The Girl Who Couldn't Smile Part 17

This almost caused me to have a coronary and it encouraged the other climber in the group. Tammy took it upon herself to see if she could beat Rufus to the hard little fruits, and soon the pair were racing up the narrow, spindly trees.

'Come on now, one of you is going to fall!' I said, as Rufus tried to kick Tammy back to the ground.

'Ah, sure it'll do them no harm.' Bridie laughed. 'If they fall once or twice, it makes them all the more careful next time.'

'If they end up in the hospital, I won't get a chance to be more careful next time,' I said. 'I'll be unemployed.'

Bridie tutted. 'Tell me this, Mr Safety Man. Do you think Tammy's mammy or daddy will cause any fuss if she comes home with a bruise on her arm or a b.u.mp on her head?'

I watched the climbers reach some sort of agreement as they took turns in tossing down the apples. 'I don't suppose they will,' I said.

'Then why don't you relax and let them have some fun? What's healthier than children climbin' a tree for apples?'

I had to agree with her.

And it was probably the nicest jam I've ever tasted.

27.

All the lights in the creche were switched off, and the curtains drawn to block out the dwindling sunlight. The only illumination came from several frighteningly carved Hallowe'en pumpkins. (In fact, they looked more friendly than frightening Tush had been in charge of giving them faces and they looked to me as if they were smiling.) Lonnie had found a CD of scary noises chains rattling, evil laughter, werewolves howling, thunder booming and the like, but it had scared Julie, so we had abandoned it in favour of a Bear in the Big Blue House collection, which was not at all seasonal but unlikely to give anyone nightmares.

We had played all sorts of games, and would soon have some stories, but now the children were about to embark on the game they had been looking forward to all day: the Lucky Dip. Susan had come up with the idea, and it was very simple: every child had to answer a question (tailor made so they would have no difficulty with it) that gave them access to the huge box filled with shredded paper and the prizes. Turns were chosen by lottery: Lonnie pulled names out of a hat.

'Okay, I've got Gus,' he said. 'Are you ready for your question, Gus, my man?'

'Yes, I am,' Gus said, more than a little nervous.

'All right, here we go. What colour and I need the exact colour, mind is Tush's car?'

Gus paused for a moment, his face scrunched up in concentration. 'Blue!' he said jubilantly.

'Go and get your prize!' Lonnie said.

Gus spent ages rooting around in the box, and came out with a parcel covered with pictures of witches and bats. He ripped off the paper it was a colouring book and crayons. Gus whooped and danced about as if he had just found a cheque for a million euro.

So it went on everyone got a prize and, thankfully, everyone seemed more than happy with their acquisition. We all took a deep breath when Milandra had her go, but she liked the set of Hallowe'en stickers she received and even gave Lonnie a hug.

When everyone was done, we sat in a circle, the music turned down, only one pumpkin left lighting the room.

'Do you all remember Peter Rabbit?' I asked.

Nods and yeses all around.

'Do you remember I told you that story was written by a lady named Beatrix Potter?'

Less agreement this time most of the children had probably forgotten that detail.

'Well, Beatrix wrote lots of children's stories, and I'd like to read you another one today. It's scary, in a nice kind of way, and it's about an animal a lot of people a.s.sociate with Hallowe'en: the rat!'

The kids made faces and noises of disgust, but they were having fun already.

The story I read was The Tale of Samuel Whiskers. It had always scared me a little as a kid Beatrix Potter had again indulged her dark sensibilities, but I thought it just frightening enough to give our gang a thrill, but not so terrifying any of them would get upset.

As in Peter Rabbit, the story revolves around a naughty child. Tom Kitten lives with his mother, Mrs Tabitha Twitchit, and sisters, Moppet and Mittens, in a house overrun with rats. Her children being an unruly bunch, Mrs Twitchit puts Moppet and Mittens in a cupboard in order to keep them under control the equivalent of sending them to their room but Tom Kitten escapes up the chimney. As he makes his way to the top of the house, he comes across a crack in the wall and, squeezing through it, finds himself under the attic's floorboards.

I liked this element of the story particularly every child fantasizes about a portal to another world. C. S. Lewis had based his Narnia books on the idea, as had Enid Blyton with her Faraway Tree stories, and J. K. Rowling in the Harry Potter books. The crux of these literary journeys is: if you manage to make the pa.s.sage from your own world to another, will you be able to get back and will you want to? The Tale of Samuel Whiskers is no different.

When Tom Kitten finds himself in the world beneath the floor, he meets the rats, Mr Samuel Whiskers and his wife Anna Maria. They catch him, then cover him with b.u.t.ter and dough to turn him into a pudding and eat him. However, when they start to roll out the dough, the noise attracts the attention of Tabitha Twitchit and her friend Ribby, who have been searching for Tom. They quickly call for John Joiner, the carpenter, who saws open the floor and rescues Tom.

Samuel Whiskers and his wife escape to the barn of Farmer Potatoes. Potter adds as a sort of postscript that she saw Samuel Whiskers and Anna Maria making their escape, using a wheelbarrow that looked very like her own.

I had again got the pictures enlarged, and we discussed each one. The children had tremendous fun and I could tell that they had identified easily with Tom Kitten: his awful situation involved creatures with which they were all familiar. One cannot live in the country for long without coming in contact with rats, and the children were well aware that their parents hated them.

'How did Tom find himself in so much trouble?' I asked.

'Climb up de chimbley,' Jeffrey said.

'That's right,' I said. 'Now, you couldn't do that in the houses we live in today, because you just wouldn't fit, but when Beatrix Potter was writing, the houses had great big chimneys, and they would often send children right up inside to clean them. Can you imagine that?'

There was much debate.

'You remember Tom's mum put his sisters in the cupboard because they were so naughty and she needed a break?' I said. 'Have you ever been asked to stay in your room, but then you didn't?'

Almost every head in the circle nodded.

'One time, I sneakeded out of my room,' Milandra said.

'Did you?' I asked.

'Yeah.' She nodded. 'Mammy and Daddy was havin' a dinner party wit their friends. I could hear them talkin' and I sneakeded downstairs. I went into the kitchen and I tooked some stuff out of the fridg'rator.'

'What kinda stuff, M'landra?' Ross asked.

'Stuff in a bottle. It was a big green bottle, wit a twisty top. I drinked it, and I gotted sick. It was scustin'!'

'Mmm,' I said. 'I think that might have been stuff only grown-ups are meant to drink, sweetie.'

'My dad whipped me good,' she said.

I frowned. Milandra's mother had told me they didn't slap the child. 'Did he?' I asked.

'He said I could've pysened myself,' she said gravely.

'Well, that's true,' I said, and changed the subject.

It was puzzling, though.

Lonnie approached me as we were cleaning up. 'Great story,' he said.

'Thanks.'

I could tell he had something on his mind, but I knew he'd get to it in his own time. It didn't take long.

'I've let it slide, but I can't keep my mouth shut any more,' he blurted.

'What's that?' I asked patiently.

'D'you remember, when I started at Little Scamps, what the main project which was going to save the whole b.l.o.o.d.y creche was? Remember how this room was empty, most of the furniture was outside or in the kitchen? Remember all that?'

I knew where he was going, but thought it might be fun to see how we'd get there. 'Of course the place was like that. We were redecorating.'

Lonnie laughed cacophonously. 'Every single item of furniture is back inside, all the toys are in, and we've done countless projects and activities to help us think up pictures to put on the G.o.ddam wall....'

'Yeah?' I said, feeding his temper.

'But not one single b.l.o.o.d.y picture has been painted on it!'

Indeed the walls were still white from floor to ceiling, although we had now stuck some posters on them in some places. The tins of paint were stacked at the back of the room, near the door to the outdoor play area, and Tush had put a tarpaulin over them. Not so much as one bristle from a paintbrush had been dipped into them since that first day.

'And your point is?' I said to my irate friend.

'You're a total spoofer!' he said in disgust.

'I'm surprised it took you so long to notice,' I said, slapping him on the back as I walked past.

28.

It is a constant source of amazement to me that monumental events can so often appear utterly insignificant. If only we could see the signs when they present themselves, grasp the meaning that is buried within mundane happenings before it is obscured by time and conflicting factors.

The children were lining up for their bus. The room was almost back to normal and I was pushing chairs and tables into their original places. The only person who was refusing to co-operate was Gus. He was bent over his new colouring book, a thick blue crayon from his pack clutched in his hand, hard at work.

'Time to wrap it up for today, Augustus,' I said.

'This was a really good prize to win in the Lucky Dip,' Gus said, still busy.

'I'm thrilled you like it so much,' I said. 'But you can do more when you get home, can't you?' I sat down next to him. 'Whatcha doing anyway?'

'Colourin',' he said, answering my painfully stupid question with great patience.

'I can see that,' I admitted.

'Want me to tell ya sumpin?'

'I sure do.'

'This crayon this blue crayon, which is my favouritest colour is magic.'

I considered this profound statement.

'Is that so?'

'Yes. With this crayon, see, I can colour inside the lines and I never ever ever go outside lessen I wants to.'

He was colouring a picture of a boat on a wavy ocean, with seagulls in the sky and a dolphin with a smiley face poking out of the water, seeming to wave at the sailors. Gus had coloured bits and pieces of the image in blue, and, sure enough, he had kept perfectly within the lines.

'That's really cool,' I said. 'A magic crayon is a fine thing for a boy to have.'

'Mmm-hmm,' Gus said, still focused on the task at hand.

'But it's time for you to get your coat and all your gear, and head for the bus!' I said, ruffling his hair.

'Okay.' He sighed.

Several months later I realized what had happened that evening and the magic became real.

Things had stalled somewhat with Tammy, and I was starting, if not to panic, then to become seriously worried. We would sit together as a group and I would watch the other children laughing and jabbering away nineteen to the dozen, but the little blond enigma would sit there as if she were encased in a hermetically sealed capsule, utterly unmoved by anything that was going on. In the dark hours of the night I would often pore over her case in my head, convinced that I had missed something, overlooked a detail, a clue that would unlock the chains that bound her so deeply inside herself.

I came up with nothing.

Desperation drove me to direct my efforts to the most obvious place her family. Not wanting to risk encountering a drunken Dale or Kylie, I decided to visit on a Sat.u.r.day morning. At ten thirty I pulled up outside the little house, the cry of gulls plaintive on the wind, salt lingering on the air. The road was deserted as I knocked on the door, and I wondered if Kylie and Dale were the only people who lived in these houses in the few times I had been there, I had never seen anyone else. My knocks elicited no response, so I banged louder. This time I saw a curtain twitch, and Tammy's little face pressed up against the gla.s.s on the other side. I waved. She looked back at me blankly. I could almost hear her brain working: What's going on? He's not meant to be here today! She did not move, so I hammered on the door again. This time I could hear dull thudding inside the building, and at last the door was opened by a very ill-looking Kylie.

'What?' she snapped.

'Hi, Kylie,' I said. 'Remember me? Shane, from Little Scamps?'

She shook her head, then stopped abruptly and placed a hand on her temple as if to still the pain. I was under no illusion as to the reason she might not be feeling the best she reeked of booze.

'What the f.u.c.k do you want so early on a Sat.u.r.day morning?' she hissed.

'To have a chat with you about Tammy,' I said gently. 'Will I make us some coffee? You look like you could use some.'

'I don't feel well,' Kylie said. 'In fact, I think I'm going to be sick. Please leave me alone.' She began to close the door.

'Can I come back later?'

She never answered. The door slammed shut. I stood there. Tammy was still gazing at me through the window, as if she was frozen there. I waved half-heartedly and walked back to the car. I sat inside and looked at the rolling scrub of the salt marsh. I checked the clock on the dashboard. The entire altercation had taken all of three minutes. I switched on the engine I wasn't done yet. I would give Kylie some time to recover, and then I'd come back. I was nothing if not persistent.