The One I've Loved 17 Discourage

" You still have this drawing book ?" she asked me in surprise .

That drawing book was given by her ,when I was a kid , so that I could draw in it as I used to draw in different papers and loose them .

I nodded and replied with a hmm .

She opened the book and turned pages , the starting pages of the book were either houses or mountains. As she kept turning the pages she saw sketches of dresses with models which I designed.

"The designs are beautiful, you never cease to amaze me , jess" she said looking at the book .

Thankyou , I replied with blush .

"You have to design my dresses in case you become a fashion designer in future ." she giggled.

" Sure , I will . " . Taking my book from her and Keeping it aside I continued ,"but only if I become a fashion designer , I don't think I'll choose fashion designing , not even in my dreams ."

"We never know what future holds for us , let's see what happens . " said Rachel .

Days pa.s.sed ,months pa.s.sed and so did the year . I've Been working hard since the day I decided my name to be in the top list . I still didn't get into the top list but I improved in my studies , from being a person who barely pa.s.sed in her exams to scoring 86% in final examination . I've gone through a lot .People talked behind my back , they didn't laugh at me but told me on my face that It would be impossible for me to score atleast 60% and advised me not to day dream .

Rachel and Cindy always encouraged me when people discouraged. they believed in me , that was more than enough for me ,other than Rachel not even a single person knew why I was so determined to get into the top list.

I never got a chance to talk to Austin alone in my ninth standard . It became difficult for me to see him as days pa.s.sed . One day I went to water purifier to fill my empty bottle as I was thirsty , as I was filling my bottle I saw him through window , the place where I went to fill my bottle was near to his cla.s.s and since that day I went to fill my bottle almost everyday. Even though I couldn't talk to him ,I always felt happy just by looking at him .Just one glance at him would make my day .

Nothing changed between Rachel and Justin , whenever they met , they always argued .

Looking at their behavior towards eacthother ,my aunt Helen , called me one day and said that she needed my help in bringing those two close to eachother . I said that I wouldn't help her to my reply she was little upset. I knew that she just wanted to help those two but Rachel never wanted Justin's mother force him to like her .

She would start staying away from him if she comes to know that my aunt is trying to scheme something to bring them close , she was aware that Justin doesn't have feel for her the way she feels for him .

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A ship never sinks because of the water around it , it only sinks because of the water that gets in it .

Just like I was discouraged by my own cla.s.smates ,people often get discouraged by their own people, when ever they try to do something new . They are always looked down , their own people talk behind their back or try to change their mind set . One must fumigate negative and toxic people in their life and move forward and do what they want .