The New Guy (and Other Senior Year Distractions) Part 9

"Before you go away to Stanford," Thatcher says.

"Yes, exactly."

I go through the freshman submissions in my head, though I can't specifically remember another Lynde. It's dangerous just agreeing to this, because while it's true that we didn't technically reject everyone, there were some pretty bad pieces in there. What if the other Lynde sister wrote the "investigative" "report" on the most popular parking s.p.a.ces, or the op-ed about buying a real live eagle to keep on school grounds? And I'm not even sure if we can let in a freshman after the fact. She'd still have to change her schedule around, and that would require Mr. Wheeler's sign-off. We're probably already pushing it with Amanda.

"She's in," Carlos says. "We'll take care of everything."

I hold out my hand because it feels like we're all supposed to shake, but no one else does, so I pretend I was just about to push my hair behind my ears in an unnecessarily complicated fashion.

As a new student at Eagle Vista Academy, I'm looking forward to sharing in school spirit. And what could bring the student body together as well as something big, bold, and exciting?

Tessa Lynde didn't just submit an essay about a real live eagle; she did so in a dull way. And therefore, that night it takes me longer to write up a pitch on why we must add Tessa to our team than it does to do any of my individual homework a.s.signments. When I spot Mr. Wheeler outside, I take the dogs into the backyard and pretend to casually notice him. Obviously, I could have talked to him today at our weekly after-school meeting, but I don't want this to seem calculated.

"Hi, Mr. Wheeler," I say in the tone I normally reserve for liaison duty. "Are you having a good night?"

"Hi, Jules, and I guess it's all right." He eyes Peanut, who's circling Daisy in rapid circles. "That guy's wound up, huh."

"Always. So I thought, if you had a moment, we could discuss a couple of Crest-related items."

"Jules..." Mr. Wheeler shrugs. "I'm not sure if we should mix school business and personal time."

Mr. Wheeler has sat at my kitchen table on multiple occasions discussing his love life. With my parents.

He's not getting out of this so easily.

"As you know, TALON took a huge bite out of our readership yesterday," I say as if he'd agreed to this talk. "We're looking for inventive ways to make up for that loss."

"Jules, I was in the room when you declared war," he says.

"We talked to Amanda Lynde, and she'd love to come back," I say. "Since we haven't officially filled the extracurriculars editor position yet-"

"I thought we discussed Jordan-"

"And because Amanda's absence is so profoundly felt"-I place a hand over my heart-"we think it's a great idea."

"Sure," Mr. Wheeler says with far less investment than I'd like from him. "Have her see me before first period tomorrow morning and I'll get her the paperwork to switch into our cla.s.s period."

"Wonderful. And talking to Amanda jogged my memory, since one of the freshmen I very nearly recommended for the staff has the same last name. And for the sake of sisterly solidarity, I thought-especially with our numbers down this year-we could reconsider Tessa Lynde as well."

"What piece did Tessa submit?" he asks.

"The incredibly inventive piece about increasing school spirit," I say, because I am not speaking the words real, live, or eagle.

Mr. Wheeler sighs, and his shoulders seem to lurch downward in the faded Death Cab for Cutie T-shirt he's wearing. He turns to head back inside his little guest cottage. "Fine, Jules. Have her see me tomorrow morning too."

"Yes," I say to myself. "Victory will be mine."

"Jules," Mr. Wheeler says. "I can hear you."

CHAPTER TWELVE.

Sadie's at my locker the next morning. It's normal, but I feel like I've barely seen her this week so far. The Crest has monopolized my free time, which I'd expected this year anyway, though of course not in this way.

"I hate to tell you this," she says seriously, and I nearly drop my books instead of transferring them successfully from my backpack to my locker. Sadie sounds overdramatic all the time, sure, but serious?

"What's going on?"

"Oh my G.o.d, your face." She laughs and offers me a piece of the scone she's eating. I suppose people don't eat scones during emergencies. "I was just going to say that I think the boys are all, like, officially best friends or bros or whatever now."

"Bros?" I ask.

"I know you wish he'd disappear from the school or at least our lunch table, but..." Sadie shoves more of the scone at me. "I'm sorry."

"I'm fine," I say after another bite of scone. "I'll destroy him."

"Uh, whoa," Em says, walking up to us. "Everything okay over here?"

I'm about to say yes, but Alex walks by. When someone breaks your heart, something about that person physically should be required to change. He shouldn't get to keep his wavy brown hair or his soulful brown eyes and most definitely not his eyebrows that have their very own seduction powers. He shouldn't look like a boy I thought I could fall in love with.

"Jules," Sadie says, "eyes on the prize."

"What?"

"His destruction," she says. "Right?"

I couldn't ask for a better friend than Sadie, and I know it.

"Right," I say. "But..."

"Let's get to cla.s.s," Sadie says.

Em doesn't look suspicious that Sadie suddenly cares about promptness, but I eye her as she pulls me down the hallway.

"But what?" she asks, because Sadie can pick up conversations from days ago like no time has pa.s.sed.

"But I hate seeing him, and I hate feeling like this, and I wish he wasn't bros or whatever with half the lunch table. That's all."

"That's more than enough," she says. "You're allowed to still feel c.r.a.ppy about this, you know. When Isaac dumped me, I felt c.r.a.ppy for forever. Wait, is that not helpful?"

"You're always helpful," I say. I know I'm lucky to have Sadie in my life. When the two of us talk, it feels like I require half the words I normally do. Maybe it's just because we grew up together that I never have to worry about her understanding me, but whatever the reason, I'm glad that this is how it is.

Also, of course, Sadie understands boys. And I figured that would come in handy someday in the future, but now that the future is here, it's even more of a relief than I would have guessed.

"We can do something after school," she says as we walk into women's history. "If you want to hang out and talk." If Sadie minds that she's usually the one pushing plans on me and rarely the other way around, it never shows. She's the one who's figured out how to combine achieving goals and also having fun, and we both know it.

"I have Stray Rescue," I say. "And, not that I would have skipped it before, but I really can't now, with Alex volunteering on my schedule."

"And Stray Rescue is your turf!"

"Exactly," I say. "I can't be about talk; I have to be about action."

"Okay, so what about after Stray Rescue?" Sadie asks. "Come over! Mom's cooking... well, Mom's cooking something. You know how she gets when she's between jobs. You have no idea how many scones are at our house right now."

I'd rather go home and make more lists about how to destroy TALON, but it feels right to say yes to Sadie. Also I should probably complete the tasks on one of the lists before I compose any more of them, and I can't move too quickly or I'll make Mr. Wheeler suspicious. More suspicious? I have never thought of him as particularly savvy, but this is all uncharted territory.

When I get to Stray Rescue that afternoon, I'm prepared to see Alex. I just have to be. There's no other option but quitting-and I would never quit. And, also, I'm getting used to it. Besides our cla.s.ses together, which until recently felt like a wish granted by fate, we share a way-too-crowded lunch table. I don't know why Alex has stuck around, considering that we're over. Oh my G.o.d, is it some kind of "bros before hos" thing? Real live boys don't actually say things like that... right?

"Hi, Jules," Tricia greets me as I walk inside Stray Rescue. "Your boyfriend brought quite a crowd today, huh?"

"He's not my boyfriend," I say, and I wish I could reach into the air and pull back my words, or at the least my snappy tone. "Sorry, it's just that... he's not."

Tricia's expression softens. "I'm sorry, Jules."

I'm more embarra.s.sed that Tricia can see my heartbreak than curious about her mention of Alex's crowd of people. But once I make my way back, there they are. There's a soph.o.m.ore I've seen around but don't know, Arvin Mercado is manning a video camera, and Natalie's standing nearby making notes on a clipboard.

"h.e.l.lo, Julia," Natalie says without any emotion. This normally wouldn't send up any red flags, but this whole scene is a red flag.

"h.e.l.lo, TALON," I say.

"Hey, Jules." Santiago pops up behind all the people and equipment. "Pretty cool that we're going to be on your school's TV show."

"Let me just get a dog and go," I say.

"FYI," Natalie says, p.r.o.nouncing each letter in a perfectly clipped newscaster manner, "I'm not stupid, Julia. I know Amanda's sudden defection to the Crest was your doing."

"Defection?" I roll my eyes. "Amanda has been a member of the Crest for three years. She's a member of the Crest still. She's not the one I'd call a defector."

The soph.o.m.ore I don't know tentatively points the camera toward me. "Should we get her on film?"

"Definitely not," Natalie says. "Julia isn't a part of this story."

I stare at Alex, who's standing silently next to Santiago, almost as if someone hit a pause b.u.t.ton on him. He must be used to waiting for a record b.u.t.ton to be pressed before activating human behavior.

"I wouldn't know about this place if not for Jules," Alex says, back in motion. "She should get to be on camera."

"I don't want to be on camera," I say. "I don't do this to get attention; I do this to help dogs and our community."

"Good," Natalie says. "Not 'good' about dogs and community, which I don't care about, but we'd have to adjust the lighting if you were on camera. You would look"-she gestures to my hair and face-"washed out."

"I use a strong sunblock," I say. "It's never too early to take care of your skin."

"Then I guess you're built for print," she says.

I wish I felt like more of a formidable opponent against Natalie today, but she had the element of surprise on her side, as well as a TALON-appropriate wardrobe. Since it's a Stray Rescue day, I'm casual in jeans and a striped T-shirt, but of course Natalie is in a perfectly crisp blazer over a bright white b.u.t.ton-down shirt. I wonder what Alex thinks of her; she did bring him aboard TALON his very first day of school. Natalie must have persuasive skills, on top of a newscaster wardrobe. I worry he can't resist that, and then I worry that I'm worried.

But, of course, I'm not here to battle Natalie and the rest of TALON today. So I leash up the closest dog I see-a pit mix named Leonard-and head outside. Footsteps thud up behind me, and Leonard and I spin around to see Alex dashing toward me.

"Jules," he says, and stops to catch his breath. Don't find it adorable, don't find it adorable. "I want to help dogs and the community too. I thought if I did a piece, people might want to adopt dogs, or at least volunteer here too."

"Fine," I say.

"Look," he says, "I don't want attention."

"You told me all about people who'd only do something like this when the camera's on them," I say. "This feels exactly like that."

"Jules, don't think that," he says. "Even if we aren't-"

"I can think whatever I want." I turn from him and continue walking with Leonard. There's probably a huge chance I'll end up in the background of the TALON piece, so I keep distracting myself with positive thoughts-Doughnuts! Hanging out with Sadie! A sale at J.Crew this weekend!-so that when I'm in the background, my face won't give away any of my other feelings.

When you hear about war heroes, they don't emerge victorious from easily won battles. TALON might have all the attention now, but I won't let my side down. I will hold my face at neutral while cameras are around. And before long, I will win this war.

I don't want to think about what will happen if I don't.

CHAPTER THIRTEEN.

On Friday I'm ready when the TV screen lowers and Natalie's face appears. TALON might be making their best effort to end almost everything important at Eagle Vista Academy, but they're not going to keep surprising me.

This week it doesn't feel like they've scooped us, because their stories have nothing to do with what we're working on for next week's issue. They have an interview with a new science teacher, but we already listed his credentials and welcome message in this week's issue. Kevin tours the school, which looks fine on camera, but we all walk through it every day, so it's definitely not a scoop. It's barely even a story, Kevin. Over at the Crest, we're actually exploring the historical architecture in depth.

Alex's segment is last, again. I've silently informed every cell in my body that I'll have to see his face in a place I love on a screen in front of all my women's history cla.s.smates. I'm still afraid I may have audibly taken a giant breath when the camera pans out and Santiago talks about the history of Highland Park Stray Rescue.

"Awww!" nearly the entire cla.s.s choruses as the camera pans to dog after dog. Leonard's on-screen, and so is Lola, and to be honest I may have been one of the awwwers. I think most people are scientifically programmed to loudly react this way to the unexpected appearance of dogs.

"Are you surviving?" Sadie faux-whispers, reaching over to my desk and squeezing my hand. "I'm trying to survive twice as hard so you don't have to."

"That makes no sense," I say, but I don't let go either.

In our top-level staff meeting after school, we sign off on Monday's issue pretty quickly. I can tell from how Mr. Wheeler's shoving stuff into his messenger bag that he thinks the meeting is about to disperse.

"I think it's time to launch our next plan of attack at TALON," I say, flipping through my red notebook. "If they-"

"'Plan of attack'?" Mr. Wheeler stops treating his bag like a garbage receptacle and stares at us. "Hey, guys, I know you all care about the paper. I care about the paper too. But-wait, what was the first plan of attack?"