Wolfsbane. Part 20

Aralorn pursed her lips, and said, "Nevyn is very fond of my brother. Do you think that he would encourage anyone he cared for to go through the same abuse he suffered?"

"That's a very serious charge," observed Kisrah softly. "Untrained wizards are a danger to themselves and everyone around them."

"So are trained wizards," said Aralorn. Before the wizards she strolled with could comment, she continued blandly. "My brother cast a spell in his sleep. He didn't have a chance to resist. My understanding, from the stories I've heard, is that a formal apprenticing would have protected him from such use."

"Yes," agreed Kisrah. "There are not many mages who can control the minds of others in such a fashion, anyway-even with black magic at their call. But given that the consequences of such control are dire, precautions are always taken. Apprentices are safeguarded."

"You'll have problems with my brother," predicted Aralorn. "Nevyn is convinced that magic, any magic, is evil. I think he's managed to persuade my brother. Most especially, shapeshifters are abominations."

"Magic isn't evil," said Kisrah.

"All Darranians believe magic is evil," said Aralorn. "Geoffrey ae'Magi believed that and embraced it. Nevyn believes it, and he's trying his best to protect my brother. We need Gerem's cooperation to save my father. We need you to get Nevyn to ask him to help."

"I can get Nevyn to help," agreed Kisrah, a bit more optimistically than Aralorn felt was warranted, but maybe he knew Nevyn better than she. "Shall we meet tonight in the bier room?"

Wolf shook his head. "This kind of black magic doesn't require the night. You all will be more comfortable in the daylight."

"Black magic?" questioned Kisrah sharply. "It shouldn't be necessary to unwork the spell with black magic."

"This spell was set with blood and death by three wizards. It will require sacrifice to unwork," Wolf said.

"I thought that black magic couldn't be worked in the day," said Aralorn.

"It can be worked anytime," answered Kisrah.

"Sometimes it works better at night," corrected Wolf. In the shadows of the hedge, his pale golden eyes glittered with light reflected from the snow on the ground. The harsh macabre voice somehow made the barren garden something strange and frightening. "Terror can add power to a spell, and fear is easier to inspire in the night."

Aralorn noticed that Kisrah's even pace had faltered. Wolf only did things like this when he was in a particularly dark mood. She hoped that it was nothing more than talking about black magic that had brought it on and not something about unworking the spell to free the Lyon.

She hid her worry, and said dryly, "You sound like a ghoul, Wolf." Her words cut through the mood Wolf had established, and the garden was merely a collection of plants awaiting spring again. "Is there something you haven't told me about yourself?"

He flattened his ears in mock irritation, and said direly, "Much. But if the thought of my late sire's ghost has failed to touch your undeveloped sense of prudence, nothing I have done will accomplish that either."

Aralorn watched Kisrah's expression out of the corner of her eye and was satisfied when humor replaced the unease that had been in his face earlier. The G.o.ds knew that Wolf was not a soothing man to a.s.sociate with, but there was no need to worry Kisrah at this point.

"Tomorrow morning, then?" said Kisrah. "At first dawn?"

Aralorn nodded. "Tomorrow."

"Kisrah," said Wolf. "What did you kill to work your spell?"

"A Uriah," he said uncomfortably. "I had intended to use my own blood-it should have been enough. I was working the spell in the bas.e.m.e.nt workroom when a pa.s.sageway door opened, and the Uriah came stumbling in. It must have escaped the Sianim mercenaries who took care of cleaning up the Uriah Geoffrey left scattered about. I killed it, and the spell slipped my control and used the creature's death instead of my blood."

"Ah," said Wolf. "Thank you."

Kisrah nodded and turned on his heel with every sign of a man escaping.

"Uriah," said the hawk after Kisrah was gone, settling on the top of a trellis that bore the th.o.r.n.y gray vines of a climbing rose. "Human sacrifice. Aralorn, I begin to believe what you told me this morning. Maybe I have been underestimating human mages." He stared coldly down at Wolf.

"How did you know what the Uriah are?" asked Aralorn.

"Human mages are very good at warping things unnaturally," said Halven. "Any shapeshifter looking at a Uriah can see the true nature that human magic has perverted. Only a human mage could be so blind as to not understand his own work. Why didn't you tell him that he'd made your task more difficult?"

"I would rather the secret of their making die with my father," Wolf said. "I do not expect that Kisrah would be anything but repelled-but he might tell others or write it down for someone to discover."

"Ah," said Halven. "Sometimes it is a good thing that human mages are so blind, and some knowledge is best lost. But Kisrah's ignorance has caused you trouble." Halven sighed. "I had better help you control your magic, Nephew. So much of your magics require balance-of which Kisrah has some, you have little, Gerem has none, and Nevyn has less than that."

"He's in worse shape than I am?" asked Wolf, sounding surprised, but Aralorn thought it was more because Halven named him nephew than her uncle's a.s.sessment of Nevyn.

Halven laughed. "Nevyn has been broken and badly mended. Your spirit is strong as an oak, wolf-wizard. It may be a bit battered, but as long as you don't misdirect it, you'll be fine." He c.o.c.ked his head at Aralorn. "There is something different since your marriage. You may be right."

"She's right about what?" asked Wolf.

"You keep out of this, Uncle," snapped Aralorn. "Wolf, can we talk of this later?"

She could have sworn that there was laughter in Wolf's eyes, but it was gone almost before she saw it. She couldn't think of anything they'd said that he would find funny.

"If you'd like," Wolf said.

"I can't do anything about the nature of the sacrifice," said Halven. "I can't do anything about Nevyn. But I think I can help you with your magic problem. Aralorn, haven't you taught him to center?"

"I can't center," she said, exasperated. "Just how do you expect me to teach someone else? Besides, centering is more of an exercise in ..." Her voice trailed off as she realized what she was going to say. can't center," she said, exasperated. "Just how do you expect me to teach someone else? Besides, centering is more of an exercise in ..." Her voice trailed off as she realized what she was going to say.

"Control." Her uncle's voice was smug. "We need someplace warm and private."

"We can work in my room," suggested Aralorn. "That would allow us some privacy and warmth as well."

"I'll meet you there," said the hawk, taking flight.

"Wolf," said Aralorn, once they were alone.

"Yes?"

"You haven't worked black magic since you left your father's home, have you?"

"No."

Aralorn tilted her face into the sun, though she felt no warmth on her skin. "I don't know a lot about human magic, but I do know that good seldom comes from evil. I don't want you to hurt yourself to save my father."

"Aralorn," said Wolf, "you worry too much. I have worked such magic before."

"And chose not to do it again, until now." She turned a rock over with the toe of her boot and kicked it into the snow.

"This is not your doing, Lady. It is my father's work."

"Would you work black magic if it were not my father?" she asked.

"Would he be ensorcelled if he weren't your father?" he returned. "We'd best not keep your uncle waiting. I'll be all right, Aralorn."

Wolf is the only expert I have, thought Aralorn. thought Aralorn. If he says there will be no harm in it for him . . . If he says there will be no harm in it for him . . . He'd never tell her if there was. He'd never tell her if there was.

Frowning unhappily, she started back for the castle, with Wolf padding by her side.

Aralorn lay on the bare floor of her room and reconsidered calling her room warm-without the rugs to cover it, the floor was icy. Halven was taking Wolf through some basic meditation exercises, things she'd learned the first summer she'd spent with him.

In honor of the lesson, her uncle had taken on the shape of a venerable old man, with a rounded face and belly-someone to inspire confidence, she supposed.

Wolf, to Aralorn's surprise, had left the mask off. Halven had already seen the scars, of course-but Wolf used the mask as much for a shield as he did to cover his scars.

"Now, stop that," her uncle admonished Wolf, in tones Aralorn would bet tomorrow's winnings against Falhart that no one had used on Wolf in a very long time, if ever. "I don't want you to do anything to the wood-just feel it. See the growth patterns, the years where water was hard to come by and the years where it was abundant. Feel the difference between the old oak of the original floor and the plank of maple that someone used to replace an old board-yes, that's the one. Let yourself feel how much easier magic slides through the oak than it does through the maple. Aralorn, an exercise does no good unless you do it."

"Yes, sir." She grinned, obediently losing herself in the pitted surface of the wooden floorboards.

There was almost a sensuous pleasure in working with the wood. Oak had a sparkle to it that always made her feel as if she ought to glow with joy while she worked with it. Not that she could do much more with it than look. A few shapes, some basic spells, and a little inventive lock picking-that was about as far as her command of magic went. That didn't mean that she couldn't enjoy it for its own sake.

"Now that you know the wood beneath you, children, I want you to concentrate on yourselves. Feel the texture of the floor against your skin, the fabric that separates you from the support of the wood. Ideally, of course, there would be no fabric, but I understand that you humans are sensitive about exposing your bodies. As I discovered in training Aralorn, the distraction of the clothing is less by far than the distraction of not wearing any at all."

"Not to mention it's warmer this way," murmured Aralorn, her eyes still closed.

"Enough, child. I am the teacher here. You will merely listen and absorb my wisdom."

"Of course. I shiver at your feet in humble awe at the-"

"Kessenih"-he interrupted-"would be happy to take over the training of you; I believe that she offered to do it the last summer you came to us."

Kessenih, as Aralorn recalled, had wanted to peel the skin from her feet and make her walk back to Lambshold-who'd have thought she'd have gotten so upset over a chicken egg in her shoe?

"Yes, sir. Sorry, sir."

Halven had changed, she thought. He'd always been cold to her, though he'd sponsored her training. After a moment she decided it could be that she, herself, had changed. As a child, she'd always been too much in awe of Halven to tease him. She'd never been able to relax around him, but now . . . everything crystallized, like a wooden puzzle that suddenly slid into shape.

It felt odd seeing herself in the way she had always been able to look into wood, to feel her heart beat and know know why it did. Like an outsider, she could see into the fears and petty angers, touch the bond that tied her to her mate. why it did. Like an outsider, she could see into the fears and petty angers, touch the bond that tied her to her mate.

"I've got got it ..." It startled her so much that she sat up and lost it again, but she laughed anyway. it ..." It startled her so much that she sat up and lost it again, but she laughed anyway.

"So you did," said Halven, sounding pleasantly surprised. "See if you can explain it to Wolf. Sometimes two talk better than one."

"What did you find?" asked Wolf.

"My center," she said, sounding as shocked, as elated as she felt. "I've always been able to sense it well enough that I can use magic, but it was never clear. Like being in a boat and knowing that there's water under me, but not being in the lake myself."

"So this time you fell in?" Wolf sounded amused.

Aralorn grinned at him. "And the water was superb, thank you."

"You," said Halven to Wolf, "have no sense of center at all, that I can see. Without centering, it is impossible to be grounded-to be aware of yourself and your surroundings at a level where it is safe to work green magic. If we can get you there, then having your magic run amok should no longer be a problem."

He ran a hand down his beard. "For human magic, this is not necessary-you control the magic with your thinking self. Like working a logic problem, with just a touch of artistry to give it form. Green magic is just the opposite. Your . . . emotions, your needs needs, generate the magic with just a touch of conscious control. Aralorn has been working half-blind for most of her life, and you you are wiggling puppet strings without knowing which string is connected to which puppet." He looked pleased with his a.n.a.logy, savoring it for a moment before turning back to Aralorn. "You found it once-do it again." are wiggling puppet strings without knowing which string is connected to which puppet." He looked pleased with his a.n.a.logy, savoring it for a moment before turning back to Aralorn. "You found it once-do it again."

It took her a while before she could do it reliably, but once she had it, Halven went back to work on Wolf.

If it had been difficult for Aralorn to relax into her center, it was nightmarish for Wolf. Control had been his bulwark for most of his life, a defense against the things he had done and what was done to him. Unless he could give it up, he would never be able to control his magic: a paradox he understood in his head, but not in his heart, where it mattered.

It made for a long afternoon. By the end of it, he was sweating, Halven was sweating, and Aralorn was exhausted, but Wolf came out of it with a better sense of self, if not precisely his center. An achievement that left Halven nodding grudgingly.

"At least," he said, helping Wolf to his feet, "you know that there are strings on your fingers now. If you don't know what they do, you can elect not to tug on them." He sounded almost as tired as he looked.

"Thank you," said Wolf.

Halven smiled slyly. "Couldn't do less for my sister's daughter's mate, now could I?" He slid from old man to bird shape. "I expect you to keep her in line."

"How?" asked Wolf, amused.

Halven let out a bark of laughter. "Don't know. I've never seen it done. Open the shutters now, and I leave you children to your rest."

"Well," Aralorn said after Halven had left, "I don't know about you, but I'm hungry."

Wolf gave her what might have been a wolfish smile without his scars, looking more relaxed than she'd ever seen him. "I could eat a sheep."

"You think so?" she said thoughtfully, pulling on her boots. "I'm not so sure; the local shepherds are awfully quick with their arrows."

He laughed, changing gracefully into wolf shape.

Most of the family was already eating when they made it to the great hall. Aralorn slipped into her old place between Falhart and Correy. Nevyn, sitting directly across from her, pointedly didn't look up when she sat down. Freya shrugged apologetically once and otherwise ignored her husband's distress.

". . . when I came out of the village smithy, there was my meek and ladylike wife screaming at the top of her lungs." Falhart stopped to eat a bite of food, giving Aralorn a quick view of his wife on his other side with her head bowed and a flush creeping up her cheekbones.

"I thought something was wrong and was charging to the rescue when I realized what she was saying." He cleared his throat and raised his ba.s.s rumble to a squeaky soprano. "Three geese, I tell you! I need three. I don't want four or two-I need three. I don't care if they are mated pairs. I am going to eat them, not breed them!" Falhart laughed.

Aralorn was too tired to join in the usual family chatter and picked at her food. The familiar scents and voices, some deeper now than they had been, were soothing.

She let her eyes trail across her siblings with the magic she'd been working all day. She'd occasionally been able to use her magic to look deeply into a person, but never for more than a moment or two.

It was an odd experience, her senses interpreting what her magic told her sometimes as color-Falhart radiated a rich brown that warmed those around him. Irrenna was musical chimes, clear and beautiful. Even though he sat at the far end of the table, Aralorn could feel Gerem's magic flickering eagerly, vibrating on her skin like the wings of a moth. One of the little children, a toddler, had it, too. She'd have to remember to tell her father . . . She turned abruptly and caught Nevyn staring at her.

Wide-eyed, she saw what Halven had meant when he'd said that Nevyn was broken and poorly mended. She had no experience to interpret what she saw, but it was like looking at a tree split by lightning. As the thought occurred to her, that's what she saw, as if an illusionist had superimposed the image over Nevyn's human form. One side of the tree struggled to recover, but the branches were gnarled, and the leaves were edged with an unhealthy gray. The other side was black and burnt.

Nevyn pulled his eyes away, but that didn't release Aralorn from the vision. Sharp teeth closed on her hand, and she dropped her eyes to see Wolf beneath the table, glowing like lightning. Dazed, she blinked her eyes rapidly, only to see the bright wolf imposed on her eyelids.

Wolf growled, and Aralorn took in a deep breath and set her magic aside.

"You are quiet tonight," said Correy in her ear. "Have you found out anything more about Father?"

His tone was conversational, so he hadn't noticed her doing anything unusual.

"Enough to be hopeful," she said, striving for a normal tone.

"Do you know who might have done it?" asked Freya.