Stranglehold. Part 8

She went back to the book. And now she too was just pretending.

He moved his hand down over her hip beyond the silk to the soft-hard flesh of her thigh. He squeezed gently. She looked up at him still smiling and glanced across the room to the baby sleeping soundlessly in his crib and then she marked and closed the book.

"Okay, what?" she whispered.

"What?"

"Yes, what?"

"This."

His hand moved over and around her thigh and up to her a.s.s and he cupped her cheek and pulled her toward him and kissed her, smelling her light perfume and his own fresh cologne. She put down the book and wrapped her arms around his neck so that he could feel her nipples hard already through the sheer jade silk. He slid the straps down over her shoulders and began to touch her, brushing the nipples side to side, up and down. She closed her eyes and moaned-and he thought of what he wanted to do.

He lay her down again across the cool white cotton sheets and pulled off the chemise and tossed it aside beside her and then spread her legs wide and moved his mouth down over her belly and down until his tongue was inside her, tasting how clean she always was there and smelling the cleanness too and then circling and crossing over the nub of her c.l.i.toris while his hands roved up over her thighs and belly to her b.r.e.a.s.t.s, his fingers mirroring on her erect swollen nipples the movements of his tongue.

He heard her moan and gasp and looked up over her pale body beginning to sheen with sweat while his tongue and fingers continued working on her, saw her toss her head again and again, back and forth, saw her clench her fists, her arms stretched wide.

"Come inside me," she whispered.

He shook his head. No.

He sucked and licked her and rolled the nipples, stroked lightly at their flat wide tips.

He felt her hips begin to buck and the body start to shudder and then she was bucking furiously, it was hard to stay with her when she got like this but he did until the fury of it was suddenly over and he knew that his fingers on her and his tongue were like slivers of gla.s.s which were punishing her, like fingernails on the blackboard of her body screeching throughout her nervous system, and he rolled away wiping at his slick chin. Relishing what was next.

"You now," she said.

Yes.

He entered her all at once and she gasped again. There was a sweet pain to this for her now, he knew. Each stroke would ignite pain and pleasure both.

He pulled out of her.

Her eyes flashed open. Almost a shock.

"Turn over," he said.

She looked at him, puzzled, but did as he asked.

He pulled her up to her hands and knees. He knew she was thinking that they had used this position only rarely because she didn't enjoy the angle of him inside her nearly as much as she did from the front. But the pleasure was his now. She wouldn't deny him.

"Press outward," he said.

"What?"

"You know. Like you're taking a s.h.i.t. Press outward." It was dawning on her.

They had done this only once and she'd hated it. "Arthur ...?"

She was worried now, looking at him over her shoulder. "Just now. Just this once."

"I don't ..."

"Come on."

"Do you have to?"

Her reluctance, her tone of voice made him even harder, bigger.

"Yes. But I'm dry now. Move up a little."

She lifted her b.u.t.tocks and he entered her v.a.g.i.n.a, stroked, stroked again, pulled out and shifted her down.

He went up her a.s.s slowly, gradually opening her. She groaned. It hurt. She wasn't saying anything but he could tell. He reached around in front of her to the softness of her swaying b.r.e.a.s.t.s and squeezed them and pressed them back into her chest and squeezed at the nipples which were still so sensitive that he knew that would hurt her too and still she said nothing, only gasped and groaned again saying ah, ah, ah, as he moved faster, feeling like he was f.u.c.king some warm, soft, loyal thing he owned who'd do anything he asked and more.

He came and rammed it into her deep and held it there a moment, then collapsed on top of her onto the bed. And still she only lay there breathing hard beneath him.

He pulled out and went to the bathroom. He stood in front of the sink.

There was blood and s.h.i.t on his p.e.n.i.s.

Streaks of red.

Safe s.e.x, he thought.

s.e.x with your wife. Who had had your kid.

It wasn't bad. Not bad at all.

He washed her off him.

He thought, h.e.l.l, it's a beginning.

Eight.

The Family of Arthur Danse

October 1987December 1993 There were problems but she had determined to make it work, to go the whole distance. There was a child to raise.

And Robert clearly loved his father. No question.

From the age of three on he was always looking for his daddy. When's daddy coming home? Can we go with daddy? In the spring of '89 Arthur contracted with his chef and a bottling firm in Concord to launch a line of the more unusual sauces and salad dressings from The Caves to be sold at retail tourist shops throughout the White Mountains ski resorts and along Lake Winnipesaukee-even places as far afield as Stowe, Vermont-so he began traveling a lot. Sometimes for a week at a time they wouldn't see him.

When they did Robert was thrilled.

There were always presents for one thing. Plastic superheroes from the cartoon shows, dinosaurs, comic books, storybooks, and board games, and as he got older, games for Nintendo and Sega Genesis.

Arthur was a very attentive father.

They went out to movies, out for pizza-sometimes just the two of them, father and son-worked on his homework together, played baseball, and even though she hated it, football. He tried to be around for as many school and after-school activities as possible. She appreciated that. He took Robert fishing and taught him how to ride a bike.

The actual hard business of raising a little boy was left largely to her, naturally. Setting the rules and making sure the rules were kept. She often felt uncomfortably like the bad guy. But she guessed that just went with the territory. And compared to a lot of other kids Robert was an easy child.

Robert wasn't the problem.

The problem was Arthur.

Over time he seemed to withdraw. They talked less and talked about less. He seemed moody, distant. Except in the bedroom.

But that was a problem too.

More and more he wanted s.e.x a.n.a.lly.

She hated the feeling. Hated it. Like having to go and not being able to go and having everything pushed up inside. It was easier for her to accommodate him now than it had been at first but that didn't make the act any less distasteful. It got so that she almost dreaded s.e.x with him. Not knowing if he'd be wanting that again tonight.

Tension and s.e.x were a bad mix.

She'd pretty much stopped having o.r.g.a.s.ms.

He didn't seem to mind. That hurt her too.

Once she'd simply refused him.

It was the kind of day where everything that could go wrong did go wrong, where the toilet broke down and getting a plumber in was h.e.l.l and waiting for him to arrive had completely skewed her afternoon to the extent that she had to ask Cindy, whose daughter Gail was in Robert's cla.s.s, to go pick him up after school and drop him off, and then Robert had one of his infrequent but black fits of pique because his Game Boy didn't work and they had no spare batteries around, like it was the end of the civilized world, and she practically shoved him out the door, ordering him to go out and play. Then she almost burned the lasagna. Rushing it.

So that night Arthur wanted to b.u.t.t-f.u.c.k. Jesus.

"No," she said.

"Why not?"

She was exhausted. "No, Arthur. Please. Not tonight."

"Why?"

"Because I don't want to."

"I want to."

"Arthur, another time, okay?"

It wasn't okay. He slammed out of the room, awakening five-year-old Robert, and then she had to explain to him why daddy was sleeping in the guest room that night.

Something about a cold and germs.

Arthur'd sulked and glowered for over a week. He would say almost nothing to her and what little he did say was usually nasty. He ignored Robert as thoroughly as possible. The boy could see that something was wrong. He gave his father an unusually wide berth. Almost as though Robert was suspicious of him now. Yet she could tell that the boy was hurt and felt rejected. Her heart ached for him. And it disturbed her that Arthur would take their problems out on their son, as though Robert were just another hostage to him.

It was like living with a small cruel boy who had the power to make both hers and Robert's life miserable at whim. And was perfectly willing to do so.

Eventually he went off on business for a few days and when he came back the incident seemed forgotten.

But she never refused him again.

It wasn't worth it.

She had Robert's piece of mind to think of too.

She didn't even refuse him the night he came home from Concord with his little black bag of toys.

He was grinning as he dumped them beside her on the bed.

"It's fantasy," he said. "It's about fantasy and trust, y'know? Something different. It'll be fun."

Fun for who? she thought.

But it was different, all right.

Four black leather handcuffs with silver rings attached, two for the wrists and two heavier, thicker ones, for the ankles.

Four lengths of slender silver chain.

Eight two-sided spring-clips for attaching the chains together.

And a small black braided leather whip.

"You're kidding," she said.

"Don't worry. I'm not going to hurt you."

"Oh no? Then what's the whip for?"

He laughed. "Say ... stimulation."

She pointed to the handcuffs. She could smell them. The new rich leather. The metallic smell of silver.

"You want me to put those on."