The Memoirs of Cleopatra Part 5

We stopped that evening by the banks of the river, near a waterwheel and a well-trodden pathway leading down to the water. It looked as though it would be safe from crocodiles, for there was too much human activity. The hippo Nebamun had been on the lookout for remained submerged.

Just at sunset, we clambered over the side of the boat to swim. In the past year I had become a respectable swimmer. The water was moving slowly past us as it made its unhurried way to the sea; we floated little reed boats on it and then tried to outswim the current. It was easy enough going downstream, but coming back up took all our strength. We played hiding games in the reeds, and pretended to be Horus attacking the evil Seth in the papyrus marsh, disturbing a large number of ducks and kingfishers in the process. The whir of their wings felt like gigantic fans as they flew away.

Once again we were on our way before dawn, and before the day was over we had come to the place where all the branches of the Nile knitted themselves together and the river became one. The setting sun-^Re in his form as Atum, the decrepit old man sinking in the west--bathed the wide bosom of the river in his magic gold, and as we sailed on it I felt a divine stirring.

"We will rest here tonight, and then tomorrow--you will behold the pyramids!" said Nebamun.

"I hope I won't be disappointed," said Olympos, echoing all our thoughts. It would be so unbearable if they were not worth the journey. Something would die in me, and I might never undertake a long journey again for the sake of the unknown.

"Always the Greek," said Nebamun. "Never willing to believe, always holding back, worrying in advance that something will not be what it claims to be."

"Yes, that is our curse and and our glory," Olympos said. our glory," Olympos said.

"The Romans just take things as they are, and figure out a way to use them," I said, thinking out loud.

"Destroy them, you mean," said Mardian.

"I don't think they decide that in advance," I said. "I think their actions are pure that way--not bound by prior decisions."

"Yes, they just decide each time, independently, to destroy. There's no suspense there. Look what they did to Carthage--leveled it and sowed the ground with salt."

"But, Olympos, they didn't destroy Greece."

"No, only in spirit."

I laughed. "As if anything could destroy the Greek spirit! You are hardly spiritless!"

"Something of the Greek spirit survives around the world, and a little may even have seeped into some Romans, but--what was truly Greek has perished. Except in Alexandria, which has more of the Greek spirit than Athens itself now."

"All things pa.s.s away," said Nebamun. "Except the pyramids."

Very early, before there was any stirring on the boat, I was awake. Excitement had kept me from sleeping much all through the night; now that I was on the brink of seeing the pyramids and the wonders of Old Egypt, I was seized with trembling expectation. We were famous the world over for our enormous monuments and statues, the size of which made it seem we once must have been a race of giants, to have created them and set them up. They made us seem different from all other people, with a secret knowledge or power.

But when it came down to it, what secrets did we possess? And of what use would they be against Roman power? Whatever knowledge had raised the pyramids that might still reside in Egyptians today--how did that help against Roman legions, Roman siege machines, Roman catapults?

Only the power of the G.o.ds could stand against them. I knew that even then, O Isis. Only you, and Amun, and Osiris. And yet they they had Jupiter, and Hercules. . . . had Jupiter, and Hercules. . . .

In the fresh morning gold of sunshine, thin and without heat, we sailed up the Nile, looking to the western bank for our first glimpse of the pyramids. The seemingly endless green of the Delta fields had been replaced by a narrower ribbon of green on either side of the river, and just beyond that, as if someone had drawn a line, the desert began. The golden sand lay flat and expressionless, like the face of a G.o.d, stretching into eternity beyond our eyesight.

The sun rose higher; the air on the horizon shimmered. Then, from a great distance--their tips caught the light and flashed. Three of them, winking in the sun.

"Look!" cried Mardian. "Look! Look!"

At first they seemed to be supernaturally huge, or we could not have seen them from afar. But as we glided upstream, coming closer, they shrank into just large buildings, like the Lighthouse. As we made for the landing, and the pyramids were framed behind farmers with donkeys and carts, they seemed to shrink still further, becoming almost ordinary.

We hired donkeys to take us the three or so miles to the monuments, and very glad we were to have done so, for as the sun rose higher and there was no shade anywhere, the sands heated to a foot-burning temperature. We were plowing through the golden sea of sand to what looked like piles of exactly the same material, except that the corners were very sharp. There was no wind, just the stillness and the heat.

The pyramids grew until they seemed to fill the sky; and when at last we stood at the base of one and looked up, it seemed entirely possible that the tip touched the sun. I know now that it looked like a mountain; but then I had never seen a mountain, and it staggered me. I knew only flatness, only the horizontal--the smoothness of the ocean, the straight, wide streets of Alexandria, the level fields surrounding the river--and this mound, this vertical thrusting, I could not understand.

The polished stones gleamed, reflecting the sun like an amber mirror. It was hard, vast, impenetrable. Nowhere was there a single ornament, facing, detail, window, ledge--just this sloping, shining ramp of stones, vanishing into the sky. I felt dizzy. The heat, rising from the sand and blazing down from the sun overhead, and the fierce light made my head spin. Suddenly I knew it was dangerous to remain there. The pyramid wanted to do us harm, strike us down.

"Shade!" I said. "Is there no shade anywhere?"

The sun was almost directly overhead, and the giant structures cast no shadows.

Nebamun brought forth parasols. "Only this," he said. I gave thanks that he had thought of them. "There is shelter under the chin of the Sphinx," he said. "We can wait there."

He mounted his donkey and set out toward the Sphinx^ its head peering above the sand. We should have felt the same awe and fear in its presence, but it seemed almost friendly in comparison to the pyramids. It offered us shelter, and it looked like a person, and it did not house anything long dead and hostile.

We spread out our blankets on the sand between the creature's paws and kept the parasols over our heads. There was little talking; it was as if the vast silence of the place forbade it. We could see a raised causeway off to one side, and knew it was an abandoned road to a pyramid, perhaps used to push stones along in the building of it. But no one walked it now.

We watched the day pa.s.s from under the shadow of the Sphinx. Occasionally a black shape would fly through the deep blue sky--a vulture. Or the sands would move a little, and we would see a small snake burrowing deeper to escape the heat. But other than that, there was no movement. This was a place in the grip of death.

I wondered who lay inside the pyramids, and what was there with them. There must surely be jewelry, food, books, and instruments. Somewhere in that utter darkness and isolation in the heart of the pyramid would be paintings of stars and Nut, G.o.ddess of the sky, as if to fool the dead Pharaohs into believing they lay outdoors under the night sky, rather than imprisoned in stone and surrounded by stale, stifling air for eternity.

The pyramids gradually began to change color. At noon they had been almost white, but that softened to a tan and then, as the sun sank lower-- Atum again--they took on a warm glow with a rosy tinge. Little creatures-- lizards, snakes, mice--began to stir and leave their hiding places all around us. We also emerged from the paws of the Sphinx and walked around the pyramids again. Now great, long shadows stretched on one side, and the slant of the light showed all the irregularities of the surfaces. Here and there the stones were crumbling; time was eating away at their fabric. Even they, the most immortal things anyone knew of, were not proof against the relentless enmity of time.

The setting sun picked out the pebbles and ripples of the sands all around, showing the pyramids to lie not in a featureless frame but in a richly textured one, whose writing is invisible except under certain light conditions.

The sky was pink and purple, a twisted mixture of colors spreading upward from a bright red spot at the horizon. A breeze suddenly sprang up out of nowhere, warm like melted ointment, and as sweet as a long-ago death.

"Come," said Nebamun. "We should leave. It grows dark very quickly, and we should not be here when the light fades." He hopped on his donkey with surprising speed.

What would the pyramids be like at night? Darkness against darkness?

I wanted to stay. But I was young, and must obey.

Chapter 7.

Nothing is ever the same twice. I expected that the journey back would be exactly like the one coming. And for a while it was--the same riverbanks, the same ca.n.a.ls, the same clumps of date palms. But as we neared Alexandria and saw the white towers of the city walls blinking in the sun, we saw an unusual amount of movement, and crowds of people. Nebamun called out, "What's the news?" as we approached the dock.

"Cleopatra's dead!"

Although I knew it was not I, it is chilling to hear the death of someone with your name announced so nonchalantly.

"Poisoned!" cried another man on the dock. "I'm sure of it!"

"Where is Berenice?" asked Nebamun.

"In the palace. Where else should she be?"

"She hasn't fled, if that's what you're asking," his companion added. "But she might well have to. One of the other children already has--the younger Cleopatra. They're out looking for her everywhere. The Romans are coming."

"The Romans? What Romans?" I cried.

"The Romans from Rome," said the man with sarcasm. "What other kind are there?"

"Not true," said his companion smugly. "These Romans are coming from Syria--three legions--to try to restore Ptolemy to the throne. He bought them, after all."

"But the prophecy? What of the prophecy?" I asked. By that time we were out of the boat and scrambling out onsh.o.r.e. "Supposedly the Sibylline books forbade any armed help from Rome."

"Money finds a way," said the man. "Clever child, if you know about Sibylline books, you should know that money overrules all prophecies."

"Come!" said Nebamun, herding us toward the street of the Soma. He was alarmed, and realized he should return us to the palace as quickly as possible. As it was, he would probably be lashed as punishment for taking us.

"Nebamun, don't be afraid," I said. "It was my idea to go; I will take the blame and the punishment." My sister would be pleased enough to order mine, that I knew; but whether she would forgo Nebamun's lashing as well was not so certain.

Had she poisoned Cleopatra? Would she destroy me, and Arsinoe as well? I felt weak with fear.

Once back in the palace, I did not wait for her to send for me, but went straight to her quarters. They were filled with professional mourners, weeping and beating on their b.r.e.a.s.t.s, and wailing in high, ghostly moans. I begged leave to go directly to the Queen's rooms, and, flinging myself down in sorrow--and trepidation--awaited her. I heard her footsteps come nearer and stop.

"Oh, sister!" I cried. "Is it so? Is Cleopatra dead? And have I added to your grief by being absent? Forgive me!" I did not have to feign my distress.

"Get up; stop sniveling. Yes, our sister is dead. Mushrooms have been her entry into the realm of Osiris. One must be careful with mushrooms. I avoid them entirely."

I looked at her, stolid and seemingly unmoved by the death. No one should be unmoved by death, I thought. Then, as I looked closer, I saw that there was a half-smile on her face, which she was trying hard to keep under control.

"Where have you been?" she shot at me. "How dare you leave the palace and stay away for days without informing me? You are only a child! Who is behind this?"

"It was I who planned it, and forced Nebamun, Mardian's uncle, to take me, and several others. We did it to him, not he to us." Please let her believe me!

"Take you where?"

"To see the pyramids and the Sphinx."

I expected her to be angry, but she burst out laughing. Then I realized why. She had been afraid we were involved in something political, but this was innocent. I felt relief flooding me. She was not going to harm me. Not today.

"I've never seen them myself," she said. "I am a bit embarra.s.sed to admit it."

"They were all I had dreamed of," I said. "They made me proud to be an Egyptian."

"You aren't an Egyptian, you are a Ptolemy--a Greek!" she reminded me.

"The Ptolemies have been here three hundred years; we must be Egyptian by now."

"What a stupid thing to say! Another of your silly ideas! We don't have a drop of Egyptian blood; it doesn't matter how long we've been here!"

"But--" I started to say that we could be Egyptian in spirit if not in blood, but she cut me off.

"If a red piece of granite stands next to a gray piece of granite for a thousand years, does it change?" she bellowed.

"People are not granite," I insisted.

"Sometimes they can be almost that hard."

"Not you," I said. "There is a part of you that is kind." I was trying to flatter her.

The half-smile returned. "I hope my husband may find me so."

"Husband?" I almost choked.

"Yes. I had just married when our sister Cleopatra left us. She turned my house of joy into one of mourning. But such are the accidents of fate."

"Who--who is he?"

"Prince Archelaus of Pontus," she replied, and this time the smile became a full one. He must be handsome, and pleasing to her.

"How much has happened in the few days I was away!" I blurted out.

"And more besides," she said. "We are making ready to defend ourselves against our father's mercenaries! With Roman money--borrowed, of course-- he has hired yet other Romans to invade Egypt and try to take back the throne!" Her voice shook with the effrontery of it all.

"But what of the Sibylline prophecy?" I asked, yet again.

"Cicero found a way around it! Yes, the great Roman orator, who prides himself on being so n.o.ble, is like any merchant making a deal in the bazaar. The only difference is that he trades in words, not deeds."

"But what words did he use?" Would no one tell me? I knew the prophecy: If an Egyptian king should come asking for help, do not refuse him friendship; but do not go to his aid with force, for if you do you will meet with dangers and difficulties. If an Egyptian king should come asking for help, do not refuse him friendship; but do not go to his aid with force, for if you do you will meet with dangers and difficulties. How to get around that? How to get around that?

"Something to the effect that Gabinius, the Roman governor of Syria, should send the King on ahead of him, so that he won't be accompanying him 'with force'--only backing him up!" She snorted. "We shall be ready for them!" she said with certainty.

Father was on his way back! The Romans would restore him to the throne! It was all I could do not to burst into cheers. "I shall stay in my quarters," I a.s.sured her. "You need not worry again about my whereabouts. I am grieved that my absence caused you any concern."

She had forgotten about punishing Nebamun; the Roman army had banished all ordinary thoughts from her mind. I would hide in my rooms and hope she forgot about me, too.

Things happened very quickly. It was your wish, O Isis--you who deliver the plotter of evil against other men into the hands of the one he plots against-- that my father, Ptolemy XII Philopator Neos Dionysus, should be restored to his throne. It was you who brought the troops of Gabinius to the outskirts of Egypt at Pelusium, who let them overcome the garrison there, and march upon Alexandria. It was you who caused the confusion and overthrow of Berenice's forces and the death of her new bridegroom, Archelaus. It was you who made Gabinius's young cavalry commander show mercy to the defeated Egyptians, and give an honorable burial to Archelaus, and thus win the love of the Alexandrians. His Roman name was Marcus Antonius, and he was twenty-seven years old.

It was you who arranged it all, moved all these events, in only a few days provided my entire future and revealed its form.

Berenice must be publicly executed. Now I was the eldest surviving child, the one who would be Queen.

Queen. I would be Queen. I kept repeating the words to myself, but I was not impatient for it before my time; unlike my sisters, I would let it happen when it was destined to. Their attempts to twist fate had merely given the throne to me. me. That made me smile. That made me smile.

I--Queen. The third child, and a girl. Truly, this was the work of Isis, she who shapes fate.

My joy at seeing Father again was unbounded. I threw my arms around him, realizing that now my eyes were almost level with his. He had been away three long years, years that had wrought many changes in me.

"You are back! Safe!" It seemed impossible, as the answers to prayers often do.

He was looking at me as if he had forgotten what he would see. "You have grown lovely, child," he finally said. "You will be the Queen that Egypt deserves."

"I am fourteen now," I reminded him, in case he had lost track. "I hope I will not be Queen for a long time--may the Pharaoh live for a million years, as the ancients said."