentrated in the ballroom. The orchestra staggered to a stop as Amber attempted to right herself, using her hands to push herself into a sitting position. After regaining her equilibrium, she blinked up at the crowd, took in their horrified expressions that felt too severe, and then gingerly reached up to touch her head as her chest went cold. Instead of feeling the comforting bulk of the wig, she felt nothing but the remnants of her own cropped hair and the remaining damage to her scalp.

No wig. No binding.

She could not breathe as reality descended upon her in the form of pointing fingers, open mouths, and shocked expressions of the ton Amber knew in an instant she no longer belonged to.

Chapter 14.

The ripple of horrified gasps moved through the crowd like a wave, drawing Thomas's attention away from the gentlemen with whom he was conversing and toward the other side of the room. People were moving that direction, their reactions rising in volume. Thomas was merely curious until he saw Darra Sterlington standing beside Lord Sunther in the middle of the stairway, above the rest of the crowd. Darra's face was pale as she stared at something below her. Lord Sunther was equally shocked, his mouth open and his eyes the size of saucers.

"What's that all about?" Fenton asked, waving idly toward the tightening crowd.

"Perhaps Mrs. Miston's stays finally gave out," Sir Crosby said with a grin. "If so, you owe me forty pounds, Fenton."

Thomas grunted in a semblance of laughter until he heard a cry that struck recognition within him. The sound of sobbing reached his ears a moment later. He pivoted in an instant but was jostled to the side as Lady Marchent made her way quickly toward the source of the distress. Thomas looked at Darra Sterlington for only a moment before falling in step behind Lady Marchent.

The Sterlington family had arrived together shortly after he and Fenton had been introduced, and he had noted Miss Sterlington as he did every time she entered a room. She had not presented as the shining diamond she'd been earlier in the season, her recent illness had dimmed her somewhat, but his reaction to her was as strong and unwelcome as ever. He'd set about avoiding her for this evening, as he always did when they attended the same events. Where was she now? From the urgency of Lady Marchent's movements and the look upon Darra Sterlington's face he feared he was about to find out.

Lady Marchent attempted to push her way through the crowd and Thomas stepped in front of her to help part the guests until they reached the edge of the circle of people a.s.sessing the scene. Huddled at the base of the stairs was the very subject of his pondering, curled around herself with her arms over her head as she sobbed and rocked back and forth. Her emerald-colored skirts were askew, and a silver slipper lay discarded some feet away. Had she fallen down the steps? Was she injured?

He moved aside so Lady Marchent could reach her daughter and therefore was close enough to hear Lady Marchent grumble under her breath, "Stupid girl," before she came to a stop several feet away from her daughter.

Miss Sterlington looked up at her mother and in the process revealed herself. A fresh reaction rose through the crowd, and Thomas fell back a step in shock. That hair-so beautiful and admired-existed now only in short tufts interspersed between red welts and scabs. If not for the large green eyes-desperate and frightened-he would doubt it was Miss Sterlington at all. But it was her. What had happened?

"Diseased," he heard a woman say behind him.

"Repulsive," a man repeated.

The sound that bubbled up from Miss Sterlington's throat sounded like that of a child. "Mama," she cried.

Her mother did not go to her, however, and though Thomas could not see her face, he imagined Lady Marchent's reaction was not much different than everyone else in the crowd. Was no one to help her? The look on Miss Sterlington's face was of such pain and distress that he quickly shrugged off his coat and stepped forward, in front of Lady Marchent who had not approached any closer than anyone else in the room.

Miss Sterlington looked at him, first with fear and then grat.i.tude as she seemed to realize his intent. She lifted a hand toward his coat, and he helped throw it over her head. She pulled the lapels tight beneath her chin, hiding her horrifying head, and turned her splotchy face to her mother. "Mama," she said in that same pathetic voice. "Help me."

The words seemed to hang in the air, as if her mother were still considering whether a.s.sisting her daughter was the best course, but then a servant to Carlton House stepped forward.

The footman helped Miss Sterlington to her feet-she seemed to have injured her ankle-and then turned to Lady Marchent. "Which is your carriage, Madam?"

Thomas looked at the embarra.s.sed expression of Lady Marchent as the woman finally moved to her daughter. She ushered the footman and Miss Sterlington toward a doorway. Thomas stood with the crowd as they made their exit, Thomas's coat disappearing with them. Darra Sterlington followed a few steps behind her mother and sister, her head hung low, avoiding eye contact with anyone. The whispers and twittering continued until the orchestra started up again. When had it stopped? Thomas wondered.

The guests slowly began to move away from the scene of Miss Sterlington's humiliation, but Thomas remained rooted in place, reviewing what he'd seen and what it meant. Her head was revolting, just as someone had said, and yet the look on her face, the fear and humility was . . . striking. He could not make sense of it and fought the urge to go after her. If he could think of a purpose in his pursuit perhaps he would do it.

"Good grief," Fenton said as he came up beside Thomas and looked in the direction Miss Sterlington had disappeared. "If that is not the most fearsome spectacle I have ever seen in my life, I don't know what is. And at Prinny's ball, no less." He tsked before taking a long drink of his champagne. "And you're left in your shirtsleeves, almost as shocking."

Thomas looked at his grinning friend, dazed by the events of the last few minutes. "What has happened to her?"

"I've only ever seen a condition like that on the most disease-riddled rakes," Fenton said, still smiling. "Every man in this room is thanking the heavens for fair warning, or perhaps some men are even now shaking in their boots for what may yet come upon them."

"That is beyond the pale," Thomas said sharply, causing Fenton to raise his eyebrows in surprise as his smile fell. Most times, Thomas appreciated his friend's lightness but not in this. "Miss Sterlington has given no reason for anyone to suspect her virtue. She is not some cur who's made his rounds with lightskirts for a decade or more."

"Begging your pardon, Richards," Fenton said, looking surprised at Thomas's reprimand. "I simply know of no other explanation for such a condition. We have both remarked at her excessive flirting, have we not?"

"If flirting is a reflection of virtue, than you are in serious peril of your own reputation, Fenton."

Fenton did not make a joke of Thomas's reb.u.t.tal as Thomas had known he would not. Fenton's morality was higher than that of most men, though he did not draw attention to what most of society saw as a flaw rather than a virtue. Thomas would have expected Fenton's morality to give him more decorum in such a matter. "Touche," Fenton said with adequate humility before finishing his gla.s.s. "I think I shall get another drink."

Once alone, Thomas looked about himself to see a few quickly averted glances. Surely the other guests were commenting on the impropriety of him being without his coat at such a high-ton event. He shook his head, disgusted with the whole of London and society in general. A young woman had faced public humiliation of the worst kind and yet they still had enough judgment left for his lack of a coat.

Thomas had no doubt that everyone in the room was drawing the same conclusion Fenton had: that whatever had caused the hideous state of Miss Sterlington's hair and head was a result of some immoral action on her part. Miss Sterlington, and perhaps her entire family, could face ruin simply from the rumor of the possibility. Doors would be shut, gossip would infect morning visits, and the attention Miss Sterlington had received until now would turn on her completely.

Another servant approached him and leaned forward to speak softly. "Sir, may I a.s.sist you in locating a coat so that you will be properly attired?"

"Thank you, no," Thomas said, keeping his back straight and his chin up. "I have had all the entertainment I can stand for one night. Good evening."

Chapter 15.

Three days after the ball at Carlton House, Amber was summoned to Lord Marchent's study. She wore a mobcap and her dressing gown as she entered the room, head down and hands clasped behind her back.

"Do sit down, Amber," Lord Marchent said, waving her to a leather chair. Amber sat on the edge of the cushion, her body rigid with expectation. Lady Marchent was seated in another chair, her hands folded demurely in her lap.

"I have made arrangements," Lord Marchent said, looking over his spectacles at his eldest daughter. He was a handsome man, with a full head of hair just beginning to gray at the temples and piercing green eyes that Amber had inherited. Unlike many men his age, he had not grown portly and soft, but was as broad as any young buck, but with the presence and severity of a man of t.i.tle.

More than ever before, Amber marked him as much a stranger to her as any other young woman's father. He was Lord Marchent, and not much else; she wondered if he felt the same detachment to her as she felt to him.

"Your mother has spoken to you about returning to Hampton Grove for the duration of the season," he continued. "She says you do not wish to return there."

Amber shook her head but could not speak, the fear and sorrow was too thick in her throat. She had told her mother she did not want to return to Somerset-too many people would have heard what happened. Too many people would come for gossip disguised as sympathy, and Amber felt such frailty within herself that she knew it would not take much for her to break into a thousand pieces. The faces at Carlton House haunted her.

"I have considered all other possibilities," Lord Marchent continued, "and decided upon an estate in the North Country, away from society and connections that might seek you out. I think it will meet the need most comfortably."

"In Nottingham?" Amber asked. Lord Marchent traveled to his Nottingham estate a few times a year; it was his largest holding of land and therefore quite profitable. He had often remarked that the family would live there if not for its distance from London. Amber had not been to Nottingham for several years and knew no one in that county. It could be a good escape; the estate was not nearly as large as Hampton Grove but would be comfortable for a single occupant not of a mind to entertain visitors.

"Not Nottingham," Lord Marchent said, shaking his head. "This estate is near Romanby-just south of that village, in fact. I travel there but once a year to meet with the caretaker and solicitor. I have thought to sell it in the past, but it brings in profit enough to support itself so I have maintained it."

Amber furrowed her brow. "Romanby?"

"Just south of Northallerton," her father said. He removed his spectacles and ma.s.saged the bridge of his nose as though her questions were taxing his patience. "Yorkshire. You'll be safe there and very comfortable as you convalesce. I have sent word to have the house readied for you in time for your arrival."

Amber blinked in surprise and looked at her mother. "It's all decided, then? I have no say?"

"You refused to return to Hampton Grove," Lady Marchent reminded her. "Your father and I have discussed the options, and this is the best one available. You will be comfortable there, and no one will know of what happened here in London."

"Am I to go alone?" Amber asked. She knew her father would not leave London until parliament finished their session, but surely her mother would not send her so far away alone. Yorkshire was at least a two-day journey.

"I shall come as soon as I can," her mother said, looking into her lap and straightening a fold in the skirt of her morning gown. "I'm afraid that Darra and I cannot be in readiness to go with you now."

"Darra is not to come," Amber spat, filled with the fire she felt each time she thought of her sister's betrayal. "She did this, Mama. She and her friend."

Lady Marchent gave her a look of irritation. "Darra claims no part of it. Furthermore it was Darra's idea to explain that the rinse you had already talked of had gone further awry than we dared to say, resulting in your horrific state. People have been accepting of such an explanation, and you have Darra to thank for the rescue. We need to remain in London so as to show our confidence in your eventual return once you are properly recovered. Should we all leave, it will seem a far greater scandal."

"Your mother will come as soon as she is able," Lord Marchent said, drawing the full attention of both women. "Your maid has agreed to attend you for the duration of time you spend away."

A maid for her companion was hardly compensation for everything Amber would be leaving behind. "Yorkshire is so far away," she said. "Could I not go to Nottingham instead? Then I shall only be a day's journey from all of you, and I am not well enough known there that-"

Lord Marchent fixed her with a look that caused her to drop her gaze to the floor once more. "I have already sent word to have Step Cottage prepared for you. I shall not consider other arrangements."

"Yes, my lord," Amber murmured, still staring at the rug beneath her feet.

"Your maid is packing your trunks even now," Lady Marchent said. "And your father has ordered the traveling carriage readied for your journey. Two groomsmen will attend you for a few days' time upon arrival, procuring you a carriage and seeing to any other tasks of your comfort before they return with the coach. They shall be meeting with your father's steward who, along with your father's man of business in Northallerton, will see that your needs are met."