Tessa Leoni: Crash And Burn Part 16

"One of Thomas's first projects," she volunteered. "I told him I didn't want to do laundry all covered in spiders. So he made me a real room. Said it was his contribution to clean clothes everywhere."

"Nice setup," Wyatt observed, taking in the state-of-the-art front-loading washer and dryer, topped with a long laminate countertop to serve as a folding table. Then, of course, upper cabinets to hold laundry detergents, fabric sheets, cleaning basics.

As a carpenter himself, Wyatt appreciated Thomas's attention to detail. The room was professional grade, no doubt about it. Which made Wyatt wonder, after going through this much work to create a separate laundry facility, why the h.e.l.l hadn't Thomas taken the time and effort to build a better, safer flight of stairs?

Kevin and Thomas had arrived in the bas.e.m.e.nt.

"Nice work," Wyatt told the husband, indicating the s.p.a.ce.

He merely shrugged, but Nicky volunteered: "Thomas is good with his hands."

"Obviously. Must have a good tool collection as well. Miter saw, pneumatic nail gun, cordless drills . . ."

Thomas met his eye. "In my workshop. I craft custom props, remember? A lot of that starts with wooden models, if not finished products."

"Except now you're moving to plastic," Nicky spoke up again. No doubt about it, her tone was disapproving.

Wyatt and Kevin returned their attention to Thomas. "I have a three-D printer," the man said. "Now my clients can send me digital files of their own creations, which I can turn into three-D molds with a push of a b.u.t.ton. I call that progress. My wife considers it risky."

He glared at his wife. She glared back at him.

"My coat," Thomas said now, turning away from Nicky to wave at a drying rack just off to the side of the dryer. Sure enough, a single silver-and-black raincoat hung from the wooden dowels. Kevin fingered the coat first, lifting the front folds this way and that.

"Dry now," he murmured to Wyatt.

"Dirty," Wyatt observed, pointing to a pale smudge marring the front, streaks of sand lining both arms.

"Of course it's dirty," Thomas said impatiently. "I wore it to my workshop. And given that I'd already turned off the heat for the day, I left on my jacket while I worked."

"Not afraid of snagging a sleeve in a power tool?" Wyatt asked.

Kevin was inspecting the left cuff of the jacket, which showed definite signs of wear. What were the chances they'd find a thread from the frayed edge of this coat snagged in the b.u.mper of Nicole's car? Heaven forbid anything about this case would be that easy.

"We should take this for a match," Kevin said, voice deliberately loud.

"Definitely. Mind if we borrow your jacket?" Wyatt asked Thomas, who was looking defensive.

"Of course I mind. It's my only rain jacket. And I already told you. It's dirty and covered in stuff from my workshop; that's all."

"Is this more sand?" Kevin spoke up. "Like the sand on your shoes. Like the sand we found on the side of the road . . ."

"There's sand everywhere! It's New England, for G.o.d's sake, and we've already had several mornings below freezing."

"Where are Nicky's clothes?" Wyatt asked abruptly.

"What?" Thomas blinked.

"I understand from the hospital staff you took her clothes from the night of the accident."

"Nothing wrong with that-"

"Where are they? Muddy, b.l.o.o.d.y, soaked in scotch, sure as h.e.l.l didn't put them away. So they should be here, right? The laundry room. Waiting to be washed."

Thomas didn't answer right away. "My wife did nothing wrong," he said abruptly.

Nicky's turn to stare at him.

"Dr. Celik showed me the tox-screen results: .06. Below the legal limit. Meaning neither of us owes you answers or explanations. It was an accident. Plain and simple. Dark, rainy night. She drove off the road. End of the story."

"Like falling down the bas.e.m.e.nt stairs?"

"You saw the stairs."

"And stumbling off the front steps? Come on, Thomas. Just how clumsy can one woman be? Stairs, steps, driving a car. To hear you talk, your wife can't get anything right."

"Go away. We're done with you now."

"Fine. Then give us your rain jacket. And while you're at it, Nicky's clothes from that night and the tennis shoes she shouldn't have been wearing in the rain, and, oh yeah, the coat she didn't even bother to grab. Provide it all. Give us what we need to prove your accident. And maybe, just maybe, we'll leave you alone."

"I want to see it," Nicky spoke up suddenly.

The men stopped, stared at her. She was standing in the middle of the bas.e.m.e.nt, arms crossed defensively over her chest. She wasn't looking at the jacket or at any of them. She was looking at a spot at the base of the stairs.

The spot where she'd landed, Wyatt knew without asking. The site of her first accident, when her headaches and memory loss all began.

Thomas frowned. "What do you want to see?"

"The scene of the crash. I want to visit it. Maybe it will help me."

"Nicky, you have a concussion; you're under doctor's orders to take it easy-"

"I'm going."

"You'll get another headache-"

"I don't care."

"I do! This is exactly what they're trying to do, Nicky. Can't you see that? This whole visit, this farce . . . The police are trying to come between us. It's the only way they think they'll get answers."

"Maybe I want those answers, too."

"Nicky . . ." Thomas reached out a hand toward his wife.

"What are you afraid of? Tell me, Thomas. If our life is so d.a.m.n perfect, why can't the police have your rain jacket?"

Thomas didn't answer. Nicky shot him one last look, then turned and stalked up the stairs.

"All I've ever wanted," Thomas muttered, "was to keep her safe. Take the jacket, all right. Take whatever you want. Then leave us alone. We were better off without you. You have my word."

He headed up the stairs, chasing his wife.

Chapter 16.

THOMAS FOLLOWS ME up to my bedroom. I think he'll protest more. Maybe grab me by my shoulders, turn me roughly until I have no choice but to face him. Through sheer force of personality, he'll get his way. Do I want him to argue? Manhandle me physically? Pin me against his chest? Is this how our arguments usually end?

But he does nothing at all. Merely stands in the doorway as I pick out a pair of jeans, a heavier sweater, from the guest room closet.

Maybe he didn't come up to argue. Maybe he's simply waiting for me to hand over my stash of scotch.

I close the door in his face so I can change my clothes, finish my preparations. But when I open it two minutes later, Thomas is still waiting for me.

"Are you coming?" I ask curiously, having expected him to update his own wardrobe.

"No."

It brings me up short. Somehow, I'd been sure he'd ride along, if only to continue his role of protective husband.

"I need to work," he says.

"Seriously? Your job is that important?"

"This project is."

The detectives, Wyatt and Kevin, are waiting for us downstairs. I should get moving. But when I go to push pa.s.s my husband, he touches my arm, light enough, gentle enough, to draw me up short.

"Why?" he asks quietly. "I've certainly done everything in my power to help you. And still you have a secret supply of scotch?"

I don't say anything, just feel my heart accelerate in my chest. Shame, I think. Remorse. Guilt. Something else I can't quite figure out. I can't look him in the eye. I don't dare pull away. And I still don't volunteer to hand over my stash.

"If you can't dump it," Thomas continues, "at least tell me where it is. While you're gone, I'll take care of it."

"No."

"Nicky, for the love of G.o.d, I just got you out of the hospital-"

"It's all I have," I hear myself whisper, and I understand in that moment that it's true. I don't have family. I don't have friends. I don't remember my past; I don't know if I have a future. What I have is a h.o.a.rded treasure trove of tiny little bottles. No more, no less.

"You have your quilt," my husband says.

I frown at him, uncertain. He points to the daybed, where I notice the b.u.t.ter-yellow quilt has been folded neatly and placed at the end. Did he do that? Did I do that and already forget?

"You should take the quilt with you," Thomas tells me. "Maybe it'll bring you luck."

"I can't go on a ride along with two cops with a blanky. That's . . . ridiculous."

"Nicky."

The tone of his voice is serious. So serious I pause again, find myself studying him long and hard. A million images flash across my mind. Us laughing, us kissing, us racing across sandy beaches, us scaling rocky mountain cliffs. We lived. We loved. And once, it had been enough. I know all that, staring at him.

I'm sad, in a place way down deep that prior to now, I didn't even know existed. I'm going to lose him. Have known that for a while now. Perhaps even a better reason to h.o.a.rd secret bottles of scotch. Because for twenty-two years, this man has been my world. He's my sole companion, my best friend, my biggest burr of annoyance, and my largest source of solace. He's been my everything.

Except that kind of relationship isn't healthy. For either of us.

"Take the quilt with you," my husband murmurs. "The next few hours are going to be demanding. You might get tired, suffer another headache. The detectives will understand you having a blanket in case you need to rest."

He's already reaching for the quilt as he speaks. He presses the solid square in my arms, where I instinctively clutch it against my chest. I feel the softness of the familiar fabric against my fingers, inhale a scent that is both comforting and lonely.

I cried when this quilt came in the mail. Now I want to cry again.

"You have a picture of Vero," I hear myself say.

"No, I don't."

"Yes, you do. I found it in your closet."

My husband smiles, but it is sad, faint. "No," he repeats quietly. "I don't. Now, if you're really going to do this, time to go downstairs, get it done.

"Just remember," he says, as he moves me away from him. "The problem with asking questions is that you can't control all the answers. Life is like that. Especially for you and me."

THE DETECTIVES ARE clearly surprised that Thomas isn't joining us. They exchange glances but don't immediately say anything. Nor do they comment on the blanket I'm carrying under my arm. Apparently Thomas is right: A woman with a concussion can get away with most anything.

The younger detective-Kevin, the sergeant had called him-is holding Thomas's raincoat. Apparently, my husband agreed to part with it after all. So they could test sand. Funny, I'd never thought about it before, but in New England, there's a lot of roadside sand.

Except not in our driveway or in our backyard. Thomas had lied about that.

I place the folded quilt on one of the lower steps, open the hall closet, and reach automatically for my tan, flannel-lined barn jacket. Next I find my black clogs, because in the backcountry, with mucky roads and sidewalks, clogs are my shoes of choice. Not my tennis shoes. I can't imagine Wednesday night why I grabbed tennis shoes.

Because they were sitting right there and I had to get out fast.

The phone ringing.

h.e.l.lo, I said.

And then . . .

My head hurts. I rub my temples unconsciously. I should take more Advil. Or maybe serious painkillers. But I don't want to fog myself even more. I might be the one who ordered this little jaunt, but I'm also the one fatiguing fast. Thomas hadn't been wrong. I really do need to rest.

I reach into the closet for one last thing. Peg behind the door. It isn't there. I finger the spot again, and the older detective, Wyatt, catches the motion.