The Guilty Part 18

The article had clearly been written and submitted before her father's murder.

I called you, Henry.

And I didn't answer. And now the whole world knows it.

And the whole world sees me as a demon. But I'm not. And they won't believe me.

Oh G.o.d, Mya, how could you?

I stared out the window, alone in an airport in a strange city, thinking of the girl whose heart I'd broken, the girl whose destiny I had changed for the worse, the girl whose life would never be the same. I sat there and stared at the newspaper and thought of Mya, and thought of Amanda, and wondered if Paulina Cole was right.

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The flight touched down just before five o'clock. I turned on my cell phone while people were still prying their oversize luggage from the overhead bins. There were eleven messages waiting for me. And I didn't have that many friends.

I speed-walked through the terminal listening to the messages. The first was from Amanda. Wanting to know if I'd seen the Dispatch Dispatch today. Wanting to know if I'd heard from today. Wanting to know if I'd heard from Mya. Wanting to know if I was okay. Her voice was a combination of sorrow because I'd known David Loverne, and anger because of what Mya had done. Ordinarily I'd be thrilled to know a girl was willing to fight for me, but all I could think about was Mya. She didn't ask for this. And now her father was dead.

The second message was from Jack O'Donnell, telling me to expect h.e.l.lfire and brimstone but not to say a G.o.dd.a.m.n a G.o.dd.a.m.n word to the press until everyone at the to the press until everyone at the Gazette Gazette had a chance had a chance to sort through the wreckage. He told me to call him as soon as I got the message.

The next two were from Wallace Langston. Asking me to call him as soon as I got his message. Telling me it was urgent beyond belief.

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The third was from a reporter from the New York Times. New York Times.

The fourth was from a reporter for the a.s.sociated Press. The fifth through tenth messages were also from reporters asking for a quote on today's story in the Dispatch Dispatch as well as my as well as my thoughts on the death of David Loverne. I knew nothing yet about the circ.u.mstances surrounding Loverne's death.

The last message was a hang up, but I heard a soft whisper say "Henry" before the line went dead. I didn't need to check the call log to know who it was from.

I checked the newsstand as I ran through the airport, hoping to see something about Loverne's murder, but there was nothing. It happened too late to make the papers. The only ink about the Lovernes at all, in fact, was Paulina's story.

As I waited in the taxi line, I couldn't help but think it was an awful coincidence that Mya's father was killed the day Paulina's story ran. That his dalliances seemed to have flown under the radar for so long, what were the chances of his being murdered on the very day they were made public, put under harsh light? The odds were too long to be a coincidence. Clearly Loverne was killed for a reason. I didn't have to ask anyone. I knew Loverne had been killed by the same sick son of a b.i.t.c.h who'd killed Athena Paradis, Joe Mauser and Jeffrey Lourdes. Another public figure. Another public execution.

I called Amanda first.

"Jesus, Henry," she said, picking up on the first ring.

"Where are you?"

"I'm on my way back from the airport. I should be in the city in twenty minutes."

"Are you okay?"

How could I answer that?

"I'm fine," I said.

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"You don't sound fine. Talk to me."

"I have to go right to the Gazette. Gazette. They're going to want They're going to want to know what the h.e.l.l is going on."

"Babe, I want to see you, are you sure you're okay?"

"I'm fine," I said, this time my voice barely masking the irritation, then hating myself for talking to her like that. "I don't know when I'll be home, but I'll talk to you then. I found a lot in New Mexico. I think I have a line on who the killer is. Or thinks he is."

"Well, I have to work late, but if you need anything please let me know. Hen, I'm so sorry about this. I know how close you were to that family."

It took a moment to gather myself.

"Henry, you there?"

"Yeah...listen, I'll call you when I know more. I might need one of those cyanide pills they give to soldiers in case they're captured."

"Don't say that."

"I'm kidding."

"Call me when you know more. Talk to Jack, I'm sure he can help. I'll see you at home. I love you."

I paused for a moment, letting those words sink in.

"I love you, too."

As soon as I hung up I called Jack's private line. There was no answer. I cursed and left a brief message.

"Jack, it's Henry. Listen, I have something you need to hear. I know why the killer is using that gun. Call me as soon as you get this. I'll need your help before I go into the buzz saw."

As my cab veered toward the Grand Central Parkway, the sun began to dip below the clouds, turning New York a beautiful dark blue. I could feel sweat dripping down my neck.

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Putting Loverne's murder aside, I had new information that would be vital to the reporting on this story. I just hoped it would be heard through all the noise.

The fare was thirty-five bucks. I tossed two twenties at the driver and raced into the Gazette Gazette office. There were two other office. There were two other days I'd felt this kind of queasy apprehension about going to work. My first day in the office, where I met Wallace and Paulina and nearly offered to polish Jack O'Donnell's shoes.

My first day back on the job after running for my life from Joe Mauser and the a.s.sa.s.sin Shelton Barnes. And now today.

I entered the silent lobby, heard my shoes clacking on the marble floor. The security guard nodded h.e.l.lo and went back to reading his newspaper. From his polite demeanor, I guessed he hadn't read Paulina's article.

I swiped my pa.s.s and went to the Metro floor. The doors opened, and standing right there was Evelyn Waterstone.

Short, cold, mean--I couldn't tell if her reaction to my presence was based on general surliness or was simply her normal countenance.

"Parker," she said.

"Hey, Evelyn," I replied.

"Nice reporting on the ballistics story with Jack."

"Thanks," I stammered, trying to remember the last time Evelyn had offered a pleasantry.

"Hope you're still around tomorrow," she added, before walking away.

As I threaded my way toward my desk, I noticed that every reporter, stringer and editor had stopped what they were doing to watch me. I couldn't look them in the eye.

Once again, I was the story.

I barely had time to sit down when Wallace was standing over my desk. His eyes were tinged with red and the indents 182.

on his nose meant he'd stayed at the office overnight without removing his gla.s.ses. His hair was askew, tie loosened, like a school kid roughed up by the cla.s.sroom bully. He pressed his lips together and said, "Come with me."

I felt eyes boring into my back as we walked to the elevator.

I didn't have to ask where we were going. Wallace pressed the b.u.t.ton, then shoved his hands back into his pockets. Then he looked at me.

"That was good work you did for Jack," he said.

"I think there's much more to these murders than the bal listic report," I said. "I've been in New Mexico, I--"

"Later," Wallace said. The doors opened. "Let's go."

My stomach surged upward with the motion of the elevator. I wondered if the feeling in my gut was what prisoners felt like before their execution. We got off on the eighteenth floor. I'd heard about the eighteenth floor, but had never been there. Unless you were nominated for a Pulitzer or were about to have the rug pulled out from your career, you never came up here. And I sure as h.e.l.l wasn't up for a Pulitzer.

The digital counter stopped at 18. The doors opened.

Everything looked newer up here; the wood paneling dark and freshly polished, the newspapers in the waiting area folded, and even the receptionist looked like she spent a little more time at the gym than those on the Metro floor. She guarded a narrow hallway with one set of double doors at the end. The office of Harvey Hillerman, chairman and CEO of the New York Gazette. New York Gazette.

Wallace nodded at the receptionist.

"You can go right in," she said.

"Thanks, Gloria." Gloria went back to typing.

The doors swung open as we approached. Harvey Hiller-man was standing in front of us, holding the door open, an 183.

unlit cigar in his mouth. The end was sopping wet and looked like a gangrenous limb that could detach at any moment.

His sleeves were a little too long for his wrists. His jacket seemed to billow out. On the wall was a framed portrait of Hillerman standing next to Bill Clinton, Hillerman's pants just a bit too baggy, as if the clothes he wore belonged to a larger man.

Harvey Hillerman's office was startlingly clear of any sort of clutter. Lining his walls were several dozen framed page ones from various Gazette Gazette editions. I scanned the headlines editions. I scanned the headlines while Harvey and Wallace exchanged awkward pleasantries.

April 4, 1996. Theodore Kaczynski, aka the Unabomber, is arrested at his remote cabin in Montana after his brother, David, notifies authorities.

February 5, 1997. O.J. Simpson is found liable in civil court for the wrongful deaths of Nicole Brown Simpson and Ronald Goldman and ordered to pay $33,500,000 in damages.

August 18, 1998. During Grand Jury testimony, President Bill Clinton admits to an "inappropriate" relationship with former White House intern Monica Lewinsky.

July 17, 1999. John F. Kennedy, Jr. and his wife are killed after the plane Kennedy was flying crashes into the Atlantic Ocean.

December 14, 2000. Democratic Presidential nominee Al Gore concedes the presidential election to George W. Bush, over a month after election day.

September 12, 2001. The day after terrorists killed nearly three thousand Americans.

March 3, 2002. The launch of Operation Anaconda, the first large-scale battle during the United States' war in Afghanistan since the Battle of Tora Bora in December, 2001.

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March 13, 2003. Elizabeth Smart is found alive nine months after being kidnapped by two Morman fundamentalists.

December 14, 2003. United States military forces capture Saddam Hussein.

December 27, 2004. An earthquake measuring between 9.1-9.3 on the Richter scale occurs in the Indian Ocean, triggering ma.s.sive tsunamis over South and Southeast Asia killing over 180,000 people.

"Murder, calamity and scandal," Hillerman said. "They're usually the first things people look at." My eyes leapt from the frames to the chairman.

Harvey Hillerman was a tall man, gray neatly-coiffed hair, with round tortoisesh.e.l.l eyegla.s.ses and a Montblanc sticking out of his shirt pocket. His desk was covered with shiny things: trophies, awards, metallic pens and things encased in gla.s.s.

He motioned to the framed editions. "Each of those represents the bestselling newspaper of that calendar year." He gazed at them for a moment, reflective, then motioned to the oversize chairs positioned at forty-five-degree angles in front of his desk. "Wally, Henry, please sit," he said. We both did so.

"Sir," I said, "before you say anything can I just say things didn't happen the way the Dispatch Dispatch said they did. said they did.

Paulina, she--"

"That's enough, Parker," Hillerman said. "Mind if I ask where you've been the last few days?"

"New Mexico, sir."

"New Mexico!" Hillerman exclaimed. "What in the b.l.o.o.d.y h.e.l.l were you doing in New Mexico, vacationing?"

"No, sir," I said. "I was following the lead Jack and I touched on in today's paper. The gun angle. It goes deeper--"

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"Did you know about this trip to New Mexico?" Hillerman asked Wallace.

"O'Donnell made me aware of it last night," he said, looking at his shoes.

Hillerman squinted his eyes as he stared at me. I didn't know whether to stare back or let the visual beatdown continue.

"So, Parker," Hillerman finally said. His voice wasn't reprimanding, it was...interested. "Tell us what you found in New Mexico."