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Wander...
I wander...
I wander alone or with Francesco.
Inside the chateau, if it is raining or cold or misty, we prowl through the halls and public rooms. Halls, rooms, people. A door opens and there is someone. A door shuts, and you are alone with a dozen doors. Cold windows merge into cold mirrors, a door opens. Here are tapestries from Bruges. Someone coughs. Feminine laughter sounds.
As I walked toward Cloux, lights blinked in window after window; a light appeared in my studio; someone pa.s.sed carrying a torch. Maturina has a fire in my fireplace. She has the table set for Francesco and me.
Glaring at me she scolds me for my damp clothes. "Your cough...you know! You never think of yourself. Your supper has been ready a long time. I've asked Francesco to look after you but he forgets. Only yesterday I said to him..."
Whenever the Egyptian sultan presented the Florentines with a new animal, I made sketches. At one time, there were several lions in the town's menagerie. An old lion had a stubby grey mane and a black splotch across his face. Since one of his paws was crippled, he limped badly. As he walked or stretched out in the summer sun, a friendly ibis often pecked about in his fur. Old and wise, he ate only two or three times a week...and outlived younger lions. Bruno, a keeper, let me measure him. Skull. Neck. Spine. Shoulders. Rump. Paws.
I suggested large cages for the menagerie animals but no one listened. When I designed a cage for a lion on two levels, with a tree in a corner, nothing came of it.
One night, in winter, a friar opened a cage and let a sick lion go; for days the young man had tried to cure the female. Running amok through town, she created quite a scare until she was trapped in a cul-de-sac by some of my apprentices. Muzzled, growling, she was returned to her cage where she died.
It was only a few blocks from my studio to the menagerie and I often heard the animals roar while I worked.
Cloux.
Cage.
Our incessant feuds, wars, brutalities, our pettiness, have rotted our minds.
For years I have heard men describe roads frozen with sleet and dead, b.l.o.o.d.y ambuscades, military gear trapped in mud, mules and horses floundering, desolated villages.
I have seen victory and defeat...Milan...
Pisa...Bologna... Perugia...
Surrounded by death, I have known many men who want more and more of it. I have remembered that as I painted my mural, my Anghiari. Some of my war sketches have been aberrations. It would have been wiser had I confined myself to my atelier. Among my drawings, sketches, cartoons, models, among my plants and fossils, I should have gone on and on painting. Who, better than I, through my anatomical studies, know the marvels of life! Now, I shun crossbows, guns, chariots. I have asked Francesco to destroy those sketches.
Once again, as in Florence, as in my youth, I am putting art foremost. I am painting.
Tomorrow, Francesco and I will go along the Loire, sketching. If tomorrow is a rainy day we will try the next day. I think he is overly concerned with the problems of perspective. We will talk about the elimination of detail.
Painter and friend, I am lucky to have Francesco, my Cecchino!
These days, I sleep longer, but, through the years, in Florence, in Milan, I never slept more than three or four hours a night. There were too many plans, sketches, paintings, bronzes, portraits, models, commissions...three or four hours...that was enough...
Lie down, sleep...catch the dawn, the window shutters open. Mist on the Arno. Plunge face in icy water in that old white wash basin. Tie sketch pad onto belt. The town is sleeping; the birds are waking up. Careful, open the door quietly. Don't disturb Andrea. Is that the moon, still hanging in the sky?
I made my way to the Boboli Gardens...pa.s.sed the David...rows of crooked cypress...marble satyr...pool of frogs...a beggar whined...
A town sleeps a thousand years every night.
Cloux
Occasionally, while playing chess, I imagine there are no p.a.w.ns; I imagine there are no knights; the good bishop has vanished; the castle has gone; there is no stalemate; instead, we are walking across checkered fields, Caterina and I. Soon, we'll sit down to supper; then, when candles have burned low and lamps are dying down, we'll lie in each other's arms.
I have never been a clever chess player: I have spoiled games by envisioning a spiral staircase, by designing a parachute or estimating the cost of draining a marsh instead of planning my next move. I can cast bronze better than tackle chess strategy.
When King Francis and I play, I know the rules-those unwritten rules-and abide by them: the king must win.
Checkmate...what are the rules in life...checkmate...how to play the final move?
Someday our earth may be burdened with people (but I will not be there).
Numbers cheapen us.
Collective folly weakens us.
Man and art drift apart.
However, who can create man? For that matter, who can create a common pigeon? Or the mangiest dog? Or a horse?
And there is such mystery in this arm, this wrist, these fingers as I write. I would like to be able to trace these impulses: the thought, as it takes place in the brain, the thought as it becomes the letter L, as it becomes da Vinci, as that word connects with another word.
A dot becomes a sketch. A sketch becomes a tree (a tree becomes a sketch). Must there be limitations to the mind's probings? Experience can shackle us. I resent shackles. I still believe in flying.
I love the horse more than all the animals because he gives me a sense of flying. Racing across a field, half- naked, bareback, I was free as a boy. I was above the earth. Galloping along a road, my cape fluttering, I was outside myself. Trotting underneath the stars I sensed another kind of freedom. The clopping of the horse was a drumbeat for liberty. I was often carried away.
Nuzzling my hand, I stroked his head, thanking him for this ecstasy.
March 2, 1517
Yesterday, a traveler, a Spaniard, a navy officer, a guest of the King, claimed at dinner that a Spanish explorer, Juan Ponce de Leon, had discovered a land, and named it Florida. He said that Ponce de Leon discovered it four or five years ago.
"Where is Florida? Is it an island?"
I had a page bring my maps but the Spaniard could not locate Florida. He was ill at ease as if he had divulged a state secret. The arrogant officer's face still bothers me, like the face of a diseased rat. Florida? A Spanish name: does it have a special meaning?
"Mon Capitan was hunting for Bimini...the fountain, the great fountain, that cures all diseases," the officer said, pushing aside my maps, less like a traveler than a spoiled child.
Travel...