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"All?" she repeated. "Oh, if a woman could only do more!"
"And is there nothing--for me?"
Virginia straightened.
"Are you doing this for a reward?" she demanded.
"No," he answered pa.s.sionately. "You know that I am not. Do you remember when you told me that I was good for nothing, that I lacked purpose?"
"Yes, Max."
"I have thought it over since," he went on rapidly; "you were right. I cannot work--it is not in me. But I have always felt that I could make a name for myself--for you--in the army. I am sure that I could command a regiment. And now the time is coming."
She did not answer him, but absently twisted the fringe of his buckskins in her fingers.
"Ever since I have known what love is I have loved you, Jinny. It was so when we climbed the cherry trees at Bellegarde. And you loved me then--I know you did. You loved me when I went East to school at the Military Inst.i.tute. But it has not been the same of late," he faltered.
"Something has happened. I felt it first on that day you rode out to Bellegarde when you said that my life was of no use. Jinny, I don't ask much. I am content to prove myself. War is coming, and we shall have to free ourselves from Yankee insolence. It is what we have both wished for. When I am a general, will you marry me?"
For a wavering instant she might have thrown herself into his outstretched arms. Why not, and have done with sickening doubts? Perhaps her hesitation hung on the very boyishness of his proposal. Perhaps the revelation that she did not then fathom was that he had not developed since those childish days. But even while she held back, came the beat of hoofs on the gravel below them, and one of the Bellegarde servants rode into the light pouring through the open door. He called for his master.
Clarence muttered his dismay as he followed his cousin to the steps.
"What is it?" asked Virginia, alarmed.
"Nothing; I forgot to sign the deed to the Elleardsville property, and Worington wants it to-night." Cutting short Sambo's explanations, Clarence vaulted on the horse. Virginia was at his stirrup. Leaning over in the saddle, he whispered: "I'll be back in a quarter of an hour Will you wait?"
"Yes," she said, so that he barely heard.
"Here?"
She nodded.
He was away at a gallop, leaving Virginia standing bareheaded to the night, alone. A spring of pity, of affection for Clarence suddenly welled up within her. There came again something of her old admiration for a boy, impetuous and lovable, who had tormented and defended her with the same hand.
Patriotism, stronger in Virginia than many of us now can conceive, was on Clarence's side. Ambition was strong in her likewise. Now was she all afire with the thought that she, a woman, might by a single word give the South a leader. That word would steady him, for there was no question of her influence. She trembled at the reckless lengths he might go in his dejection, and a memory returned to her of a day at Glencoe, before he had gone off to school, when she had refused to drive with him. Colonel Carvel had been away from home. She had pretended not to care. In spite of Ned's beseechings Clarence had ridden off on a wild thoroughbred colt and had left her to an afternoon of agony. Vividly she recalled his home-coming in the twilight, his coat torn and muddy, a bleeding cut on his forehead, and the colt quivering tame.
In those days she had thought of herself unreservedly as meant for him. Dash and courage and generosity had been the beacon lights on her horizon. But now? Were there not other qualities? Yes, and Clarence should have these, too. She would put them into him. She also had been at fault, and perhaps it was because of her wavering loyalty to him that he had not gained them.
Her name spoken within the hall startled Virginia from her reverie, and she began to walk rapidly down the winding drive. A fragment of the air to which they were dancing brought her to a stop. It was the Jenny Lind waltz. And with it came clear and persistent the image she had sought to shut out and failed. As if to escape it now, she fairly ran all the way to the light at the entrance and hid in the magnolias cl.u.s.tered beside the gateway. It was her cousin's name she whispered over and over to herself as she waited, vibrant with a strange excitement. It was as though the very elements might thwart her wail. Clarence would be delayed, or they would miss her at the house, and search. It seemed an eternity before she heard the m.u.f.fled thud of a horse cantering in the clay road.
Virginia stood out in the light fairly between the gate posts. Too late she saw the horse rear as the rider flew back in his seat, for she had seized the bridle. The beams from the lamp fell upon a Revolutionary horseman, with cooked hat and sword and high riding-boots. For her his profile was in silhouette, and the bold nose and chin belonged to but one man she knew. He was Stephen Brice. She gave a cry of astonishment and dropped the rein in dismay. Hot shame was surging in her face. Her impulse was to fly, nor could she tell what force that stayed her feet.
As for Stephen, he stood high in his stirrups and stared down at the girl. She was standing full in the light,--her lashes fallen, her face crimson. But no sound of surprise escaped him because it was she, nor did he wonder at her gown of a gone-by century. Her words came first, and they were low. She did not address him by name.
"I--I thought that you were my cousin," she said. "What must you think of me!"
Stephen was calm.
"I expected it," he answered.
She gave a step backward, and raised her frightened eyes to his.
"You expected it?" she faltered.
"I can't say why," he said quickly, "but it seems to me as if this had happened before. I know that I am talking nonsense--"
Virginia was trembling now. And her answer was not of her own choosing.
"It has happened before," she cried. "But where? And when?"
"It may have been in a dream," he answered her, "that I saw you as you stand there by my bridle. I even know the gown you wear."
She put her hand to her forehead. Had it been a dream? And what mystery was it that sent him here this night of all nights? She could not even have said that it was her own voice making reply.
"And I--I have seen you, with the sword, and the powdered hair, and the blue coat and the buff waistcoat. It is a buff waistcoat like that my great-grandfather wears in his pictures."
"It is a buff waistcoat," he said, all sense of strangeness gone.
The roses she held dropped on the gravel, and she put out her hand against his horse's flank. In an instant he had leaped from his saddle, and his arm was holding her. She did not resist, marvelling rather at his own steadiness, nor did she then resent a tenderness in his voice.
"I hope you will forgive me--Virginia," he said. "I should not have mentioned this. And yet I could not help it."
She looked up at him rather wildly.
"It was I who stopped you," she said; "I was waiting for--"
"For whom?"
The interruption brought remembrance.
"For my cousin, Mr. Colfax," she answered, in another tone. And as she spoke she drew away from him, up the driveway. But she had scarcely taken five steps whey she turned again, her face burning defiance. "They told me you were not coming," she said almost fiercely. "Why did you come?"
It was a mad joy that Stephen felt.
"You did not wish me to come?" he demanded.
"Oh, why do you ask that?" she cried. "You know I would not have been here had I thought you were coming. Anne promised me that you would not come."
What would she not have given for those words back again
Stephen took astride toward her, and to the girl that stride betokened a thousand things that went to the man's character. Within its compa.s.s the comparison in her mind was all complete. He was master of himself when he spoke.
"You dislike me, Miss Carvel," he said steadily. "I do not blame you.
Nor do I flatter myself that it is only because you believe one thing, and I another. But I a.s.sure you that it is my misfortune rather than my fault that I have not pleased you,--that I have met you only to anger you."
He paused, for she did not seem to hear him. She was gazing at the distant lights moving on the river. Had he come one step farther?--but he did not. Presently she knew that he was speaking again, in the same measured tone.
"Had Miss Brinsmade told me that my presence here would cause you annoyance, I should have stayed away. I hope that you will think nothing of the--the mistake at the gate. You may be sure that I shall not mention it. Good night, Miss Carvel."