I Don't Love You 12 But, I Don't Love Him

"Yoon Byeol-ah? What's wrong?" he holds me tightly but I couldn't get my mouth to move. Jungkook's eyes was filled with tears and pain as he tried to make me stay conscious but my eye lids were getting heavier by each blink.

Jungkook shows me his silvery tears, the ones on the skin of his heart. Rainbow tears, the ones that come when you see the sunshine through the storm.

The tears that are cried beneath what the rest of the world can see, what the eyes miss yet love renders visible. As Jungkook's last words repeat in my head, everything suddenly went pitch black with an eerie high pitch sound then finishing everything off with silence.

I wake up suddenly, every thought in high definition. My eyes take in every ray of light and without a doubt I know I've slept too long that even my body started to ache. The noises are of a day in full swing, traffic heavy.

I'm dress in a hospital gown and that's when I realize that I was in the hospital. How long have I been sleeping here? I groan in pain as I slowly sit up on my bed with needles stuck to my skin.

The beeping sound from the machine next to me irritates my head, pain rush through my head as I groan in pain with a glimpse of the past.

I cry out in pain and nurses rush into my room. They all gasp to see me alive from whatever happen, quickly rushing to get a doctor to do a full scan on me, I just stare at them in confusion.

I hate hospitals, "Get me out of here!" I cry out but one of the nurses emotionally supports me, "Miss. Cha? Are you okay? How are you feeling?", "Why am I here? How did I get here?" questions escape my mouth and bombarded the nurse.

"You don't remember?"

"No, I don't remember so you tell me"

The nurse sighs as the tension the room thickens with the thought of every possible solution or should I say problem rush through my head, "You got into a car accident" the nurse let out a deep sigh.

What? Everything that was in my head when blank as silence then fills the air. How could this happen? I'm supposed to marry Mingyu in a few days. The door barge open revealing a man I've never seen before.

With a black suit, he rushes to hold me and I could just sense his desire to kiss me and hold me in his arms as if he's always wanted to do that in years but who is he? "Y-Yoon Byeol-ah" he stutters softly behind my neck, sending chills down my spine with b.u.t.terflies filling my stomach. What am I supposed to do in this type of situation? I don't even know him yet he hugs me as if he hugged me like this before.

"I – "

"Don't say anything, don't think about anything and just hold onto me please… I watched you with the moon as my light and the stars as my stories for you each night. I missed you so much and you hugging me like this is more than enough"

"M-Mingyu... Where is Mingyu?"

I feel his arms loosening a bit as if the question I just ask kills him inside. He let go of me and looks at me in the eyes, locking me in as if it's some kind of trap.

"Y-Yoon Byeol-ah, don't you remember me? I'm your fiancée: Jeon Jungkook" I feel my heart sink into the pit of my stomach as warm tears gathers in my eyes. What? I'm really confuse.

"Can you please just call Mingyu?"

"But – "

"Please!"

"Yoon Byeol-ah… you don't understand. He's engaged now" Jungkook sighs

"W-what?"

I look away, biting my tongue and trying to hold the tears that threatens to leave my eyes. And that's when I can't hold them back. First, one small crystal bead escapes from my right eye. I can feel the warmth, sliding down my cheek, and rolling off my chin.

Then another. And another. Until my eyes flood with them, coming like a rainfall. Sniffing every ten seconds, they fall, and fall, and I let them. I am in an incredible pain. I don't know if it was my heart or my head that was in pain but it felt as if everything was crumbling down on to me.

"Hey…. Stop crying, I'll call him" Jungkook says and place his phone on his ear with a deep sigh. After a few minutes, Mingyu comes into the room with a worried expression and as soon as my eyes focuses on him, I burst out crying even more. There is the man I love. The man I was supposed to marry and spend the rest of my life with.

Just as the door was about to close, a girl walks into the room behind Mingyu. That must be her. What a lucky girl. "Hey… are you okay?" Mingyu comforts me and every single memory I had with him rushed in my head. "You've been in a coma for 2 months. I missed you" Mingyu says holding me in his warm embrace.

"2 months?" I ask, pulling him closer.", "Yeah... 2 months. You got into a car accident that night after you left my apartment with Jungkook" Mingyu explains. "Mingyu, are you really engaged…with her?" my voice was weak and soft, "Yes… I'm going to get married in a few weeks" Mingyu says.

"No! DON'T" I beg, hugging him even tighter but I was so weak that I ran out of energy quickly. "But you're marrying Jungkook" Mingyu said, breaking the hug and eyes were all on me.

"But I don't love him"

Jungkook's eyes widen in surprise but he hides his pain with his serious face, completely blinding me with an answer to his reaction; this is a force marriage. But I don't want to marry him! No! I'm not spending the rest of my life with H-I-M!

The silence breaks as the doctor comes in the room, "Wow… Miss Cha, it's amazing that you're alive after everything that happened", "What exactly happened that night?" I ask, breaking the hug with Mingyu.

"I called you in the morning to come to my house. You reached my house at 9:00 and I greeted you with your favourite lemonade.

We were planning to watch a movie but you said you needed to go to the bathroom and as you made you way to the bathroom there was a knock on the door, you went to answer it and saw Jungkook. He came in and threw a punch at me." Mingyu softly pats my hand.

"He was mad that I was spending this time with you and shortly during the fight, you fainted in shock so Jungkook rushed you to the hospital" Mingyu explains, now I finally understand and give Jungkook the death glare. When our eyes met, he sighs and walks out the door.

"After you left to go home, you came back in a few hours with the news that you fainted. As you were rushed to the hospital, you got into a car accident. When we checked we found out that you had cyanide in your system." the doctor explains, filling it every single detail.

"There might be a chance that Jungkook was trying to poison you" Soyou sits next to me with a soft look into my eyes. I feel pain in my chest and tears rush down my cheeks again. It was as if my body was rejecting the information but my emotion and what I heard from the doctor forcefully push everything inside.

Why would I marry a guy that was trying to kill me?