The Society - Hunter Healer Part 13

She was contemplating something dangerous. She was planning something. Something was coming together inside her pretty head, a constellation turning into a plan.

"I want them to pay," she repeated. "They have to be held accountable. They kill and beat people and ruin lives, and what they're doing is wrong. I have to do something about it."

"We are doing something about it," he reminded her. "We're Society operatives. You've caused them a fair bit of damage in the last few months, angel, by keeping the Society up and running. They're like dogs chasing their own tails. Sooner or later they're going to fall. They can't help it."

And they can force their operatives all they want, brainwipe 'em, hook 'em on Zed-but it doesn't stop some of them from wanting to escape. It didn't stop me from escaping. Twice, now. His arms tightened around her.

"But why don't we ever go after them? At the top? Who's in charge of the whole thing?"

He sighed. Distract her with something, Del. "Probably the President. But if you want to know who's in control of the program, it's Anton." The name sent a slight frisson up his back, and he heard the Colonel's rattling voice again. You've been a very naughty boy, Agent Breaker. "They call him the Colonel, but I don't think he ever was one. He's got this thing for white linen suits." And caning. And electroshock.

She snuggled against his side, and he relaxed. He knew he should be getting her something to eat and then getting down to business, finding out what Henderson needed him to do. But for right now, it was sweet just to lie next to her, feel her against him, and hear the quiet hum of her thoughts under his. He couldn't decipher exactly what she was thinking, but he heard it like soft voices in a neighboring room, a seash.e.l.l murmur.

"Anton." A sharp flare of complex feeling burst between them. Del smothered a flash of mixed fear and adrenaline, her reaction was tinted orange with ... what? Determination? It felt a little off, but she'd just been through the wringer, hadn't she? "Where is he?"

Del shut his eyes. I would really rather not remember. "Sig Zero-Fifteen." He shuddered. "The worst Sig installation in the country." The deep nerve center of the rabid octopus that was Standard Integrative Intelligence Growth and Management Agency. Sigma Installation Zero-Fifteen, otherwise known as the Black Hole.

Otherwise known as h.e.l.l. The place where people died and brain-shattered hulks of Zed addiction and psychic talent were created."Where's that?"

"New Mexico." Don't ask me any more. Please, angel, don't ask me any more. I don't want to think about that place.

She didn't. Instead, she sighed. "We should get cleaned up and get some breakfast. Henderson will want to see us."

Are you kidding? This is the first time we've been alone, really alone, together in months. And you're not in any condition to start wearing yourself out again. You're still backlashed from facing down Carson. "If there was an emergency, they'd tell us."

"I'm hungry." But she didn't move. Her hand came up and traced his jaw, rasping against the stubble of a few unshaven days. "I'm glad you're here. I thought you were angry at me, that you didn't want to..."

"Good G.o.d, no. How the h.e.l.l did you get that idea?" Is that what she was thinking? Jesus.

"I just ... You seemed so distant."

"Me?" He could literally feel his jaw dropping. Distant? All he wanted was to get as close to her as possible, for as long as possible.

"Yes, you." For some reason she found that amusing, and her soft laugh suddenly made him extremely aware that he was alone with her, lying on a bed, with no pressing emergency happening, no scramble to survive or get to the next hiding place. It was as near to heaven as he had ever wanted to get.

Well, maybe he could get a little nearer. But she was right. They both needed food, and he could feel her headache pounding in his own skull. Now wasn't the time to show her just how happy he was to be next to her.

Though he was very, very tempted to see if she still made the same sound when he buried himself in her.

He wanted to find out if she still tasted like sunshine, if she would still arch her back and cry out softly when he let his fingers do the walking, and most of all he wanted to find out if it was, like kissing her, better than he remembered. Still, they were both exhausted, and she probably felt like her head was going to fall off from the aftereffects of Carson's psychic attack. He himself was nowhere near fit enough to indulge in any heart-pounding bed games.

But G.o.d d.a.m.n it, he was tempted. If his heart gave out he'd die happy, but he hadn't done even a quarter of what he wanted to do with her yet. "Distance is the last thing on my mind, angel."

She sighed, her fingers sliding down to the place in his throat where his pulse beat, leaping out to meet her touch. "We should get breakfast."

"We should. In a few minutes." Give me just a few more seconds of this. If I can't have you right now, just give me a few more seconds of having you next to me like this.

"All right." She made no attempt to move, and for that brief precious span of time, Del was content.

Chapter Twenty-One.

Breakfast was more like lunch, and it was a hurried meal. This new Headquarters was familiar to Rowan, since she had visited it several times while getting everything ready for the grand move in. As soon as they showed up in the half-gutted industrial-size kitchen they were greeted with Tamara pushing bowls of sesame chicken with jasmine rice, chickpeas, and greens at them.

"Eat," the tall redhead said briskly, "then go up and see Henderson. He's in the west wing. There's something heating up."

Justin let out a sound that was halfway between a laugh and a derisive snort. "See? I told you. If it was an emergency, they would have battered the door down."

"Not b.l.o.o.d.y likely." Tamara pushed a lock of her coppery hair back and grinned. "You two needed a little time alone. Welcome back, Del."

"Thanks." He sounded genuinely surprised, and Rowan had to hide a smile. Being scattered around without the benefit of Headquarters had at least gotten rid of some of the fear with which they regarded Justin. n.o.body had realized just how much they depended on him until they were on their own. It was a good thing, as far as Rowan was concerned. The less they treated him like a pariah, the better.

"Good G.o.d, who's doing the renovations in here?" Rowan stared at the mess made of the kitchen-exposed studs and a pile of lumber, cans of paint and a drop cloth, stacks of tiles. She shook her hand out. Her wrist felt a little tender, but not bad. "Did Boomer get called away in the middle of everything again?"

"No, it's actually pretty close to being done. It just looks bad. Eleanor brought a bunch of the newbies back from Calgary and six teams came in, so there's no shortage of hands. And Yoshi just accessed and drained the old resource net, so we're actually sitting pretty when it comes to supplies. Good thing, too. I was getting tired of eating oatmeal and beans."

Rowan made a face and took a spoonful of chicken. Tamara was by far the best cook they had. "Is there coffee? Oh, good. So everyone's coming in?"

"Yep." Tamara grinned. "Thanks to you. If you and Cath hadn't pulled out the stops in Vegas we'd still be eating beans and running around the country like headless chickens."

"Well, Justin actually pulled that one off. I had very little to do with it. Got shot again." Guilt pinched sharply under Rowan's breastbone. She managed to pour a couple cups of coffee for herself and Justin.

He seemed easier than she'd ever seen him, and Tamara seemed genuinely glad he was back.

"Don't listen to her." Justin took his coffee with a ghost of a lopsided smile, and blew across the top of the cup to cool it. "It was her quick thinking that got us all out."

"That's usually the case." Tamara examined him, as if trying to put her finger on something. "You look different, Delgado."

"Getting beaten up and smashed on Zed will do that to you." His hazel eyes came back to rest on Rowan. "We'd better eat and then go up to Henderson. Where's a quiet corner?"

He does look different. It's not just the lost weight or the shadows under his eyes. She found herself searching his face, looking for the change. It wasn't just that his eyes had lost their screen of indifference.

What was it?Her head gave another pounding burst of pain, and then subsided. It felt like something was buried in the center of her brain, flaring up again to briefly stain the inside of her skull. She stopped and stared at the floor, trying to locate the source of the pain.

"Rowan?" Justin held his bowl in one hand, his coffee cup in the other, and looked quizzical. Tamara was grinning, a wide sparkling smile that spoke of mischief. She turned back to the stove, and Rowan heard a m.u.f.fled giggle.

What? What just happened? She didn't know, but Tamara obviously thought Rowan was acting like a hormonal teenager. I was staring at him, wasn't I? No, I was looking at the floor. Why? "Hm? Oh, somewhere to eat ... I'll go straight up to Henderson, and you can eat in the refectory if you-"

"I'll come with you." The slight smile was gone from his face, and the words were clipped. "Lead the way."

Rowan's stomach threatened to cramp. She wanted to go into the long refectory and find a quiet corner to persuade her body to accept some nourishment, but duty called. Henderson needed her. "Fine.

Anything you want Henderson to know, Tamara?"

"Just tell Cath she's not getting out of kitchen duty again. I'll sic Del on her." The redhead seemed to find this extremely amusing, and Rowan frowned. She left the kitchen, still trying to think of what was so different about Justin now.

"Penny for your thoughts," he said behind her as she climbed the stairs to the second floor and started wending her way to the west wing.

Great. Now what do I say? What on earth did you say when the man you loved came back after being tortured and wasn't ... the same? How could anything ever be the same again?

"Not worth it," she said lightly, her boot heels clicking as they went down a long hall with windows on one side and thick golden sunlight falling in dusty rectangles on the wooden floor. Her wrist throbbed faintly, and the bruise was yellow-green and fading, looking weeks instead of days old. "You'd probably get change back."

"Still, I'd like to know. Humor me."

She could tell his eyes were on her back. "You are different," she said, taking a gulp of coffee immediately after. It scalded her mouth.

"Better or worse?" There it was, that ironic amus.e.m.e.nt. At least, she was fairly sure it was amus.e.m.e.nt.

She felt it like warm sun against her shoulders.

"Just different."

"Distant?"

d.a.m.n the man, he's teasing me. She shot a look back over her shoulder, saw him smiling and stopped short. He almost ran into her, but gracefully avoided collision at the last second. "Kind of," she admitted.

He never used to smile like that. Maybe once or twice. He was just learning to loosen up a little when Headquarters ... happened. "But there's something else. I don't know. I've been trying to figure it out."

"Just relieved to be back, I guess.""What did they do to you?" Torture? More electroshock? The track marks on his arms were healing, of course. Any wound in her proximity tended to heal faster. He wasn't sweating or shaking like a lot of Zed addicts did, though she could feel the p.r.i.c.kling running over his skin, a different sensation than the electric crackle she felt when she touched him. It was hard to keep herself so carefully contained, to keep from soaking into the borders of his mind to find out what he was really thinking under that slight smile and behind those hungry eyes that were really just as effective at keeping his feelings hidden as the flat indifference he used to use.

"Nothing I couldn't handle," he said, again. "We'd better get up to Henderson before the food gets cold."

Her head flared with pain again, a brief tearing that was gone almost as soon as it started. Distracted, Rowan blinked, shook her head. "Oh. Right."

Henderson was in the west wing nerve center, leaning over Yoshi, whose slim brown fingers tapped at a keyboard. They'd apparently set up a full system of decks. Code was flashing across a monitor right in front of Yoshi.

"Mark," Yoshi said quietly into the comm-unit he wore. "Move to your right, there's a dead spot in front of you."

Sounds like an operation. Rowan's mouth went dry. She took another hurried gulp of coffee, scalding her tongue again.

Henderson glanced over and nodded. He'd be with them in a moment. Rowan cast a glance around, found a table covered with topo maps, and cleared a s.p.a.ce for both of them. She settled down, watching.

"Heavy fire on your nine, watch out, on your nine." Yoshi sounded calm, as always, but Rowan's heart flipped over. Who was out, and where were they? "Ca.s.sie, see if you can give him a little cover. Rick, stay down. Ca.s.sie's coming in."

Rick and Ca.s.sie. Deborah's team. They must be coming in from California. Rowan caught a flare of complex feeling from Yoshi and swallowed dryly. He'd been hanging out a lot with Deborah, teaching her codestringing tricks.

Rowan was about to push her chair back and hover over him, seeking to help, but Justin's hand covered her bruised wrist. "Eat first," he said. "Won't do anyone any good if you collapse. Come on, Ro."

So she sat and listened through the mission gone critical, barely tasting the food as Deborah reported being pinned under heavy fire with Sigs everywhere and half her team wounded. She didn't sound happy, but neither did she sound panicked.

"Just sit tight, Deb," Yoshi murmured. "They're on the way." Then, he said, "Cath, you read me? They're pinned."

Cath's out there? Oh, G.o.d. Rowan listened, mechanically eating and marking off the intervals as Yoshi spoke calmly, only his almost-blurring fingers showing the strain he was under. Rowan kept taking deep, even breaths, the tender places inside her head twinging a little as she fought the urge to help. There was nothing she could do. Yosh was perfectly calm and Henderson didn't need her. She could help best by staying out of the way. Cath's out there. Be careful, honey. I hope Zeke's with her. And Brew.

"Steady, steady ... Here they come. Stay down. They're coming in fast. There." Yosh sounded relieved.

"Get everyone aboard. Don't worry about the Sigs, Deb, that's Brew's job. Yessir, I'm working on it."His fingers danced. "Nasty little b.u.g.g.e.rs, aren't they."

He glanced up at Henderson and nodded. The older man straightened, light glinting off his steel-rimmed gla.s.ses.

"Thank G.o.d." Henderson's mouth shaped the words. He rubbed briefly at the back of his neck and glanced at Rowan and Justin.

Rowan found, much to her surprise, that she'd eaten three-quarters of her food. Her coffee had cooled down, too. She finished it in two long swallows. Welcome caffeine began to make its way through her bloodstream. "Hey," she said as Henderson approached, his boots clicking on the floor. "What can I do?"

"Not a d.a.m.n thing." Henderson stretched and rolled his shoulders. The long-sleeved shirt he wore clung to him, and his Glock rode in a shoulder holster over it. He wore jeans, but he was barefoot. His dark hair with the white streak was rumpled and ruffled. "They'll be fine. Cath and Brew will bring 'em all in.

Yoshi will be glad to see Deb again."

For some reason, Henderson glanced at Justin, who had finished his food and was staring into his coffee cup. "A Sig net in Cincinnati and some heavy fire. They just s.n.a.t.c.hed a new telepath right from under Sigma's nose. How you doing, Del?"

"Better than I've been in a long while," Justin replied. "Hear you've drained the resource net. Any complications?"

"Nope. G.o.dd.a.m.n good to have you back. Rowan, I have some printouts I want you to look over, and I wanted to ask you something." Henderson pulled out the third chair at the table and glanced over his shoulder at Yoshi, whose tension had begun to stain the air now that the crisis was over. Yoshi stretched and went back to tapping at his keyboard.

"Sure." What on earth would you want to ask me? Justin's back. Rowan smiled at the thought. He's back, we're at Headquarters, and we're safe. I never thought I'd see that again. Her head twinged, the bursts of pain getting less frequent. This one wasn't so bad. She sighed in relief. "How are you feeling, General?"

He granted her a tight smile. "Screwed six ways from Sunday, girl. Glad we didn't lose you."

Give in. Give in. Give in to me, let me IN. Memory rose, a vise clamping around her temples, something working in, burrowing. The pain tore at her. She was still tender inside her head, bruised from the blind man's attack. Rowan shuddered, came back to herself with a jolt. "I'm glad too."

"Was it Carson? What's his status?" He looked at Justin, his steely eyes glinting, and Rowan was suddenly, utterly, relieved that Justin was back. Being Henderson's second was more stress than she needed, mostly because she was always afraid of s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g up and costing someone their life. Thankfully, it hadn't happened yet-unless she counted everyone at the old Headquarters.

And Justin.

"I hope he's dead." Justin leaned back in his chair. He looked better, his eyes bright and his mouth curling up in a familiar half-smile. He moved easily inside his rig, as if glad to have its familiar weight on his shoulders. He hadn't looked right this morning without a couple of guns hanging on him. Rowan supposed it was habit. She touched the b.u.t.t of her own Glock, a familiar weight under her left arm.

Henderson reached over for a carafe almost buried under the topos and poured them both fresh coffee."You need sugar, Ro?" She shook her head no, and he turned his attention to Justin. "You hope he's dead?"

"I hit him with everything I had and sank a knife in his throat, boss. If he's still breathing it's not for lack of effort on my part."

Oh, G.o.d, I hope he's dead, too. Rowan wrapped her fingers around the coffee cup. "Should I go and-"

"No, I need you here. What's your estimation of Carson's status?"

Give in. Give in. Give in to me, let me IN. She shuddered again. Why did it have to sound as if he was still whispering in her head, the squirming maggot-voice tender and waxen-white?

"Creepy." Her voice threatened to break. Tears rose behind her eyes. "Filthy. Very, very bad."

Justin made a small sound, his knee b.u.mping hers under the table. Henderson ran his hands back through his hair. She blinked. Why was it so hard to concentrate? She must be more tired than she'd thought.

"What?"

"Do you think he survived?" Henderson persisted.