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"Has no one been to unpack your things?"
"I rang."
"And no one came? Oh, I shall scold Marie. It is the only thing I can do well in German. Can you speak English?"
"No."
"Nor understand it?"
"No."
"French?"
"No."
"Oh, well, you must be patient then with my bad German. When I am alone with anyone it goes better, but if there are many people listening I am nervous and can hardly speak at all. How glad I am that you are here!"
Anna's shyness, now that she was by herself with one of her forlorn ones, had vanished, and she prattled happily for some time, putting as many mistakes into her sentences as they would hold, before she became aware that the baroness's replies were monosyllabic, and that she was examining her from head to foot with so much attention that there was obviously none left over for the appreciation of her remarks.
This made her feel shy again. Clothes to her were such secondary considerations, things of so little importance. Susie had provided them, and she had put them on, and there it had ended; and when she found that it was her dress and not herself that was interesting the baroness, she longed to have the courage to say, "Don't waste time over it now--I'll send it to your room to-night, if you like, and you can look at it comfortably--only don't waste time now. I want to talk to you, to _you_ who have suffered so much; I want to make friends with you quickly, to make you begin to be happy quickly; so don't let us waste the precious time thinking of clothes." But she had neither sufficient courage nor sufficient German.
She put out her hand rather timidly, and making an effort to bring her companion's thoughts back to the things that mattered, said, "I hope you will like living with me. I hope we shall be very happy together. I can't tell you how happy it makes me to think that you are safely here, and that you are going to stay with me always."
The baroness's hands were clasped in front of her, and they did not unclasp to meet Anna's; but at this speech she left off eyeing the dress, and began to ask questions. "You are very lonely, I can see," she said with another of the pinched smiles. "Have you then no relations? No one of your own family who will live with you? Will not your _Frau Mama_ come to Germany?"
"My mother is dead."
"_Ach_--mine also. And the _Herr Papa_?"
"He is dead."
"_Ach_--mine also."
"I know, I know," said Anna, stroking the unresponsive hands--a trick of hers when she wanted to comfort that had often irritated Susie. "You told me how lonely you were in your letters. I lived with my brother and his wife till I came here. You have no brothers or sisters, I think you wrote."
"None," said the baroness with a rigid look.
"Well, I am going to be your sister, if you will let me."
"You are very good."
"Oh, I am not good, only so happy--I have everything in the world that I have ever wished to have, and now that you have come to share it all there is nothing more I can think of that I want."
"_Ach_," said the baroness. Then she added, "Have you no aunts, or cousins, who would come and stay with you?"
"Oh, heaps. But they are all well off and quite pleased, and they wouldn't like staying here with me at all."
"They would not like staying with you? How strange."
"Very strange," laughed Anna. "You see they don't know how pleasant I can be in my own house."
"And your friends--they too will not come?"
"I don't know if they would or not. I didn't ask them."
"You have no one, no one at all who would come and live with you so that you should not be so lonely?"
"But I am not lonely," said Anna, looking down at the little woman with a slightly amused expression, "and I don't in the least want to be lived with."
"Then why do you wish to fill your house with strangers?"
"Why?" repeated Anna, a puzzled look coming into her eyes. Had not the correspondence with the ultimately chosen been long? And were not all her reasons duly set forth therein? "Why, because I want you to have some of my nice things too."
"But not your own friends and relations?"
"They have everything they want."
There was a silence. Anna left off stroking the baroness's hands. She was thinking that this was a queer little person--outside, that is.
Inside, of course, she was very different, poor little lonely thing; but her outer crust seemed thick; and she wondered how long it would take her to get through it to the soul that she was sure was sweet and lovable. She was also unable to repress a conviction that most people would call these questions rude.
But this train of thought was not one to be encouraged. "I am keeping you here talking," she said, resuming her first cheerfulness, "and your things are not unpacked yet. I shall go and scold Marie for not coming when you rang, and I'll send her to you." And she went out quickly, vexed with herself for feeling chilled, and left the baroness more full of doubts than ever.
When she had rebuked Marie, who looked gloomy, she tapped at Frau von Treumann's door. No one answered. She knocked again. No one answered.
Then she opened the door softly and looked in.
These were precious moments, she felt, these first moments of being alone with each of her new friends, precious opportunities for breaking ice. It is true she had not been able to break much of the ice encasing the baroness, but she was determined not to be cast down by any of the little difficulties she was sure to encounter at first, and she looked into Frau von Treumann's room with fresh hope in her heart.
What, then, was her dismay to find that lady walking up and down with the long strides of extreme excitement, her face bathed in tears.
"Oh--what's the matter?" gasped Anna, shutting the door quickly and hurrying in.
Frau von Treumann had not heard the gentle taps, and when she saw her, started, and tried to hide her face in her handkerchief.
"Tell me what is the matter," begged Anna, her voice full of tenderness.
"_Nichts, nichts_," was the hasty reply. "I did not hear you knock----"
"Tell me what is the matter," begged Anna again, fairly putting her arms round the poor lady. "Our letters have said so much already--surely there is nothing you cannot tell me now? And if I can help you----"
Frau von Treumann freed herself by a hasty movement, and began to walk up and down again. "No, no, you can do nothing--you can do nothing," she said, and wept as she walked.
Anna watched her in consternation.
"See to what I have come--see to what I have come!" said the agitated lady under her breath but with pa.s.sionate intensity, as she pa.s.sed and repa.s.sed her dismayed hostess; "oh, to have fallen so low! oh, to have fallen so low!"
"So low?" echoed Anna, greatly concerned.
"At my age--I, a Treumann--I, a _geborene_ Grafin Ilmas-Kadenstein--to live on charity--to be a member of a charitable inst.i.tution!"