A Returnee Wants To Play VRMMO 52 Please Take Care Of Me Unedited

A young man with silver hair and eyes sat on the ground while he leaned on a tall tree in the middle of a mystical looking forest, his entire body was covered with mortifying injuries that each one seemed more fatal and painful than the other, but all the young man did was to close his eyes and breath in a steady rhythm as if there is nothing that should bother him from having a nice nap.

This kind of physical damage has long since stopped to bother him. If he wanted to survive in the type of life he chose to have, then this little bit of pain isn't something he could allow himself to be influenced by.

"[To go through all of this suffering just to save a few of my little children…]" a warm voice that seemed like it was spoken by an ethereal and pure being echoed throughout the forest yet strangely enough was heard only by the young man.

"[Although I feel endless grat.i.tude for the help you give us-no, this world, my heart couldn't help but feel torn apart in pain when I see what you need to go through in order to accomplish that. Are you sure that you aren't willing to go on a different path? What can this path already give you?]"

Although the voice didn't break or changed much in tone, the deep grief and sadness of its owner could clearly be sensed. If an ordinary person were to hear it, he would certainly burst out in tears and sob.

"...I know that there are other ways," the young man was silent for a few moments before opening his mouth and speaking with his eyes still closed, "But I long since decided that this one is the one that I deserve for the most, I am not worthy for other ways I did too many things to say myself that I can try differently."

"[Why do you want to keep treating yourself like that?]" the voice spoke in despair, "[No one blames you for what you did, and compared to others you-]"

"But I am not like others right!?" the young man cut off the voice with a slightly twisted smile, one full of melancholy, "I live in this twisted world while having this d.a.m.n [Trait] that doesn't go away even when I seal almost all of my emotions, I have on my back the death and agony of countless friends and close ones which made me and others scared to even get close to me, and unlike the others who were born in this cursed world, I am well aware that my sins are too severe to just let it go and move on. Sometimes I wish I was just killed and drop-dead instead of living like that every day."

"[...You know that you are way too severe with yourself, are you?]" an upper body of a gorgeous lady in her 30s came out from the tree with a with tearful face and warmly hugged the young man from behind with the head resting on his shoulder, the voice was then heard after a short silence and spoke from the woman mouth with a tone so gentle and warm that it felt like a mother speaking to her little baby.

"[Both of us know that you have people close to you aside from me, and they will be also sad if they would hear you speaking those words, especially those two girls. They will probably cry just from seeing you making this expression.]"

"They deserve better than a broken man," whether it was from the mentions of the girls or the hug that felt like the warmest and most comfortable shelter in the world, the young man body relaxed ever so slightly, causing the woman to let out a small smile and tighten her hug around him while streaming a warm and pure energy into him and heal his body at rapid pace.

"[Is that so? I actually think that you are the one that deserves better than those little girls. You are talented and grow stronger at an unstoppable rate. You give 100% of yourself when others need help. And most importantly, you are the kindest, gentlest, most loving man that I, the Spirit Queen, ever met. How are they were even worthy of capturing the heart of someone as amazing as you is something I don't understand.]"

"You know that I hate it when you are saying these things," the young man sighed and his expression turned somber, "Having these traits in this world is only a recipe for disaster, and as I grow stronger so does the dangers I put others in. Maybe someday in the future, I will feel safe again to not reject others. But for now, all I want is to close my eyes and rest until the next fight I will have to fight."

As he finished his words his breath began to turn slower and steadier as if he fell to deep sleep.

"[I know that you are not going to stop anytime soon,]" the Spirit Queen expression turned sad and tears began slowly to fall out from her eyes, but she didn't let go of the young man and instead came out with all of her body from the tree and kissed the young man forehead before laying his head on her laps and gently caressed his cheeks, "[But always remember this: even though you think of yourself as a broken man who doesn't deserve anything good to himself, even though you have blood of many on your hands, and even though you keep distancing yourself from others, you will always be my child that I adore the most even if everyone else will hate you.]"

"..." the young man was quiet for a moment before asking with a weak voice, "Even though I am not a Spirit you gave birth to?"

"[You child,]" the Spirit Queen smiled warmly as if she heard a very happy thing and caressed his hair slowly, "[We both know that Spirits don't treat their children with love just because they gave birth to them, they love them and treat them as their children because they purely love them for who they are and want the best for them. I don't care that you are not one of the children I gave birth to, my love for you will never disappear. Even if you say no, I will forever treat you as my son and will hug you and give you a shoulder to cry on.]"

"...You have been saying it ever since I can remember, but I never acknowledged it. Are you really okay with it?"

"[Fufu~ it seems that you didn't accept a motherly love into yourself yet.]"

"I don't know if I ever would."

"[I know you would. Because there is no one more stubborn than a loving mother.]"

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"Mother…"

Nex murmured inaudibly and then slightly opened his eyes only to feel tears streaming from his eyes before realizing the cause, 'How long was it since I last had a dream about her?'

"Nex?" a gentle voice was heard and woke him up completely, making him suddenly notice that he was tightly holding a soft and lithe hand in his palm, turning his head he saw Jane staring at him with a worried gaze, "Are you okay?"

"Yes, don't worry about it," Nex smiled and tried to release his hand in order to wipe the tears but the moment he showed signed of loosening his grip, Jane quickly held his hand strongly like a vice and stared at him with a serious yet fragile expression that he didn't see from her before.

"Don't," she spoke with a soft voice that made him wonder if it was even the real Jane, "I know that you are going to say it is okay and that I shouldn't worry but please let me stay like that for a bit more okay?"

"...Okay," Nex stared at her for a few moments before nodding and then wiping his tears with his other hand.

He looked around and realized that he is inside a room, inside the dojo judging by the style, lying on a simple bed and seeing the daylight light that came from the window he was probably asleep for no more than a few hours.

"Where is everyone?" he asked upon realizing that no else is in the room aside from them.

"Outside, with the group of the Sword Saint," she said simply while staring at him with a face that said she has a lot of rampaging emotions inside her, "They look up to you and adore you, I didn't want them to see you at your current situation."

"I see," his face become solemn before turning into a smile again.

"But you can call them in now, I am-" he fought the rampaging pain in his body and tried to lift himself to a sitting position but before he managed to move much, Jane pushed him back down with a stern expression.

"You are not allowed to say that!" she said once again with the soft voice that for some reason made Nex helpless against, "The healers said that your body was so wounded and overtaxed that it is a miracle you didn't die instantly from the shock."

"I know it seems like I was in bad shape," Nex smiled wryly, "But-"

"Over 30 broken bones, and almost twice the number of deep cuts," Jane cut him off and started to say a list of injuries as her face and voice became more and more fragile, "Almost all of the internal organs suffered shock with the major ones entering a critical state. The normal person in this state will most likely die in a short amount of time and will experience an excruciating amount of pain as long as he is conscious. Pain so great that for every moment they experience it, their mental scar will grow in accordance."

"Congratulations, you won," tears began to fall from Jane's face as she said the next with her voice completely breaking apart, "I guess… you… kept your promise… but… I still need you… to tell me…"

She laid her face on his chest as she sobbed and hit his chest with the strength of a mosquito.

"Why… why did you have to do it like that!? Couldn't you just think of another way!? Must you do it in a way that gives you so much pain and suffering!?"

'd.a.m.n it! I guess I can't really get rid of this habit!' Nex cursed internally upon realizing that in the end, he still broke the promise.

He then lifted his gaze and stared at the normally headstrong beauty that kept crying and hammering his chest and felt like he was once again back in Perias when he first brought suffering to the ones he loved. Although there was no force behind the hits, they each gave to him more pain than any of the injuries he got in the battle against the Saint, 'I really am a sc.u.m. In the end, the problem will always end up being me.'

"Jane," Nex opened his mouth and said gently, "I am sorry for what I did. But this is just part of me that I have for a very long time and I don't think I could change it on a whim. So if you want me to go away from your life then I promise that I would go away, right after giving you all the knowledge you need in order to solve your OverSoul."

Hearing his words, Jane lifted her head and stared at Nex with a confused look, "What are you saying?"

"I am a piece of trash that lied to you and made you suffer aren't I?" Nex smiled in a self-deprecating manner, "I am probably a bad influence on Eddie and should say goodbye to him as well don't I?"

"Please tell me you are joking," Jane frowned as she saw the lonely expression on Nex face that showed he was used to saying things like that, she knew he wasn't pretending or trying to trick her.

"Why would I joke?" Nex smiled dryly, "I am a b.a.s.t.a.r.d that doesn't deserve to be part of your-"

*Slap*

"Yeah, you're a b.a.s.t.a.r.d," Jane opened her mouth after she retracted her hand and spoke with an angry voice, "And sure as h.e.l.l a bad influence on Eddie. But you know what more?"

"You are also a good person," she said in a gentle tone and shocked him, "And you obviously care about Eddie, Elise," she blushed a little and then added, "And me."

"You'd stop at nothing to help others, even if it means to get your body wrecked."

"You saved my life and helped me when no one else could. You are the first person in years that Eddie got close to and I don't want to think what Elise would have done if it wasn't for you."

"But most importantly," Jane stared deeply at Nex's eyes as her face got closer to his, "If you think that you are going to just go away and leave because you made me upset then I have news for you."

And before Nex knew it, Jane's soft lips met his own.

Nex's eyes widened slightly in shock but before he managed to do anything, Jane retracted her now beet-red face and stared at him with a resolute expression while tightening her hold on his hand.

"You have to go past me first."

Nex's face was a little blank before he smiled dryly, 'd.a.m.n, to think that having more emotions will actually make me denser. This is one funny irony.'

"I am a man that went through too many things to say that everything is fine with me. Are you sure about your decision?"

To say the truth, it may be because of his unsealed emotions, but he couldn't deny the fact that he developed some feelings for Jane. And because he had those feeling he felt reluctant to get her close to the mess of a man that he is.

Jane seemed to know his emotions as her eyes softened and she reached her hand and caressed his face while speaking in her soft tone.

"I know that you have been through bad things, the fact that you try to hide it from us so much pretty much show it," she gave him a small smile that managed to go straight to his soul, "And I know that I probably can't say I been through similar stuff, but I am sure of one thing."

"Whatever you have been through, it is already behind you, so all you need to do now is to enjoy your life right now."

'It is already behind you.'

*Thump*

Nex's heart began to pound strongly. How long was it since he last hoped for someone to say those words? Maybe only before he decided to try and shut his heart off and seal his emotions? And it seems that Jane was aware of this as she smiled softly and put her forehead against his and started to once again say words that made him feel like he is going to a different world, no, home.

"You don't have to worry about what happened to you because it no longer matters."

*Thump!*

"You don't have to seal yourself inside so others will not need to worry for you."

*Thump!*

"You are the man that even though he been through horrible stuff still smile and help whoever in need. The annoying idiot that isn't aware when he says embarra.s.sing and moronic stuff and cry like a kid when he doesn't get his so-called "heavenly meals". And the stupidly handsome no-good that made me fall helplessly in love with him like a naive schoolgirl."

*Thump!* *Thump!* *Thump!*

"You are Nexus," She stared at his eyes and said with a wide smile before adding with a wink, "But you prefer Nex."

And this was the last straw for Nex, he lifted himself to a sitting position and grabbed her shoulder with his free hand and gently got her closer to him without her resisting.

And once again, they were kissing. But not one-sided shy peck like what Jane did earlier, but a fierce and intimate exchange of emotions. And although it was obvious that Jane didn't any experience in the matter, Nex couldn't care less about at this as all he wanted to do is cherish this stunningly beautiful angel that made him finally start to awake from the reality he desperately locked himself into a very long time ago, too much long ago.

After a few minutes of kissing, Nex got away from the slightly reluctant Jane that got slightly intoxicated from the experience and hugged her close to his chest as if she is the most precious thing in the world.

"Y-you better take responsibility," Jane hammered his chest softly and stuttered as she panted while her face was flushed and her eyes were misty, forming a charming image, "Who the h.e.l.l kiss like that right after being confessed to?"

"Oh, didn't you know?" Nex smiled as stroked her head and hair lovingly and held her hand tightly, "I am a messed up person, so if someone says me such beautiful words as you did, I am going to keep that person close to me as much as possible. If someone here needs to take responsibility then that someone is you."

"Hmph!" she buried her head in his chest and tried to pinch his side without being able to use any force, "You really are a no-good moron."

"I know," he smiled softly and kissed the head of the gorgeous person who did what he didn't think is possible anymore.

Made him feel the will to have a new love.

"Please take care of me."