Wilde West Part 1

Wilde West.

Walter Satterthwait.

This is dedicated to Jon Richards and Claudia Jessup, with thanks and love. The bears are for them.

Anyone who reads both this book and Richard Ellmann's magistral biography of Oscar Wilde will at once perceive the debt which the former owes to the latter. I've also plundered shamelessly from The Queen City by Lyle W. Dorsett and Michael McCarthy, and from Leadville: Colorado's Magic City by Edward Blair. I've played fast and loose with facts and dates, however (the Leadville Crystal Palace, for example, wasn't erected until 1896), and I'm totally responsible for all errors, exaggerations, and outright lies.

People are strange when you're a stranger ...

-Jim Morrison.

Under normal circ.u.mstances, s.e.xual desires become stabilized as soon as they meet adequate satisfaction.... Freud describes a case in which the husband and wife had reached an exceptionally high level of perversion before they met (they had practiced every perversion in the book); it was a completely happy marriage, which ended only when the husband was arrested for the murder of a rich American woman.

-Colin Wilson, Order of a.s.sa.s.sins.

Prologue.

AS HE STALKED IN the darkness past the tiny scurrying forms of the Chinese, through pockets of their mindless squealing chatter, he inhaled the stench of old fish and of human excrement, the reek of rotting fruit, the stink of the unnamable herbs and spices with which these people cooked their wretched food.

But he delighted in them, those smells; almost giddily he sucked them in and played them along the back of his throat. They provided proof that tonight, once again, his senses were preternaturally acute.

Not that he needed proof; no.

He needed nothing, lacked nothing. On a night such as this he was complete, he was whole. The boundaries of his interior self had expanded, miraculously, to meet exactly the boundaries of his physical body; he could feel, all over, his spirit pulsing just beneath the taut surface of his skin. He moved within the center of a perfection.

No, he needed nothing.

Wanted, yes. There was something, there was one small thing, one small tasty thing, he wanted. And this, by right, he would soon have. This he would soon take.

(Yes.).

The fog tonight was everywhere. It blurred the glow of the streetlamps, swirled around the corners of the tiny huddled shops, curled like smoke across the wooden sidewalk, whirled and eddied behind the clattering wooden wheels of the carriages and wagons. It comforted him, yes, of course, it a.s.sured him that the very elements, air and water, would collaborate with him in his quest: would give him the secrecy he required, would hide him.

But it was chill and it was damp. It hung about his clothes and pressed dense and clammy against his face, like the touch of a snail. It seeped through the dank leather of his gloves and it numbed his fingers.

But was this not merely another example of the heightening, the intensification, of all his senses? Yes, surely. Smell, taste, touch: each had been brought to a supreme throb of awareness by the diamond-like clarity of his purpose.

Vision, too: he saw things that others did not, could not. Looking into the faces of the people he pa.s.sed, he could detect, as clear to him as the outline of their fragile skulls, the cramped futility of the souls trapped within, the pathetic emptiness of their lives.

He very nearly felt sorry for them.

None of them would ever know for themselves the heights to which he had soared: those luminous ethereal reaches of experience and insight. None of them had bathed in that pure white infinite radiance. None had ever sensed the presence, the approval, of the Lords of Light.

Yes, that tingling, that numbness at the fingertips was a small price to pay for the life of marvel and wonder he had been granted.

And in any event, he would be warming those cold hands soon enough.

(Oh yes.) He felt antic.i.p.ation curl down his spine and ball itself like a cat at the base of his belly. He smiled.

(Oh yes.) The area he wanted, and had at last found, was on the fringes of Chinatown, near the docks. Here the seamen's bars crouched along narrow side streets, the dim light behind their small square windows casting a sickly yellow pall out onto the slowly swirling mist.

And here the wh.o.r.es walked.

Now that he had arrived at the hunting ground, his clothes seemed to fit more tightly on his body; his chest felt confined within shirt and vest, jacket and topcoat. It was as though the purpose, the power, that filled him had swelled his frame, had engorged bone and muscle and ligament.

He shivered, almost shuddered, with pleasure.

And no one, not one of them, would ever guess his secret.

How uncanny it was that he could present such a show of outward normality-could appear as insignificant to the others as they were in fact themselves-when inwardly his soul hummed with this awesome, irresistible strength. Outside, a simple mortal, unprepossessing; insignificant even. Inside, the same boundless energy that could furl tumults of storm cloud across a bloated moon, send lightning bolts crashing through the black sweep of rain. The energy of the Lords, the dark, forgotten G.o.ds who held sway over storm and fire.

The common run of man, given sudden dominion over this enormous power, would topple to his knees, wailing and gibbering; or all at once explode.

How uncanny that he could dissemble so; that through his own skill and cunning he had mastered the force within, learned to conceal it.

And how delicious-that, too. Really: how delicious.

In the air was the tang of stale urine, and of brine from the Bay, smelling of tears and phlegm. The night was sliding toward dawn and the streets were nearly deserted. No carriages rattled here, few pedestrians pa.s.sed; beneath the faint yellow blur of the streetlamps, the empty pavements disappeared off into darkness and fog.

Only a handful of the creatures would be left, of course. But he knew that among them he would find the one he wanted. As surely as he sought his destiny, his destiny sought him.

Lurching from a doorway just a few steps away came the first of them. It saw him, c.o.c.ked its big head, smiled its predatory red smile. "Lookin' for a piece of pie, handsome?"

(This one.) It was a big blowsy thing in its early twenties, bloodshot blue eyes and bright clownish lipstick smeared beyond the outline of its thin lips. It evidently took some pride in its hair, for this, blond and shining, was left uncovered and pulled back neatly into a heavy bun. In a sullen, bovine way the thing was almost handsome. But it was too bulky, too boxy, too heavy with meat.

(Take her.) And it was too young by far. It hadn't reached yet that peak of ripeness he required.

(Take her!) It didn't, finally, deserve his attentions.

(TAKE her!) He shook his head abruptly and stepped around it, careful not to touch it. He heard it bray with laughter behind him.

(Coward! Gutless spineless WRETCH!) The chill in the air was stronger; he drew his topcoat more tightly about himself.

(She frightened you! Too big, too strong!) He shoved his gloved hands into his pockets. Soon. He would find the right one soon. It was a certainty; it was fated.

(Soon! Soon!) One block farther along, he saw the second wh.o.r.e.

It stood just within the murky light of the streetlamp, leaning against the alley-side corner of a two-story brick building. Its eyes unfocused and its mouth slack, it wore a dreary black bonnet set askew above a damp disheveled tangle of red hair. It noticed his approach and it blinked several times, with an obvious effort gathering together the tatters of consciousness. Then it pushed itself off the wall, took a step, tottered, righted itself. Clutching a small purse down at its thigh with the stiff, exaggerated care of a drunk, it stumbled toward him.

He knew, by the sudden growing heaviness below his belly, that this was the one.

(Yes. Yes.) The creature leered, swaying slightly; "You want some p.u.s.s.y, honey?" It ran a lewd tongue over its lips. "You want some, Flower's got it."

(Yes!) Thin and angular, perhaps thirty-five years old, perhaps forty-five, it gave off the stink of old sweat and cheap whiskey and cheaper perfume. The features of its face were regular, but the skin was lined, crow's-feet at the eyes, deep furrows bracketing the wide red mouth. Beneath caked white powder, its cheeks and thin nose were blotched with ruptured veins. It wore a frayed red sweater over a drab green dress, the sweater open and the dress cut low to parade the sagging b.r.e.a.s.t.s, gray and goosefleshed, marbled with blue.

(Now!) He smiled at the creature.

"Two dollars," it told him. "Best p.u.s.s.y you ever had. You want French, that's three."

He told it what he wanted.

Its body wavered slightly, buffeted by the breezes of alcohol, and it leered again.

(You see: She wants it too, she wants it.) It said, "You wanna knock at the back door, honey?"

(b.i.t.c.h! Foul filthy strumpet!) He nodded.

Leering still: "Sure. Sure. We'll have us a good time." It swayed again, blinked, closed its mouth and sucked vaguely on its tongue, concentrating. Its eyes narrowed shrewdly. "Be three dollars, honey, and a dollar for the room." Blearily it looked up and down the empty street. "You're in a hurry, we can use the alley."

(Loathsome despicable s.l.u.t!) It leaned unsteadily toward him, put out a hand, touched him. "Feels like you're in a hurry, honey." It laughed-it barked-into his face, and its breath was pestilential: liquor, garlic, moldering teeth. "Come on, we'll take care of that. We'll do you, honey, we'll do you right."

(Trollop! Pig! Vile stinking hole!) It slipped its arm around his and on wobbly legs it led him into the unlighted alley.

(Take her take the rotting s.l.u.t now!) A part of his mind was dancing, whirling, amid a bright interior radiance. Stars erupted. Comets fizzed and glared. The power, held in check for so long now, shook the walls of his flesh.

And yet such was his command, his mastery, that he could still savor the warmth and tenderness he felt for the squalid thing beside him; a vast fondness; almost, indeed, a grat.i.tude. The creature shared his destiny; it was his destiny. The two of them had glided on their separate lives down through the arc of years to arrive together at precisely this place, at precisely this time: so that together they might partake of this unique moment of power and glory. Of transcendent grace.

(Take her take her TAKE her ...) It stopped, its head loose atop its neck. In the gray half light, its face was a blur. "Fine here, honey, no one ever comes through the alley. Flower's private place." It touched him again, stroked him.

(TAKE HER!).

The power clogged his chest, clotted in his throat; he could barely breathe.

The creature released his arm and bent down to gather up the hem of its dress.

(NOW NOW NOW!).

The power drummed against his ears, against his eyes. He took his hands from his pockets and removed his gloves. He noticed-as though from very far away and through undulating curtains of light, a flickering aurora-that his hands were steady; and, remotely, he was pleased. He folded the gloves and put them carefully in his pocket.

(NOW NOW NOW!).

The creature turned its back to him, its lifted skirt bunched in its right arm. Bending toward the wall, legs apart, head drooping, left forearm braced against the brick, it presented itself.

He reached into the topcoat and found the handle of the knife.

(NOW NOW NOW!).

The creature turned its head, slurred over its shoulder, "Do me, honey. Do me."

(NOW NOW NOW!).

He stepped forward, left hand moving for its hair, right hand moving for its throat. And as he did, all the scattered shimmering brightnesses that swam within him-incandescent streamers of mist, fiery reeling stars and comets-merged at once into a single roaring flame that blazed with a hard white insuperable light.

The creature yelped as his fingers snared its hair, and its body stiffened, tried to arch away; and then the knife, a benediction, floated through its throat; and the white flame suddenly flared across the universe; and, scorched, blinded, he himself spurted at exactly the same moment that the creature spurted out the tumult of life it held within.

He caught the body as it slumped, quivering; he supported its limp heaviness as it spattered the ground with its saps. Then, murmuring, whispering, he lowered it gently, carefully, onto its rump. Reverently he drew back its dress and tenderly he laid the folds across its breast, its face.

Still murmuring and whispering, and cooing now, he set to work, his hands busy, the knife hissing.

His hands were no longer cold.

From the Grigsby Archives.

February 15, 1882.

DEAR BOB,.

Everyone here is well and the children send their love. Little Bob loved his birthday present but Bob I wish that you would not send him toys like that. I gave it to him against my better judgment. If you had not hinted at it in your last letter to him I would have thought seriously of keeping it hidden. I know you did that on purpose Bob. Very clever. I know how unhappy he would be if he did not receive a present from his father. I had my fill of guns while you and I were together Bob and now every time I try to read little Bob runs around the house waving that thing like he was a Comanche and shouting Bang Bang at the top of his lungs. It makes me worry about his future and it is also extremely annoying. And now Sarah wants one too. Do not send her one Bob. I am serious.

Last night I went with Molly Sebastian to Plan's Hall to listen to a lecture by Mr Oscar Wilde the famous English poet and esthete. It was his first visit to San Francisco. He was not like I expected. First of all he was young I guess about twenty five years old. Second he was very tall at least six feet four inches and good looking in a bulky way. Like an overgrown boy. His hair was long almost to his shoulders and he was very dandified in knee britches and stockings. He talked in that "refined" way that Englishmen have that makes you think they know every word that William Shakespeare ever wrote by heart. And maybe Mr Wilde really does.

He was very interesting as he talked about what made up an artistic type of house. Some of what he said made sense but you would need a lot of money to make all the changes he talked about. Wainscoting and such. Only rich people can afford to have good taste I guess. Molly was very taken with him. I think she has a bit of a "crush." He is giving another lecture there tomorrow night and she wants to go to that one too. He is also going to Denver in March Bob so you will have a chance to see him yourself. I know you are very fond of poetry and art. Right Bob?

I am sorry. I do not want to be mean to you. I guess I am in a bad mood because of the news in all the newspapers today. There was a horrible murder here last night. Some poor woman was killed down by the docks and they say that the murderer must have been a maniac. They say that after he killed her he mutilated her terribly with a knife. Who would do such a thing? The police have no idea who was responsible. I suppose she was "a lady of the evening" but no one deserves to die like that.

I hope you are well. Are you drinking these days? I hope not. I know you are a decent man at heart when you are sober and I only wish for your sake that you would be sober a little more often. I know you do not believe me but maybe if you had been drunk a little bit less we would still be together today. And Bob you are getting to be of an age where you can no longer abuse your body like you have your whole life.

I can just see you reading this and grinning like an old fool while you pour yourself another drink. You are hopeless Bob.

Oh well there is no use crying over spilled milk. You are who you are and I am who I am. Sometimes love just is not enough. I guess we discovered that together.

Please take care of yourself and I hope you will write to me again. I always enjoy hearing from you.

Love, Clara.

STATELY AND PLUMP, OSCAR FINGAL O'Flahertie Wills Wilde lightly with the pale tips of spatulate fingers pressed aside the wooden batwing doors and, regally blinking, sailed forward into the gaudy gaslight glare. Banners of blue smoke, cigarette and pipe and cigar, coiled and slowly uncoiled at the ceiling. The crowd droned. A tinny piano hammered. Somewhere, stage right, a woman shrieked: perhaps in laughter.

Along the dark sweep of cherrywood bar, and duplicated in the bright silver sweep of mirror beyond it, a row of Stetsons swiveled. Beneath their brims, eyes widened in surprise or narrowed in puzzlement.

Languidly plucking the cigarette from his lips and exhaling a billow of clove-scented smoke, Oscar paused for a moment, as much to savor the reaction of the crowd as to determine his own.

Pleased. Yes, he was pleased. The huge saloon was packed, a gratifying turnout, every table surrounded by a clutch of cowboys and miners and shopkeepers and giddy gaudy women, all of the men wearing hats and all of them (and some of the women, it seemed) sporting identical handlebar mustaches, like walruses. And at the moment, all of them, men and women both, were gaping at Oscar.

His clothes tonight were subdued, somewhat. No cape, no knee britches. He wore pale yellow patent leather boots, lime green twill trousers, a white silk shirt with a flowing Byronic collar loosely secured by a broad silk cravat whose yellow exactly matched the boots, and the three-quarter-length velveteen dinner jacket he had ordered shortly after he arrived in New York City. He had specified that the jacket be the shade of a lake beneath moonlight; but, as he admitted (although only to himself), its hue more closely resembled the dull gray of a field mouse's rump. Still, it was beautifully cut; and if perfection were in fact an impossible destination, then we must learn to enjoy the achievements which present themselves along the way.

In the boutonniere at the jacket's left lapel was a small red rose. This flower struck a bit of a false note-roses being after all rather vulgar-but Henry had told him that just now there were no lilies to be had in all of Denver. The entire town was lilyless. The undertakers had cornered the market, said Henry. A recent rash of hangings and gunfights. Although perhaps not in that order.

Really, the florists should have been better prepared. Hangings were reportedly a commonplace. And gunfights were evidently the local equivalent of cricket. Certainly, from what Oscar had heard, the earnestness of the players and the zeal of the audience were much the same. But cricket, of course, was far more deadly.