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"You mean, why didn't I tell you? I wanted to have the sketch to show you. I saw the house like this, but I couldn't explain it. I didn't think anyone would ever understand what I wanted and design it. He did."
"Who?"
"Howard Roark."
She had wanted to hear the name p.r.o.nounced by Gail Wynand.
"How did you happen to choose him, Gail?"
"I looked all over the country. Every building I liked had been done by him."
She nodded slowly.
"Dominique, I take it for granted you don't care about it any more, but I know that I picked the one architect you spent all your time denouncing when you were on the Banner." Banner."
"You read that?"
"I read it. You had an odd way of doing it. It was obvious that you admired his work and hated him personally. But you defended him at the Stoddard trial."
"Yes."
"You even worked for him once. That statue, Dominique, it was made for his temple."
"Yes."
"It's strange. You lost your job on the Banner Banner for defending him. I didn't know it when I chose him. I didn't know about that trial. I had forgotten his name. Dominique, in a way, it's he who gave you to me. That statue-from his temple. And now he's going to give me this house. Dominique, why did you hate him?" for defending him. I didn't know it when I chose him. I didn't know about that trial. I had forgotten his name. Dominique, in a way, it's he who gave you to me. That statue-from his temple. And now he's going to give me this house. Dominique, why did you hate him?"
"I didn't hate him.... It was so long ago ..."
"I suppose none of that matters now, does it?" He pointed to the drawing.
"I haven't seen him for years."
"You're going to see him in about an hour. He's coming here for dinner."
She moved her hand, tracing a spiral on the arm of the davenport, to convince herself that she could.
"Here?"
"Yes."
"You've asked him for dinner?"
He smiled; he remembered his resentment against the presence of guests in their house. He said: "This is different. I want him here. I don't think you remember him well-or you wouldn't be astonished."
She got up.
"All right, Gail. I'll give the orders. Then I'll get dressed."
They faced each other across the drawing room of Gail Wynand's penthouse. She thought how simple it was. He had always been here. He had been the motive power of every step she had taken in these rooms. He had brought her here and now he had come to claim this place. She was looking at him. She was seeing him as she had seen him on the morning when she awakened in his bed for the last time. She knew that neither his clothes nor the years stood between her and the living intactness of that memory. She thought this had been inevitable from the first, from the instant when she had looked down at him on the ledge of a quarry-it had to come like this, in Gail Wynand's house-and now she felt the peace of finality, knowing that her share of decision had ended; she had been the one who acted, but he would act from now on.
She stood straight, her head level; the planes of her face had a military cleanliness of precision and a feminine fragility; her hands hung still, composed by her sides, parallel with the long straight lines of her black dress.
"How do you do, Mr. Roark."
"How do you do, Mrs. Wynand."
"May I thank you for the house you have designed for us? It is the most beautiful of your buildings."
"It had to be, by the nature of the a.s.signment, Mrs. Wynand."
She turned her head slowly.
"How did you present the a.s.signment to Mr. Roark, Gail?"
"Just as I spoke of it to you."
She thought of what Roark had heard from Wynand, and had accepted. She moved to sit down; the two men followed her example. Roark said: "If you like the house, the first achievement was Mr. Wynand's conception of it."
She asked: "Are you sharing the credit with a client?"
"Yes, in a way."
"I believe this contradicts what I remember of your professional convictions."
"But supports my personal ones."
"I'm not sure I ever understood that."
"I believe in conflict, Mrs. Wynand."
"Was there a conflict involved in designing this house?"
"The desire not to be influenced by my client."
"In what way?"
"I have liked working for some people and did not like working for others. But neither mattered. This time, I knew that the house would be what it became only because it was being done for Mr. Wynand. I had to overcome this. Or rather, I had to work with it and against it. It was the best way of working. The house had to surpa.s.s the architect, the client and the future tenant. It did."
"But the house-it's you, Howard," said Wynand. "It's still you."
It was the first sign of emotion on her face, a quiet shock, when she heard the "Howard." Wynand did not notice it. Roark did. He glanced at her-his first glance of personal contact. She could read no comment in it-only a conscious affirmation of the thought that had shocked her.
"Thank you for understanding that, Gail," he answered.
She was not certain whether she had heard him stressing the name.
"It's strange," said Wynand. "I am the most offensively possessive man on earth. I do something to things. Let me pick up an ash tray from a dime-store counter, pay for it and put it in my pocket-and it becomes a special kind of ash tray, unlike any on earth, because it's mine. mine. It's an extra quality in the thing, like a sort of halo. I feel that about everything I own. From my overcoat-to the oldest linotype in the composing room-to the copies of the It's an extra quality in the thing, like a sort of halo. I feel that about everything I own. From my overcoat-to the oldest linotype in the composing room-to the copies of the Banner Banner on newsstands-to this penthouse-to my wife. And I've never wanted to own anything as much as I want this house you're going to build for me, Howard. I will probably be jealous of Dominique living in it-I can be quite insane about things like that. And yet-I don't feel that I'll own it, because no matter what I do or pay, it's still yours. It will always be yours." on newsstands-to this penthouse-to my wife. And I've never wanted to own anything as much as I want this house you're going to build for me, Howard. I will probably be jealous of Dominique living in it-I can be quite insane about things like that. And yet-I don't feel that I'll own it, because no matter what I do or pay, it's still yours. It will always be yours."
"It has to be mine," said Roark. "But in another sense, Gail, you own that house and everything else I've built. You own every structure you've stopped before and heard yourself answering."
"In what sense?"
"In the sense of that personal answer. What you feel in the presence of a thing you admire is just one word-'Yes.' The affirmation, the acceptance, the sign of admittance. And that 'Yes' is more than an answer to one thing, it's a kind of 'Amen' to life, to the earth that holds this thing, to the thought that created it, to yourself for being able to see it. But the ability to say 'Yes' or 'No' is the essence of all ownership. It's your ownership of your own ego. Your soul, if you wish. Your soul has a single basic function-the act of valuing. 'Yes' or 'No,' 'I wish' or 'I do not wish.' You can't say 'Yes' without saying 'I.' There's no affirmation without the one who affirms. In this sense, everything to which you grant your love is yours."
"In this sense, you share things with others?"
"No. It's not sharing. When I listen to a symphony I love, I don't get from it what the composer got. His 'Yes' was different from mine. He could have no concern for mine and no exact conception of it. That answer is too personal to each man. But in giving himself what he wanted, he gave me a great experience. I'm alone when I design a house, Gail, and you can never know the way in which I own it. But if you said your own 'Amen' to it-it's also yours. And I'm glad it's yours."
Wynand said, smiling: "I like to think that. That I own Monadnock and the Enright House and the Cord Building ..."
"And the Stoddard Temple," said Dominique.
She had listened to them. She felt numb. Wynand had never spoken like this to any guest in their house; Roark had never spoken like this to any client. She knew that the numbness would break into anger, denial, indignation later; now it was only a cutting sound in her voice, a sound to destroy what she had heard.
She thought that she succeeded. Wynand answered, the word dropping heavily: "Yes."
"Forget the Stoddard Temple, Gail," said Roark. There was such a simple, careless gaiety in his voice that no solemn dispensation could have been more effective.
"Yes, Howard," said Wynand, smiling.
She saw Roark's eyes turned to her.
"I have not thanked you, Mrs. Wynand, for accepting me as your architect. I know that Mr. Wynand chose me and you could have refused my services. I wanted to tell you that I'm glad you didn't."
She thought, I believe it because none of this can be believed; I'll accept anything tonight; I'm looking at him.
She said, courteously indifferent: "Wouldn't it be a reflection on my judgment to suppose that I would wish to reject a house you had designed, Mr. Roark?" She thought that nothing she said aloud could matter tonight.
Wynand asked: "Howard, that Yes'-once granted, can it be withdrawn?"
She wanted to laugh in incredulous anger. It was Wynand's voice that had asked this; it should have been hers. He must look at me when he answers, she thought; he must look at me.
"Never," Roark answered, looking at Wynand.
"There's so much nonsense about human inconstancy and the transience of all emotions," said Wynand. "I've always thought that a feeling which changes never existed in the first place. There are books I liked at the age of sixteen. I still like them."
The butler entered, carrying a tray of c.o.c.ktails. Holding her gla.s.s, she watched Roark take his off the tray. She thought: At this moment the gla.s.s stem between his fingers feels just like the one between mine; we have this much in common.... Wynand stood, holding a gla.s.s, looking at Roark with a strange kind of incredulous wonder, not like a host, like an owner who cannot quite believe his ownership of his prize possession.
... She thought: I'm not insane, I'm only hysterical, but it's quite all right, I'm saying something, I don't know what it is, but it must be all right, they are both listening and answering, Gail is smiling, I must be saying the proper things....
Dinner was announced and she rose obediently; she led the way to the dining room, like a graceful animal given poise by conditioned reflexes. She sat at the head of the table, between the two men facing each other at her sides. She watched the silverware in Roark's fingers, the pieces of polished metal with the initials "D. W." She thought: I have done this so many times-I am the gracious Mrs. Gail Wynand-they were Senators, judges, presidents of insurance companies, sitting at dinner in that place at my right-and this is what I was being trained for, this is why Gail has been rising through tortured years to the position of entertaining Senators and judges at dinner-for the purpose of reaching an evening when the guest facing him would be Howard Roark.
Wynand spoke about the newspaper business; he showed no reluctance to discuss it with Roark, and she p.r.o.nounced a few sentences when it seemed necessary. Her voice had a luminous simplicity; she was being carried along, unresisting, any personal reaction would be superfluous, even pain or fear. She thought, if in the flow of conversation Wynand's next sentence should be: "You've slept with him," she would answer: "Yes, Gail, of course," just as simply. But Wynand seldom looked at her; when he did, she knew by his face that hers was normal.
Afterward, they were in the drawing room again, and she saw Roark standing at the window, against the lights of the city. She thought: Gail built this place as a token of his own victory-to have the city always before him-the city where he did run things at last. But this is what it had really been built for-to have Roark stand at that window-and I think Gail knows it tonight-Roark's body blocking miles out of that perspective, with only a few dots of fire and a few cubes of lighted gla.s.s left visible around the outline of his figure. He was smoking and she watched his cigarette moving slowly against the black sky, as he put it between his lips, then held it extended in his fingers, and she thought: they are only sparks from his cigarette, those points glittering in s.p.a.ce behind him.
She said softly: "Gail always liked to look at the city at night. He was in love with skysc.r.a.pers."
Then she noticed she had used the past tense, and wondered why.
She did not remember what she said when they spoke about the new house. Wynand brought the drawings from his study, spread the plans on a table, and the three of them stood bent over the plans together. Roark's pencil moved, pointing, across the hard geometrical patterns of thin black lines on white sheets. She heard his voice, close to her, explaining. They did not speak of beauty and affirmation, but of closets, stairways, pantries, bathrooms. Roark asked her whether she found the arrangements convenient. She thought it was strange that they all spoke as if they really believed she would ever live in this house.
When Roark had gone, she heard Wynand asking her: "What do you think of him?"
She felt something angry and dangerous, like a single, sudden twist within her, and she said, half in fear, half in deliberate invitation: "Doesn't he remind you of Dwight Carson?"
"Oh, forget Dwight Carson!"
Wynand's voice, refusing earnestness, refusing guilt, had sounded exactly like the voice that had said: "Forget the Stoddard Temple."
The secretary in the reception room looked, startled, at the patrician gentleman whose face she had seen so often in the papers.
"Gail Wynand," he said, inclining his head in self-introduction. "I should like to see Mr. Roark. If he is not busy. Please do not disturb him if he is. I had no appointment."
She had never expected Wynand to come to an office unannounced and to ask admittance in that tone of grave deference.
She announced the visitor. Roark came out into the reception room, smiling, as if he found nothing unusual in this call.
"h.e.l.lo, Gail. Come in."
"h.e.l.lo, Howard."
He followed Roark to the office. Beyond the broad windows, the darkness of late afternoon dissolved the city; it was snowing; black specks whirled furiously across the lights.
"I don't want to interrupt if you're busy, Howard. This is not important." He had not seen Roark for five days, since the dinner.
"I'm not busy. Take your coat off. Shall I have the drawings brought in?"
"No. I don't want to talk about the house. Actually, I came without any reason at all. I was down at my office all day, got slightly sick of it, and felt like coming here. What are you grinning about?"
"Nothing. Only you said that it wasn't important."
Wynand looked at him, smiled and nodded.
He sat down on the edge of Roark's desk, with an ease which he had never felt in his own office, his hands in his pockets, one leg swinging.
"It's almost useless to talk to you, Howard. I always feel as if I were reading to you a carbon copy of myself and you've already seen the original. You seem to hear everything I say a minute in advance. We're unsynchronized."
"You call that unsynchronized?"